Title: Memories

Author: Rika (Akiana-chan)

Summary: A poem, from Tsume's point of view. For fans of my other fic, this time it's Tsume that's dying, and this poem is his thoughts as he's dying. I guess you could take it as a ToboeTsume fic ..

Rating: PG -- Death Talk. Not good for the young ones.

Warning: If you take it this way, this could be a Yaoi/Shounen-ai. I dunno, it's your choice.

Pairings: Aww, hell. i'm just gonna take it as a Yaoi/Shounen-ai. Toboe and Tsume.

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I'm laying on my deathbed,

Here on the cold stone floor,

I wanted to take you with me,

But you had gone before.

I thought that I had no one who cared,

But the you came along,

After a bit of time with you, though,

I realized I was wrong.

You're kind to every living creature,

And it took me a while to see,
You didn't deserve to be around,

Cold and heartless me.

But still, you stayed with me,

And no matter how I tried,

To keep my rep and push you away ...

It all came out when you died.

I had noticed then how big you had grown,

You were no longer that scrawny pup,

You were a wolf now, you were one of us,

And right then, I wished you would wake up.

I wished right then that you weren't dead,

And I felt really weak,

For showing these emotions, and I surprised myself,

When a tear slid down my cheek.

You always asked me questions,

Now I think it's only fair,

That I ask you, what's paradise like?

I know you're already there.

You don't have to worry, my friend,

I'll be joining you very soon,

And I can hardly wait for that moment,

When we reunite under the moon.

So wait for me in paradise,

And as I take one last breath,

I begin to see the light of paradise shining,

And by now, I am as cold as death.

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Author's Note: I saw episode 29 of Wolf's Rain last night. I won't hide this fact - I cried. Tsume's "talk" with Toboe was so touching ... today I was depressed about it. (You should know, Toboe is my favorite character in the series. They killed my little wolf boy .. ;.;) In fact, i'm about to cry as i'm writing this. I still love the series, however. I knew that Toboe was going to end up dying, everyone told me that even before I had watched my first episode of the entire series, which wasn't too long ago actually. It was last Wednesday. I saw the 2nd episode, which was the first one Toboe appeared in. But you all know that. Anyway, I instantly fell in love with Toboe. He's remained my favorite character throughout every episode that I've watched, and i've seen 10 episodes now. (1-5, 11-14, 29.) Nothing can change the fact that I love this series. Oh well. This is what I get for writing a fanfiction about an episode before I saw it. I guess the big guy up there knew, and thought I should see what really happened. In some ways, I think it was right. In other ways, I think it was just downright creepy. I mean, It dosen't happen every day, that you write a fanfiction about an episode you haven't watched, but have heard an extensive amount about .. and then, a little less than two days later, you see the exact episode on television. It's actually kind-of scary. I knew exactly what episode it was, right when it started. And when I realized it, my hands like .. flew to my mouth, and I was repeating "Oh my God, Oh my God .." over and over again. To tell the truth, I wanted to see a little more of the series before I saw that episode. I'm telling you right now, I haven't seen episode 30 yet. I haven't a clue about how Tsume dies, and where, for that matter. So just bear with me, like you always do, 'kay? ; thanks. One final thought before I close this ..

Rest in Peace, Toboe and Tsume. We love you. Please .. Please, find happiness.

Until next time ..

--Rika