A Broken Life, A Broken Family
By Lonesome_Pan-Chan
Chapter 6 Good and Bad or Bad and Good?
Normal POV
Dearest Panny,
The news on that piece of paper, which arrived to us only a few days ago, had a huge affect on my mother. She cried for 2 days straight without sleep, in finding that her first-born son became what he became, and made you suffer so much since you were taken away from us. My father Goku was also affected by your news and was close to flying over to LA to be with you...
Pan. I have prevented my parents from going to the states, and bringing you here by all means. I want you to decide if you want to leave the place in which you suffered so much, but yet through your letter I can tell you are a survivor so I am giving you the chance to start all over, here with us in England. Don't lock us out if you choose not to come back home, but let us visit you... On the bottom of this envelope there are 8 one- way tickets to England on a private jet. I hope you will take the tickets, and come back to us with your other siblings. Please Pan we are still your family, we still care, and we want you back. We really miss you. Come Home.
Sincerely:
Goten Son
Laying the piece of paper down slowly, Pan picked up the 8 flight tickets, and looked at them numbly. Fighting a huge war in her head. Pan placed the tickets on top of the television and walked to the kitchen still trying to digest the new problem/opportunity. Leaving this house would be a blessing and having a family really care about her was another bonus, but leaving all the people who helped her and were there for her, would be a huge heartache.
"I don't know what to do," she whispered quietly covering her face in frustration, and leaning against the kitchen table. The obvious decision would be to get away and go to England with her siblings, and Nanna, but what if they didn't want to go. Then she would have a problem. She couldn't leave them and she couldn't just leave and say I'll visit sometime.
If she stayed her nightmares would keep replaying themselves while she slept, and the cause of her nightmares might one day return to what was once their home, and her nightmare of a life would replay all over again. If she left she could start all over again, and live feeling safer and more secure, but she would have to leave all her friends who had supported her since she was 14. Then if her siblings didn't want to go...
"I have to go, I have to leave now that a perfectly good chance has presented itself... it will hurt to leave my friends but we will keep in touch..." Pan told herself, while walking to her living room. "I need this, I need to get away," grabbing her jacket and placing the tickets in one of the pockets, closing it securely, she walked out her front door, walking swiftly in the newly starting rain. "If I don't I will have to live in that house, waiting for one day my father to be released from the slammer," she mumbled to herself keeping a fast pace. The rain became more than mere water drop, now they were full out hail. Bending her shoulders low, Pan walked through the empty street of LA, heading for her gym a few streets away. She didn't seem to notice all the hail hitting her shoulder in high speed or the emerging of the dangerous gangs on the street. She didn't hear catcalls that were called or the children running trying to get out of the rain/hail and back to their homes
"Pan?" a feminine voice asked from the alley to her right, as she passed by it. Turning to the voice she had heard Pan tried to see whom it was, but couldn't see the person's face, because it was covered by the shadows. "Pan? Oh my God Pan, you have grown so much," the woman said dramatically, not coming into the light. Feeling sick, Pan sprang back as if bitten, not wanting to know whom the woman was anymore. "Have you missed me? I have, and what about everyone else?" she asked excitedly? The woman knew about her sibling. "Why won't you answer me? Are you feeling sick? See you should have a hood on that jacket of you, you will catch a cold in this weather," the woman said motherly.
"Videl?" was all Pan could get out, watching as her mother comes out of the shadows frowning. She was carrying a bundle in her arms that seemed to be a baby. A wet baby, concern filled Pan's stomach. Watching the bundle closely, then to her mother, Pan realized she looked different, older. "What do you want Videl?" Pan asked having a little courage.
"Pan! Don't talk to me like that, I'm your mother!" Videl said stomping her leg angrily. She didn't seem sane, and that scared Pan, for the baby. "So answering your rude question, I decided to come back to check on everything at home. I really don't remember why I left, but it had to do with your father, I think," she said unsure stepping closer to Pan, moving the baby carelessly waking it. She didn't seem to notice it even when it began to cry. "Come here help me with my luggage," she said anxiously, almost dropping the baby. Pan grabbed it, taking its wet clothes off, and removing her jacket to covering the infant. He had stopped crying when he was dry. "Pan you never told me you had a baby!" Videl exclaimed happily, clapping her hands together in excitement, and going over to look at him.
"What-"Pan shut up then realizing something. Her mother was totally, and completely crazy. "Yeah," Pan said keeping the baby close to her body, and covered from the rain/hail.
"What's its name?" Videl asked watching the baby, with what Pan could confuse as loving eyes?
