Just forewarning Standard disclaimer. Sailor Moon is not mine, the idea and the show belong to people much richer than I. Please don't sue!
Dimmer however is mine.. of course if someone wants to use him or any of his transformations for ANY reason "thbbt" go ahead. You have my complete and total permission. I only request you tell me, mainly cause I'd like to read it, or see it, or any other thing… Hell, I don't care if you don't tell me, it's not like I could find you anyway.
Warning: mild language, also this is my first fic. Maybe some lime sometime in the far future, but I seriously doubt it. Violent scenes, no worse than most action movies, but they actually sound worse when described…
Just forewarning Standard disclaimer. Sailor Moon is not mine, the idea and the show belong to people much richer than I. Please don't sue!
Dimmer however is mine.. of course if someone wants to use him or any of his transformations for ANY reason "thbbt" go ahead. You have my complete and total permission. I only request you tell me, mainly cause I'd like to read it… Hell, I don't care if you don't tell me, it's not like I could find you anyway.
Warning: mild language. Maybe some lime sometime in the far future, but I seriously doubt it. Violent scenes, no worse than most action movies, but they actually sound worse when described…
It was the next afternoon and the scouts, Darien, Chad, one very irritated navy blue cat, and a stark white one that was looking rather nervously in the other cat's direction, had once again gotten together for another meeting at the temple. Everyone had arrived except for one. Right now they all sit cross-legged in a circle. Dimmer was standing, and pacing back and forth. "Where is that girl?"
"Detention. She tried to eat her lunch in class again." Lita supplied.
"So how long is this going to take her?"
"That long!" Cried an out of breath Serena as she walked over to the circle and fell to the floor with a thump.
"Okay girls, and guys. Everything's all set up. If there is an attack during school hours, Darien and Chad handle it. If they need help the girls are called in via scout communicator. You'll constantly be on call. We'll keep your identities secret that way got any questions?"
Mina raised her hand.
"Yes?"
"How do we separate the fans from actual calls?"
"They'll be transferred directly form the police station. They're going to filter them out for us."
"I have one too Dimmer."
"Shoot Aimes."
"Are you going to be the one they call? There might be a lot of calls for us and you already have enough to do with all your jobs."
"Correct as usual Amy. I can't take the calls, but I got someone in who can, being off school with an injury and all. Not only that, but he'll be able to sense whether the calls have something to do with the Negaverse or not."
"Wow that's some secretary. Who is he?" Lita perked up at the sound of another guy around. "Is he cute?"
"Umm… I can't really answer that second one, but the first one's simple. You can come in now!" Dimmer called at the door.
"Uhh… Hello again." Greg stood in the door way, his arm still in a sling.
"Greg! What are you doin here?"
"Well after I told my parents what job I had been offered, they told me it was fine if I wanted to stay here. They said they'd make a lot of trips back and forth to here any way, and wouldn't have been able to see much of me if I remained at home."
"Not only that, but they pay's pretty good too eh b'y?"
Greg laughed and scratched the back of his head.
"How much are they paying you, that your parents are going to pay for an apartment in the middle of Tokyo for?"
"What do you think Aimes?" Dimmer answered for the embarrassed Greg. "We needed someone else who knows who you are, and was trusted with that information. Greg is the only one that fits the bill. That and getting paid directly from the Prime Minister's office does have a little advantage with it. He was the first one to come to mind. I'm still sorry for that whole arm thing…"
"Really Dimmer its alright, you really didn't know."
"Still feel kinda bad about the whole deal…"
"Well it did give us a valuable lesson. We absolutely have to keep each other informed about everything to stop this kind of thing from happening again. Besides it seemed it was good for us in its own way."
"How so Amy?" Rei asked curious.
"Well, that whole fight brought us all together. It was the beginning of everything. Dimmer chased after Darien, Chad made his first appearance as Daybreak. Dimmer met up with Talenite, and we won him over to us as a spy. We found out about fate being broken."
"Hey Yeah! I see now," Lita exclaimed, "And the fight after that one was even more intense. Because of it Mina was brought here, Serena found out Darien was Tuxedo Mask, Dimmer and Chad started training us, and so now we're all together."
"So in essence, we have the Negaverse to thank for bringing us together, and making us stronger."
"Right on, Darien, and that makes us a couple steps closer to getting the Silver Emperium Crystal for Serena."
"Don't you mean the Moon Princess Dimmer?" Amy reminded him.
