A/N: This chapter is the most important of all. It'll explain the title of the fanfic so read it carefully ok? Thanks again to the people that had reviewed and I'm sorry for the mistakes I did on the last chapter, after I posted it I re-read it and found lots of mistakes, so don't worry it won't happen again!

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Between Lust and Love

Chapter 14: The difference between Lust and Love (Part 1)

When Sesshoumaru was grasping my neck I could hardly breath, I felt my heart speed up and I tried to take his hand away from my throat but he was too strong, even for me. Then while I was loosing consciousness I heard a sweet female voice call out to my brother, begging him to let me go, saying I still was his brother, but then I lost all sense of where I was or what was happening. I was unconscious. I woke up to find myself in a room, a guest room more precisely, I was laying down on a futon, 'My neck hurts...' I thought sitting up and rubbing my sore neck. I narrowed my eyes along the paper doors and I could hear the sound of a river in the distance, the chirp of birds on the outside made me relax slightly, but then curiosity gained on me. I stood up from the futon and came closer to the paper door, I touched it as if I had never seeing one before. Somehow all of these things looked familiar to me.

'Could this be...' I half thought in my head before I opened the paper door swiftly I was greeted by the setting sun in the horizon and in front of me a forest and a small pond with waterfalls. Memories came slowly into my mind "I'm... home...." I whispered awkwardly half in disbelief. Then, when I was about to go straight into the woods, I heard an awfully beautiful voice coming from a dojo nearby. I sighed and was hypnotized by the calming lullaby. I walked slowly towards where the song came from. I was in a dark corridor, the eco of the voice becoming stronger by every step I took. Then, I saw the entrance to the dojo and then the most beautiful thing I had ever seeing.

I had being busy the rest of the afternoon, Sesshoumaru had shut himself in his study, declaring he had a lot of things to take care of, so I left him alone to his business. Sango and Miroku had gone to the nearby village to fetch some medicines, and I had stayed in to watch over Rin for Jaken was too tired to keep up with the little brat. We had gone to pick flowers to the forest and then Rin had a funny idea: she wanted me to teach her how to defend herself. I had argued back though, I just wasn't sure about teaching her to fight at such a young age. She pouted and gave me her cute puppy-eyes and finally I consented and taught her how to throw a kick and a punch, after a while she had become tired and she decided to take a nap on my lap. I started rocking her to sleep and singing a song my mother used to sing to me when I was a child.

Mori no fukuro ga iimashita....
watashi wa mori no mihari yaku....

kowai okami, kitsune nado...
kosasenai kara ne ne shina...

gorosuke ho... ho...
gorosuke ho....

I then felt someone watching me, I looked up to see InuYasha standing near the entrance of the dojo a moved look in his face, his eyes were shining bright golden and his mouth had a small smile craved in his face, I put Rin down on a pillow and stood up to face him, I calmly asked "Are you feeling well?" he didn't seem to have heard the question for he didn't even flinch. Instead of answering my question he whispered "That song... who taught you that song?" I shot my mouth for a moment and then smiled "My mother used to sing it to me." He seemed annoyed by my smile, he lowered his gaze to the wooden floor "My mother also used to sing it to me when I was a child..." he whispered his bangs covering his eyes. I stepped closer to him and smiled "So I guess you're feeling pretty good, want me to show you the palace?" I asked warmly, he shuddered at my kindness and muttered "Aren't you afraid of me?".

I looked at him kindly and shook my head "Of course not! How can I be afraid of someone to whom his mother used to sing the same song my mother sang to me when I was a kid?" he seemed to take my word and nodded. I pulled my hand out to guide him, he nervously took it, I squeezed it to make him feel comfortable and lead the way.