"His name is Goken," Pan said thinking a while, remembering her grandfather and Goten.
"That name reminds me of someone, I knew a real long time ago, but I don't think you would know of them," Videl said to herself, walking away from Pan, in the direction of Pan's house. Watching her leave, Pan felt a shiver run down her spine feeling something bad was going to happen, soon.
"We have to go, now that your with me I can't be weak, I have to be strong...for all of us," Pan whispered to the baby, who was looking up at her with innocent dark blue eyes. He seemed only a few days old, provably a week or less. Taking good care the baby, wouldn't get wet or hit by the hail, Pan walked slowly towards the gym.
Should I stop there or keep going??? Yeah right I'm in the mood I'll
keep writing!!! (Not the nasty type of Mood!!!)
As Pan got near enough to the gym, she yelled for someone to open the doors. Her back felt bruised and provably bleeding from minor cuts.
"Coach," Pan called from outside the gym, hoping they had heard her. The baby in her arms began to whine. "Dammit someone open the fucking door, I have a baby with me," she yelled rocking the baby back and forth so he wouldn't cry. She didn't like the new rule the gym had to enforce. 'Gym will have its doors locked after normal hours, which are 9 am – 6 pm, all boxers that train after these hours must come at prompt timing so they won't have to wait for the doors to open for them a while. Stupid rule I don't even know why they need it,' Pan thought reading the new rules paper.
Finally after 5 minutes the doors opened revealing a muscular man she knew well.
"Mike, it's about time someone opened, I was starting to feel everyone was ignoring me," Pan said walking in the hot room.
"What are you doing in the rain, and without a coat or sweater!" mike paused looking outside once more his eyes widening, "And with hail falling what wrong with you," he almost yelled.
I only shrugged before saying, "I ran into my mother." That shut him up; he looked at Pan sadly, before hearing a little noise from what she was carrying. "Oh and this is the gift I received from her," she said moving Goken so he could see him better, "his name is Goken," she stated before smiling at Mike sadly.
"Pan.." Mike stopped when he realized he didn't know what to say, watching her shake her head and smile.
"I prefer it this way Mike, my mother is insane when she gave me the baby she didn't seem to know what it was, even when he cried in its wet clothes. She even thought he was mine, so I am keeping him away from her. I can't be angry at her in her state of mind, but I can't take care of her either," Pan said sadly, feeling Mike hug her tight, and giving her a small peck on her cheek.
"Don't worry Panny, it will all work out. Now that I'm over the Marron stage, we can be tight again. I will help you," he said soothingly trying to comfort her like he used to, when her parents made her feel like shit.
"What do you mean over her stage?" Pan asked looking up at him confused.
"We broke up when I found her in our apartment fucking two other guys at once," he stated simply, smiling for some reason, "I guess you were right about her all along," he finished releasing Pan from the hug.
"I'm sorry," Pan said sadly feeling for her close friend. It had been a several years relationship, almost permanent, if what had happened hadn't.
"No worries, I'm fine but at least I have my friend back," he said smiling down at her.
Guilt struck Pan hard. She had shut him out completely, thinking it would have helped him, but really she just hurt him and their friendship. She hadn't been able to apologies or get close to him because of her pride. Her trains of thoughts were interrupted by Goken's cries.
"What's wrong Goken?" Pan asked the baby in a motherly manner, surprising Mike. She had never used so much care, and motherly worry in her voice in front of him or anyone else for that matter.
The baby kept crying making Pan bring him closer singing to him her song, and rocking him slowly. Mike walked over to her and looked down at the baby.
"He probably has a cold," he stated touching Goken's cheek before continuing, "and a low fever but nothing serious," he stated signaling her to follow him. He led her to his gym locker, pulling out his bath towel. "Take that jacket off of him, he need something dryer like this towel," he said giving it to her. Nodding Pan accepted it, and covered a crying Goken with it.
"So where's everyone?" Pan asked when Goken quieted a little.
"They went to that fight in the center of downtown," he shrugged; Pan gave him one of her look and he shrugged again. "I didn't feel like going today," he said simply.
"So that's the only sign you're showing about your brake up with Marron, you're not going out as much?" Pan asked watching him closely. He looked up at her, and to her surprise he was close to tears.
"I guess," he said trying hard not to let a single tear fall, and was successful.
"You know what?" Pan stated thoughtfully. "We are going out today, before I leave.." she trailed off watching as Mike look up at her in confusion. "Don't ask, I'll explain tomorrow," she said quickly.