"Oh yeah, right the Moon Princess… I forgot about that…" Dimmer tried to keep his gaze off of Serena.
Darien visibly glowered at the floor. It might be easy for Dimmer to forget about her, but that just reminded him of his dreams and his entire purpose of being here. He couldn't believe he had forgotten her! But it was understandable with everything that's been going on lately. It didn't make too much sense to him though, his second persona was created just to find her, but he had been having such a good time with Serena and her friends, he almost forgot what he was here for. He promised himself to redouble his efforts.
"So just how are we going to find the rest of these pieces than?"
"Hey Darien, no need to get grumpy. I'm sure we'll think of something, but you know as much as we do about everything right now." Serena frowned a little. She thought Darien had lost the whole jerk attitude, but she guessed he was just holding it back for a time. "Jeez what a grump." She thought to herself.
"And unfortunately it seems only the Negaverse knows how to get them. Dimmer and Greg have already told us who all the next crystal holders are." Lita announced offhandedly. It was something these meeting had continuously been about lately, and the subject was starting to grate on her nerves.
Rei was still shocked that her grandfather happened to be one of them, and everyone was surprised one was in a much fatter version of Artemis. Lita was still a little more than pissed to find out Andrew had a fiancé. Strangely enough Serena didn't seem as upset about that as Lita thought she'd normally be.
Lita smirked, "She must be getting a thing for Darien, they've been hanging out a lot lately. Let's see, that leaves Dimmer and Rei. I can just so see that," She laughed to herself as she watched Rei smack Dimmer for calling Darien monkey boy again.
"Than there seems to be Chad. He's turning red every time he looks in Mina's direction. Wonder what happened there… And of course there's Amy and Greg." Lita swelled a bit in pride knowing she helped to bring that one about. They seemed utterly perfect for each other.
"Now when is the perfect guy going to show up for me…" Lita couldn't help but be a little envious of her friends. She'd only known everyone for a short time, but they'd all gotten so close. As Dimmer always said hardship forges the strongest friendships and they certainly had their fair share of them.
Lita was broken out of her reverie by Serena waving her hand in front of her.
"Hello! Earth to Lita! Jeez, I know Dimmer pulling Greg out of the back like that was a bit of a shock, but isn't this a little much?"
"Knock it off Meatball head! Can't you see she was thinking? You can't give anyone a moments peace can you?!"
Serena looked up at Rei and once again set off the water work factory. She reached for the next closest person, and Darien looked down to see the blonde crying into his shirt.
"Aww Man I just got this one cleaned!" He thought to himself. He looked quickly around at his options, Dimmer and Chad quickly took a step back. Caught, he sat going into usual guy mode in not being able to resist helping the crying blonde. He shook his head, and did his best to comfort her.
"I'm kinda getting worried though Dim." Chad, who had been sitting rather quiet throughout this spoke up.
"Why's that?"
"Well, we've got Artemis and Luna keeping an eye on the people you mentioned, and we haven't seen hide nor hair of the Negaverse. You would have thought that they'd have done something by now."
"Can't be sure Chad. I know who they're goin' after, but as for when I can't tell."
"Should have happened last week." Greg stated simply.
"…oh."
"So what can we do about it?"
Greg's cell picked that time to ring. Greg looked down at it suspiciously. He whispered just loud enough that the others couldn't register it. His face betrayed what he had said though. "It's them…"
"Hello?"
"Where?"
"How long?"
"They're on their way."
Greg flipped the phone closed.
"Alright! Let's go guys!"
"Not you Dimmer. You're staying here." Amy stated.
"What? No way! I gotta help!"
"I'm not letting you transform! You trained us for this. Let us handle it." Rei quickly joined in with Amy.
"Besides Dimmer," Amy interrupted, she knew that telling him what to do was never going to get Dimmer to stay put, there had to be an appropriate reason. "You may not be able to go with us, but you can help Chad, and keep an eye on us, that way, you can protect him if they find a way to him."
"Fine than. Go." Dimmer said, more than a little dejected. He hadn't been allowed turn into Sundown for awhile. He supposed that was a good thing, but he just felt like he needed to let loose sometimes. He wasn't able to practice too hard anymore because he might exert himself too much and trigger the transformation.