While I was watching her, the only thing I could think of was my mother. She had the same sweet voice my mother owned, she had charcoal-dark hair like my mother and her snow-white skin reminded me of my mother's soft warm hold. I had never looked at this girl like this before, she was supposed to be a human and she wasn't, she was a demon, she had the same stripes and marks his brother had and worked her gestures with the same grace and precision a high-class demon would. 'She's just so beautiful...' I thought in my head letting myself be mesmerized by the lullaby. When the song ended she noticed me, Iwas about to leave when her golden-blue orbs caught me and prevented me to do so.

When she had smiled his heart had almost escape his throat, and when she had taken his hand on hers he almost could feel the blood rising to his face. How could a woman do such a effect on him with just a smile and a touch? He ran his eyes along her beautiful form, her wavy dark hair swinging around her slim shoulders, her sweet smell intoxicating him, her beautiful smile captivating him. She was far more beautiful than any other woman... er demon, he had ever seen in his entire life.

Kagome showed him the springs, the guest rooms, the dinning room, pointed at Sesshoumaru's study and then led him to the gardens and finally again to the dojo. Rin aparently had left. The red sun setting and the orange rays of light passed through the railed windows of the dojo, they were silent for a while admiring the Inutashou's statue. Then InuYasha asked.

"Kagome.. right?" she smiled at him nodding, he continued "How come you're not afraid of me? I mean really!" she had to laugh at his question, for her it was already obvious she just didn't know how to explain it. She took a deep breath and sat down on the wooden floor "Well... it's kind of difficult to say." He sat down next to her, crossing his legs and watching her every move. She put her arms around her knees and whispered "I just think you're not a bad person InuYasha." She said simply, somehow the way she had just said his name made him shiver and blush. His heart was pounding hard in his chest, still amazed by Kagome's beauty, the orange sun reflecting over her pale skin made her look like a beautiful golden statue, her eyes were an amazing display of colors melting and mixing in a strange combination, her smile made his blood boil under his skin.

After a long silence Kagome, looked at him, he was blushing and he looked down at his knees, Kagome traced his features with her eyes and stopped when she saw the place where his arm used to be, she couldn't keep herself from asking "Does it hurt?" he didn't answer immediately, when he understood what she meant he sighed "It doesn't at all..." Kagome then had an idea. She leaned into him, their faces mere inches away, she looked intently at the wound, tracing her fingertips along the scar, InuYasha flinched faintly, Kagome noticed "I'm not going to hurt you... stay still."

Still?!?! How in the world was he going to stay still while SHE was so close to him, while he could feel the heat of her body enveloping him and while he could smell her sweet fragrance?? Staying still was a hard thing to do in that kind of situation.

InuYasha was interrupted from his thoughts when Kagome emitted a strange purple aura, she had her hands over his wound and he could see her eyes had changed to complete golden, she was concentrated on what she was doing. Then in a spilt second InuYasha could see how his arm was growing back, he could sense the bones and tissues forming. Why was Kagome doing this?

She was giving him his arm back.

Meanwhile Sesshoumaru was still in his study, checking through documents. The only time he could stop thinking about Kagome was when he was busy, so he tried to make himself busy, which this time didn't work. All what had had happen had made him realize how much he wanted Kagome: the kiss, the chase, the fight, and finally the talk with Rin.

'I want her...' he repeated in his head. The thought of her soft lips on his, the heat of her breath, the smell of her hair, her enchanting eyes, all of her was made of pure desire. He wanted to feel those lips, to breath that heat, to smell her sweetness, to be charmed by her gaze. Although the wanting was just too much, there was still something that kept him from taking her and that was her innocence. He knew Kagome was a grown up woman, he knew she wouldn't reject him, not after what happen in the woods. But still he didn't want to take advantage of her just to satisfy his lust.

'Lust.' He stopped at that word, he knew what it meant, he knew what was like to feel lust, but something about that word wasn't right.

Was it really lust what he felt for Kagome? He searched his mind for another word he would found proper to describe what he felt, he looked up at the many books on the shells and found one, it's cover said "Love or Lust?" He stopped at the word "love" and thought 'Is it love or lust?' he asked in his head. What is the difference between them? He took the book in his hands wondering what was a book like this doing in his library, he opened it and found a rose petal in the very first page, beneath it was a script that said:

"In our minds, love and lust are really separated. It's hard to find someone that can be kind and you can trust completly, and isn't afraid to throw her man up against the wall and lick him from head to toe."

