A Haunting from my Demons
...And one angel...
He screamed in pain. His unconscious state was filled with pain and his waking moments were in even more. His body was reacting to every single touch. The IV in his arm making him be hydrated, though he was constantly throwing up nothing but bile when he was awake, his body seemingly dying...
A fever ravaged his body, as he had to be iced down some times and have alcohol baths at times to keep his temperature the same. It was about 103.5 degrees, and raising slowly but steadily.
The more chemicals and medication they pushed into his blood stream made his body react even more than he could stand, though he seemingly wouldn't die. He had developed pneumonia in his lungs and he had to be restrained from the thrashing he did while in his fever-ridden nightmares that deluded him from reality and fantasy.
Was there anything to stop his pain?
Something...anything...the wave washing over him, dragging him under. Drowning him with nothing but the pain, both mental and physical. He was unable to protect her. It was his fault. The thought of living was too painful, but then...who would save her from danger? He didn't trust the other Gundam baka's, Duo. The others wouldn't be as helpful to her...
It was him in danger now, for he had something that could save Relena. He couldn't live to see her in pain. But who was going to save the protector? He had saved her, once to many times maybe. Did it matter to him?
No, it was worth it all the time.
That brief second drew his thoughts away from the blinding pain rushing through his every being and then, he was brought back to it, full force as he dealt with what he had not experienced...
Relena stared at him with fear as tears fell down her eyes. 'That would be me if they didn't do something to my blood.... Why?' She looked up to the ceiling in a pleading way as Heero's breathing turned erratic and his heart beat on the EEG displayed the erratic movements and did the wires on his chest. He looked like a robot connected to all those machines. The beeping of the machines went loud as doctors rushed in to try and help their patient.
He had been given constant round the clock watching and monitoring as his temperature was soaring higher and higher, more chemicals pushed into his blood stream, killing his system even more like poison. Sally tried to get reason into them, telling them that it wasn't helping and it was making it worse.
Lady Une was coming as fast as she could when she heard the news about Heero being in the hospital. Her best Preventer couldn't and wouldn't die while she was around.
'Why? God? Why him!' She cried, tears renewed by this thought streaming and coursing down her defined cheeks, red like her eyes from crying herself to sleep sometimes.
He screamed in pain. His unconscious state was filled with pain and his waking moments were in even more. His body was reacting to every single touch. The IV in his arm making him be hydrated, though he was constantly throwing up nothing but bile when he was awake, his body seemingly dying...
A fever ravaged his body, as he had to be iced down some times and have alcohol baths at times to keep his temperature the same. It was about 103.5 degrees, and raising slowly but steadily.
The more chemicals and medication they pushed into his blood stream made his body react even more than he could stand, though he seemingly wouldn't die. He had developed pneumonia in his lungs and he had to be restrained from the thrashing he did while in his fever-ridden nightmares that deluded him from reality and fantasy.
Was there anything to stop his pain?
Relena stared at him with fear as tears fell down her eyes. 'That would be me if they didn't do something to my blood.... Why?' She looked up to the ceiling in a pleading way as Heero's breathing turned erratic and his heart beat on the EEG displayed the erratic movements and did the wires on his chest. He looked like a robot connected to all those machines. The beeping of the machines was loud as doctors rushed in to try and help their patient.
He had been given constant round the clock watching and monitoring as his temperature was soaring higher and higher, more chemicals pushed into his blood stream, killing his system even more like poison. Sally tried to get reason into them, telling them that it wasn't helping and it was making it worse.
Lady Une was coming as fast as she could when she heard the news about Heero being in the hospital. Her best Preventer couldn't and wouldn't die while she was around.
'Why? God? Why him!' She cried, tears renewed by this thought streaming and coursing down her defined cheeks, red like her eyes from crying herself to sleep sometimes.
"What is going on?!" Une shouted, rushing into the room to find the doctors swarming around Heero who was thrashing wildly on the slightly padded observation bed he was restrained on.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface. Consuming. Confusing.
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending.
Controlling: how I can't seem
To find myself again, my walls are closing in.
Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that it's just too much pressure to take.
I've felt this way before: so insecure!
Crawling in my skin,
These wounds they will not heal!
Fear is how I fall,
Confusing what is real!
The other Gundam pilots, whom were also working with the Preventers rushed in just as Heero let out an excruciating cry of pain. His head fell to the side, away from the doctors who were pushing more chemicals into his blood stream.
A tear fell from his cheek. Not from the pain, but from his eyes being so tightly shut together. Waves of pain washed over him, threatening to consume him whole and take him plummeting with them to hell.
His breathing got heavier and labored as sweat formed more than it already had on his body. He wore his black spandex shorts, his threadbare green tank top laying discarded elsewhere and away from the room.
The doctors were rushing around, trying to help the boy in immense pain.
"What's going on?" Duo shouted loudly, wanting an answer while looking through the glass at his buddy, who was far too pale for anyone's liking.
"They drugged him." Relena said, shuddering involuntary at the pain she remembered. It hadn't been this bad for her...what made her so different?
Trowa was quiet, too quiet. He reached for the medical report, letting the others read over his shoulder as he took in everything that was going on in the current situation.
His heartbeat was over what it should be, after being strained. He was in constant pain, even in an unconscious state. His temperature was sky rocketing and raising higher and higher. His body was becoming dehydrated. His body wouldn't hold much longer that was for certain! If his body breached any higher than 108, then he would be brain dead!
"They are straining his body too much with all the chemicals that they are pushing into his blood stream." Wufei said solemnly as he took this into note.
"Yeah..." Quatre said with a worried tone in his voice. Who wouldn't be at a time like this? If Heero was crying out in pain, then it must be bad.
Relena felt lightheaded as she fell into a chair. Something didn't feel right. Her vision started to get blurry as she tried taking deep breaths, which earned her stares from the others.
"Miss Relena?" Une asked with worry. Her eyes opened wide with terror. "Did they give her the same drugs?" She rushed over to find out if they had and she faintly nodded her throbbing head, sending another rush of pain to it.
Quatre rushed over and put his hand to her forehead, feeling how she was slightly warm to the touch. His eyes opened a little wider as he called for a doctor to take her to a bed. They dragged her off and Une went over to see how Heero was holding up before visiting Relena.
He hadn't said a word, being in too much pain to mumble even the slightest thing but moan. She walked into the room, a heavy burden entering her chest as she looked at the pale, actually silent figure.
She walked over and took a chair by his side, grasping his hot hand in her more cold hand. His eyes slowly opened as Une gasped, he didn't cry out in pain. His eyes looked at her slowly.
He looked exhausted as he shuffled for something. "Don't move! You need all your strength to fight this!" She said, though he pulled out a vial of red liquid.
His crackled lips opened as he managed to mumble to her. "Save...Relena...andti—" He wasn't even able to finish as he gasped as a wave of pain hit him, not even sparing him for five minutes to tell her to save Relena. The pain was too much. He let the vial fall into Une's hands before it fell to the floor.
His breathing came in short ragged breaths as he closed his eyes while trying to take in air though his lungs wouldn't function for him. His heart was pounding in his chest, an unknown liquid that drugged him pushing its way through his veins.
His heartbeat slowed down after five heartbeats in less than two seconds soon...his breathing becoming less and less... The machines were giving off warning signals as its patient's statistics were dropping too fast for a normal, or even the perfect soldier's body, to take.
"Heero!" The alarms inside the room went off as doctors rushed in, checking the monitors and then hooking up more devices, a frantic worried look that was obvious in their eyes.
They ushered Une out of the room, she was dumbstruck with what Heero had done. She was about to head for Relena's room but a doctor stopped her with sad news.
"It seems that our patient, Heero Yuy, he has entered a coma." He said, "We aren't sure when he will wake up, or if he will. His body is pushed to the extreme with whatever is doing this, thus causing him...extreme pain." He left, leaving her for the news to sink in as he went to go and get some much-needed coffee.
Une walked like a robot to the room Relena was housed in, unaware of her movements. She opened the door and the other four Gundam pilots greeted her with happier faces. Relena was definitely in less pain than Heero, which was good.
