9. My Really Dumb Idea

"What is it, Yuna?" Buddy said to me as I started to pace again.

"I'm not even sure if this is going to work, and like I said, it might be a really stupid idea." They all looked at me in suspense to see what I was going to say. I stopped pacing, clasped my hands together, and faced them. "Okay, Rikku, you remember what happened after New Yevon and the Youth League became allies right?"

"Um, they didn't try to kill each other anymore?" I knew she didn't have the slightest clue what I was talking about, so I shook my head.

"Well, okay, they aren't trying to kill each other anymore, I guess that's true. But what did they try to do with me?" She gave me a blank look and I sighed. Of course she didn't remember. "Don't you remember how they wanted me to be in New Yevon?"

Rikku nodded, but she still wasn't getting the picture. I think that the guys were starting to understand from the looks on their faces, but I'm not sure if they knew my intentions with it. "I'm still not understanding this, Yunie."

"Okay, well, the more and more I think about it, I think if I was to tell them that I wanted to talk to the Praetor about becoming a member of New Yevon." Everyone's jaw dropped.

"This isn't a game, Yuna," Tidus said as he shot me a glare. He surprised me by the look on his face; he's never looked at me in that way before. "What, you're going to just go into Bevelle, say, 'hey, I want to love Yevon again,' and then only be a member of New Yevon long enough to get to the bottom of what is going on??"

"I never said that I was going to do it. I could just say that I wanted to talk to the Praetor about it. Ya know, kind of see what I'd be in for. I know that it sounds crazy, but I think it might work." I had a smile on my face as I looked at everyone else...who did not have smiles on their faces. They looked worried, confused, and concerned about what I was thinking all at the same time. "Oh come on, it might!"

"Yunie, okay. Let's think about this logically." I tried not to give her a look because something coming logically out of Rikku's mouth didn't sound feasible. I humored her though and let her talk. "What if they know that you are dragging them into a trap?"

"One person bringing an entire city into a trap?" Buddy jumped out of his seat and walked over to me. "As crazy as Yuna's plan sounds, I can't think of anything crazier to do."

"Oh, so you mean in order to fight crazies...you have to fight crazy?" Rikku was all confused. The look on her face explained it all. "I still don't think it'll work."

"I don't want you hurt, Yuna." Tidus said as he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead. "You mean too much to me, and I don't want you to fly off the handle and do something impractical."

"Hey, I don't see anyone else coming up with any ideas!" I said as I put my hands on my hips. Everyone stayed quiet and looked down as I looked at them all. "Yeah, my point exactly."

"Why don't we just go down to Bevelle and see if we can sneak in? I mean, we've pulled an assault on Bevelle before, why not just go into Bevelle the same way we did then?" I gave Tidus a confused look and he explained himself. "Remember? Rikku and Brother, you were there. When Yuna was marrying Seymour? We flew the airship into Bevelle, slid down the ropes, and saved Yuna."

"The only difference is that they'll be expecting something like that," I said as I looked up at Tidus. I could see the look of hurt on his face from remembering the memories from that day. The look on Tidus' face as I had to kiss Seymour was enough to break my heart. Of course, it looked like Tidus was going to break Seymour's face, but what can ya do. The man was an evil, psychotic bastard and we had to kill him four damn times before I was able to send him. "They won't ever expect me to go to Bevelle and say that I'm considering to be in New Yevon."

"Hmmm," Brother said as he looked at me. "I've always said that you've been crazy, but you might be right."

"However, they were expecting us to save you while you were getting married to Seymour too, though," Rikku said as put her hands behind her head. "Also, if they know that you know that we know that we heard that they said that Baralai's missing...they might think that you're only trying to..." She stopped for a second all confused. "I'm so confused at what I just said."

We all couldn't help laughing at her. Gippal even playfully gave her a push on the shoulder as he said, "Oh Rikku, you're always good for a laugh."

"But seriously, I had a point. Let me try to say something clearer." She inhaled and then exhaled deeply before she started to speak again. "Okay, well, Gippal and I know that something is up with Bevelle and we told you. Right?"

"Right," I said slowly as she nodded.

"Okay, and since everyone in Bevelle knows that we know you, I'm pretty sure that they know that we would tell you, because you're the High Summoner and stuff, right?"

"Right," I said again, actually understanding where she was going with this.

"Well, since mayhem has struck with Bevelle, it would be kinda coincidental that you would pick that time out of all times to be like, 'hey guys, I've changed my mind!'" I sighed at her and wasn't sure how to respond.

"However, if she would go up to Bevelle and want to talk the Praetor, maybe they would let the cat out of the bag and say that they need her help." I raised an eyebrow at Tidus' point. Hmmm....good point, ya know? That's my man.

"Hell, that would probably work." Buddy said as he scratched his head. "Although, wouldn't that technically be using you, Yuna?"

"If it means that we'll find Baralai and give peace to Bevelle again, it might be worth it." I remember that Lulu told me that since I was the high summoner, people would use that against me. I don't want to be used, but I want everything to be okay in Bevelle... "I think we should go for it."

"Just because you are the High Summoner doesn't mean that you have to go running to everyone's aid all the time," Gippal said as he crossed his arms. Rikku smacked him really hard against the chest for his comment, even though I knew that he had a point. "Ow! What the hell was that for!"

"Ev fa fyhdat ouin ubeheuh, fa fuimt'ja ycgat vun ed!" Rikku said as she crossed her arms and stuck her nose in the air. I knew she was defending me, so I didn't even bother asking her what she said.