"Okay so where do you want to go?" Pan asked him, thinking herself of some places.
"What about the baby?" Mike asked looking at her bundle.
"I was going to stay at Nanna's house, because of my mom being at the house and all... so I'll just leave him with my other brothers and sister for them to get acquainted," Pan said thoughtfully. "Okay so let's go to that new club just outside LA, what was it called again?" she said more to herself than to Mike. "Cloud 9," she blurted suddenly.
"Cool, come on I'll drop you off with your Nanna, and pick you up around 9?" he asked grabbing his keys, and walking with Pan out the gym.
"No take me to my house, I have all my clothes there, then I'll walk to Nanna's where you could pick me up," Pan said frowning at the thought of having to see Videl.
"Naw, I know you don't want your mother to come near the baby, so I'll just wait outside your house with the baby, while you get some clothes, then I'll take you to your Nanna's, deal?" he asked smirking when he saw Pan's grateful nod. "Anyway its only 7, we have two whole hours to get ready," he said simply, opening Pan's door of his car, and getting in himself.
"Pan! Where were you?" Videl nearly screamed as she saw her daughter come in the front door. To Pan's surprise Videl was in the kitchen making, food?
"No where important, just took a walk," Pan said simply walking up the stairs to her room. When she opened the door to her room she was surprised to see her room spotless.
"Do you like it?" squealed Videl, who had fallowed her up the stair. Pan looked at Videl and rolled her eyes.
"Yes mother I like the neatness," she said in monotone. Entering her room, she looked through her drawer finding some outfits, and putting them in a buffer bag.
"I love what you did with the place Pan, its better," Videl said cheerfully following her daughter out of her room. "By the way where is your father, and the other little children?" she asked Pan.
"Mom dad left taking everyone with him, but me. I decided to stay and keep this place in top shape," Pan answered walking towards the front door. It didn't feel right calling Videl, mom.
"Where are you going Pan?" she asked before Pan got to the door.
"Clubbing," Pan stated before going out the door, closing it. She walked quickly to where Mike's car was parked, and drove off as soon as she was in the passenger seat, to Nanna's house.
Author Notes: Well the mood's gone...(sighs) oh well next chapters will be up soon... Review please!
Next Chappie:
What happened first we where dancing then drinking, then dancing again... how did we end up in a bed?
By Lonesome_Pan-Chan
Chapter 6 Good and Bad or Bad and Good?
Normal POV
Dearest Panny,
The news on that piece of paper, which arrived to us only a few days ago, had a huge affect on my mother. She cried for 2 days straight without sleep, in finding that her first-born son became what he became, and made you suffer so much since you were taken away from us. My father Goku was also affected by your news and was close to flying over to LA to be with you...
Pan. I have prevented my parents from going to the states, and bringing you here by all means. I want you to decide if you want to leave the place in which you suffered so much, but yet through your letter I can tell you are a survivor so I am giving you the chance to start all over, here with us in England. Don't lock us out if you choose not to come back home, but let us visit you... On the bottom of this envelope there are 8 one- way tickets to England on a private jet. I hope you will take the tickets, and come back to us with your other siblings. Please Pan we are still your family, we still care, and we want you back. We really miss you. Come Home.
Sincerely:
Goten Son
Laying the piece of paper down slowly, Pan picked up the 8 flight tickets, and looked at them numbly. Fighting a huge war in her head. Pan placed the tickets on top of the television and walked to the kitchen still trying to digest the new problem/opportunity. Leaving this house would be a blessing and having a family really care about her was another bonus, but leaving all the people who helped her and were there for her, would be a huge heartache.
"I don't know what to do," she whispered quietly covering her face in frustration, and leaning against the kitchen table. The obvious decision would be to get away and go to England with her siblings, and Nanna, but what if they didn't want to go. Then she would have a problem. She couldn't leave them and she couldn't just leave and say I'll visit sometime.
If she stayed her nightmares would keep replaying themselves while she slept, and the cause of her nightmares might one day return to what was once their home, and her nightmare of a life would replay all over again. If she left she could start all over again, and live feeling safer and more secure, but she would have to leave all her friends who had supported her since she was 14. Then if her siblings didn't want to go...
