As I Watch You From Above
Chapter IV: Why Are You Lonely?
By: Black Demon Myst
I try to lessen my notes whenever I write poetry. Again, if I may explain, 'As I Watch You From Above' is something I do only in my spare time. I will accept no deadlines. (But hey, if I finish before or at your deadline, that's not so bad.) Also, I had a major hiatus in between writing this, so you might notice two different styles of writing.
--As I watch you from above,
I wonder about many things.
Why was I special to you?
Why did your face change when I first met you?
Why, when you looked at me,
Did you show both love and envy?
Why was my death such a grief to you?
These questions have yet to be answered.
Do you not find it ironic, that even after my death
Questions remain unanswered?
I ask them now, again
As I watch you from above.
As I watch you from above,
I wonder why I was so special to you.
There were many of my kind,
And yet you decided to befriend me.
And I thank you for that.
But we all looked the same!
Why was it you recognized me
Out of us all?
I was not the best in the group,
Not even the smartest.
And as I watch you from above,
This question remains in my head
When I flew to you,
It was because I could not follow the rest.
They said they were following a voice high in the mountains,
But I could fly no longer.
I came back, again and again, everyday,
And the rest of the flock would continue searching for the voice.
But I was content.
I didn't want to find the voice, for I was filled by looking just at your eyes.
When I looked at them, I saw myself;
My color, my innocence, and my helplessness.
But you know,
Your smile made me even happier.
When my death came, that smile disappeared
Caging the happiness I had experienced on Earth.
However, I can see that that smile of yours has resurrected,
Allowing my happiness to fly free once again
Just as you are now
As I watch you from above.
As I watch you from above,
I see you have found an older brother.
Does he take care of you?
Does he look after you just as I did?
Has he replaced the one who loved you so dearly,
Just because I can only watch you from above?
As I watch you from above,
I see one who takes care of you.
I'm sorry I couldn't do that, as well.
I tried, but failed.
I could not bring you food when you wanted it.
I could not comfort you whenever you were lonely.
I could not save you from sadness
On the day of my death.
I am, though glad for you.
You deserve someone like that.
Not just someone who watches you from above.
As I watch you from above,
I feel jealousy crawl within me.
Why are you no longer sad?
Have I been replaced?
Why is that monk so beautiful to you?
I have the same hair.
And, unlike him, I came to you every passing day.
You run after him.
You don't deserve someone as rude as he. Leave.
I don't understand.
Does he remind you of me?
Does he remind you of the one who watches from above?
As I watch you from above,
I wonder on why you looked so lonesome
On the day I found you.
But I am glad
That I never saw that face again.
At least not in my lifetime.
For as I watch you from above,
That was the only face I saw.
As I watch you from above,
I see you with three grown men.
Ever since you met those three,
That face of loneliness disappeared
Once again.
That man of green,
I see you love him much.
He gives you what you need,
And what you want.
The man of red,
I know you have much fun with him.
You two are like the closest of brothers.
The man of yellow,
I see little you can like of him.
Yet you do.
This I will never understand.
It is my biggest question I ask
As I watch you from above.
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I bet 'fly' just gave it away. It's the bird that visited Goku when he was still in the mountains.