Lara's Thoughts.
Why?
Why did it happen?
Why me?
Why him?
These are the questions I ask myself every single day, why did Patrick have to die, why was it me he had to leave, why did it have to be me?
I know I should be over him, things on the TV where people have had partners die and need their lives sorting out always get told to get over them. But I need him more than ever right now, especialy after David Collier and the prison ordeal.
It's so hard. I can't imagine ever finding someone else like him.
I have to go to work (joy) there's a new paramedic starting today, and of course new paramedic, means I have to spend the day following them around showing them the ropes, medical school is never enough is it?