A/N: Hi there everyone!! Sorry for the slight delay, I've been busy with school lately. So anyway here's chapter number 20! I think I'll end this story in 4 more chapters, hopefully...

Anyway enjoy chapter 20!!

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Between Lust and Love

Chapter 20: Watashi ni motarete naite ii kara (It's ok to lean on me and cry, Ending "Come")

'Tomorrow we're leaving...' Kagome sighed, pulling her eyes away from the book she was reading, she knew she probably needed to train a little before the journey but Sesshoumaru had told her to relax instead. 'Sesshoumaru, always wanting to keep me away from danger...' she sighed again, placing the book over her lap and looking out of the window, there on the grass was Kohaku sitting with his chained oz on his hands, Kagome noticed he was sharpening it and frowned. She knew too well what the young man was thinking, he wanted revenge for the lives Kikyou had taken, she understood him perfectly, she knew what it felt like to hold a grudge against someone so deeply. But still, memories of her childhood with her friend filled her mind, she knew something wasn't right about all the story, something just didn't fit.

After telling her memories to everyone Kohaku had suggested his theory: that Kikyou had gone insane from the training in the mountains and had started killing innocent people without reason. Sango thought otherwise: thinking Kikyou was seeking for something in the taiji village. That would've explained her appearance in the taiji village. But then Sesshoumaru had spoken asking out loud "Then why would she introduce herself as the black miko? And why would the miko kill everyone if she was truly seeking something?"

Something was awfully wrong, Kagome could feel it in her bones. She sighed again standing up from her seat and heading to Sesshoumaru's usual break spot: the gardens.

There he was, seating by a tree, his back leaning against the huge trunk, he felt my presence for he looked back at me from over his shoulder, I could see the flash of simple happiness in his eyes. I smiled at him and kneeled next to him. For a moment we stayed silent enjoying each other's presence. I then decided to say something.

"Sesshoumaru..." I started he looked at me from the corner of the eye, I continued "Please teach me how to transform into a demon." He was silent for a moment. I could see he wanted to deny my request put I looked at him with my famous "You promised" look, he narrowed his eyes away from mine and sighed pulling himself up, I followed.

He took my hand and said "It's going to be a rather dangerous battle..."

I felt his concern in his eyes and smiled at him, squeezing his hand softly.

'I must prepare for the journey tomorrow, I hope Sesshoumaru will lend me a katana for the battle, I need to take my bow as well...' his face suddenly stopped showing emotion, I stopped thinking and smiled turning to him but I stopped noticing his cold glare. "Sesshoumaru...?" I asked puzzled, he glared at me, I freeze, what was wrong? "Sesshoumaru wha-"but he growled at me.

"You are not..." he hissed, I looked at him he continued "Kagome, I do not want you to go to battle tomorrow."

I was puzzled, why the sudden change? "What of course I am!

He took my wrist with his clawed hand and growled again.

"You are not going."

"Yes I AM!"

"You will only get hurt!"

"No I won't!"

"You will, I won't be able to fight against this miko while I have to take care of you."

He thought, she was a burden.

"Do you think... that I'm a burden?"

He didn't answer. She yelled.

"I am NOT a burden Sesshoumaru!"

"I never said you were." He was denying it?

"But you think so, you think I'm not able to protect myself, that I will only bother you in your fight!"

He didn't say anything.

"You...!"

"It is only for your well-being." Well-being my ass!

"My well-being? I am not going to sit, waiting for your pompous ass to come back from a battle that is putting in danger a friend of mine!" I was angry, if something pisses me more than anything in the world was to be considered weak.

"Kagome you are not ready to go to battle, you barely have adjusted to your new powers."

"It's true I have just received them, but that doesn't make me useless!"

"You're not going, and that is final." He growled, I growled back.

"You're not my boss Sesshoumaru, I will do what I want!"

"You foolish woman!" he threw my wrist away from his grasped, pushing me into the ground, I moaned softly. "Your training is not finish yet! Do you really intend on fighting an enemy with so little knowledge on the arts of fight?"

I looked at him with anger, my teeth creaking in my mouth.

"I will not allowed you going in the battlefield in your weak present state." There, he had hit a nerve.