"He's in a coma." She said, still holding the vial as a tear slipped through her eyes. 'How can this happen?' Her mind berated herself as many adults did when something happened that was inevitable. 'What would you do Mr. Trieze?' She though with a worried look as she let a few tears slip in the mention of the name.
"What?!" They all exclaimed, their eyes widened in shock as it sunk it.
Relena's eyes flashed open as waves of pain hit her full force. She gritted her teeth and let out a strangled cry through the sheets she clenched so tightly her knuckles were white.
"Relena!" Duo shouted, frantic as he spun around on his heels to face the sickly teenager.
Une fumbled around with something and walked over hurriedly to Relena who looked at her with pain-filled eyes. She held the crimson-filled syringe and injected it into her upper arm, Relena's eyes softening a bit as she let her head fall to the side, in a deep, deep sleep.
"Heero?" Relena called into the swirling fog shrouding her small form in the dark place where she was. "Heero? I know that you are there." She said with confidence, having the feeling that nothing could touch her when he was around. It was weak this time, but it was nonetheless still there.
"I'm not...." His faint voice was distantly heard.
"Yes, if I am here, then you are." She said, getting the same reply that sounded like a broken record repeating.
A figure appeared before her, not Heero, but a little girl with a dog.
"Who are you?" Relena asked, still letting her eyes trail around for a bit to look for the young boy she had fallen in love with too many times.
The girl shook her head. "He's not here." Relena snapped her head back to look at the young girl with almost a glare set on her face.
"He gave you the antidote. He's lost now, somewhere where not even I can reach him." The girl said sadly, the dog looking like the girl with a long expression.
"Who are you?"
"Someone who he believes should be avenged. Guilt lead to this and the pain from having to undergo...training again." She said sadly. "I am nothing but a shadow that thrives from his memories, though I can change the appearance of myself to better suit...how one would look after what had happened. Mary still has some difficulties."
"I don't understand."
"I didn't expect you too, for this is something that involves him, and me, your part hasn't entered until you met him."
"You talk much wiser than you appear."
"One only speaks from what little experience one can built upon. There is life, then there is death. One such as myself won't be permitted into neither without passing a danger threshold that would hurt others, even their psyche."
"So," She spoke slowly, trying to comprehend the long speech the little grl had given her. "You are a ghost." The girl shook her head, denying this.
"No," She said tenderly. "I am nothing but a memory fueled by the fact that he won't give up on me. He will avenge my death." She said sadly.
"Who killed you?" She noticed the girl lowered her head.
"He did. He will do anything to make sure that the promise he made to himself is fulfilled after his purpose is done: he promised vengeance for their deaths. He's going to claim his own, until you came along and gave him light."
Relena didn't say anything.
"You have to wake up. Please, save him from the nightmares he can't rid himself of. Tell him that it will be all right, listen to his pain. See his tormented soul..." The girl whispered, dissipating into the fog as Relena shouted for her to come back, trying to force herself awake to the world of reality.
"What did you do?" Trowa asked, the question in his eyes sharply, though he said it calmly enough through his masked face. Such like the mask he wears for the circus.
"Heero gave me something to give her." Une said sadly, "He said it was the antidote."
"The antidote?!" Duo screamed. "He was willing to—"
"He was willing to let himself die to be sure Relena would live. He finds her life of more importance than his own." Trowa said, a small hint of sadness weaving into his normal emotionless voice.
Une looked at Relena sadly but then perked up when she heard Relena move in the bed, sharply as her eyes flashed open with fear in them. She jerked upright.
"Relena!" Wufei looked at the sudden outburst of Sally, who had walked into the room to notice that the young girl was awake and not in pain. In fact, she looked perfectly fine and all the monitors said so and nothing poisoning was in her bloodstream, not even the drug in her body. It had vanished.
"Where is Heero?" She asked, breathlessly as she jerked the IV out of her arm, feeling the rivulets of blood pool from the cuts from it. She didn't care; right now that was nothing compared to what she was feeling at the moment.