He missed the feeling of exhaustion after a training session. The feeling of going all out, and relishing in the total relaxation that came afterward. He wondered if he'd get to feel it ever again. He'd often used to beat on all his old problems. Punching each one with the pure strength needed to defeat them. It seem to help him get rid of all his negative feelings, now he had to simply be rid of them to become the guy he promised he'd be by the new moon. It had only been two nights, and already he found it was very difficult.
Solitude, Silence, Darkness, these three things composed his entire life. How was he supposed to be rid of them? He'd have to get rid of them completely by doing the opposite of each he figured. He'd been working on silence. He had to let all of his thoughts be known. Dimmer and Rei had discussed it the night before, she believed it would be the right road to let someone know about his past. She told him that all he had to do for darkness is lighten up. Actually it was meant as a joke, but it no longer seemed too far from the truth. But to do that, he'd probably have to do something about the silence and solitude first.
"Hey Dimmer! You comin'?"
"Hey! I'm there b'y!"
"Than come on."
"Hey Artemis! Luna! Get in the back pack, we'll take yas with us."
The two cats looked at the close quartered backpack than at each other. Luna quickly put her nose in the air, and Artemis sighed. "If it's all the same to you Dimmer, I think I'll hang around here."
Luna jumped into the bag.
"Are you sure Art?"
"He's sure. Now let's go! There's no time to waste!"
"Okay, okay! Jeez Luna, don't yell in me ear. See ya after Art! Don't worry, the girls will be fine!"
"Okay! Look after Mina!"
"Ha! I think Chad'll have that one covered."
"What makes you say that?"
"Later!" Dimmer sprinted out the doorway to where the Harley had been started up.
Outside Daybreak was talking to Greg. "So how are you gonna get there?"
"I told Captains, Pidge and John that I would be here. They're coming to pick me up. I'm getting trained as a communications officer right now. They say I'm pretty good, but it helps knowing exactly when they'll call, who they are, and what they're calling about not long after they called. The only tricky part is the encoding, and frequencies. It's actually pretty simple."
"Really? Think you can set this thing up?" He handed him his headset, Dimmer told him to get.
"Wow! I heard them talking about these. A C-81, yeah I could do that, where did you get this."
"Same place I got this…" Daybreak opened the trunk to his bike. Ammo and guns of all types were hidden there and in the seat itself. Also several hidden compartments to the bike held heat seeking missiles, remote control missiles, explosive ammo, grenades, plastique and some weaponry he didn't recognize. Wait a minute… missiles?
"What have I gotten myself into?" Greg shook his head
"Hey stop showing off your stuff Daybreak! We got some Negaverse busting to do!" Dimmer smiled.
"Here we go!" Daybreak laughed and revved the bike as Dimmer plugs in a CD. The music to Run DMC's "Ghost busters," was playing only substituted was Dimmer's and Chad's voices, they had obviously made a remake of the song.
ONE WEEK LATER
"So how do you like being the captain of your own precinct Pidge?" John laughed as his partner drove through town. Pidge watched the large advertisement on a bus about the Sailor Scouts help line. They were telling Dimmer that they had to figure out what to do about the fans calling in, They were taking up all of the police lines. It had only been a week, and the scouts had been called in more times than anyone could have predicted. It was becoming a real hazard to live in Tokyo lately, and what's more, instead of scaring people away, the battles seemed to be attracting people.
"You know what John? Lets think about it. I'm working with super heroes, our names will probably go down in history, and we're working directly under the Prime minister himself. Not too mention we have the authority to call in the military should we be asked for help. I've got one question about this all. Where's the downside?"
"Yeah, I know what you mean. We're making loads of money without drawback. I have been thinking though… Haven't the scouts had a little more confrontations than usual lately? And all the places were staking out under their orders, you know looking for that crystal whatever, are showing no activity other than what's usual. I get the feeling something's going to happen here."
Pidge acknowledged his partner with a small grunt of agreement. He was a detective for a lot of years, and that old instinct was starting to make him suspicious. "There's just something wrong, I don't like this."
"Mars Fire Ignite!"
"Whoo…" Jupiter sighed, resting her hands on her knees. "Last one. Nice shot Mars."
Sailor Moon simply fell to her knees and gave a tired sigh herself, along with a large yawn.,
"Oooh! These stupid Negaturds are way past tiring me out. That was the third time today alone! First they don't attack at all, and now there's never a moment's peace!"
Mars dusted her hands, and looked back to the roasted youma steaming on the pavement. "I can't believe there were this many around before we got into this stupid business, I don't get why they're attacking us like this."
