Hey guys!! I just wanted to thank you for all the wonderful reviews. I am SO sorry that I haven't updated in forever, but my life's been kinda hectic. I knew exactly where I was going with this chappie, so it wasn't writer's block, it was just lack of time to write. Goddamn teachers and their homework.Okay enough rambling. You all don't give a shit anyways. On with the chappie . . . but first . . . THE WONDERFUL REVIEWS!!!! (I love you all!!) I'm up to 80!!

SkyWolf: thanks for reviewing. I now have 75 reviews. I think it's awesome!!

AWolfsCall: I'm updating!! Thanks for the review.

Inuyasha-59: Glad you like it!

AmericanStarryKnight89: I hate your pen name. lol. Yeah, I feel sorry for him too, it really would suck. Not that there aren't enough people in existence already . . . but whatever.

Country-inugirl03: sorry, but I love cliffies!! They make you wanna come back and read more.

Moon-Dragon 1288: wow, you liked my cliffie!! Hooray!! Everyone else just complains.

Bara: uh-oh. You don't wanna leave your life in my hands. BAD idea.

Harei Sky: wow, you are a VERY confused person. Or you just have a one track mind. Either way it isn't sex, he wants to turn her into a vampire.

Inuyasha's Fang: oh no!! That's awful! I hate psychiatrists, they make my head hurt. Yeah, I don't let my parents see the poems I write. I hide them.

Mariahbaby: thank you!! I think he's sexy too, but my naïve friend Kody Leigh thinks he's ugly. But she knows nothing, she's a cheerleader. Nuthin but space between her ears. (I love you Kody!!!!)

Hanyou punk chic: I'm workin on the updating part . . .

Suicidal freak: I explained the eye part in the chapter a life long forgotten. When he died his purple eyes turned black. The hair/ears thing just didn't work for me. He's a vampire, NOT a puppy.

Serenity2222: awesome. I read anything vampire related too. Know any good ones? Maybe you know one or two I haven't read yet.

Too tell: I'm updating!! Don't call me names, especially in japanese.

Tobino: Thank you!!

Dark-angel1967: thanks, don't worry I'm updating as fast as I can.

Silver Ice 95: Thanks, I'd like to think suspense is one thing I actually am good at.

Vamp: working on it.

Hanyou-ass. Interesting name. I'm not even gonna ask. Thanks! So far I think my story is pretty original. Kouga plays a very important role in the next chappie or so. You'll see!!

BlackScarab: thank you!! I thought that was a good place to end it too.

Lifesabitch: so true. Thanks. I like cliffies. They seem to anger many people. It's great fun for me at least!!

Earthqueen11492: yes. Patience is a virtue y'know.

Madsoul: thank you.

Punkvamp69: thanks. Read to find out.

Arein: I'm updating as quickly as I can. You sure ask a lot of questions. But thank you, they were actually very insightful. My only answers are: READ TO FIND OUT!

Torn-soul0: thanks. Hope you keep reading.

LonelyCutter: I can relate. Just keep them clean or else you'll get sick, and have to go to the doctor, and then everyone finds out. Not fun. Knives work the best, take my advice and don't use the tip of a mechanical pencil. Hurts like hell and infects like crazy. Happy reading.

"You want to what?!" Kagome just stood there, gawking at Inuyasha as if he'd suddenly grown two heads.

"Turn you," He repeated. "Into a vampire."

Kagome struggled to speak but found she could not. The one thing she'd wanted, or thought she'd wanted, all her life was being handed to her; but now she wasn't sure it was what she wanted at all. Inuyasha's story from gym class stuck in her mind, she'd felt sorry for him because he had to live forever with the consequences of anything and everything he did. She hated life, she always had, she didn't want to live forever.

"Inuyasha," she started, not quite sure how to word what she was about to say. "I don't want to live forever."

"But your life wouldn't be like this," he gestured around her house. "You could live with . . . someone who loves you."

Kagome was taken aback by Inuyasha's words. "I . . . I need some time to think." Kagome whirled around and ran up the stairs to her room. When she'd reached the soothing darkness of her bedroom she closed the door and leaned against it, sliding down until she was sitting with her head resting on her knees.

She was at a complete loss as to what to do. She realized she did love him, but could she live forever with him? Forever was a long time to live, especially in a world she hated. Kagome pulled her pocketknife from her pocket and slit her wrist. She welcomed the warm blood that slid down her throat and calmed her nerves. The blood started to clot, but she was still thirsty. She cut deeper and the blood flowed again. She tipped her head back and drank. The blood started to clot again but she was still thirsty.

She opened her mouth wider and bit her wrist, sinking her capped fangs as deep into her flesh as she could get them to go. When she couldn't bite any deeper she raised her head. The thirst was still there, gnawing away steadily at the pit of her stomach.

Kagome suddenly found that a part of her was scared. The thirst wouldn't go away. She had never needed more than a mouthful of blood to quench it before, and now . . . She glanced down at her torn open wrist. The wound gaped at her like an eternally grinning theater mask.

Kagome began to feel lightheaded and nauseous. She ran to the bathroom just in time to wretch all the blood she'd consumed into the toilet. Her stomach lurched and she threw up again. More blood. She hadn't even thought she'd consumed that much blood. All the toilet water was a deep red and the thick smell of blood was overpowering. Kagome flushed the toilet and returned to her room.

She sat cross legged on her bed. Between the throbbing in her wrist, the nausea in her stomach, and the steadily gnawing thirst she felt like shit. I should just end it all now, she thought morbidly, no one would miss me. Yes, Inuyasha would miss you, a part of her reminded her. She sighed and stretched out to go to sleep. I'll talk to him tomorrow, she promised herself. Kagome lay awake for several hours before she finally fell asleep.

Kagome started awake and glanced at the digital clock beside her bed. It was twenty minutes before she actually needed to get up. She walked over to her desk and sat down. She felt fine. The thirst was gone and she didn't even have a headache yet. She pulled out a piece of paper and began to write:

I curse every day I live

All I have is pain to give

All I want now is to die

And leave behind this hell of mine

There's no one left to say goodbye

No one to miss me when I die

I've pushed away all who once cared

Now when I need them no one's there

There's no one left to comfort me

My mind's so dark I cannot see

I've given up this useless fight

I no longer try to save the light

I'm waiting on my own death row

Prepared to leave this live I loathe

Adrenaline pumping through my veins

Blood laced with sorrows, anger, pain

I point the gun and hold my breath

Close my eyes and wait for death

I pull the trigger, blinding pain

My blood is racing through my veins

My body slumps to the floor

I just couldn't take this anymore.

Kagome always wrote her best poems right after she woke up. Dreams are wonderful inspiration. She glanced over t the clock and groaned inwardly. She really didn't want to go to school. But she needed to talk to Inuyasha.

Kagome looked down at her wrist. It had stopped throbbing and looked a little better. It had at least started to scab over. A little. She didn't know what to do about it, a sweat band wouldn't hide it. She put on a long sleeve black shirt that said 'don't piss me off, I'm running out of places to hide the bodies' across the front. She slipped on a floor length black skirt with burgundy trim and laced her knee high combat boots. After applying some black make-up and twisting her hair up into a bun, she grabbed her bag and left her room.

Her mom was asleep on the couch and the television cast blue and gray light across her overly made up features. Kagome walked over and threw a blanket over her sprawled form and turned off the TV. Then she turned and quietly left to catch the bus.

Sorry this is so ridiculously short, but I really wanted to get a quick update in, I WILL update again SOON!!! I promise. Please don't hate me.