Thank you guys for all your reviews, I really appreciate them... Many of you think Haley is pregnant and in this chapter there is the answer... TinyDancer7 I think you are right, he feels something for her but he doesn't know... ok enjoy it....
I reach my locker and I just want to be home again. After Brooke wakes up, Peyton drives us to our homes so we can change our clothes and take a shower, then she drives us to school. I don't know what happens yesterday night but I know that Nathan was here and somewhere I think he was here to spy on me, to see if I can do what I told him about me flirting and having sex with strangers. My locker is a mess... This is not my locker !!!! I mean I'm too organized with myself to have a locker like this... I start to clean up when I feel somebody behind me.
"how's your head ?"
"hurting..."
I turn myself to see Nathan smiling at me. Is he still angry at me ?
"so... you're not with your new toy ?"
"what are you talking about ?
"yesterday, you kissed this cheerleader..."
Nathan sigh and I turn again to arrange my locker. He puts one hand on my shoulder and force me to look in this eyes.
"I was angry, I'm sorry..."
my mouth is dry and I pretty sure all the eyes in the hallway are on us. He leans over to kiss me and I realize what he is doing but I don't do something to stop him but he stops anyway.
"I don't love you... you know that... but I can learn"
and then, he kisses me. God this is incredible. I feel his hands on my back pressing me against him. I encircle my arms around him and I respond to his kiss. When he starts to pulls away, I felt empty again.
"I have practice. See you later, ok ?"
I nod and he releases me. I can't believe he did this, he kissed me in the hallway in font of his friends, my friends... he starts to walk away and when I turn to look in my locker, I see him... Lucas was here and saw everything. He comes to me with his angry face.
"tutoring huh ? I didn't know you are tutoring him the kissing and you are learning how to be a bitch and a liar"
he doesn't even let me respond, he turns his back to me and leaves... when did my world start to break down ? oh, I know when I said 'ok Nathan, I will sleep with you but you'll leave Lucas alone' and now it's look like I'm the one alone.
When I come in the cafeteria, I see Lucas eating. I want to go to see him but I know he doesn't want it. I notice Brooke and Peyton. They wave at me and I head to them.
"look like somebody is sad !"
Brooke reads in me like I'm a open book. Peyton shift forward to let me sit.
"Lucas saw me when Nathan kisses me this morning"
"oh you mean when you were practically removing your clothes in the hallway to do it ?"
"yeah... and we aren't"
Peyton drinks her water and looks at me oddly.
"what ?"
"it's just... this morning, you said that Nathan didn't want a relationship so..."
"I don't know what's up with him but I don't complain about his change of mind"
"except the part where you lose your best friend"
"yeah, this is so... arghh... I hate my life at this point"
Brooke looks at something behind me and smiles. I saw Nathan and Tim enter in the cafeteria. They laugh at something that Tim said. Nathan stares at me but somebody pushes him and everything starts to degenerate into fight. I see now who was pushing Nate, it was Lucas...
I am at work and I can't concentrate on the customers. My mind is on Lucas and Nathan's fight. I can't believe Luke has been so stupid. Peyton called me earlier and said that Lucas and Nathan were suspended for the game tomorrow night.
"Haley, something is wrong ?"
Karen is like a mother to me. She is always here when I need her and over the years she was more present than anybody else. I don't know how can I tell her all the story, maybe she will be disappointed, maye she won't love me.
"nothing, everything is cool. You ?"
before she says anything, Lucas comes in. When he sees me, he stops. I keep looking at him and he does the same. Karen watches the exchange but stays out of this. I know Lucas since I am 9 and I'm always considered like my brother and now I betray him with his real brother, this is so wrong. He keeps looking at me and I don't move.
"Haley, there are customers waiting"
Karen grabs my arms and forces me to stop looking at her son. She leads me to the back. Once we are in the kitchen, she crosses her arm.
"what's happen with Lucas ?"
"I... he... we have a fight and it is all my fault"
"what do you mean ? there is nothing that Lucas can hold against..."