Tuxedo Mask answered while he helped Sailor Moon back to her feet. "They seem to be trying to ware us down. They're doing a pretty good job too."
"You're telling me!" Jupiter exclaimed quite loudly, "Just how many are there?"
"That is not the problem Jupiter, we have to find some way to launch an offensive against them. As it is all we are doing is defending against them. They also seem to have minions to spare among all of the demons and youma, just letting them do all of the attacking means will lose eventually for sure!"
"So how do we launch an offensive. It's not like we can go and attack their front door, we have no idea where that is…"
"Well Venus, I have taken the liberty of scanning their portals they use to travel back and forth. I am actually having a bit of success at beginning to understand the readings I've gotten from them. If I determine what all of this means, we maybe be able to design something that will allow us to travel to their dimension."
"What? Travel to the other dimension? Can we be gettin' Dimmer home that way Mercury?"
"I'm not sure Daybreak. You see traveling back and forth to a different dimension is one thing, but Dimmer not only did that, he came from the future of his planet, remember? He was 22 there. So he also travelled through time. I don't think the Negaverse can go that far…"
"Than how did Dimmer?"
"He certainly doesn't know. He was watching TV, than *poof* he got sucked in. The next thing he remembers is getting out of the crater you pretty much found him in Mercury. He never had any extraordinary powers before coming here."
"Oh Wow! Hey Mars! How do you know that? Did Dimmer tell you his past?" Sailor Moon jumped out of Tuxedo Mask's arms and berated Mars with questions.
"What? No he keeps that to himself. Why would he tell me?" Mars already had Jupiter and Sailor Moon picking on her from where they found out she had spent until the late hours of the morning talking to him. They had wanted to know what they were talking about, but that was a little too personal for Dimmer, and he had enough on his plate without having to deal with Serena and Lita hassling him about being a romantic. It sounded romantic to her, she had to agree, but it didn't look that way to Dimmer. So maybe it wasn't so romantic as it was a reason why it was impossible for him to truly fall in love, or is it that he just needed to make up a reason why he couldn't. A reason to explain why he never has…
"Jeez there I go again." She muttered under her breath pointedly ignoring the two yammering girls behind her. She looked to Mercury for some help, but she was just looking at her quizzically. She obviously wanted to know if she really knew about Dimmer's past or not. It could be helpful to her in discovering more about his dimension and how to get him back, but the truth was she knew very little about it, she only knew a little of the way he looked at his world. That wasn't enough to go by. Tuxedo Mask had just took off while everyone else was distracted by the one-sided conversation Sailor Moon and Jupiter were having with Mars. Venus had turned away as well. She hadn't known Dimmer that long, and almost everything he did lately just seemed to make him look like a jerk, so she never knew him any other way. Than Chad… Hey wait a minute…
"Just where do you think you're going Chad?!"
"Hey! I'm Daybreak remember?" Chad quickly turned around from where he was trying to creep around the conversation and race off on his bike before any one noticed.
"Whatever! Why were you trying to duck out of the conversation like that?"
"What? No I wasn't doin' anythin' like that. Just tryin' to uuuh… um… make a dramatic exit! Yeah! Just like Tuxedo Mask right?"
"Huh? Oh no! Darien left! He didn't even say good bye…" Sailor Moon pouted.
"But he never says good bye." Jupiter reminded her in a whisper.
"Oh yeah!" Sailor Moon's expression grew much more cheerful.
"Don't change the subject. What are you hiding Chad?"
"It's Daybreak dammit! Daybreak! And I ain't hidin' notin'."
"Than why are you sneaking off?!"
"'Cause I wanted to make a dramatic exit!!"
Mars gave a glare to Daybreak that ran shivers down his spine.
"Umm… maybe we should go now…"
"Good idea Sailor Moon, I'll see you later!"
"Yeah, right, hey Jupiter wait up. See ya later guys!"
"Bye Venus! Bye everyone!" Just like that the Sailors split up and took off.
Mars didn't even wave to the pig-tailed blonde as she continued to glare at Daybreak.
"Listen, I don't know how long you want to stand here glaring at me, but I'm leaving now, so maybe you can stare at the wall behind me or something." Chad said nervously as he tried to sidestep away from her gaze.
"You're not getting away that easy! You're hiding something and you better tell me what it is."