"I have to go, I have to leave now that a perfectly good chance has presented itself... it will hurt to leave my friends but we will keep in touch..." Pan told herself, while walking to her living room. "I need this, I need to get away," grabbing her jacket and placing the tickets in one of the pockets, closing it securely, she walked out her front door, walking swiftly in the newly starting rain. "If I don't I will have to live in that house, waiting for one day my father to be released from the slammer," she mumbled to herself keeping a fast pace. The rain became more than mere water drop, now they were full out hail. Bending her shoulders low, Pan walked through the empty street of LA, heading for her gym a few streets away. She didn't seem to notice all the hail hitting her shoulder in high speed or the emerging of the dangerous gangs on the street. She didn't hear catcalls that were called or the children running trying to get out of the rain/hail and back to their homes
"Pan?" a feminine voice asked from the alley to her right, as she passed by it. Turning to the voice she had heard Pan tried to see whom it was, but couldn't see the person's face, because it was covered by the shadows. "Pan? Oh my God Pan, you have grown so much," the woman said dramatically, not coming into the light. Feeling sick, Pan sprang back as if bitten, not wanting to know whom the woman was anymore. "Have you missed me? I have, and what about everyone else?" she asked excitedly? The woman knew about her sibling. "Why won't you answer me? Are you feeling sick? See you should have a hood on that jacket of you, you will catch a cold in this weather," the woman said motherly.
"Videl?" was all Pan could get out, watching as her mother comes out of the shadows frowning. She was carrying a bundle in her arms that seemed to be a baby. A wet baby, concern filled Pan's stomach. Watching the bundle closely, then to her mother, Pan realized she looked different, older. "What do you want Videl?" Pan asked having a little courage.
"Pan! Don't talk to me like that, I'm your mother!" Videl said stomping her leg angrily. She didn't seem sane, and that scared Pan, for the baby. "So answering your rude question, I decided to come back to check on everything at home. I really don't remember why I left, but it had to do with your father, I think," she said unsure stepping closer to Pan, moving the baby carelessly waking it. She didn't seem to notice it even when it began to cry. "Come here help me with my luggage," she said anxiously, almost dropping the baby. Pan grabbed it, taking its wet clothes off, and removing her jacket to covering the infant. He had stopped crying when he was dry. "Pan you never told me you had a baby!" Videl exclaimed happily, clapping her hands together in excitement, and going over to look at him.
"What-"Pan shut up then realizing something. Her mother was totally, and completely crazy. "Yeah," Pan said keeping the baby close to her body, and covered from the rain/hail.
"What's its name?" Videl asked watching the baby, with what Pan could confuse as loving eyes?
"His name is Goken," Pan said thinking a while, remembering her grandfather and Goten.
"That name reminds me of someone, I knew a real long time ago, but I don't think you would know of them," Videl said to herself, walking away from Pan, in the direction of Pan's house. Watching her leave, Pan felt a shiver run down her spine feeling something bad was going to happen, soon.
"We have to go, now that your with me I can't be weak, I have to be strong...for all of us," Pan whispered to the baby, who was looking up at her with innocent dark blue eyes. He seemed only a few days old, provably a week or less. Taking good care the baby, wouldn't get wet or hit by the hail, Pan walked slowly towards the gym.
Should I stop there or keep going??? Yeah right I'm in the mood I'll
keep writing!!! (Not the nasty type of Mood!!!)
As Pan got near enough to the gym, she yelled for someone to open the doors. Her back felt bruised and provably bleeding from minor cuts.
"Coach," Pan called from outside the gym, hoping they had heard her. The baby in her arms began to whine. "Dammit someone open the fucking door, I have a baby with me," she yelled rocking the baby back and forth so he wouldn't cry. She didn't like the new rule the gym had to enforce. 'Gym will have its doors locked after normal hours, which are 9 am – 6 pm, all boxers that train after these hours must come at prompt timing so they won't have to wait for the doors to open for them a while. Stupid rule I don't even know why they need it,' Pan thought reading the new rules paper.
Finally after 5 minutes the doors opened revealing a muscular man she knew well.
"Mike, it's about time someone opened, I was starting to feel everyone was ignoring me," Pan said walking in the hot room.
"What are you doing in the rain, and without a coat or sweater!" mike paused looking outside once more his eyes widening, "And with hail falling what wrong with you," he almost yelled.
I only shrugged before saying, "I ran into my mother." That shut him up; he looked at Pan sadly, before hearing a little noise from what she was carrying. "Oh and this is the gift I received from her," she said moving Goken so he could see him better, "his name is Goken," she stated before smiling at Mike sadly.
"Pan.." Mike stopped when he realized he didn't know what to say, watching her shake her head and smile.
"I prefer it this way Mike, my mother is insane when she gave me the baby she didn't seem to know what it was, even when he cried in its wet clothes. She even thought he was mine, so I am keeping him away from her. I can't be angry at her in her state of mind, but I can't take care of her either," Pan said sadly, feeling Mike hug her tight, and giving her a small peck on her cheek.