"I am not weak..." she whispered with a harsh voice.

He doesn't trust my abilities.

He thinks I'm of no use.

He thinks I'm weak.

But...

"I am not weak!" she hissed, angry tears flowing down her pale cheeks. He stared blankly at her, not daring say a word: it was working. She greeted her teeth, a menacing look on her face, she cried out in pure hatred.

"I AM NOT WEAK!!"

Her eyes started changing red, her jaws over-sided and her hair grew. Her small figure had turned into the one of and enormous dog-demon, she growled and barked at Sesshoumaru, she greeted her teeth at him, her fur rising on her back like an angry dog. Sesshoumaru calmly stayed put not moving an inch. Kagome growled and attacked him. She was out of control. When her transformation had ended, she was growling at him loudly, but he stood his ground. He could listen to her thoughts.

"Why do you think of me so low?"

"Why do you keep telling me I'm weak?"

It wasn't hatred she was feeling, she eradiated a deep cold sorrow, this made his strong features soften. He took a step towards her, she growled warning him, but he didn't flinch.

"Forgive me..." he whispered, she heard and flinch the growling stopping.

"Please Kagome..." he reached a hand to touch her. She pulled back, her eyes suddenly turning sad and tears threatening to fall.

"Stay away Sesshoumaru." She told him using her mental connection, he didn't move, he then kneeled in front of her. He lowered his head begging her with his silent gestures. Then Kagome calmed down and closed her eyes letting all the strong emotions gathered in her heart flow out of her. She transformed back into her human form, kneeling in front of her lord and enveloping him in her soft embrace.

"Kagome..." he whispered she hushed him tightening her arms around him.

'It's alright... now you understand...' she thought leaning into her mate's warmth.

"Kuso! I'm sick of this stupid humans!" InuYasha yelled in exasperation: he had been trying to get some information about the Goujonkai seeds. But every time he tried to speak to any traveler or villager they would scream in terror and runaway from the desperate hanyou. Tomoe had followed him close behind, trying to keep up with his fast pace. She sighed her fatigue, this made InuYasha stop and turn around to look at her.

"Oi, you tired?" he asked harshly.

She straightened and shook her head trying to hide her fatigue. He eyed her for moment before snarling "Feh! We'll have a break here!" If there was something he hated more than frightened humans was to waste time, he walked to a boulder and sat on it crossing his legs. She blinked in confusion before nodding and pulling some food out of the bag she was carrying. Handing an onigiri to InuYasha, he took it breathing a small "Thanks." She sat quietly next to him, looking intently at the grass on her knees.

He looked at her by the corner of his eye, finding her skin so soft and tender and wanting suddenly to touch her cheeks... He kicked himself mentally for that comment, she was a sophisticated, elegant and beautiful youkai while he was just a....

"a... hanyou..." he finished unaware he had said it out loud.

She turned around and caught his stare, he then awoke and started blushing but couldn't escape her intent stare, he then lowered his eyes and said angrily "Yeah you heard right!", she was shocked at first but still listened.

"I'm a half-breed, a hybrid, a hanyou..." he whispered the last part sadly.

A long, awkward silence.

And then...

He felt arms fold around him, fingers tangling on his hair, and the warmth of a body over him. She put her chin over his head, and whispered softly "It's all right." He widen his eyes, he wanted to break free of her comfortable prison before... before he couldn't contain himself anymore, but his body didn't respond to his demands.

Visions of his mother's same caress flew into his head, the same comfort, the same warmth, the same kindness.

'Stop!' he screamed in his head, shutting his eyes.

'I need to be strong...' he repeated in his head as all those years before. Convincing himself again and again to avoid weakness, but her voice cut him from his thoughts.

"It's ok, you can be weak... You can be weak, only for today, InuYasha..." with that he broke down to tears, digging his soaked face into her kimono and crying as he hadn't cried all those years before. He had wanted to do that for so long.

Yes he could be weak for only one day couldn't he?

'Just for today, tomorrow I'll be strong, but just for today... hold me in your arms...'

A/N: Hola!! lol wassup? Liked it? I hope so!! Anyway any questions you want me to answer just type them ok?

See ya on next chapter!

WP