Karen puts two coffee in front of us and sits down. I think she doesn't understand why Brooke is here but she make any comments. I take a sip of my coffee and look at Karen.
"you don't leave the time for him to say anything, you just go ?"
"I think run is the word..."
Brooke is trying to sound happy and jocks about this but somehow I know she is concerned. She holds on my hand and never leave it.
"baby, you need to speak to Nathan, he is the father of your child, you can't do that"
"what's happen next ? I tell you, this boy is like his father, he will run away and I don't want this, I prefer to be the one who run away, my baby won't have to know his father. I have a family, I have you and keith and Luke, this is enough. I don't need Nathan"
"you don't understand. You can't do that to your baby. Remember, I didn't want to tell Luke about dan but someday he knew and he was hurt... you can't to that to your baby"
Brooke doesn't the full story about Lucas and dan, but I think she wants to know, I think she has interrest in Lucas. But that doesn't sound like Brooke davis.
"but Lucas was always happy. He has you and keith. This is the same situation. My baby will have his uncle and his father will be somewhere else with someone he'll love."
This is what hurt the most... Nathan with somebody else, in love...
"and maybe, Nathan cares about you and want this baby..."
she trails off when the door's ring bell. Someone enters in the coffee even if it's closed.
"I knew you will be here"
God, it's only Lucas. I was getting so nervous. He sits next to me and put one arm around my shoulder.
"so... you have a girl's chat... I'm in"
"I knew you were too gorgeous and too sweet to be a hetero"
Lucas smiles to Brooke... God, I'm going to puke again if they do this one more time... their flirtation is sweet but I need advices no flirting between my friends...
"anyway, now what is done is done. But I just don't want to face him again"
"what ? you told about the baby to Nathan ?"
"yeah, she did but miss-coward here had run away before he knew what happen..."
Brooke is good to summarize my story and Lucas seems to understand. He nods and hugs me a little. God, it is good to be in his arms. He starts to strock my hair and I feel Brooke's hand go away. Now, it's a best friends time and she knows it. Karen looks at Brooke and nods to the counter. They leave and Lucas tighten his grip.
"tell me you'll be there for my baby"
"you know that"
I think again when he was joking yesterday. He is Keith and I'm Karen... God, they always told us to be careful because pregnancy was something real... and I do know now.
Lucas and Brooke had insisted to stay with me. I don't really need someone but it's comforting and I know if Nathan comes, he won't be able to come in. God this day was stressful and it feels good to lie down. Brooke comes in my bedroom and lie next to me.
"Lucas is downstairs. He said he was hungry"
"thank you for being here, to help through this"
"it's ok"
she put her head on my shoulder and I close my eyes. I heard Lucas enters in my room and sits on my chair. I know he is ill at ease with this weird situation and I'm very grateful he stays anyway.
I heard some noise on my window. Brooke and I get up from the bed and we join Lucas, already by the window.
"what is he doing here ?"
"I don't know"
Lucas opens the window and looks at Nathan. I'm hiding behind him and I'm content with listenning.
"get the hell out of here"
"I want to talk to Haley"
"no, she doesn't want it."
I think he knows I'm here but he is still talking to Lucas.
"it is nothing to do with you, just tell her I want to talk to her... Haley, please, listen to me. We have to talk about this. This is our future, we have to discuss."
"stay away from her..."
"Haley, please... come here or let me in and we can talk"
Brooke holds my hand and squeeze it.
"now or never... It's time to talk to him"
"Brooke, would you shut up ?"
obviously, Lucas doesn't want me to talk to his brother but Brooke is right, I have to talk to him.
"Lucas, I need to talk to him... He has the right to..."
"the right to knock you up ? the right to use you ?"
"Lucas, stop it... your mother and Brooke have right, he is the father"
Lucas gets out of my room and goes open the door. Brooke and I folow him and I really get scared.
"you have five minutes to talk to her. Any insult, any bad comment and I kick your ass"
Nathan doesn't care about what Lucas said, he runs to me and hugs me.
"God, how is it happens ? we were careful each time"
"I'm sorry"
he tightens his hold on me and I feel less scared. God, how does he do that ? each time, he makes me feel gool and safe.
"maybe it's time for us to go, Lucas"
"no way, I don't leave her with him"
I see Brooke grabs Lucas's arm and leads him outside. She closes the door behind them.
"I'm so glad you're here Nate... I was so scared"
"I know but soon it'll be over"
ok, this was not in my scenario... what does he mean ? soon ? no, a child last an eternity... except when the mother has an abortion.
"What ?"
"yeah, next week, we can have an appointement to get an abortion and it will be over"
"no way... who do you think I'm ? no I have a better question, who do I think you are ? I had to know that when you found about this baby you'll want this... are you stupid ? don't you care about me and my feelings ?"
"Haley, I care about you, you know that... but we are too young and a baby is not wanted now... you have to go to College and I have Basketball..."
"yeah you right, you have basketball... why don't you sleep with basketball ? maybe you can find your happiness..."
"stop doing that, basketball is not everything in my life... and it doesn't change our situation... this baby is not going to help our relation and you know that"
this time is too hard to resist to the temptation to slap him... the slap is stong and loud and after I beat him, my hand come to my mouth. Nahtan stares at me.
"I won't get an abortion... if you want it or not, I am gonna have this baby..."
he turns over and opens the door.