"he saw me kissing Nathan"
"except that"
Karen is uncomfortable and I see why. She doesn't have a good memory about this part of the Scott family.
"are you... with Nathan... you... wanted this kiss ?"
"yes. I mean it. We are together since the last two months and we... are... pretty close"
"close ? how close ?"
I close my eyes. How can I say that to her ? she's my mother... pratically. I feel the need to tell her everything but the decency don't allow that.
"close... very close"
"oh, you mean.. you had sex with him ?"
"yes"
"God Haley, had you use protection ?"
"sure, this boy is a condom distributor... sorry"
now, I feel better. I joke about my relation with Nathan and it's good. Karen is cool. She takes everything pretty well but I know she is in shock.
"Haley, you know condoms are not reliable. There is a risk... and you throw up a lot"
now, I don't feel better anymore. I never think about pregnancy since I used condoms with Nathan each time. She sees that she's scaring me and she opens her arms. When she hugs me, I start to cry. God, this can't be happening. Two months ago, everything was normal and now I loose my best friend and maybe I'm pregnant... what can I do except cry ?
I'm standing in the waiting room and I really get scary. What if Karen is right ? what if I'm pregnant ? what if Nathan doesn't want this baby ? what if I end up alone with my baby ? I will be the Karen the new generation...
"Mrs James"
the doctor calls me and I walk towards her... God, this is so hard. I enter in the room.
"please sit down... so, mrs James. What are you symptoms ?"
"I throw up a lot, I'm tired everytime..."
the doctor takes notes but she lays down the pen and looks at me.
"Are you sexually active?"
"yeah, since two months"
"I think we have to do a pregnancy test, to be sure"
"no problem"
and after that, I just did what the doc said... it was too unreal... too fast... I don't think anymore, I'm just an automate... I have to wait the response to this test and I'll see after that. No need to worry now.
Brooke is here, in my house. We talk about everything and she relates her relations one by one. I think this is funny how she does this. A sort of play-girl... not a slut or a bitch... just an experienced-woman. Someone knocks on the door and I slowly get up and open it. It's Nathan. His face is bruised and I feel guilty about it. He leans over and kisses me hottly.
"Brooke is here"
"no, Brooke WAS here"
I see Brooke takes her jacket and leaves my house. Nathan shuts the door and starts to kiss me.
"glad to see you too..."
"I miss you... God, are you more beautiful than this morning ?"
"don't know... but you are sexier with your bruises... "
he laughs and trace the line of my jaw with his fingers. He is so tender with me... I can't think when he is with me. All I want to do is to touch him, caress him, make love with him. He's starting to kiss my neck when my mobile rings.
"don't answer"
"it must be important"
I know it is important. It must be the doctor and I need to answer.
"the doctor says she calls me later and now it is later"
"ok, you can go"
"hello... yes, this is her... really... thank you..."
when I hang up, Nathan puts his hands on my hips and his chin on my shoulders.
"are you ill ?"
what can I say ? yes, I'm pregnant. By the way, you are the father now we can be happy forever ! No I can't say anything.
"I'm just on stress. Everything is ok."
"you are sure ?"
"yes. Maybe we can postpone our little date in my bedroom later, because I am very tired"
"no problem"
he kisses me a goodbye and left. God what am I goind to do ? I'm only 16, I can't be pregnant... I need to tell this to someone.. so I call the only person who can comfort me.
"it's me... please come to my house... I really need you"
Lucas doesn't sound happy when he hearded my voice and I don't know if he'll come but I really hope he will because I need my best friend, I need him and only him.
I see him entering in my house. His face was angry. I have cried since the last hour and I can't stop. Lucas is standing in front of me but say or do nothing. So I do the only thing that I can do I throw against him and I cry harder. When he closes his arms around me, I lost my strength and he has to carry me to my room. He places me on the bed and lay down next to me. He strokes my hair tenderly and I manage to calm me down.
"please tell me why you are doing this..."
I have to tell him the truth, he deserves it. I just don't know how I can starting so I start with the beginning.
"two months ago..."
