An Inuyasha Christmas
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha.
Pairings: InuKag, SessSan.
Part 2
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While Sango and Sesshoumaru were gone, Kagome and Inuyasha ganged up on Miroku while a confused Koharu watched.
"How could you say such a heartless thing to her!?" Kagome cried, glaring at him. "How could you tell her that you didn't love her that way? I thought you said you did!"
"Kagome, you do not understand..."
"Don't tell me I don't understand! She was nothing but a good grope to you, isn't that it?" The girl's eyes held such malice...
"You have it all wrong!"
"Those words came straight from her mouth, houshi!" Inuyasha intervened, his voice raising and anger seeping into mind. His ears suddenly flattened against his head and Miroku knew he was in trouble if he didn't explain.
"Uh, Koharu? Would you like to meet me outside? I have a little something to take care of." The confused girl nodded and then left. The houshi sighed. "Now, you two, sit down and let me explain." They sat down but were glaring at him in distrust the entire time. "I love Sango with all of my heart and that is why I chose not to be with her."
"Don't you feed me the shit about not being good enough for her! She loved you, dammit!" The hanyou grabbed Miroku's purple robes and jerked him forward. "She was trying not to cry when she told me. You are such an asshole! You couldn't even notice that you ruined what could have been a good thing! You should have been there. You should've seen the look in her eyes."
"But I was not, was I, Inuyasha? I saw that look before and I know what it does!" Miroku fought back. He looked furious. "I cannot be with her! She does not deserve me!"
"Then what was with that look when Sesshoumaru kissed her?" Kagome suddenly asked, her voice quiet. "You went as stiff as a board and had the worst poker face that I have ever had the pleasure of seeing." Inuyasha pushed him back against the wall and let go of him.
"You're fucking jealous. You have no right to be jealous when you're the one who pushed her away." The hanyou was downright pissed. He was in his blackest of moods.
"I know what I did was wrong. I led her on. I let her believe that she could have been... with me." Miroku sighed softly. "I know I do not have the right anymore but I cannot help it."
"Then you need to get a clue, bastard. She ain't gonna bend to your whim anymore. She knows she can move on."
"Inuyasha, do you never get jealous? Do you think I have any control over it?"
"I know you don't have control. That's why you should leave her alone."
"What are you saying?"
"You should move on and forget you ever had feelings for her. Stop groping her and let her move on, too."
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Sango kneeled in the snow in a daze. She still could not believe that Sesshoumaru had kissed her. And that it had been that gentle. She had never felt like that before.
My heart was racing... and his lips were so soft... so warm...
She closed her eyes and fell back, letting her fingers trace her lips.
Could this be a dream...? Why do I feel this way? Am I... hooked from one simple kiss?
She knew it was different. She knew it was deeper than that. It was love. She had been curious about him in the beginning; intrigued with his coldness, his beauty. She had always suspected something different about him. She was not afraid of him. She was only aware that there was no way that such a cold creature like him could have kissed her that gingerly. She opened her eyes and sat up when something nudged her. She looked down to see Kirara.
"I believe... I have found something more..." But she was afraid. What if he rejected her, like Miroku did?
I cannot handle a second one.
"Mew." Kirara nudged her again urgently. Then the neko hopped around her in the snow, mewing. Sango laughed and stood up, chasing her, knowing exactly what she wanted. She then jumped and grabbed the small youkai as she fell to the ground in the snow.
"I got you, Kirara!" She said, laughing. She looked down at the little neko in her hands to see white snow gracing the cream-colored fur along her tiny body. Her twin tails waved in excitement and her bright ruby eyes blinked curiously at her. Sango then stood with her youkai friend in her arms and brushed the snow from her black ears and little nose. The neko purred and moved her head against her mistress's hand, loving the soft touch. Then, with a beautiful smile, Sango began her trek back to the village.
Somehow, I think everything will be all right.
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Sesshoumaru sat in a tree, far from the village, far from the taiji-ya, and far from his brother. He was staring intently at the sky, his thoughts racing.
Damn that miko for bringing mistletoe and its properties here. Though, I did let myself go when I kissed her... It is my fault for being so curious.
