Welcome to my Life, a harry potter fanfic

Welcome To My Life

By Downstream Kat

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or Welcome to my life.

Summary: Harry goes over the edge after the death of Sirius, and Voldemort takes him in, but does Harry continue to offer willing servitude for long? And what about Dumbledore's well placed spies?

Italics are lyrics

'Single quotes' are thoughts/writings.

As Harry strolled along the park in Surrey, he came across a piece of paper labeled "Simple Plan, Welcome to my Life" He turned the paper over and began to doodle on it, reading it at the same time.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

'Every day, oh Sirius I miss you!'

Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

'I totally agree, no one listens to me because I'm just the bloody boy-who-lived'

Do you ever wanna runaway?

'I have…'

Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
'Every time the Dursleys are gone, only I don't have a radio'

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
'That's right, everyone says they know how you feel, but they don't!'

You don't know what it's like
To be like me
'Ron, you don't have any idea, you never know!'

To be hurt
'I hate this stupid scar, and stupid Voldemort!'

To feel lost

'I'm not even sure I know which way is up or down anymore…'

To be left out in the dark

'No one tells me anything!'

To be kicked when you're down

'Why do you always send me here, when I'm already so hurt over Sirius?'

To feel like you've been pushed around

'Exactly! You just use me, you never try to help!'

To be on the edge of breaking down

'Sirius, Remus, Ron, Hermione, anyone help!'

And no one's there to save you

'He's gone…'

No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
'Couldn't have said it better…'

Do you wanna be somebody else?

'Yes.'
Are you sick of feeling so left out?

'Yes!'
Are you desperate to find something more?

'YES!'

Before your life is over

'The way things look now, it won't be to long…'

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
'No one cared that I really need help with Sirius, no it's just ship little Harry off, he's fine, he's always fine.'

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right

'I'm not fine, I never was!'

You don't know what it's like
To be like me
'Hermione, you always tried to help, but it only made things worse…'

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
'That just about sums it up.'

No one ever lied straight to your face

'You lied Dumbledore, you lied to me, and my Godfathers life was the price!'

No one ever stabbed you in the back

'I thought I could trust you, and this is what you did!'

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
'I won't be okay until I die and see Sirius again!'

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
'You have everything, I HATE you!'

Never had to work it was always there
'You never worked with me, you just took the easy way out!'

You don't know what it's like, what it's like
'Sirius knew, you betrayed him too, after all.'

Harry dropped him pen the sheet of paper. "Goodbye, Hermione, Ron, you'll be better off without me." He never noticed Hedwig above him or the dark figure standing behind the tree to his left as he pulled out his wand and pointed it at his face. "Obliviate!"

Sorry to everyone who's been expecting more FotP, it will come eventually, but my mom's in a coma, and the doctors don't think she'll live, so I've been shipped off to Detroit to my jerk of a father, and it's much easier to write this, as the next chapter of fotp is a happy scene with the new family.

Kyki