"two months ? you lie to me for this long"
"please don't interrupt me.. so two months ago, when you joined the team and Nathan beginned to annoy you. I went to see him... and I told him that he had to stop this. He suggest an agreement, I slept with him and he'll stop harassing you. First I said no, but when he takes you away this night, I said yes. After that we slept together and we keep doing it since."
"I hate this story"
I don't need to look at him to know that he is angry at me and Nathan.
"I don't know what I can do... this story is so complicated and I know I need you more than ever."
"you don't want him anymore ?"
"Lucas, you have to listen to me. I care about him and... I'm pregnant"
with that, I cry harder. God, I don't know what else to do.
"you are pregnant ? no you can't"
"believe me, I wish I'm not but I... God, I'm so stupid"
"that's okay, everything will be fine, I'll be there and he will be there"
"he doesn't even know and really, it's dan's son... and now, I'm your mother..."
"this is a wrong picture, you know that... wait a second, I'm keith ?"
"Lucas, what I am going to do ?"
"you want to keep it ?"
this is a good question. I'm 16, I go to high school, I don't have money... can I keep his baby ?
The first thing I'll do when I'll see Nathan will be to tell everything about me and his baby, after that I'll see how I'll react. Maybe he will love the idea and we will become a big family... When I see him he is with Tim. God I can't tell him that I'm pregnant if his best friend is here. They walk towards me and I can't escape.
"Haley"
he leans over to kiss me but I don't move. Now he knows that something is wrong with me.
"you didn't call me yesterday"
"I was with Lucas"
I say the truth... Lucas stayed with me until midnight and after that I slept. I needed to spend time with him, he had always be my rock and yesterday he was there despite of my latest actions.
"so, you stayed with my brother and you didn't call me ?"
"it is what I said, didn't I ?'
Nathan gives a look to Tim and the boy get away. This is not good. I think that if looks can kill, I'll be dead now. Nathan doesn't like my behaviour and makes me understand clearly now. He grabs my hand and takes me in the closest classroom.
"what's up with you now ? your little friend gives you a lecture and you decided to be the perfect bitch ? or maybe you have regrets about us and you want me to break up with you ?"
he starts to get on my nerves. Why is it always difficult to talk to him ? he is too confident and he thinks too much of him.
"you want me to answer to which one first ? oh by the way, don't dare talking about Lucas now, he is the only person who was innocent in this story."
"yeah, he is a fucking innocent. He punches me yesterday, do you remember that ? he is the reason I can't play tonight... he is the responsible for us."
"the responsible ? do you think about us like a big mistake because you know what I can change that, if you want this I can say it for you. IT IS OVER BETWEEN US"
"don't say that"
"why ? this is what you want no ? you don't love me, so there is no problem for you to let me go"
I remember the last time that I have irritated him and the memory of the night is still in my mind, but now I don't know what's happen next, he seems so... stoic. I want to slap him hard but before I do something, I heard Brooke's voice.
"your yellings are great, really but the school doesn't want to know your little problems"
he keeps looking at me and finally I break our eyes contact to look to Brooke. She smiles at me.
"hey, you go with me to my class ?"
I take my bag and look once more time to Nathan, I want to have the last word, something who can shut him up, it's now or never.
"by the way, Lucas is not responsible about my pregnancy, I assure you it's yours."
I go away with Brooke. I didn't want to tell him like this but now it's done and nothing can come to change the fact. Brooke crosses her arm with mine and suddenly, I regret to speak before I think. She doesn't talk but I know her...
"ask your question !"
"are you really pregnant or are you just freaking him out ?"
"no, I'm pregnant"
"that's big... even for you Tutor-Girl"
and I do know how right she is... it is too big, I need help, someone who knows about babies, pregnancy and teenager's pregnancy. Now I know who... I need to see Karen but not alone...
"Brooke ? what do you do the next few hours ?"
she looks at me more than surprised and choked but after she shakes her head behind me. When I turn around I see Nathan standing here, looking at me.
"Brooke, I want you to come with me"
I think she thinks I'm talking about Nathan so she nods but I grab her hand and take her out from high school. This day is gonna be hell.