"Alright! … alright already, sheesh, I found out some stuff about Dimmer. And not the one we know." Right about now Daybreak would have said anything to get her eyes off of him as soon
"What? What do you mean not the one we know?"
"There is a Dimmer that exists in this world before the Dimmer we know arrived. I was looking in to it through a few connections I have. I guy who goes by the name of Ken. He works as a reporter for the Tokyo report. He did a check up as a favor to me."
"What did you do for him?"
"Gave him a lead on some crime scenes, not important really."
"Okay than what did you find out?"
"Hey! I can't tell you that! I know stuff now that Dimmer probably didn't want talked about!"
Mars backed off a little. He was right; Dimmer would have to tell her on his own. "You're right Chad, but you are going to have to tell Dimmer what you know about him alright?"
"Yeah, no problem Mars, you wanna change back now? We may make a little bit of a ruckus goin' through town in this get up."
"What? You think I'm going to change back in front of you?!"
"Okay, I'm gonna go over to the alley here to get out of this jacket and stuff."
"You better not peek!"
Daybreak left to get changed, and a still paranoid Sailor Mars powered down. For a moment there was only a red flame covering her body before she appeared in her normal outfit, all traces of Sailor Mars gone.
She heard a noise from around the alley way corner, and her eyebrow twitched in anger.
"CHAD YOU HENTAI!" A rock that was lying around suddenly made an imprint on the back of Chad's head. Chad fell over senseless.
"It was worth it." were the last words he could say before he slipped into unconsciousness.
The night air echoed the familiar sound of silence to Dimmer as he locked up the arcade. For the first time in a long time though, it made him feel uncomfortable.
"I have to practice with the kids and their concert. It's coming up in just a little over a week…" he said quietly, hoping to break the awkward silence surrounding him. The girls had just called telling him everything was okay. He smiled at that. The girls didn't need his help anymore; they didn't need Daybreak, and most of the time they could even fight without the help of Tuxedo Mask. They had more youma and demon kills in this one week than they did since Serena first met Luna.
Talenite never contacted him anymore; he had given him a way to contact him through a mirror into the Negaverse. Dimmer kept it in his closet. It was only to be used in emergencies. Talenite had told him of what Beryl was doing and that soon his services to her would no longer be needed and he would become expendable. She summoned all the last Demons they fought, and she was already starting to exceed her teacher's abilities in what she could summon.
Something big was going to happen soon. He was sure of it. They were testing the scouts. He was sure she would send something that was supposed to squash them. It was his hope he trained them well enough to defend against it. He remembered warning them against using their full abilities against the Youma, as a trump card to play against Beryl's final move. The girls all still wore the training weights. Even in battle. They had to focus themselves to still fight somewhat like they used to, with ranged attacks.
"Why does everything have to be so damn difficult!" He yelled at the silence of the street he was walking down, and gave frustrated punch at street lamp, taking a good chunk out of it.
"Calm down Dimmer, it's okay, just calm down…" He told himself as he started to take deep breaths. They can do this without you right? That's what the training is all about right?" He was mildly surprised to figure out that deep breaths had done the trick. He wasn't used to getting so wound up.
He scratched once again fiercely at an itch in his arm, as he glanced up at the moon. It wouldn't be long until the new moon, just a two days. All the training he put them through was to let him focus on his problems instead of dealing with theirs.
"I've never broke a vow yet, and I'm not gonna start now. I gotta kick this thing. Sundown is helpful, but all that pain… the girls' are right, it can't be good for me." He thought out loud, while scratching the back of his neck just as fiercely as he has his arm.
"Than maybe you should listen to them, and actually try to do something about it."
"Huh? Hey who said that?"
Dimmer stood upright, and turned to look at the freckled child in front of him. The child's hair was the same color as his own, a dark black. Yet it was strange, in the light of street lamps, Dimmer could swear there was a dark tint of blue there. The child, dressed in a simple black T-shirt and jeans, seemed to emanate happiness from all around him. Dimmer only grew suspicious of this. The child noticed and frowned, and than once again turned back to a large toothy grin.
"Wow, your senses are better than I thought they were!" The child was smiling wildly with his eyes shut, while rocking up and down on his heels.
"Who are you?! Or what…"
"Oh please. I'm human! In fact, I..…" he disappeared.
"Am just like…"
Dimmer turned around to see the boy spinning around in a playful manner on the street lamp.