But he couldn't help thinking about the lovely taiji-ya. The look on her face after she had chased him haunted his mind.
She did not look that shocked. But she seemed in a daze.
He shook his head. He would not lie to himself and say that he was not getting attached to any humans. One already made that a lie. Little Rin. He cared for her like a father did for his daughter. He could clearly see, therefore he was not blind to it, that she held a lot of affection for him. He closed his eyes. She seemed to like Sango a lot and vice versa. The way Sango looked at Rin... It was like she was sad about something. He was curious again.
I hate being so curious about things. I really wish I did not care for anything.
But, he knew, that was a lie, as well. Sighing, he opened his eyes again.
"I can never win."
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Sango entered the hut, humming a soft tune, Kirara perched on her head. She looked around to see everyone staring at her. Kagome, Inuyasha, and Miroku. She gave them a bright grin.
"What are you just sitting around for? You guys are no fun. Have you seen Rin-chan and Shippou-chan?" They shook their heads and she frowned then rolled her eyes. "Well, then, Kirara, let us go find them." She gave them each a glance. "Are you gonna come?"
"What the hell got into you?" Inuyasha asked, raising a brow at her behavior.
"Oh, Kirara just wanted to have fun and I'm not ready to stop yet." She stated cheerfully. "But I will have to stay up late to finish Rin-chan's present. You have to finish some, too, right Kagome?" The girl nodded. "Then we can do that together later. Anyway, are you guys gonna come out and have some fun?"
"I'm all for it!" Kagome said with a grin. She loved the good cheer that was radiating from Sango. Miroku hid his face in his bangs, composing himself before standing up and grinning.
"I will have to try your type of fun, then." Sango then looked at Inuyasha.
"Do not make me drag you outside and bury you in the snow."
"Feh. Try all you want." The taiji-ya walked behind him and grabbed onto the back of his shirt then began pulling him out the door. "Hey! Lemme go! Sango! Wench!" He suddenly winced. She had jerked him forward, causing him to nearly choke and he just gave up. At least she didn't grab his ears and drag him by those. Kagome and Miroku followed behind.
"Sango-chan!" Rin's cheerful voice caught their attention. "Come and play in the snow with us!"
"You bet!" The taiji-ya let go of Inuyasha's shirt and ran forward, a bright smile on her face. She had a good feeling. She was in love and it was Christmas time. Even if he didn't love her back, she still loved the feeling. She also discovered that she had not felt too strongly for Miroku.
As they say, it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.
She giggled at her thoughts. She just felt so wonderful.
I cannot even begin to imagine the feeling I would have if he returned my feelings.
Sango and Sesshoumaru were not complete strangers. They had talked before, worked side-by-side, defeated Naraku together. All of them. Inuyasha, Kagome, Miroku, herself, and Sesshoumaru. Kagura had managed to escape death and was living by herself somewhere. But Kohaku... he had not made it.
I just can't grieve for him. He is at peace now.
She and Rin dropped back in the snow and made snow angels, laughing.
This is all I need... I just don't ever want to be alone again.
And she knew she wouldn't.
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"So, why were you so happy when you got back from chasing Sesshoumaru?" Kagome finally got the question out, after a half-hour of talking with the taiji-ya and doing the remaining touches on their unfinished projects.
"He just stopped and looked at me then left. I was thinking, though. Kirara found me and I was just incredibly happy." Sango was concentrating on finishing Rin's kimono. But Kagome noticed that her movements were not hurried. She was doing wonderful work on it. It made Kagome's first works look pathetic.
"Do you... love him?" The girl asked, her hand finding its way to her stomach. Sango was silent for a while, thinking of a way to answer. Then she flushed pink and nodded.
"I have never felt this wonderful in all my life, Kagome. It is such a wonderful feeling." Kagome blinked. She had barely expected that answer. "It doesn't even matter if he doesn't like me back... I just... want to hold onto this feeling forever."
"You know, you looked dazed after that kiss. How was it? Is he a good kisser?" Sango nodded vigorously.
