A/N: Hey people!!! Thank you for picking to read this. This is my first sonfic and I'm not sure whether it's good so please review. No Flames plz. This might be slightly AU and OOP, but I honestly don't know because J.K. Rowling doesn't give much info about James and Lily. This will probably be a one-shot unless for some odd reason, there are people out there that like my writing and want me to write more. It starts off as James' POV and then switches to Lily's POV and switches back to James' POV. Inspired by "Let That Be Enough" by Switchfoot.
Disclaimer: (Of course) I don't own Harry Potter.
Let That Be Enough by Lady Spirit
'There goes another hollow day.' thought James with a sigh. James Harold Potter, Hogwarts graduate and current Auror-in-training, is sitting alone on a creaky park bench after a hard day. Hot coffee is steaming in his hands, making his odd round glasses fog up. The flaming sun slowly sets behind England's famous rolling hills. During his wistful thinking, his heart refused to obey his mind and kept reeling back to a certain memory.
He could feel the comfortable of Lily's head leaning on his shoulder. Her blazing red tresses smoothly brushing along his jaw line as she gently sits up to meet his glaze. They are sitting together on the edge of the lake, watching the random ripples skim across the water's surface, undoubtedly made by the "giant squid" that resides in these waters. James wished that they stay forever the way they were. Just holding each other and watching the lake as statues, who could brave the worst of storms and who could also drink in the summer sun's rays for centuries. But his mind knew that wasn't possible. Graduation day was only 3 days away and then afterwards…He didn't KNOW what would happen after that. Well, he knew that he would follow the family path and become an Auror, but he wasn't worried about his profession.
"James," whispered Lily.
"Yeah, Lils" replied James.
"You got something sticking up from the back of your head." Lily said as she shifted to free her right hand from James' enclosing embrace.
"What might that something be?" asked James suspiciously.
"Your unruly hair of course," Lily replied as she let out a slight giggle. She then set out to smooth her boyfriend's messy jet-black hair with her free hand.
"You know that after seventeen years, no matter what I do, it will still be like that. Even if the most beautiful woman in the world is trying to smooth it out," said James as he lifted his hand from it's rightful place around Lily's waist and took her delicate hand into his. It stopped her from Lily's tender, yet firm patting down motion on top of his head. He then proceeded to place a chaste kiss on the palm of her hand. Lily returned the favor and pecked James on the cheek.
"You really think that I'm the most beautiful woman in the world/?" she questioned with a smirk plastered on her face.
"Actually…" James started. He kept Lily in doubt and suspense long enough to wipe the smirk off her lips.
"I know you are the most beautiful woman in the world. Your radiance makes even Aphrodite cower in shame," he finally said. Lily smiled once again and leaned in toward James face. Their noses were touching as they just stared into each other's eyes. Dark hazel against brilliant green. In these precious moments of soul searching, one knows if this is something that lasts forever. James eventually broke the trance and closed the space between their lips. Slow and sensuous, the soft kiss lasted millennia. Lily finally broke it off and said,
"Oh James, don't upset the goddess of Love. She'll be wanting my head after that wanton comment." James chuckled. How could anyone not love this quirky red-head? Silence ensued as they returned to their original position.
A strong breeze blew a few crippled leaves into his face. James brought his jacket in tighter and tightened his wool scarf. He thought that minor distraction was enough to shrug away the grips that that memory but he was wrong.
Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone
"James…" began Lily.
"Hmmm…" answered James.
"What are we going to do about us?" asked Lily.
James froze.
And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land
"Well you know, after Hogwarts, we are chosing two different career paths." Lily said, stating the facts. Still James couldn't find anything to say.
"Well, James," said Lily, trying to prompt her boyfriend to talk.
"Umm…er…I don't know," James stalled. He was looking to the horizon, afraid to meet Lily's piercing eyes. She was slightly shocked because she was expect at best a marriage proposal and at worst an "I'll love you forever, we'll figure it out together". Lily thought about it a little more and decided that it was a bit overwhelming for James.
"I guess I'll give you a little more time to think about it," said Lily. Without as much as a hug goodbye, Lily got up and walked toward the castle. She felt like something was missing when she was alone. A feeling that would never go away for the rest of her life. Disappointed at James, tears pricked the edges of her green eyes. She looked back at a James whose face was buried deep within his hands. She couldn't even begin to imagine the emotions he was hiding between his fingers.
James found himself in the same position that he was in five years ago. He didn't know how many times he mentally kicked himself for ending it with an "I don't know". At graduation, even at the King's Cross station where they last met, he replied to Lily's question with an "I don't know". After letting out a tired and frustrated sigh, James looked up into setting sun. Even the red light was blinding, the sun felt no longer warm.
And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing
As he continued to stared into the sunset, James thought, 'How pathetically slow of me. The sad thing is that I now know. I now know I what was supposed to do 5 years ago. Why couldn't I have thought of it earlier?'
Lily Evans, fresh out of med school Medi-Witch, sank into the one the lounge chairs in the ER lobby. Her 2 days in a row shift had ended. In the last 2 days, there had been 3 mass murders executed by none other then the Deatheaters. On top of that, the ER unit was missing a doctor and a couple nurses because they decided to take a vacation. Great timing. She was too tired to realize that she was slipping into sleep.
She was sinking deeper and deeper until a pair of strong arms caught her. A familiar scent tickled her nose. 'Something between refreshing rain and mint' she thought. A deep resonating voice filled her ears.
"Hello Lily…" Why was it so familiar, yet so far away?
"Lily…" She blinked open her eyes. A pair of haunting hazel eyes met her.
'Oh no' thought Lily. 'I'm not thinking of him again…' Her train of thought was cut short.
"Lily Evans, I love you," the voice said.
Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough
"James Potter," Lily moaned as she gently awoke from her dreaming. Why was she thinking about that confused bastard anyways? He had no right to barge into all her thoughts and still destroy her life 5 years later. Yet, Lily was letting him do that. She couldn't understand why her heart wouldn't let the memories of James Potter be laid to rest. Haven't people throughout the ages forgotten about past loves? Why is she any different? A little voice told her that "those 'people' haven't found a soul mate who is living and breathing."
'Why is am I so miserable when I should be ecstatic because I have found my soul mate?' Lily thought. 'Because he is out of reach and will always be' she thought.
It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago
Being alone really sucked. Sad thing was that James hadn't been exactly alone for the last 5 years. Sirius could barely keep count how many flings James had. Calling James flirtious would be an understatement. However all that sweet talk is just a barrier and a lie to tell himself that Lily Evans, love of his life, is gone forever.
And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Yeah who am I just a kid who knows he's needy
Nothing ever came remotely close to stable relationship because every time a girl would ask James the infamous question "Where do we stand?", all hell would break loose. Either James would break it off the next second or he would reply, " I don't know" and the girl would become mad and break it off herself. Besides James didn't want another stable relationship after Lily. He couldn't go back to a daisy when he has smelled a rose.
'How ironic, the only one I want is the only one I can't get, when I can have anyone else.' Thought James. 'All I want is Lily'
Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough
Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough
Let That Be Enough – Switchfoot
A/N: I hope you all liked my first songfic! REVIEW and tell me!!! Once again, no flames. Tell me if you want this continued.
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