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I am sitting alone in the tutoring center when Brooke come in. She sits in front of me and looks at me smiling.

"so what's up Tutor-Girl ?"

"hey tigger. Nothing. You ?"

"did you see Nathan yesterday ?"

I smile and she claps her hands in delight but before she says anything else, Nathan enters and walks towards us. He sits near me and smiles to Brooke.

"hey Brooke, I didn't know Haley tutors you too ?"

"yeah right, as if I am crazy. I don't want more homeworks, believe me"

"ok, so maybe you can leave and Haley and I can start to study"

Brooke stares at me, she's not stupid. She takes her books and gets up.

"see you later Tutor-Girl. You too pretty-boy"

she walks away with a smile.

"this girl is so crazy"

Nathan slides his hands on my knee and strokes it gently. God, is it me or is it hot in here ? he is driving me crazy.

"you look tired... is it because of me and our session yesterday, because if it is, I can't come at night to see you and..."

before he continues, I pinch him not too hard.

"I'm sick, I think. I throw up every morning since 5 days"

"very sexy, James."

I smile a little and I close my book. He takes my hands and kisses it.

"thank you for yesterday. It was..."

"interresting ?"

"good !"

He starts to kiss my neck and I close my eyes. This is so good. My hands go on his chest and I feel his piecing trough the tissu of his sweater.

"this is incredibly sexy, you know that"

"glad that you like"

Fortunatly, there is nobody in the tutoring center except us. He never went here before and I don't know why he is here but that's ok if he keeps doing what he does with his mouth.

"so tonight, you're free ?"

"euh, no, sorry. Brooke tells me we are going to this club and I can't cancel"

"club ? you Haley James going in the club"

"yeah why not ?"

"it's just. Clubs are created to drink and hook-up, that's not the scene where you belong"

ok, this is so wrong. Who does he think I'm ? why can't I do what the others do ?

"yeah and I'm not a slut but I sleep with you every night since two months whitout nobody know"

"I already told you, you're not a slut"

now I just want him to go. I want to be alone and prepare myself for tonight.

"look, I have a lot of works so you can go"

"what did I say ?"

like always he says the wrong thing. Nathan scott is an idiot, I knew that before but now I have a new word for him he is a jerk.

"nothing, ok. I want to be alone"

"yeah, right."

He gets up and leans over to kiss my forehead.

"I call you later"

"don't bother"

this wins his attention, he looks at me and put his two large hands on the table in front of me.

"why are you such a bitch this morning ?"

"it doesn't disturb you yesterday, does it ?"

"I like when you are a bitch to me when I know that I can deal with it but now, I don't know what I did and why you are upset with me and it's really irritating"

I get up too and I move in front of him. His eyes lock into mine and suddenly I just want to kiss him again. He has this effect on me, I can't help it, it is just his charisma, his confidence but I can't let this go away.

"you know what, I'll go to this club and maybe I'll drink and after that I will certainly be fucking some guy who will be around"

his jaw clenches and I know he is upset, I know his gesture when he's angry but I didn't know that I can make him angry.

"you know, you are not the only one who can have fun in this relation. I want to do that, I mean you're a good teacher, I'm sure I can make a boy happy, don't I ?"

why can't I shut my mouth ? I speak too much and I know he doesn't like it. His eyes narrow and his fists tighten. God, what did I do ? Nathan is the most impatient person that I know and something tells me that I have run out of his limits.

"Do what you want but don't except from me to touch you if you do this !"

"so you can do it but not me ?"

"how can you say that I fuck others girls since the last two months, you aren't there with me ?"

"it's your fault and you know that !"

"no, it is yours. You are ashamed of me"

ok, I'm in the fourth dimension. I, Haley James, ashamed with a guy popular, athletic and handsome like him.

" you don't want to talk about me at your little friend Lucas because you are too afraid of what he thinks. You are the one who stops our relationship at this sex's stage not me."

He grabs his bag and heads for the doors quickly. I didn't know that he wants our relationship will be official but somewhere he was right. I can't even imagine Lucas's face if he knows about that. I need a distraction... I need to found Brooke...

I am late for my next class but I really don't care. I see Brooke and Peyton to their lockers and I head for them rapidly. When they see me, they are a little embarrassed and I don't know why.

"guys, I need to talk"

they don't say anything and it's worry me but I keep talking.

"ok, no question ? what's happens ?"

I'm pretty sure Brooke tells everything about Nate and I to Peyton and I'm grateful she did because I don't think I'll have the courage to tell her. Brooke nods to something behind me. I turn around and I see Nathan and some cheerleader making out against his locker. My world collapses and I don't know how my legs stand up because I don't have the strength to stay up anymore.

"this is a good question, what's happens between you two ? Things were pretty good later"

"yeah, it was later and now things are changed. About tonight, is it ok ?"

Brooke nods to me and Peyton looks at us. I walk away and make for the exit door to the high school. I need to clean my head and I can't do that here, so I leave.

almost 9:00 pm, Brooke will be there soon and I don't know what to wear. I am not used to go to club and I just hope Brooke will advice me about my outfit. I sit all day in my room. I locked my door so nobody can come in. When I heard the door's bell and I run in the hall. I open and I see Lucas standing in front of me.