Sally looked at her with a depressed look in her eyes. "Relena," She started. "Heero...the pain was just to much for him, he's entered a coma." She said depressingly. "We don't know when he will wake up. If he does, or how long he will last with the drug still in his system." The pain was clearly seen through her light blue eyes. She seemed to have a close tie with the young boy, who she had so long admired and though of, closer than a friend sometimes.
"No..." Relena said, looking at the emptied syringe and knew it was no "dream" that she had. She jumped out of bed, rushing off to where Heero was still in the critical care unit.
Doctors were rushing in and out of his room in a frantic. A doctor stopped in front of her. "He's awake, he seemed to drift into a deep unconscious state, but now...he's awake." He said breathlessly.
Relena's eyes brightened up. 'Of course he wouldn't give in so easily and succumb to something lesser than him.' She thought happily.
"There's more to this then what it may seem, Relena." A voice said to her as she whirled around to come face to face with her old brother, Zechs.
"And what do you mean by that, ZECHS?" Relena snarled deeply to her brother, 'How dare he think such a thing! Heero will be all right! Know he will be.'
"I mean that maybe there is some purpose to all that has happened, did you think of that?" Milliardo questioned his little sister, not knowing that she was in a life or death matter and that Heero Yuy had saved her over his own life. "Why did hat organization want you and Yuy?"
"I don't know." Relena said, trying to get what he was hinting at. "I think it had something to do with UESN." She told him in a not at all hushed manner.
"Well, maybe they wanted Yuy and you out of the picture, forever that is."
"Milliardo, don't give me that crap!" Relena shouted at him through tears. "Heero saved my life over his." She told him sadly as she continued walking towards where Heero was currently housed.
"What is she talking about, Noin?" Milliardo questioned with worry. "Save her life? Did something happen that I wasn't informed of?"
"Yes, Zechs." Noin told him as she pulled him away from the group to explain what had happened in a hushed manner. "Zechs, they gave the same drugs that Heero got to Relena." A frown came from Zechs and she could tell his anger was growing. "Listen, he gave her the antidote!"
"What?" He was dumbstruck.
"He gave her the antidote. He chose her life over his. He saved her, Zechs." Noin told him, letting the words sink in, "He saved her when he could have helped himself." She told him. She then looked away. "He was in so much pain, the others couldn't believe it." She told him. "If Relena even got the same magnitude as what Heero got, she would be dead in less than five minutes."
"Where is he?" Milliardo questioned as he followed the others off to Heero Yuy's room.
He opened the door and followed the others into an observation room and looked down to see a struggling young teenager, scream for them to let him go and to take off the restraints.
Relena yelped at the sight of this and almost ran into a doctor. "Listen!" The doctor said to them. "He was given a very strong drug that has yet to be made. It has a very bad...effect on the mind!" The doctor warned them. "Currently, he's highly unstable in this state of psychosis." The doctor told them sadly.
"Psychosis?"
"He thinks that he's drenched in blood. We let him go, but when he woke up...he tried tearing off his skin to get it off of him and he screamed. He was fighting the drug and gripping his head for about twenty minutes, but his struggle soon declines rapidly."
The others stood there, gaping as they let this all sink in.
"No!" Heero shouted trying to break free as Relena got a good glimpse at his reddened skin with scratch marks. "Get it off! No, please! God no!" He shouted as he struggled even more.
A choked sob came from his body as only a name was uttered when he finally calmed down, "Relena..." Then, after so many years of not shedding a tear, the great Heero Yuy cried for Relena.
He had thought she had died. And he wanted to die with her.
Author's note:
Well, what do y'all think, eh? This is my little Halloween gift to all of you and I'll update every story with at least one chapter as a little gift to y'all before Halloween strikes 12 (that would be the day after Halloween I guess then...). Learning about drugs and alcohol in Health so I'll be adding a lot of medical terms most likely.
Kind of really depressing and all and I'm sorry for the long wait. Really, really sorry about that. Any ways, I love reviews as y'all know and I wish all of you a very happy Halloween and Mischief night! Red Tail