He chuckled and looked around the first pages and found a signature; it was his mother's, he sighed and read again the quote. Then started reading the first page, he stopped at these two sentences:

Love honors, values and seeks the best for the beloved. It focuses on the other person. It's selfless, sacrificial and inseparable from commitment.

Lust, on the other hand, seeks to use things or people to meet its needs and gratify its desires. It focuses inward on itself, is inherently selfish, and rejects commitment.

"I understand..." he murmured before placing the book on the desk and leaving the study, he was going to find Kagome and talk to her, only that way he could be sure of what he felt.

I was there, I saw his arm, I felt sad, I wanted help him.

I concentrated all my power fixing my objective: to bring InuYasha's arm back. After a while, when I saw all of InuYasha's arm restored I sighed heavily and noticed I was sweating. He stared at me, mouth open and eyes wide, I smiled at him and put my hand to my chest regaining my breath, he suddenly took my hand, I looked up at him confused "Thank you... Kagome..." he thanked, his golden eyes shone with something other than just gratitude. I suddenly couldn't stop looking at him, the way he looked at me made me feel... awkward. He put his new hand over my cheek, I flinched a little when his cold hand touched my skin, he rubbed his thumb in circles over it, I flushed when he lean into me and said "You're so beautiful... Kagome you're the most beautiful being I've ever laid eyes on..." I lowered my face, flushing fully at his compliment.

"Inu...Yasha I..." but he kept me form saying anything else, he had his lips covering mine in a passionate kiss.

He crashed his tongue against her closed lips, wanting, begging for entrance, she muffled something and tried to escape from his grip, but his new arm was wrapping her small waist pulling her closer to him, she muffled again, putting her hands on his chest and pushing him away. He growled and moaned in her mouth, not caring whether or not he was pleasing her, he just wanted her to be his, he craved to possess her, to kiss her, touch her and make her his. He wanted her. Kagome started crying, punching him on his chest and then finally her powers burst and the blast had thrown InuYasha several feet away from her.

She gasped for air and looked angrily at InuYasha, she yelled "What the HELL do you think you're doing?!" he carved a crooked smile on his face and said slyly "I know you enjoyed it as much as I did Kagome..." he stood up and started walking towards her, Kagome stepped back and into the wall she saw at her feet her trusty bow and arrows, she took them quickly but wasn't able to aim at him "InuYasha I don't know what you're thinking but please stay back!" of course that was a lie, she knew very well what he wanted but was just too afraid to imagine it.

InuYasha smirked and said "C'mon Kagome, you know you want to, don't try to be so tough, there's no one here... we're a-l-o-n-e...." Kagome screamed "Listen I do not want ANYTHING to do with you! Stay away from me!" InuYasha snorted "I want you..." he half-spoke then in a swift movement he had taken the bow in her hands and broken it into pieces "... and I want you now!" he declared putting his arms around her arms not letting her get away and kissing her, Kagome growled and bit him hard. He stepped back and winced at his bleeding lip, Kagome then punched him hard on the stomach making him fall to the ground and ran to the entrance of the dojo. InuYasha jumped at her she turned around to look at him jump at her and suddenly couldn't move.

Then, she heard someone cry out and looked up to see something hit InuYasha over the head.

'A... staff?' she thought.

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CLIFFHANGER!!!!!

A/N: So you liked it? I know I did lol! This is only part 1 though. Part 2 will come up eventually. I'm glad people are actually reading my story and reviewing it (ME VERY HAPPY!!) so if you keep reviewing I'll make sure to update soon ok?

Oh and by the way the lullaby i chose actually existes you can all go listen to it search on for Mia's bicultural bedtime, enter the japanese lullabies and then to Mori no Fukuro.

See ya

WP