"hey... why are you here ?"

"yeah my day was good too. I was in class but you aren't there so I decide to visit you to know what's up for you ?"

"I was sick but I'm better now... thank you but now you have to leave"

"why ? do you expect someone else of my family ? like my brother ?"

his eyes are hard on me and I don't know what to say but I heard Brooke's voice and I feel grateful to her presence.

"hey broody. What's up ?"

"Brooke ? I didn't know you have to come here !"

"Tutor-Girl and I go somewhere tonight but you're not invited"

she sees that I am not ready and her face falls.

"don't tell me, you are not coming"

"no it's ok. I have nothing to wear so I was thinking you could help me"

"no problem, I'm the fashion's queen"

she enters in my house and turns to Lucas.

"sorry, gorgeous, this show is only for girls. She calls you tomorrow"

I wave to Lucas and he smiles to me before Brooke closes the door.

"now we have to make you sexy..."

and when I see her smile, I'm getting worry. Brooke is somebody with a reputation and in the last two days she shows me something she hides but I don't know why but something tells me that tonight I'll learn where is this reputation from.

This is my third beer and I felt dizzy. Brooke dances with a tall guy and I can say she's flirting with him. How can she do this ? I mean the boy touches her everywhere and she doesn't mind. Maybe Brooke does that because she's lonely and maybe I have to do the same.

Somebody sits next to me and I see a blond guy, he is handsome but less than Nathan.

"you are alone here ?"

"no, I'm with a friend"

"I'm Kevin by the way"

"Haley"

he smiles to me and watches the pool table.

"want to do a game ?"

I nod and he helps me to get up. He sees that I'm drunk. We start to play but I suck, so he decides to help me. He moves behind me and takes my hand. We don't talk because there is nothing to say, I know what he wants and even if I don't want that I can't help it, I am to drunk I can't think normally.

"I think we need to go out no ?"

I nod. It's so not me. I just want to run away from him but my body doesn't respond. When Kevin blocks me against the wall and begins to kiss me, I try to push him away but he doesn't move.

"hey, get away from her"

I know this voice, it's him. I'm so glad he is here.

"what do you want ? is she your girlfriend ?"

"yes, she is. Now leave her alone"

"sorry can't do that, she wants me"

I don't know what happens next but I don't feel Kevin's weight on me and I heard Nathan insults the guy. I slide alond the wall and close my eyes. Everything is too loud and my head hurts really bad. Two hands grabs me and force me to get up.

"baby, open your eyes"

Nathan's voice. The only noise that I can bear. He puts my head against his chest and I can breath his scent. It's so perfect, he strokes my hair and my hands are on his back, we stay awhile like this. The thing between us is so unclear and so difficult.

"you need to sleep, you've been drinking too much"

I can barely walk and he helps me.

"Brooke is inside, I can't go whitout her"

he says something that I can't understand and lead me to his car. After he put me on the backseat, he closes the door and goes. I felt really tired and I lie down, my head still hurts and I close my eyes. After that I don't know.

When I wake up, I don't recognize my room. There are sketches on the wall and a computer. Where I am ? I feel somebody beside me and when I look I see Brooke starting to stir up.

"Brooke, wake up !"

"I warn you she is violent when she wakes up"

I turn my head to see Peyton standing in the doorway. She smiles a little but doesn't move.

"why I am here ?"

"Nathan take you two, this night. You were drunk and he didn't want you to be ill alone so he came here"

I start to feel this taste in my mouth.

"bathroom ?"

"here"

She points at the door closed in her room and I rush inside. Like always I throw up... and it's not pretty. I'm happy Nathan is not here to see me like this.

"you need to see a doctor"

"yeah, I have an appointment this afternoon"

I wash my face and I see how pale I am. This is not me... this is just my shadow. I don't know who I'm anymore and I don't know how come back to the old me.

"why you didn't tell me about you and Nate ?"

"tell you what..."

"stop playing gam..."

"tell you that I'm a slut, no his slut... I'm my best friend's enemy's slut ? you want me to say this because it is what I am. I'm a bitch who is at his disposal and I can't even change that"

"why ? did he threaten you ? this is why you do this things with him ?"

"no, it's because I want it"

Peyton is chocked. She stares at me and is unable to say something coherent.

"I love him, I love to spend time with him and I love being near him... I'm crazy about him. I really wanted to talk to you but you are his ex... and he hurted you and I don't know how explain this thing, it's just too difficult. I can't even look at myself in the mirror because I feel dirty and I don't want people stares at me like you do now, I don't want your pity and I don't need it."

"Haley, you are my friend and I don't judge you. You want this with Nathan, fine by me, go ahead but you have to know that when I'll be there when he'll hurt you"

she doesn't even hide the fact that Nathan will hurt me soon, she knows him too well. She knows this guy is a problem himself, he can't change and particularly with me.

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