"Rikku, it's okay. He does have a point." Rikku's jaw dropped slightly as I said that, and I started to walk over to Gippal. I kind of got right in his face, but I didn't care. "However, Gippal, even though I know that I don't have to run to everyone's aid, this is concerning two of my friends. People can do whatever they want to me, but they don't fuck with my friends, boyfriend, or loved ones. That's the way it works. So when something comes up where they're involved, I tend to run to help. It's just the way I am and I'm really sorry if you have a problem with that."

There was silence on the bridge for about a good thirty seconds as everyone thought about what I just said. Even I opened my eyes wide and dropped my jaw as I just reflected on that. I never speak like that...it was very out of character for me. Even when I spoke my mind to Nooj when he wanted to sacrifice himself to save Baralai from Vegnagun and Shuyin, I didn't speak in a harsh tone or swear like that.

"Gippal..." I said as he smiled at me.

"Hey, wow, way to go, Yuna." He said as he patted me on the back. "I'm proud of you! I never knew that you could stand up for yourself like that. I think you've been hanging around with Cid's girl too much."

"Hey! I don't...Okay, yes I do." She said with a proud smile. We actually all chuckled at that comment. Good, we needed something to lighten up the mood from my little outburst.

"Nooj!" I said randomly as everyone looked at me. "I mean, does he know? Shouldn't we let him know what's going on and maybe he can come up with some better planning suggestions that I am able to have right now?"

"Yuna, I think we should still do your plan. Let's go to Bevelle and say that you want to talk to the Praetor, but also, you're right again. I think that maybe if you had the Meyvn of the Youth League with you, I think that it would make more sense." I smiled at Buddy because he was right. "Everyone in Spira knows that you are all friends, so you might be able to convince them that you want to talk to the Praetor."

"Unless Nooj is too busy boinking Leblanc to leave the bed and help you look for Baralai," Rikku said in a sarcastic tone. She then made a face. "Ew, I wish I wouldn't have said that because now I'm getting scary images in my head."

"Well, we might be able to pry him off of her when we tell him that Baralai is in trouble. Think about it, he did go into the depths of the Farplane for him, so he might just go into Bevelle." I said as everyone nodded. "Okay, so here's the plan. We go to Guadosalam first, talk to Nooj and Leblanc, go to Bevelle and wish to speak to the Praetor. Right?"

"Yeah, then hopefully Baralai will have some news on Paine. Or rather, hopefully someone has news on Baralai so we can ask Baralai about Paine...or something." Gippal said as I started to pace back and forth again.

"Yep, sounds good." I said as I watched Brother hopped into the cockpit again.

"Haqd cdub: Guadosalam!" Brother put the Celsius into full speed and I walked off the bridge.

Tidus followed me and stopped me by grabbing onto my shoulder when I got to the elevator. I was still quite pissed off at myself for bitching at Gippal like that. I sighed and shook my head while he looked at me.

"Yuna...are you okay?" I looked away from him and toward the side of the airship because I wasn't sure how to comment to that. Was I okay? Everything has just been so weird the last couple of days that I didn't know how to handle it. I wanted to be back in Besaid preparing my wedding with Tidus at this point, not trying to figure out the mess that is commonly known as Spira once again.

"Tidus, I have no idea what the hell is going on with myself right now." I said as I broke out into goosebumps.We walked into the elevator and headed up toward the deck. I was in the need for fresh air. "Everything has just been so weird. It's just that I've been having out of body experiences lately, and I don't know why. It's like, I'm on the outside of myself hearing myself say the things I am, seeing myself do the things I do. I'm not thinking for myself, and I'm not sure why."

"You're probably just stressed. You had a big week and you haven't slept very much." We exited the elevator and I walked over to the Gullwing statue that we had on the front of the Celsius. I leaned against it and Tidus stood a little behind me, just letting the wind hit his face. "You probably didn't notice it, but I felt you toss and turn all night. You would wimper in your sleep every once and a while, and when I would put my arms around you, you would be okay again. Last night, you just burst into tears saying the words, 'don't leave me' over and over again. I repeatedly said that I wouldn't leave you and that I was yours always, but you were almost inconsolable for about twenty minutes. I tried waking you up, but no matter how hard I shook your shoulders, you still moved and wouldn't open your eyes. Then, for no reason, you calmed down and smiled."

"I have weird sleeping habits I guess," I said as I moved a strand of hair out of my face. "I think it was one of those things where I was without you for so long that I yearned for you every night."

"I don't think that's it, Yuna," he said as he walked up next to me. "I talked to Rikku about it when you went to go say good bye to Lulu and Wakka. She said that the only night that you had sleeping problems was one night when you were wearing your song outfit."

"My songstress dressphere..." I said as I trailed off slightly. "That night that I was wearing it, I had a dream of you and I. It was the Lenne and Shuyin story but with you and I in it instead."

"What do you mean? The story of how they were shot?" I nodded at him and exhaled. "It's funny how I actually know what you're talking about."

"I want to know what this all means, I'm just so confused." I rested my chin on my wrist and he put a hand on my back. He rubbed my back as I looked off into the distance. "It's just all so coincidental."

"Maybe it's just that, a coincidence." I know that he was just trying to relax me, but it wasn't exactly working. He put his hands on my waist and turned me around into a hug. I rested my head on his chest, praying that I wouldn't have a Shuyin/Lenne feeling again like he and I did last time he hugged me like this.