Optimus Prime's P.O.V.
"I worry about Jamie, sir," Mirage tells me, "I know how much she's hurting, but we've been back for three weeks, and her guardians struggle to get her to do anything."
"And what do you think you can do?" I ask.
"I'm tired of watching them rather than helping them!"
"I agree, sir," Hound adds.
I realize Mirage is with several Autobots.
They know this is a complicated situation, but I understand how it's hard to watch Jamie and her guardians struggle.
I don't know what to say. Crosshairs and Drift will decide if the others can spend time with Jamie. We've watched them struggle to get her to eat in the cafeteria. Things are worse than I thought. We see Crosshairs walking down the hall, but I don't think he was expecting to see us.
"Don't ask," he says, but doesn't continue down the hall. I tell the others to leave. Crosshairs sighs, "we don't know what to do. I feel like we're watching her slowly die, even If we get her to eat. Jamie won't even eat snacks. Though we know that we can't let that be the solution. Getting Jamie to do anything is impossible."
It's hard to know what to say. I don't want Crosshairs and Drift to force Jamie to do anything, but we can't let her stay in their room all the time.
I don't think I can say anything to Jamie to help her. This isn't helping with what she wants. I suspect part of the reason she's like this; feeling depressed that what she wants won't happen, but I'm certain this is why Drift won't talk to Ratchet with her. Add what's going on in her dimension.
"Sir?" Crosshairs looks at me, concerned, "you can come to our room."
He looks at me, hoping I'll go with him. I think he was looking for me while I thought he was going to the cafeteria.
Drift holds Jamie on his lap while sitting on the couch. I can see the sadness in her eyes. The lack of interest in anything. The look of giving up. I don't know what to say.
No matter how much these two love her, they need a break. Even if they don't stop worrying about her, a little time away from her will help. Oddly, I do not like how easily Jamie let me take her so Drift could leave with Crosshairs. I can remind her how much everyone cares about her, but I must be careful.
Drift's P.O.V.
I don't know about leaving Jamie, even with Optimus, with her current mental state. I can tell Crosshairs is worried, but we know we'll get told we need a break, and a break from our friend sounds disgusting. Even Crosshairs is quiet, which is sudden considering how he's been towards me for the past five weeks. I don't know if I should be worried or think he's finally showing how he's feeling, and I doubt he'll talk to me if I ask.
I'm in no mood to talk to anyone. I know most here worry about Jamie, but there's nothing good to tell them. We walk by Rung, whom I know is concerned but says nothing, on our way to the lounge room.
Neither of us wants to watch T.V. I hate sitting here away from our little lady. I look at Crosshairs as a tear rolls down his face. Saying nothing, I hug him; he shutters, feeling my hug Before returning the hug, resting his head on my shoulder as he cries.
Crosshairs' P.O.V.
I didn't mean to fall apart, but this is getting hard to hide as we watch Jamie want to be dead. This time feels different.
Still, I feel bad Drift is seeing this as I hear him whispering. Hating that I can't comfort him. Though what can I say? We've dealt with Jamie's mental health since we met, but it's never been like this. Even though her eating habits haven't been great for a while now, now that she wants to be dead, it's getting harder to get her to eat. Now she's barely talking and has no interest in anything. Even after Buddy's death, her depression wasn't like this.
"This is terrifying, Crosshairs," Drift sobs, "we're losing our little lady, and she could be lost forever."
It's bad enough that he's talking about Jamie being dead, but depression has changed her personality after all the scrap she's dealt with. We may not get the little lady we know back. The point where she's no longer dealing with depression would be better, but she's been dealing with it for years.
It's embarrassing that Rung is seeing this. Now we're stuck in a therapy session.
Drift doesn't want to talk, which is unlike him.
Optimus Prime's P.O.V.
I didn't think Jamie would tell me anything, but she told me likely everything, including my suspicion, with tears rolling down her face. Now she's crying, and I feel like this is crying that she's held back for a long time.
Neither Ratchet nor Rung could help if I told them. I don't know what to say. Jamie's eating habits are a serious problem whether she wants to get pregnant, but I fear she's going to take explaining her poor eating habits as telling her never. I don't know what comments she's gotten back home, but there's no support. Things have gotten a lot worse in just six months. Jamie's mental health has always been challenging, but this is new. What can I say to calm her down?
A few minutes pass before Jamie is coughing from crying. I get her to drink water and figure out what I can say to calm her down.
It's a challenging twenty minutes before she's asleep. That is not what I meant to do, but I know this often happens.
Crosshairs and Drift walk into the room as I lay Jamie in bed. They'll know what happened. Add how I want to talk to Drift.
Drift is shocked to hear that Jamie told me everything I didn't know — though it's not much — including what Drift doesn't want to tell anyone.
"... Jamie didn't tell me or Crosshairs directly. I think she forgot we were sitting on the couch when she was talking to her mom. Though she doesn't hide her crying," Drift explains.
"Jamie wouldn't forget her best friends and guardians are with her," I argue, "more like she's displeased when you two aren't with her."
"Then she's afraid to talk to me. I worry she'll take any conversation as saying no. I know her eating habits aren't good, period, but definitely not good when pregnant. Then the scrap back in her dimension. I do not know what to do about that. Clearly, Jamie being an adult means nothing there. That's caused more problems we have to deal with."
Now tears roll down his face. Drift didn't think I'd hug him.
"Many of the Autobots want to help, but you're right; it's wise not to tell them about this. They know to be careful. Let them help when you and Crosshairs think Jamie will be ok with others. They'd be happy for you and Jamie."
"No, it's too late," Drift sobs, "Jamie is too old."
It's hard to believe that he's giving up, even if he researched human femme reproduction. He's not entirely right, but no point in correcting him right now. Though I know that he could be right. Rachet could confirm this for us, but I'm letting Drift and Jamie tell him when they're ready, hoping they'll talk to him.
