Yeah, it's part three. Never thought I'd be writing this much, but I've enjoyed it. Thanks again to all the reviewers! It was hard coming up with a song for Jacks P.O.V but i compromised and i chose 'Trouble Sleeping' by 'The Perishers' it's a brilliant song and you'll know it if you have 'Music from the OC mix 2'. As usual enjoy!
Part Three
I'm having trouble sleeping
You're jumping in my bed
Twisting in my head
Leave me
It's nearly One and I'm all alone in a bar. How sad is that. It'd be funny if it wasn't true.
Will she ever want me back...? Does she still love me...? Of course not she has Martin he can make her happy, she told me so herself. Martin, he makes her happy and he doesn't make her cry. If I had the chance to start over I wouldn't have an affair not because it was wrong… but because I fell in love and nothing hurts more than loving someone you need, but can't be with for the rest of your life. I never once told her I loved her, well, I never said the words. I chose to say it in actions but they weren't loud enough.
I did love her, more so than I've ever loved my wife.
I'm having trouble breathing
You're sitting on my chest
I sure could use the rest
Leave me
That was it I didn't want to admit to myself that I could be in love with anyone other than my wife.
I would have to face up to the fact that my marriage was effectively over for me. I wanted to blame myself, that it was my fault that I ended my marriage but… it was over a long time ago.
Sam had nothing to do with that as much as my ex-wife wants to blame her, fate has a way of showing itself at the wrong time.
I do love her I wish I could tell her…
It's you
Why's it always you
And never me?
I've never dared to let
My feelings free
Why's it always you
And never me?
I've never cared
Too much about honesty
She's here. How did she find me? After today I figured she'd chosen Martin unless…
I put my hand on her lower back, something I always did like I was protecting her. "At One in the morning", I'm a little surprised she found me she must have tried my apartment first.
She looks sexy as always sat on the stool dressed in Black. I sit down next to her feeling anxious and like I need another drink. I ask the bartender for the same as her, Whiskey, I never thought of Sam as a Whiskey drinker, but she liked the hard stuff.
I had to know why she was here, in that moment of having my hand on her back, I knew what I wanted to hear, I realise how much I need her. I've got to tell her.
I'm having trouble sleeping
I'm thinking of what you said
About the tears been shed
Leave me
She takes a sip from her drink, I notice she's anxious too, that's it I'm gonna tell just what she means to me.
Damn, she's gotten there before…
Rescue me from what…
"I choose you Jack; you're all I want in my life"
Thank God I'm sitting down. I don't know what I'm feeling I just want to touch her to make sure she's real and I haven't drunk too much. I want her so badly.
I need to see her face which is hiding behind her beautiful blonde hair so I move the few strands behind her ears, I accidentally graze her cheek and a sensation rides thru me... a desire building up in my heart.
I reach for her hand tenderly caressing the glass, and she turns to look at me, I love you.
"Sam…" she's scared.
"You're place or mine?"
It doesn't matter as long as we're together. "You choose"
I watch her beautiful form rise off the bar stool and when she entwines our fingers and gently pulls me… I know I'm hers tonite.
There's definitely one more part maybe two I'll try and update a.s.a.p. I hope you've all enjoyed so far. Please keep reviewing.