"You." The kid stopped spinning to tap Dimmer lightly on his nose.
"What do you mean just like me? Who are you?"
The boy jumped off of the base of the street lamp and raised his arms. "Ta da! I am Knight's Valor!"
Dimmer sweatdropped, "Aren't you a little young to be possessing people and kissing girls?"
"Yeah… It seems that way doesn't it, but I remember Rei. And I don't always look like this."
"You remember Rei? What do you mean by that?"
"This is the third try at this Dimension… I wonder will its fate be broken beyond repair once again…"
"Hmph. No doubting you're Valor now. Are you going to keep talking and not explaining? If so I'm gonna walk away now. The last thing I need is to hear more of your damn riddles. And if you don't always look like this than could you change to something that looks a bit more mature?"
"Riddles?" Valor arced an eyebrow at Dimmer, "And here I thought they were pretty self explanatory, as for changing forms, I'm afraid not. My other form would cause people to believe that there's a new hero around. I'm afraid I cannot allow that, Fate is broken enough as it is. Why did you have to go and pretty much tell Serena who Darien was? That really changed the whole picture on us, we are all trying to fix things, we don't need you makin' things worse than they already are. I would've been here sooner, but we've all had our hands full tryin' to fix that random comment you know?"
"You're restoring fate?"
"Mm hmm. By the way wave to your left."
"Why?"
"Hey! Make like Nike, and just do it."
"Okay." Dimmer sweatdropped, and waved to his left.
"Now look at the tree just across the road and do it."
"Okay…"
Valor jumped, and sat on Dimmer's shoulders and waved to the same tree.
"What exactly are we waving at here?"
"Oh… I'd say about a million or so people who tuned in to watch the new Sailor Moon reruns."
"WHAT?!"
"What yourself. You jump into a TV show, change things around in plain view, and you think no one's gonna notice? Jeez, Council has just found your old dimension and your already throwing things out of order over there."
"Council? Who is that?"
"Nope, that was supposed to be "who are they?". Council are they who weave fate. And they've been searching for quite some time for you."
"Me? What for? It's not like I did any of this… well not on purpose anyway…"
"I see… You still don't remember do you? That's no surprise really."
"Remember what? I thought I got all of my memories back…"
"Nope, and most likely you never will. I don't even know what they are, though I do remember more than you."
"What are you talking about?"
"Our memories."
"You lost your memories too?"
"Nah, I lost yours and mine."
"What?!"
"Hey calm down, you lost mine and yours too."
"That's it! I thought I said no more riddles!"
"I'm not saying riddles, just facts."
"Okay, will you just answer questions for me here, in a way that isn't going to confuse me completely.
"Sure, shoot."
"Don't steal my lines."
"Does it count as stealin' them, when they're my lines too?"
"Yes it does! I'm not really sure what you meant by that! but yes it does."
"Damn! Now I'm gonna have to think up new ones…"
"Okay. First, get offa my shoulders, next, tell me exactly who you are."
"Okay." He jumped down, "I am Arkand Kitana. I used to live on an Island at the tip of Nova Scotia, named Cape Breton. I near killed myself after I was put up on false charges of rape. I am you, or was you. Do you remember me now?"
"But… that's me…" Dimmer looked at the boy, there was a striking resemblance. "Why is your hair blue?"
"Didn't think so, one minute I'll remind you." He jumped up and tapped Dimmer's forehead.
Than everything started spinning.
The night was dark and the storm was in full rage. The cliff was next to Arkand's favorite beach. Arkand himself stood on the muddy cliffside. He was soaked through to the bone, and the raging autumn rain stung his eyes. That wasn't the pain that he felt that night though. His life was over. What self respecting employer would ever hire some one who could rape, if no one else seen him being above such a disgusting, horrible crime, how could he see himself any better? Could he live as a rapist? How could he live without his honor?" tears and rain were washed into the ocean below. Arkand cried as the storm continued to pelt him.
"Fuck it." He muttered to himself. He stretched his arms out wide, and tilted his head upwards. He laughed. He laughed and sang in a gasping voice that still managed to ring clear over the ocean, only to be swallowed up in the thunder crashing in the clouds.
