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Disclaimer- not much is mine..... the story but not the characters.
A/N- 2nd CHAPTER !!!!! wheeeeeeee !!!! XD I'm so happy ! and..... MEGA THX to my first reviewer; MELAMINESTEL !!!! I love you :) :) !!!! You get to get the super-giga-cool gift due to my first reviewer ever :) ! here it iiiiis...... SMOOOOOOCH .... :) there..... what ? you weren't lounging for that ? ... errr well sorry....well, anyway. thanks :) (and my writing is still a lot clumsy, I guess that's why people swear when they talk and not when they speak ...... excuses excuses......)
Thanks to Riverxgirl toooooo !!!! :) you won't get smooched, but thxxxx !!! comments make me feel great :D !
enough talk, let's get started...
neko
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Chapter 2 - So stupid
Potions. Snape. Ughhhhhh .... what could be worse ? Specially since I was supposed to make some weird potion out of jobber knoll feathers, leeches, puffer fish eyes and other unidentified slimy things. I was stirring my mixture pretty mindlessly when it began bubbleling.
Hu-oh... this is not supposed to happen......
When Snape looked intensely at some other kid's potion, I casted a silencing charm. Just in time, before my potion exploded. I still managed to spill it all over my working area.... and the unavoidable happened, Snape noticed, he got red, and called
"Potter, I want you to come see me when the period will be over."
Oh great, I just needed that...like I needed another problem in my bloody life...
Lately, I did pretty bad in all of my classes... failed a Transfiguration test, didn't turn in the required homework in Defense Against the Dark Arts, kept sleeping during the History of Magic (well, this wasn't particularly new....). And I knew why. I spent entire nights practicing obliviate. I still couldn't try Imperio, even on bugs or such. So I would sneak out of the castle, and go in the forbidden forest. Once there, I would spend hours obliviating animals. The best I did was making a salamander forgetting all the stuff about attacking other beings. That saved my butt, because I was about to get badly wounded.
Unfortunately, I'd not have time to study or anything. And that didn't make a whole lot of difference since when I try to get anything done, my mind get stuck on a certain person..... damn him.
The class got dismissed. I packed up my stuffs, and froze. I didn't want to go to Snape, because I knew what awaited me. And knew I would hate it. But I was actually a little off the real thing he was about to tell me.
When I went up to him, he was still cleaning things off his desk. When he thought he made me lounge enough for my judgment, he turned to me, and looked at me right in the eyes. I hated when he did that, it made me loose it all ; I felt stupid and ashamed of myself. He finally said
"Potter, I am utterly discontent over your behavior. You should be ashamed of yourself."
I am. What can I do more ?
I didn't say anything. He stayed still. I looked down.
"Don't you dare look down Potter ! You are not a child. Neither are you a coward. You may know you are in fault, but you could at least try to defend yourself ! You will never save the wisard world if you look down when something gets in your way !"
This made my blood boil. I hated when people told me about saving the world...... what-ever. Did they think I could just do it like that ? Anyways, I looked at him right in the eyes, trying not to succumb to the urge of punching him.
"Was that why you made me come to you professor ?" I managed to say.
"The matter is alarming Potter. Your are miserably failing my class, but this is no surprise to me. What worries me most is that Malfoy is doing terrible too, this starting almost two weeks ago. This date, which correspond the one day we -professor MacGonagall and myself- charged him to try to establish some sort of friendly contact with you. He unfortunately appeared to not have realized it."
"Does this have anything to do with me ?" My anger had now vanished, and I only wanted him to get to the point. This involved Malfoy. Anything that involved Malfoy mattered to me.
"Of course it does !" he shouted, slamming his hands on his desk. I could almost see fire burning in his eyes.
I decided that Snape was to treat with great care at this moment. And then, he began to whisper harshly
"Malfoy joined the Order on the beginning of the year. His case was very delicate, and his health , physical as well as psychological, was badly disturbed. HE IS IN DEER NEED OF HELP."
I opened my eyes wide. So this was it. His lonely look, his lost way to act ..... the.. the everything. Oh my, oh my.....
"I.... I didn't know....I ..." I stuttered miserably.....
"Of course you didn't. Don't you ever care about others ?" He sneered.
This hurt me. I might not have held Snape really high in my esteem hierarchy, I still hated others calling me selfish. I was not ..... Or was I ?
"I...sorry... what can I do ...?" I mumbled.
"I am glad you asked that." He said this as coldly as to make me feel he didn't mean what he just said "I know a lot about Malfoy, because, as you may have noticed, I always took care of him in some ways. So professor MacGonnagal and myself have come to the conclusion that the only person capable of giving him what he needs is yourself, Potter. Even though I seriously am beginning to wonder if you really are. So find out what it is he needs, and whatever it is, give it to him. He never was very social, and I can feel he needs others' support. Begin by giving him that."
He looked at me, again, right in the eyes.
"I won't have you deceive me. Now go Potter."
And he went back to his meticulous cleaning business.
I took my stuffs and left.
When I got outside his class, I was still trying to get in the new information I just learned. I was supposed to help him now. I couldn't even approach him without freaking out, and I was supposed to help him.... whatever happened to my simple life at Privet Drive .....
"So what am I supposed to do now...?" I couldn't keep it to myself. Anyways, no one was here. Or so I thought. I sighed.
"Look at how sorry the poor boy is ...." someone sneered.
I turned around. That was Malfoy. He just sneered at me. He looked at me with his disdainful look. That made me feel very weird. One whole part of me was intensely happy, just thinking about the fact that he finally did notice me (over the two last weeks), the other one felt humiliated and wanted some kind of revenge.
I guess that since I just got scolded by Snape, the angry me took over the happy me, and I approached him, wanting to do nothing but slap him. He didn't move, looking steadily at me. When I got about 2 feet away from him .....
Everything got confused. I saw him sneering, leaning against the wall. I hexed him with silencio. My hands went for his, and I pinned them on the wall. I didn't think, I couldn't, and I didn't want to. I heard him gasp. I saw his eyes widening like crazy. And then it was all feelings. I felt his lips against mine. My hands holding his tighter. And then, my hands in his hair, around his face... he was so damn soft ! It just drove me mad. He tried to get away from me, but I held him tight. I don't know how long this lasted. And I quickly pulled back when I realized he had stop moving.
When I finally opened my eyes again, I saw. He was whiter than ever. (Which wasn't bad since that made him look really hot, but in this case, it was pretty bad) his hands were shaking, and his silver eyes looked at me in pain and anger. He breathed heavily.
"I... Holy shit...Oh Malfoy.... I ..... Oh God...." I whispered.
I thought. Quickly.
"Sorry for that Malfoy, I, sorry ..... You'll forget it..."
And I hexed him with Obliviate.
He fell. He passed out.
I looked at him. He looked like a fallen angel.....
"What have I done........"
TBC
A/N- well, this wasn't really long.... I guess that's approximately how long everyone of my entries will be. I hope you liked it :) . I had fun writing this. Things are still a little clumsy, but I am, getting a little better I think..... I dunno, after all, tell me ! :) thanx again for making it up to here ! I'll try to come up with the 3rd chapter by tomorrow or after tomorrow..........
please review !!!!! :D
neko