Between Lust and Love

Chapter 4: To be a mother

I was interrupted from my meditation when I felt a stranger energy coming from a place near the dojo 'It's somewhere in the palace.' I thought as I stood up from my position. I could sense this strange energy coming from one of the rooms, I walked calmly out of the dojo and into the corridor leading to the human's room, I could see a strange purple light coming from the room, I put my hand over Tokijin at my side and held it there prepared if the human would do anything strange. I came closer to the room, not wanting her to hear me. I was now in front of the paper door, the hole I had done earlier was still there and the purple beam shone through the door. I could hear her moaning in her sleep 'If she's asleep, then what is this light?' I question myself, leaning forward to open the door. As I did so I could hear her moans become louder and louder, I could also hear her body moving from one side to the other of the futon. I finally open the door but the bright light disappeared as I did so, and she was now awake, sat up over the mattress, grabbing her chest nervously and sweating, her breathing was loud and rough and her hair was a mess, she had a panicked look on her face.

She continued her moans and cries for a little moment when she finally noticed my presence in the room, I looked at her with my cold glare as if expecting her to tell me what was going on, she looked at me puzzled and started to breath slowly trying to tell me something I could make out in the gasp of air she was trying to take. 'What is it with this woman, did the light come from her?' I asked myself mentally.

'Wha...What happened?' I asked myself, holding tightly into my chest, I felt like I couldn't breath, I felt my heart struggling to beat once again 'Was I... dead?' I noticed I was shaking and sweating, my hands were shaking though I didn't feel cold, my eyes were soaked in tears I couldn't explain why I was crying. The I recalled the dream I just had 'I thought I had forgotten all of this... why can't I forget it?' I put my hands together over my face. Then I saw a figure on my side, I turned quickly around, it was Sesshoumaru, I gasped again as I saw he had his hand over his sword 'Was he going to kill me?' I looked at him puzzled and then notice he was staring at me with expecting eyes.

"Wha...?" was the only thing I could say, my lungs were lacking of air also, so I tried to breath slowly, my hands stopped shaking and my heart was beating quietly again. I took in a gasp of air and muttered "What... happened?" He looked at me shocked, it was the first time I had ever seen him show something other than coldness and sadism in his face. He let go of his weapon which relaxed me, apparently he wasn't here to kill me.

"Didn't you see it?" Now I was confused "See what?" I asked back, he put again his indifferent mask and walked slowly towards me, I noticed my yukata had slyly open on the line of my breast, so I tried to hide them from him though he didn't seem to had noticed it either. He reached out a hand full of claws to my neck, I was scared at first but then I didn't feel like he wanted to hurt me, I felt more like he was trying to inspect me closely. I gasped at the feeling of his sharp claws on my skin, it made shivers run up and down my spine, his claw moved slowly down from my neck and to chest and stayed there, I was feeling uncomfortable, his stare burning in my skin, trying to find something beneath it.

I carefully ran my claw down her neck and chest, it felt soft under my touch, I tried to find the source of the power that I had earlier sensed, I could hear her heart race as I inspected her pale skin and made circles with my claw, I could hear her gasp for air at my sudden gesture. This amused me, I traveled my claw a little more towards her heart, now I could clearly hear her nervousness she tensed a little bit, I could smell so different things coming from her body I sensed fear, confusion, embarrassment and... desire, growing in her. I pulled my head closer to her face, her cheeks now had a deep red painted on them, and her eyes were shinning like a couple of stars in a dark night, her mouth opened as if to reply something, but not a sound came out of it. She was now shivering and I caught a glimpse of fear in her eyes. After that I let go of her carefully, and walked out of the room, not wanting to hear anything from her.

I laid there, half surprise half scared, what had just happen? I touched the spot where his claw had once laid and rub it unconsciously.

I then stopped "What the hell am I doing?!" I put my hands up to my face, it had turn crimson red.

'Was I just.... No... but.... Oh god!' I thought as images of a certain silver-headed, golden-eyed youkai flashed in my mind, again I sensed my cheeks burn and finally decided to lay in the futon, bringing the sheets up to my nose, trying to hide the bright flush.

I woke up in the futon, I was sweating a lot, all of those sheets over me had caused me sweat during the night. I sat up and looked around the room, the warm shiny sun lighting the room, I breath deeply and looked at the table near my futon, I noticed a yellow kimono laying in it and a pair of sandals neatly settled under the table, I stood up and touched the smooth fabric 'Silk.' I presumed I took it in my hands and let it hang I could it had a shiny yellow all over it only the bottom was dark blue and the sleeves were deep red with dragons designed on them, it also held a purple obi with a beautiful wave design (like ancient scrolls of waves). I caught my breath in my throat when I put it on, it fitted me perfectly, a little thigh on the waist but still looked beautiful on me.