"hey, Nathan"
he turns to me and I think he wants me to tell him that I will do what he asks
"congratulations, you are your father now"
I go upstairs and I lie down on my bed... God, it was so hard to tell him that... now I think it really over between us. I think that I become the karen 2004... and I think it will be hard to raise a child. I heard the door closing and I feel relieved. Now, he is gone... out of my house, out of my life and out of my child's life... Things are really complicated now.
When I walk in the hall of the high school, I feel every look on me , God, I'm terrified, did they know about me and my pregnancy ? did they know about the end of my relationship with Nate ?
"hey... the rumor says you are pregnant ?"
I look over my shoulder and see Peyton walking behind me.
"the rumor is true... I'm pregnant and now I'm embarrased that everybody knows it"
"yeah, but are you ok ? I mean..."
"it's cool. Everything is fine... except Nathan... but it's ok"
"Nathan ? what is the problem with this guy ?"
"he wants an abortion !"
just when Peyton are going to insult him. I see him in the hallway with Tim and two others guys... He doesn't look good but it's not my problem anymore. I keep walking with Peyton to my side. Before Nathan can talk to me, Brooke slips on my other side and I don't know why but I know he doesn't dare talk to me with them beside me.
"God, is it me or looks are all on me ?"
"you don't dream, Tutor-Girl, everybody knows about you and Nathan... they even talk about it in the bathroom. Congratulations, you are popular now"
I laugh a little. Brooke always knows how recomfort me. It's good to have her and Peyton as friends, but my problems are not solved. Lucas joins us in our walk.
"so, it's a feminist's walk ?"
"not anymore, gorgeous. Now, it's became anti-Nathan's walk"
"fine by me"
this two really need to get a room. Even Peyton next too me sees it, the flirt between the two is obvious and if they don't sleep together soon, I'm gonna lock them in a room myself.
"anyway, Lucas have you your notes in History ?"
"yeah, on my desk... in my room, sorry"
"can I come after class to take them, I really need them to study tonight"
"I'm so proud of you, I was thinking you never said that again"
I reach my locker and when I open it, a lettre falls on the floor. Peyton picks it up and hands it to me. I begin to read it but after 5 seconds, I throw it in my locker.
"ok, you have friends here, who want to know about this letter... Come on, read it to us, no to me, you know me, I'm Brooke and I'm curious, you need to read the letter for my mental's health"
"Brooke, you really need help"
"you are my help... give me the letter and everything will be ok with me..."
I sigh and look at Peyton who look away. So much for my friends.
"it's Nathan ? it's a letter from him ? God, I do need to read it, you can't refuse me this"
"it's personal ok ?"
"what ? more personal that your pregnancy ?"
she gets a point, but I can't do that, I can't tell everyone what Nathan writes me
"he just said he was sorry and nothing else. Now, we go to class"
I close my locker and look one more time to Nathan on his locker with Tim. God, he's too sexy.
I need to get away from the others students. They look at me and it feels very weird. How the popular guys can support this ? how Nathan... no I must think of something else... too bad, he decides to stay in my mind. I see him standing in the tutoring center. Maybe it's nothing to do with me, he just needs help... this tought goes away when he spots me and starts walking to me.
"hey, I really want to talk to you"
"What a shame ! I don't want that"
he looks frustrated and I feel guilt about this. I don't want him to feel bad, I'm bad enough for us together... he extends his arm and touchs mine and this time I can't control myself, he is my drug. When I touch him I can't get enough from him, I need to deepen the touch and whitout thinking, I lean closer to him and I kiss his neck. His hands are on my back and travel until they come to my ass. He grabs it and carry me against the wall.
"I miss this too much, you are everything to me now"
I don't know why he is telling me this, maybe he accepts the baby now. This will be so great, Nathan, the baby and I...
"I need to talk to you"
"do you want this baby now ?"
now, he moves away from me and I know he doesn't even consider this option. I feel stupid and dirty again.
"Haley, listen... I'm not ready for this... you aren't neither and you know that"
"Nathan, I want it... this baby is a part of me... I..."
"I know that and I understand but you need to know it is too soon... my family won't approve and yours neither... how will be able to live if we don't have money or home ?"
"that doesn't matter... I'll quit school and I will work harder at the café, maybe I will be able to take a second job and my baby will be happy... our baby will be happy if you are his father"
Nathan looks deeply in my eyes and his hands are now on my cheeks, I feel his breath on my face and I hold mine.
"I can't"
with that, he walks away from the tutoring center. Now I know where we stand.
"Tutor-Girl, I have some news who can make you happy"
"you finally decided to talk to Lucas about your hot dreams about him ?"
she smirks and sits down next to me.
"this afternoon is yours. Peyton, you and me, we are going to shopping. You need some clothes and your baby too... tell me I'm your new best friend"
"shopping is not my fancy dream but you are close to it"
"anyway, you are not perfect but that's ok, Peyton listens crappy music... but who said you can change ?"
I can't believe she is so childish when she talks about cloths or fashion.
"you need a life, you know that ?"
"yeah, I prefer take care of my friends' life. Be ready at 3"
"Brooke..."
"you can't say no and you know that"
she is right, I can't say no... I never said no to Nathan before and I don't know why but something tells me that in the future I won't be able to say no to him.