Song: his thoughts:
"Sure am glad it's raining He felt the rain in all its glory
It's hard to see the tear drops, Even he couldn't tell what was rain
in my eyes. and what were tears
Sure am glad it's raining. It sunk in until very pore was soaked
A wounded warrior needs a place to hide. His beach was beside him, his hiding spot
I thought that I'd found some one He thought of Russell, and Malene
On who Mitchell and Katie,
I could two people who never knew all that happened
depend. Simon, who he couldn't trust enough to tell
What they needed Mike
Was a hero God, I tried Mike
What I wanted I'm so selfish, it's no wonder they believed her
Was a friend…" and yet I couldn't truly accept one
"Sure am glad it's raining." Lightning lit up the sky as Dimmer finally let his arms fall to his sides
"Yeah I'm glad it's raining…." He continued to sing as the insane laughter form before turned into sobs.
"Hmmm mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm." He continued to hum as he stepped up to the end of the cliff.
A loud crash of thunder suddenly surprised him. Lightning struck out over the ocean, lighting up the cliff face that was starting to give way beneath him, with the weight of the mud. He screamed as he scrambled for a grip under the mudslide that had taken his feet out from under him. He desperately grabbed for the grass and rocks underneath the mud, bloodying his hands as he felt whatever he got a grip on give way. Still he scrambled, somehow he managed to bring his legs back up over the cliff. His breathing was rough and ragged as he slowly stood up as a muddy mess. He laughed as he took off his coat.
"SO THAT"S IT?!" He yelled out over the ocean, and to the entire world.
"Is that all you got?! Well, if that's it, I think I'll just stick around to annoy you. If I'm dust in the wind, Than I'm gonna be the dust particle that chokes ya! How do ya like them apples?! YOU BASTARD!!"
Dimmer fell on his ass, as the memory subsided.
"Yes, actually, I did remember that, thank you! And I really did not want to live through it again!"
"No you don't remember than… ah I see. I am your block. What memories I have, you cannot get."
"What are you talking about?"
"Do you remember New Brunswick Dimmer?"
"Of course not, I was what? 8 or 9?"
"And not a single memory?"
"Uuh… no. I hadn't really thought about it."
"Dimmer, I'm sorry. I've done so much to hurt you, I understand now."
"Glad someone does…"
"Than I will try to make your life easier now. Dimmer did you actually hear what I told you in the hospital?"
"Yes, I remember that too. No need to touch my forehead thank you, I had about enough of that."
"No," Arkand laughed, "I'm not thinking about doing that again. I mean what I said. I will try to explain things"
"Well its about damn time!"
"Okay, here's the scoop, don't let a dark past echo into your future. Do you know what I speak of?"
"Ummm… no…"
"Don't let your past stop you from enjoying life Dimmer. You can be happy, these girls, Rei. She makes you happy doesn't she?"
"Of course they're my friends."
"Are they? Or are they just friends like Mitchell and Katie are friends?"
"I… shit…"
"Trust them Dimmer. Trust them with the truth, as they trust you with theirs."
"How can I? How can I trust some one so completely as Serena does. She believes everything she's told. She's so gullible."
"Is being so gullible wrong?"
"No, it looks good on her. I couldn't imagine her any other way."
"Why can't you let yourself be gullible too, than?"
"My world doesn't allow me to be gullible, if I am, I'll die, or I'll live with even more pain than I do now."
"No one said this was easy. You must trust them Dimmer. Tell them everything they want to know. Besides, you're not in your world now are you?"
"That's so easy to say. It's a little bit different when you have to do it."
"Yes, it is. Don't block out others, it is there strength you must learn to thrive. This is your power Dimmer, but if you keep people at arms length you will never be able to use it."
"What do you mean that's my power?"
"Exactly that. It is the power that made this universe, and it belongs to you, so I'm told. Learn to tap into this, and you may be able to supply yourself the power enough to cross dimensions, even to span time! How do you think you got here?"
"I… I don't know."
"You tapped into your power Dimmer. Only for a moment and look at how powerful it was. With power like that, you can help to restore fate."
"Than I could also get back home? But what about…"
"What about what Dimmer?"
"What about Rei and the others?"
"Will you put their whole world at risk, just 'cause you want to stick around?"
"Of course not…"
"Dimmer, I'm teaching you the way to fight the three evils. There are many evils Dimmer, but some more than most, rage, lust, any of the seven deadly sins, but also there are the three powers you invoke into yourself when you become Sundown. Do you know them? They surround you even now."
"I would have said Darkness, silence, and solitude, but you being here negates the last."
"But I'm you, so I don't count."
"Great, I'm standing here talking to myself and getting a response, this is pathetic."
