CHOICES

CHAPTER 3: COUSIN LOVE

Rikku kept walking, not daring to look back, afraid that she might stop and she would let her guard down in presence of her cousin.

"Rikku!" -Tidus yelled again, going after her, at mid way he stop and looked back, there she was, just standing there, looking at him with her blue n green eyes, she smiled, a smile that just made you confident of anything, he wanted to go back, he wanted to contemplate that smile for ever, he was getting lost in it, what was wrong with him? He suddenly wanted to go to Yuna, but then remembered that Rikku was leaving and he needed to see her, not because they were friends, not because the past years he had been dreaming about her (and Yuna), but because his eyes, his body, his heart was screaming for her, for those albhed swirls that had him captive, and they just threw him around like a little girl, in a way intimidating him a lot. He was never able to explain anything that happened to him, he was sick and tired of life and had two hopes to keep going.

He looked at Yuna, then at Rikku's back, because she wouldn't stop walking despite his screams which were piercing her heart. Tidus couldn't move any further, he looked at Yuna and she smiled and nodded, he grin back at her and ran after Rikku, not knowing that Yuna wanted to end both her cousin's life and hers, maybe that way they would both be happy in the farplane as just and only but a memory.

"You are going to have to choose Tidus, because we both want you heart, we just don't know why." -Yuna thought confused, not knowing what else to think of, but knowing what needed to be remembered.

Flash Back:

Yuna was sitting down, thinking of her past journey, when she was on her journey…to beat Sin. Brother tried desperately to get her attention in anyway possible, he even tried playing with the puppy 'Tidus' but he wouldn't leave Yuna's lap. Cid was outside fixing an airship, he was taking a five min break, which he was enjoying by smoking a cigarette. Rikku entered, looking more sad, more confused than the day before.

"Hi Rikku, are you going to eat?" -Yuna said happy at the sight of her cousin, it had been al day, for some reason Rikku was going out and coming in late.

"No Yunie, I won't eat. Might try and poison me."

"Are you sure? You haven't eaten anything all day." -Yuna said worried.

"Yes YUNA, I am not hungry, I will not eat now, I will eat, when I feel like eat."

"Yuna??" -Yuna thought, since when her cousin called her Yuna??

"Rikku……youmus-" -Brother made his best effort to speak English, especially to impress Yuna but he was abruptly interrupted by none other than Rikku.

"Shut up! Who asked you for your opinion, not me!" -she said fiercely, Brother was taken aback by this, he knew she hated him in the brother-sister type of hatred, but this was deeper and he knew it.

"Hey! Sorry we care, we'll leave you alone." -Yuna said automatically, not thinking about her words just about Rikku's actions.

"Yeah, you just do that hypocrite." -Rikku said. Yuna felt fire going through her and she was about to unleash a firaga spell on her, but she was able to control her emotions.

"You have no right to call me that! Take it back and give me a reason or else!"

"Or else what? Goody-two-shoes, you are going to do what?"

"…"

"Thought so, you are too busy being good, trying to help others, not to think of yourself but everybody else except for those that matter. Thought you was real smart cousin, but many saw you for what you really are, a hypocrite, a liar, an actress, my eyes have been open, I just wonder why couldn't it be sooner?"

Yuna chuckled. "You think I don't know what they say about me? I wanted to safe Spira for my own fame, my own benefits and goods. My good acts were just that, only acts to get the peoples favor and their prayers. That I planed to become Sin and come back to hunt you guys after all the sacrifice. If you choose to believe that, then it shows that I don't know you and that you obviously don't know me." -Yuna said firmly, her voice didn't sounded as sweet as before, as calm and peaceful.

"Did I really think wrong of her, are they just toying with me, my mind, do they want to confuse me, put me against her, are they telling me the truth??? Whatever."

"yeah, that's what I thought. What's the matter, don't know what to think now? What to do, how to blame me? You are upset, jealous." -Yuna said.

"Jealous of what, your acts, your fame, if you haven't noticed I am just as known."

"Oh I'm aware of that and I could care less about that, because fame is not important to me, is not what I care about. This is what I care about, what concerns me, what has my mind in a wheel."

Yuna took out a tore green little notebook. It was in very bad shape, but everything was still readable.

"Oh no." -Rikku whisper as she watched in horror the notebook in her cousins hand and Yuna started to open it, she began to read.

"He must have really hit himself hard in the head, maybe the toxic got to him, he believes he is from Zanarkand!! He's a crazy hottie though, his baby blue eyes are just looking for the truth and the truth he shall find, what will he do when he sees what Zanarkand has become, how will he react?" -Yuna stopped to stare at the surprised face of her cousin, Yuna had warn her to apologize, it was Rikku's fault. - "Should I keep reading?"

"No, give me that back, I thought I lost it, give it back it belongs to me!!."

"Oh no, I still haven't proved my point and you started this. What a surprise to find him here?? I thought I was never going to see him again , he was a big brute though! He broke my machina and he could have drowned me in the process! So much for friends, but I know he didn't know it was me, what a great turn out this has been, I have my cousin Yunnie and now I have him, life sometimes it's good. Now I have to find out a way to stop Yunnie and her pilgrimage!" -Yuna stopped again, to take a breath. - "Why were you so happy to have found him?? I guess life is good, it's very good."

You have made your point, now give me that back."