I heard some foot steps coming my way, and a cheerful laugh followed by a reproach "Rin! Come back here!" 'Rin is as bouncy and active as always' I thought stepping out of the room and placing myself in front of the now running child. She stopped, her eyes widen at my sight "Kagome-chan!! KIRE (beautiful)I!" she exclaim looking at me with shinny eyes, I looked down at her and smiled brightly "Domo (thanks) Rin-chan!". Without a moment to waste she took my hand in hers and dragged me out of the corridor and to her room, all her toys where now order in the big box near her futon. 'Apparently the servants had a hard time cleaning this out.' I thought when a tired youkai servant put the last toy in one of the container, as soon as she saw me she bowed. Rin quickly, ignoring the servants bow, went straight to the box and start digging on the big amount of toys, I spotted a look of grief in the poor servant and decided to do something about it.

"Hey Rin-chan, why don't we go outside in the garden and fetch some flowers, I bet Sesshoumaru-sama will be glad to receive them as a gift." I smiled at her, and on the corner of my eye could see the thankful look on the servants face.

Rin smiled back "Hai!" and she took my hand to lead me to the garden.

After a while of wondering in the garden walking on the green grass and picking up some flowers, we sat down on a blanket as servants came up to us to offer us something to drink, after the concluded their task they bowed and walked to the palace.

I silently drank the cup of tea I was offered, when a small hand pulled one of my large sleeves, I crooked my head and notice Rin was blushing like mad and looking down at her knees. "What's wrong?" I inquired. She looked even more embarrassed I giggled at this 'She looks even cuter when she's blushing!' I smiled warmly at her. She then moved slowly and reached my hand murmuring "Anou... Kagome-chan..." she looked at me in the eye for a moment "Hai!" I reassured her, she smiled and asked "Anou... would you... be my mom Kagome?" I stared at her in shock, she had just asked me to be her mother, the poor thing, she wanted so desperately to have a normal family.

I stared blankly at her before answering "Hai!" and smiled at her, from the bottom of my heart, she looked up at me in a daze, her eyes brighter and shinier than ever and hugged me as tight as her little arms could.

What a strange feeling I felt, it reminded me the times my mother used to hug me, how warm and soft she was and how her perfume ran in my nose 'I don't know why... but I can barely remember her face, even though it's been only a year since...' I then looked at little Rin in my arms 'What a strange thing...' I thought '...to be a mother is such a strange thing...' I lean my hands over the little girl's.

'I'll be here always my little Rin...'

I melted in her arms, she was so warm, so kind and innocent, she just was feeling lonely, it then came to me 'Why is she so lonely? She's so young and yet she lost her parents.' I pulled away from her and smiled at her warmly, but then asked "Rin-chan how did you meet Sesshoumaru-sama?" 'Hey I'm not gonna ask her something like "How did your parents die?'" this way seemed better to satisfy my curiosity. She looked serious for a few seconds, I never thought Rin could get serious, then she started telling what she could remember.

"Rin was living in a human village, Rin went that day to pick flowers for her mother, she was sick..." she looked down at her knees, sadden al the sudden. "Rin was over the rivers where the most beautiful flower grow and then I heard someone scream, it was a man, he started saying something like "The village's is on fire!" and then ran away, I ran to my house and it was burning..."

FlashBack

"Papa... Mama..." a little Rin murmured at the crumbling house on fire. She was now kneeling in front of it, tears forming in her eyes as she called her parents hoping they would come out and be alright.

But they never did.

Then growl caught her attention behind her, she saw a pack of wolves staring at her greeting their teeth, then a large man with a tail and icy cold blue eyes eyed her and smirked. "Do whatever you want with her guys." He simply said and disappeared in a wind whirl. The wolves charged at her, she ran.

"Please help!" she shouted while she ran, then she noticed the wolves where catching on her. She tripped and feel on the ground, the wolves rushed at her and then...

Black.

End FlashBack

Rin's eyes formed tears while her little hands grasped her kimono with anger, looked at her, it was so sad seeing a little girl such as her, telling such a horrible story. Rin then muttered interrupt by her own breathing "Then I woke up and Sesshoumaru-sama was there, I decided to follow him and then I became like a daughter to him!" her face was free from tears and she was now smiling happily at the thought of having a complete family now.

I smiled back and stood up.

"Well Rin-chan what do you say if we play a nice game before we have some breakfast?" Rin's eyes shone with confusion and happiness, I patted her head "The game is called... TIKKLE RIN UNTIL SHE CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!" with that I rushed at her and started tickling her sides, in a few moments she was on the floor laughing hysterically and shouting at me "Stop! Stop Kagome-chan!!" I laugh out loud and then paused for a moment but that was a mistake now Rin was tickling my sides and I couldn't take it, I was such a ticklish person, I fell to the ground also and she triumphal lift her head high and said "You shall not defeat this Rin!" and laugh trying to imitate and evil laugh (you know the Muahahahahaha!) I laugh harder at this perfect imitation of Sesshoumaru, this girl was so clever.

Little did I know that a certain taiyoukai watched my every move from a dark corner of the palace, his lips turning into a small smile and his once cold serious golden eyes had now melted into warm kind ones.

A/N: So yeah Kagome has some strange powers only she doesn't know it yet, and of course Sesshoumaru will try to find out about them. This was a nice little scene, necessary for the development of the story. Hope you liked it and thanks 4 the few that have reviewed!

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