Arkand smiled and laughed. "I suppose it is isn't it? Don't worry you get used to of doing eccentric things when your as powerful as I am, and you will be if you manage to follow these steps."
"So I'm gonna be a crazy, immature, nutcase, that gets his kicks out of confusing people?"
"Yup"
"Sounds fun, where do I sign up?"
"Just follow these instructions."
"Alright, I got it so far, trust people, so I talk to them. That would negate silence. Stop keeping them at arms length, and there goes solitude, but that leaves…"
"Darkness. The darkness of the heart, Dimmer. It has a tight grip on you. There is a light that gets rid of it. the light of love. Dimmer you must learn to show your love."
"What?!"
"Dimmer your love will show, two times this dimension had to be restarted because of it. It's going to happen again, because no matter how long you were away you never stopped loving her, and no matter how many times she meets you, she always seems to love you as well. No matter who you are at the time. She fell for me once, and fell for Sundown the other time so very long ago. Twice Fate's cycle was disturbed"
"Yeah right. How do I beat darkness again, and what cycle's are you talking about?"
"Follow the flame Dimmer," Arkand smiled, "follow the flame, and it will lead you out of the darkness. This flame has helped you for much of this time Dimmer, are you so blind you can't see it? This is something you'll have to see for yourself, I'm afraid. No one can tell you this. I must go now Dimmer. Be at peace. When you work with fate, things tend to work out in the end."
"Wait! What about the memories of power I sometimes get? Is the feeling that I've done all this before, like I've been in battle to battle for all my life part of the power you mentioned?"
"I don't know Dimmer. I'm also missing many of our memories, like the ones after that night on the cliff, I remember nothing after that. Sometimes I have them of many different people, and places that I've never visited. If you don't have those memories, and neither do I, than it is Sundown who holds them."
"Sundown? He's me too?"
"Of course he is. You form into him do you not? He is a darker version of our self though. Watch what he says, he will deceive all to destroy fate. That includes you. I'm needed now Dimmer. The Sailor of Time itself summons me. Remember well what you've learned tonight." Arkand's voice whispered as if travelling on the wind, his persona faded to nothing as the voice was carried off.
Dimmer was left with a now blinked out street lamp.
Dimmer gave the street lamp a flat look.
"Bastard," he muttered. All in all though, it had been a good week. He now knew the meaning behind most of those enigmatic things Valor had told him in the hospital.
"Now all I have to do is the deed itself."
He paused before walking once more.
"Great so all I have left to do is all the hard parts…"
Sailor Moon Says:
"Wow the Sailor Scouts sure have been busy! The enemies keep coming and we have to keep defending, no matter how many come, or how hard it is. But that is the way it is with problems isn't it? Sometimes it feels like they are endless. And the worse part about it is we all know it will probably get worse before it gets better…But the thing to remember is that as long as you do your best, and try to always do the right thing, it will get better! Sailor Moon says!
Reality:
Mike put down the headlines stating that Dimmer really was trapped into the Sailor Moon show. "So they finally admitted it."
"yeah I thought you'd wanna know."
"Thanks Mitchell. How is a Katie doing? I haven't seen her in a while."
"She says to say she's fine. The press haven't bothered in a while, but now they're gonna be back for sure. Stupid, fucking vultures."
"If only there was something we could do for him…"
"Do for who? Dimmer? He's trapped in his dream world! He doesn't need our help Mike, unless it's to help him stay there. He had a rough time of it here."
"Yeah, but I get this feeling, ya know? The feeling something bad is gonna happen, he knows it too, he's been fidgety lately."
"Nah, it looks like the show is gonna make him come to terms with himself, before it sends him home. Sounds like someone wanted to do him a huge favor actually, and what d you mean by fidgety?"
"Maybe you're right. But he's always scratching, his arms his neck, every second gesture the show has him make is him scratching."
"He's scratching?"
"I know it sounds stupid…"
"That's because it is. Mike, maybe you're just missing him… he's been gone for a while now."
"Yeah, I miss him, maybe that's it. But something tells me no, something says that something more is
gonna happen…"
Endnotes: Okay! This chapter took forever to get out, and I'm sooo completely sorry about that. I wasn't on my computer for a long while because of Christmas vacation, but now school is back and so am I.
Hope you had happy holidays!
I think I can now say this fic is going well? Let me know by reviewing! See ya in a while people!