"Like you wouldn't believe!" They let out small squeals of excitement then laughed. "But I still cannot believe that you are pregnant, Kagome. How does it feel so far?"
"Well, I could go without morning sickness and I thank whoever is watching over me when I don't have it. Other than that, it isn't as bad as people make it seem." She answered with a grin. "Yet." Then something popped up in her mind and basically slapped her in the face.
Of course she would ask something like that... Poor Sango. She still misses Kohaku.
"How are you holding up?" Sango raised her gaze to meet her friend's.
"I will be fine soon, Kagome. Kohaku just... he was just like Rin around this time of year. So innocent and carefree..."
"I-I'm sorry we couldn't save him."
"No, this is what he wanted. To no longer be controlled; to be free from the prison that had disturbed his peace." She allowed herself to sigh softly before shaking her head and continuing on with her work.
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Sesshoumaru was laying on top of Sango's home, staring up at the sky. All was dark and quiet, save for the sounds of night from the shadows. A few stars dotted the sky and the moon was nothing but a small crescent. He suddenly heard sounds from below, inside where the taiji-ya was sleeping. With unchallenged grace, he soundlessly jumped from the roof and looked inside. He couldn't see much so he quietly went in and looked around to see her fast asleep, softly protesting in her dreams.
"Kohaku... No, not him... Not Sesshoumaru!" She rolled over to face the Taiyoukai and he could see glistening tears slowly working their way down her face. Suddenly, something went off in his mind.
Kohaku? I have heard that name before. He is her younger sibling, I believe... He was controlled by Naraku but he is dead. And... why is she dreaming of me?
He suddenly thought of something. But, however, before he could even move, Sango shot upward with a silent scream. She then put her hand over her mouth and drew her knees upward. He wanted to leave without getting caught but she looked over and he fell into a daze as he stared into her eyes. They were like dark, swirling voids of pain, betrayal, and agony.
"Sesshoumaru?" He walked forward, having experienced this with Rin. The little girl would always run to him and cry into his chest after a nightmare. He sat down next to her and watched as she stared at him uneasily. The next thing he knew, she was crawling into his lap and wrapping her arms around him, resting her head in the crook of his neck. "Thank you." She whispered softly. He merely wrapped his arms around her and allowed her to fall asleep in his arms. As soon as her breathing slowed and he was certain she was asleep, he untangled himself from her and set her in her bed, covering her. Then he left as quietly as he could.
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Inuyasha felt uneasy. Especially after he heard the girls' conversation. His brother was the worst person to be in love with. At least he believed that it was true.
I don't understand why Sango even likes him. He's... well, he's Sesshoumaru, the coldest ruler I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. That's reason enough. What does she see in him?
Alas, the hanyou failed to come up with anything. He looked over at the taiji-ya as she played games with Rin and Shippou and Kirara. He then felt someone's presence next to him.
"You're pulling her in deeper than you should." Sesshoumaru's icy gaze narrowed at his brother. "End whatever damn game you're playing now while she has the chance to be happy." Inuyasha knew his brother wasn't stupid. He could feel Sango's feelings well enough if he wanted to.
"Do not interfere with my affairs, little brother." The hanyou snarled at him.
"She's my friend, if you didn't know. I care about her. More than you do, if you do. Let it go before you end up hurting her more. She's had enough heartbreak." The Taiyoukai was not happy at the choice of words.
"You should withdraw your nose from things you do not understand."
"Oh, I don't understand that she's suddenly falling for you? What the hell are you doing, Sesshoumaru? Just who the hell do you believe you are?"
"Inuyasha, my patience is fading and this conversation is going nowhere." Sango caught sight of them and shooed the children and her neko out to play somewhere else. Then she wandered over.
"I don't give a damn. You've played enough! You've had your fun. Now stop it!" The taiji-ya blinked.
"Uh... Am I interrupting anything?" The two looked at her and each shook their head. She smiled cheerfully. "Then you do not mind if I steal Sesshoumaru for a minute or two, would you, Inuyasha?" The Taiyoukai blinked.
"Feh. Take your time for all I care." Inuyasha snapped and walked away. Sango watched him leave with a concerned look on her face.