"Don't worry Panny, it will all work out. Now that I'm over the Marron stage, we can be tight again. I will help you," he said soothingly trying to comfort her like he used to, when her parents made her feel like shit.
"What do you mean over her stage?" Pan asked looking up at him confused.
"We broke up when I found her in our apartment fucking two other guys at once," he stated simply, smiling for some reason, "I guess you were right about her all along," he finished releasing Pan from the hug.
"I'm sorry," Pan said sadly feeling for her close friend. It had been a several years relationship, almost permanent, if what had happened hadn't.
"No worries, I'm fine but at least I have my friend back," he said smiling down at her.
Guilt struck Pan hard. She had shut him out completely, thinking it would have helped him, but really she just hurt him and their friendship. She hadn't been able to apologies or get close to him because of her pride. Her trains of thoughts were interrupted by Goken's cries.
"What's wrong Goken?" Pan asked the baby in a motherly manner, surprising Mike. She had never used so much care, and motherly worry in her voice in front of him or anyone else for that matter.
The baby kept crying making Pan bring him closer singing to him her song, and rocking him slowly. Mike walked over to her and looked down at the baby.
"He probably has a cold," he stated touching Goken's cheek before continuing, "and a low fever but nothing serious," he stated signaling her to follow him. He led her to his gym locker, pulling out his bath towel. "Take that jacket off of him, he need something dryer like this towel," he said giving it to her. Nodding Pan accepted it, and covered a crying Goken with it.
"So where's everyone?" Pan asked when Goken quieted a little.
"They went to that fight in the center of downtown," he shrugged; Pan gave him one of her look and he shrugged again. "I didn't feel like going today," he said simply.
"So that's the only sign you're showing about your brake up with Marron, you're not going out as much?" Pan asked watching him closely. He looked up at her, and to her surprise he was close to tears.
"I guess," he said trying hard not to let a single tear fall, and was successful.
"You know what?" Pan stated thoughtfully. "We are going out today, before I leave.." she trailed off watching as Mike look up at her in confusion. "Don't ask, I'll explain tomorrow," she said quickly.
"Okay so where do you want to go?" Pan asked him, thinking herself of some places.
"What about the baby?" Mike asked looking at her bundle.
"I was going to stay at Nanna's house, because of my mom being at the house and all... so I'll just leave him with my other brothers and sister for them to get acquainted," Pan said thoughtfully. "Okay so let's go to that new club just outside LA, what was it called again?" she said more to herself than to Mike. "Cloud 9," she blurted suddenly.
"Cool, come on I'll drop you off with your Nanna, and pick you up around 9?" he asked grabbing his keys, and walking with Pan out the gym.
"No take me to my house, I have all my clothes there, then I'll walk to Nanna's where you could pick me up," Pan said frowning at the thought of having to see Videl.
"Naw, I know you don't want your mother to come near the baby, so I'll just wait outside your house with the baby, while you get some clothes, then I'll take you to your Nanna's, deal?" he asked smirking when he saw Pan's grateful nod. "Anyway its only 7, we have two whole hours to get ready," he said simply, opening Pan's door of his car, and getting in himself.
"Pan! Where were you?" Videl nearly screamed as she saw her daughter come in the front door. To Pan's surprise Videl was in the kitchen making, food?
"No where important, just took a walk," Pan said simply walking up the stairs to her room. When she opened the door to her room she was surprised to see her room spotless.
"Do you like it?" squealed Videl, who had fallowed her up the stair. Pan looked at Videl and rolled her eyes.
"Yes mother I like the neatness," she said in monotone. Entering her room, she looked through her drawer finding some outfits, and putting them in a buffer bag.
"I love what you did with the place Pan, its better," Videl said cheerfully following her daughter out of her room. "By the way where is your father, and the other little children?" she asked Pan.
"Mom dad left taking everyone with him, but me. I decided to stay and keep this place in top shape," Pan answered walking towards the front door. It didn't feel right calling Videl, mom.
"Where are you going Pan?" she asked before Pan got to the door.
"Clubbing," Pan stated before going out the door, closing it. She walked quickly to where Mike's car was parked, and drove off as soon as she was in the passenger seat, to Nanna's house.
Author Notes: Well the mood's gone...(sighs) oh well next chapters will be up soon... Review please!
Next Chappie:
What happened first we where dancing then drinking, then dancing again... how did we end up in a bed?