"I am far from my point! Like I said before, you asked for this: Is not fair, is not fair, is not fair, why am' I going to do now? What am ' I going to do now?? I am lost, confuse! IT'S NOT FAIR! Why?? Why? It was painful to see them kiss, to see him comfort her that way, he seemed sincere enough…and honest, I guess I should just try and forget about him, he choose and he choose her, that's the way it will be, I can't forget my mission, my purpose between them, even though I wish, I was the one he was kissing." -Yuna stopped again. - "Curious, I thought we were alone. I tried, I really did, but I can't get him of my mind, what's worse it's that he already choose who he loves, he already loves someone, I just…wish it could be, I wish I could love, I wish I could have someone I can get support from. I will try to keep going and to hide my feelings as much as I can, but with that kiss, it would be too impossible, I want to feel his lips one more time, I want to devour his tongue, why did we shared that, doesn't he loves Yuna?? Why does this has to happen to me?! I can't, I won't hurt Yuna!"

I will hurt you today, give me that back and stop reading, it's private!."

"I guess it is, but you should thought of the consequences of you calling me a hypocrite and not apologizing for it. You should have thought of your attitude, before and you should have talk to me about your feelings before I got in too deep with Tidus. Let's keep reading shall we. "Everything it's how it's suppose to be, Yuna and Tidus are together and happy, good. But I have a feeling that happiness will not last, there is something in there and if Yunnie keeps going with her pilgrimage she will die and their love will not last at all, he will be destroyed. I have to stop her before it's too late!" "I wonder where did all that love went, according to your writing, you lobe Tidus so much you were willing to leave him with him and you were willing to save my life, you tried to look for a solution. Was it all for me or for him? Do you even care about me?"

"Do you care about me??" -Rikku had to ask.

"I do."

"Liar."

"Your mind is so young, just like your heart, figures you wouldn't understand anything. It was best that back then you decided not to interfere with us, you were far more immature. I think We should go on." "This is what I felt it was going to happen!! He is not real, he is a dream and now he has to leave, and we will be left alone, no Tidus. We will miss him terribly, for me, I guess it was for the best, but what about Yuna?? How will she take it? How will I take it??" "Let's go to the very last page of this notebook." "I don't understand, nothing makes sense, all this rumors can't be true, she is not like that, she wouldn't do any of the things they accuse her of, I wish Tidus were here, he'd know what to do. All these years without him, I feel I have grown more than what I wanted to. I thought it was the best, but look how I am, how I feel, look at Yuna. I mustn't write more about him, I have to stop, it just hurts me more and more. I should talk to Yuna about it, but I just don't dare, it might not be a good idea at all. But I should just erase him and everything from my mind, I'm afraid I'm having illusions of him, the other day I thought I saw him, he walked toward me and kissed me, but he is not here, how could have he done anything like that, but it felt real, as real as I can feel the wind right now, I have to stop and forget. Goodbye Tidus." -Yuna threw at Rikku the book, which she caught. - "How do you explain all that to me? Haven't you ever come to the conclusion that maybe there is some hidden jealousy deep within you?"

"Even if what you said might have a little sense in it, what do you gain with all this?"

"Besides the truth and knowledge, just to make a point. I hope you feel good about calling me a hypocrite, I have more things up my sleeve to make you regret it a hundred times if necessary."

"You don't scare me."

"Cousin, You are taking it all wrong, I'm not trying to scare you, I am just warning you, because I can't cast a spell of firaga to you, only because I respect Lulu, but push me and I will. Because the goody-two-shoes you knew, it's gone, just like the cousin that always cheered for everyone, that spoke her mind and all that, it's gone, I'll just pray fro her to comeback." -Yuna turned around, and started walking to her chamber - "By the way, thought I'd let you know, beware, because you don't know when something unexpected might happen."

End of Flash Back

"What are we going to do Rikku? What are we going to do?" -Yuna thought worried, while watching Tidus turn Rikku around and wrap her around his arms, he picked her up too see of that would cheer her up.

"Rikku, don't leave, I have tons to tell you, it has been so crazy this pasta years, you can't even imagine…-" -Tidus kept going on, he was obviously too excited about everything. Rikku just smiled, she hadn't noticed how time had flown. She raised her finger to her lips, he slowly quiet down.

"I would honestly love to, but I have to go, I will meet you guys back at Besaid Island, tell Yuna I need to see her desperately, she knows where to look, it was great seeing you again Ti. Later." -Rikku picked her bags, looked at his surprise face and headed to the boat.

Tidus didn't say anything else, there was something extremely different about her, he just couldn't quite figure it out. He heard a whistle, he looked back and saw Yuna, he went running to her, grinning.

"Well, what did she say?" -Yuna asked.

"She'll meet us back at Besaid, she needs to see you desperately."

"Wonder what it is?"

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Sorry for the long wait, I know this chapter kinda sucks but I tried my best. It's just late and I had a lot of problems to write this! First I couldn't come with the idea, then I forgot about the story, then I had to think about what to write, then I did (which by the way, it's horrible in the notebook but in here it's quite fine.) Then I had to pass it, and finding the time to write was nearly impossible. (amazing hw your parents can find extra things to do and how school can just come up with more work) Then I was lazy and when I finally found the time, to pass the chapter, it got completely erased, I got mad, I punched the puter because I couldn't hammer it and passed the chapter a week or so later. (which is today) Right now the net is having some prob. What kind, I dunno know, but I hope I can update as soon as possible, sorry for all my boring crap, I bet you don't really care.

Sorry I was delayed, hope you enjoyed this chapter, I shall dedicate more time to everything, not pas it at night, because right now I'm extremely tired. Sorry for all errors. Take Care

BTW! Shadow!! We haven't talked in awhile!! How are you?! Did you liked this chapter?! Now what?! Where are you???!

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