"Did you have another fight?" She asked quietly.
"What does it matter?" He asked, his voice cold. She smiled sadly.
"You don't realize how lucky you are to even have part of a family left. Please, if you could, try to believe me. I knew it and Kohaku and I were close. And then, one day, it was gone. That should never happen to anyone. I don't want it to happen to you two." She whispered. He stared at her.
"What was your nightmare about?" He asked, frowning at her. She stared at him. "You were talking about your brother..." He watched as she froze and her eyes widened. "And you mentioned me."
"O-Oh... Y-You heard all that?" He nodded.
"And my little brother is bothered by our being close to one another." He continued.
"Is that what you were fighting about?"
"Yes, it was. Though it was hardly a fight..." He smirked. "He thinks he knows me."
"Sesshoumaru..." Sango looked down at the ground. "I don't want to cause you both problems... but how much did Inuyasha know?"
"He stated something along the lines of you falling for me, I believe it was." She stared at him in horror. Her face flushed red. "Is this true?" She felt her heart race. Her lithe frame trembled.
"I-I..." She knew she couldn't lie to him but she would rather be in love with Miroku and have him groping her than to see the look in the Taiyoukai's eyes if she admitted it.
I was so foolish. I should have known something like this would happen!
She backed up and turned around, running from him. He frowned.
Where does she believe she is going?
He gracefully jumped in her path and grabbed her wrist in his vice-like grip. She struggled to get free.
"Stop it, taiji-ya." She looked up at him. "Are you afraid to admit something to me?" He gazed at her calmly. Miroku saw the two and wanted to interfere but he had to hear this for himself. Sesshoumaru was too preoccupied to notice him. She looked away from him, to his hand gripping her wrist. "Sango." She stiffened when she felt his free hand come up to her face, gently forcing her to look at him. His amber eyes... Oh, how she loved the color of them.
"Sesshoumaru." She stated. He smirked at her.
"Well? Are you going to answer me?" He was playing, she realized. He knew something. She bit her lip.
I think he wants me to admit it so that he knows... the truth. But... don't youkai sense that kind of thing?
"Are you afraid, Sango? Afraid of me?"
"No, not of you..." She shook her head. He raised a brow.
"Then what is it?" He would stand there all day. He didn't care. "Was what Inuyasha said true? That you are falling for me?"
"Don't you know?" She asked, staring at him with fire in her eyes. "You can sense these things, can't you?" He nodded.
"Indeed."
"The why do you want me to say it? So you can turn me down right now? I am sorry, Sesshoumaru. But I do not wish to do any such thing."
"Perhaps this could be a test, Sango? To see if you were able to be truthful, no matter how much it embarrassed or hurt you?" He suggested quietly. She stared up at him. She hadn't thought of that. There was a long silence before he spoke again. "Are you falling for me, as my little brother asked?" She was quiet, thinking. Then she sighed.
"Yes..." She admitted softly. "I am... falling in love with you." She looked away the instant she said it, wanting only to crawl under a rock and stay there.
"Will you tell me why?" His voice was quiet and soft, almost comforting.
"No person that is as cold as you claim to be and hates humans as you say you do, can love a little human child as much as we know you do." She stared at the ground. "And... that kiss was far too gentle for someone like you." He pulled her gaze to meet his and she saw his smirk.
"That is all I wanted to know. Thank you, Sango, for answering honestly." She felt humiliated. She wanted to lay down and cry. She knew he did not feel anything for her. And it hadn't mattered before because he wouldn't turn her down if he didn't know. But now... She was caught by surprise when he leaned down and kissed her. His lips softly pressed against hers and she closed her eyes, responding to him. He let go of her wrist in favor of holding her around her waist and bringing her closer. She then put her arms around his neck, her fingers playing with his silky silver hair. He pulled away and looked down at her.
"D-Do you like me, then?" She asked shyly.
"Like you? No." He shook his head. "I am thinking that I am, as my brother puts it, falling for you." She then buried her face in his chest and smiled.
Everything was going to be all right, she hoped.
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