Alright some one reviewed and had asked me what I went threw,

Well I guess I could try and tell you some parts of it.

Well it all started in the 9th grade that's when I first took a knife to my wrist.

See I couldn't take all of the screaming and yelling and beatings that were brought

Upon me so one day when I was left alone in my bath room I just started to cry.

I felts so used so lost so hurt and the only pain I could control was the pain I was

Conducting to my self. So I cut, I cut deep, and hard. From then on every time I would get hit or yelled at I would run off and sit in the bath room and mutilate my self.

See the knife didn't yell at me and it didn't call me names. All my mother ever seemed to do was hit me and yell at me. She called me names like "fat ass" "stupid bitch" oh and my favorite -- "little slut". No I'm not fat but she made me think I was so I stopped eating. No I'm not stupid but when she said that I felt like I was. No I'm not a slut I wear to many pairs of clothing on my body to be one.

Every day for the past 17 years my life has been like hell. Every time my father got home all they would do was hit each other and yell back and forth (my mom and dad) I look at them and it makes me sick. But there my family and even though they hurt me I just cant abandon them. Can I? I mean I sit there and watch them do there wrong doings. Yet I don't bother to do it. So I just walk away and sit in my bath room all alone, well just me and the knife. Yeah and today is my birth day and they still blaming me for every thing. I guess I was just a mistake........

Well that's only a little bit of what I have been threw well here's the story....

No I do not own the characters

Last time: Kagome could take it no more that's when she fell in to the well not knowing if she would break her neck on the hard ground or return to the other side......

This time:

Her eyes were closed tightly she was so afraid of what was to come.

Soon enough she felt the warm blue light surround her thin body (thin from not eating) she landed mentally on the ground. She opened her eyes slowly.

She sat there calmly. She tilted her head up to look at the beautiful

Blue sky. She then parted her soft pink lips and a soft sigh

Fell out of her mouth. She ran her pale thin fingers threw her soft blue-black hair that shined as the light glimmered down upon her head. For some one so sad and miserable she kept a fake smile upon her pale colored face. She slowly stood up and tried her hardest to clime out, since she's so weak. As she finally got out of the well she sat on the lip of the well.

He sat there silently as always his hands on his feather pen as he wrote down the names of the things he needed for the war that would surly come. He thought back in to the past, and she flickered through his mind yet again. His eyes were calm as always and the features on his pale face were the same. He was like a beautiful, emotionless statue sitting there in his wooden chair in a huge room all alone as always. Nothing had changed. He was once a demon with emotions though at first he hated them but when she was in his arms he would do nothing to stop them. Now she is gone and she had been gone for some time. He knew the real reason for her departure, even though she said that it was her fault that she pushed him away. He knew why and now there was nothing that he could do on his own, she would have to come back to him.

:Flash back:

there she sat on the stone bench that sesshomaru had made for her. She let her tiny hand rub her big belly and smiled over to sesshomaru. She then looked back down at her stomach and then back over to sesshomaru.

"Our child is going to be beautiful just like you sesshomaru" she smiled to him softly. "I believe our child shall look more like you, a beautiful living angle" he said in a soft voice. She smiled.

:End flash back:

He closed his eyes and sighed. She lost there child in a miscarriage and she never told sesshomaru. She just left him a note that said it was her fault and that she had buried there baby in his families cemetery. He knew that she hated her self for it and that she was ashamed. At first he hated her for not telling him he could have saved there child and she would have never had to go through the pain that she must have gone through. It killed him inside. He knew it must have killed her inside to. Losing something that was growing inside of you for about 8 to 9 months. Feeling all of that love that was inside of you gone all of a sudden. If he could have he would have stopped her from doing what she had done but it was not her fault that she had a miscarriage, it was never her fault and he would never dare to blame her for such a thing. There Childs grave is on top of a hill showered with flowers every where. The sky is always blue. And when it rains he knows she's crying for her child. Every time she cried it always seemed to rain. He stood up and walked out of the room.

As she sat there she touched her stomach, nothing was there. This time she didn't cry. She stood up the best she could and begin to walk toward the west. She didn't even know why she was walking toward his lands but she was and she couldn't stop her self. She just kept walking. After a while she got really tired. She felt as if she was going to fall apart right then and there.

She slowly sat down and then looked up at the sky. It was about mid day and it was becoming dark. What was she going to do she had not been out in the open woods for a long time now. She would surly be killed or worst raped and then killed. She started to panic but then calmed down when she saw a rather large whole in a rather large tree. She slowly climbed in side of the trees hole. She slowly looked around; there was nothing in the hole. Kagome slowly shut her eyes as she lay down inside of the tree and fell fast asleep.

in the morning kagome woke up she was surrounded by scrolls of paper and ink jars every where around this huge room. 'wait room' she thought. 'I wasn't in a room last night' "where am I" she softly spoke.

-End- (well till next chapter)

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Preview for next chapter: she sat there on the bed of the huge room surrounded by ink jars and scrolls. She couldn't understand what happebd this was not the place she was in last. What was going on. Some thing was wrong and she didn't know what.

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