It's about damn time that I updated this story!!! However, it took me a while to figure out how to incorporate one idea to the next....but I figured it out...(with a lot of help!!) and I think I like the way it works out. Okay...read on and you'll understand what I mean!!!

19. A Feeble Attempt to Give In

Fortunately, we didn't have to break out of the hospital. I simply told Rikku to wait outside as I told the doctors and nurses that I would be leaving. I asked them to keep everything about the pregnancy quiet. I didn't want anyone else, mainly my closest friends, to know. I didn't exactly know how to explain the pregnancy to myself let alone to my friends. The people in the hospital staff weren't all that happy about making my decision to leave (and I got a huge lecture about ripping out the IV as well), but with an exasperated sigh, they gave in. If they had made me stay, I would've done something drastic like break out. Not only did I have a big fear of hospitals, I needed to get this baby out of me.

When we arrived at the hotel where everyone was staying, none of them looked surprised that I got out of the hospital. If I didn't know any better, I figured they planned on me leaving because all of their things were packed and they were waiting in the lobby for my return. I told them that nothing was wrong, that I only fainted and I'm fine now. We all walked back to the Celsius to make our next move.

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"So do you think we should just go march right back down to the Via Infinito?" Rikku said as she scrunched her nose. We were conversing in the cabin of the Celsius as we discussed what we were going to do. Rikku was sitting on Gippal's lap on one of the couches, next to them sat Paine and Baralai, Nooj and Leblanc were standing up, Buddy and Brother were leaning against the railing, Tidus was sitting on the other couch, and I was impatiently standing in the middle of them all. We were all silent after Rikku's suggestion, so I was convinced that was something none of us wanted to do.

"I'm not sure," I said as I started to pace. My head was starting to spin and I was starting to develop a migraine. "You guys said that is where Lenne and Shuyin are though, right?"

"Right," Baralai said as he gently placed his hand on Paine's knee. "However, I think we're going to be slightly outnumbered if we just barge on down there."

"We are talking about every single person who has died in the last two years, Yuna," Nooj added as I nodded. I tapped my fingers together and exhaled.

"And the major question," Tidus asked from the couch he was sitting in. He leaned forward and placed his arms on his legs as he continued to speak. "What are we going to do when we find all the unsents? It's not like we can just destroy them again because they are already dead."

"Well, they need to be sent to the Farplane and someone needs to do it," I said, stating the obvious as I stopped my pacing. I looked out the window as if I was searching for an answer, but nothing came to mind. When I faced everyone, they were all looking at me. I put my hands up. "Whoa, let's think about this for a second."

"Thinking," Brother said impatiently as he crossed his arms. "But I'm not coming up with anything. As your leader of the Gullwings, I order you to think of something."

"You aren't expecting me to perform the sending…are you?" I completely ignored Brother's statement as I started to panic. Everyone remained silent because of course they expected me to do it. "Why me?"

"Why not, Yuna?" Gippal asked as I shot him a glare that would stop a Behemoth in its tracks. "Don't throw me that look. I have a point here."

"There were dozens of other summoners who were on pilgrimage when I defeated Sin!" I exclaimed as I placed my hands on my hips. Raising my voice only made my head pound more, so I slightly grimaced at the pain.

"But I think you're the person who is the most…involved in this situation," Tidus said as he stood up and walked over to me. Involved? I had a baby in me from two people who have been dead for a thousand years. It wasn't my choice to get his involved in the situation and it terrified me. He put his hands on my hips as I looked up at him like a lost little girl. "It would make the most sense."

"Please, no," I said in almost a whisper as tears started to flood my eyes. "What about Dona? Or Issaru? They're just as capable as I am to perform the sending. Why make me do it?"

"The last time I talked to Dona, it was when we first activated the airship. She was sitting on the floor seriously considering quitting her pilgrimage. I don't think she'd do it," Tidus said with a sigh as he held me closer to him. "Plus I'm not particularly fond of that woman."

"And Issaru?" Rikku piped up, trying to keep the situation light.

"As much as I hate to say this, but I don't really want to bother anyone else with this burden. I know that if one of them were stuck in the same situation, I wouldn't want them to ask me to do it." I wiped the water from my eyes and let out a sigh. "All right, I'll do it. I guess…I guess there really isn't any other choice."

"We'll be right there with you, Yuna," Nooj said with a smile as he leaned on his cane. I noticed that everyone else was smiling as well, but I just couldn't find it in me to lift the corners of my mouth. Once again, I was suckered into something. I looked down at my hands as everyone else stood up and slightly stretched.

"We'll be on the bridge, Yuna," Buddy said as everyone started to walk out of the cabin.

"I'm gonna rest for a while, okay?" Everyone nodded at me and I sat down on one of the beds. Tidus sat next to me and watched everyone else leave as he put his arm around me.

"I didn't think you'd agree to go through with it," he said as he ran his fingers gently through my hair. The tears started to well up again and I laid down.

"I wasn't going to, but the more we thought about it, the more time we were wasting. I just want this out of me," I said quietly as he snuggled up close to me. "I…I can feel it moving inside of me. Almost like it's angry and wants to get out."

Tidus put his hands on my stomach, then quickly removed them like they were on fire. "What the hell?" He turned me so I was lying on my back and moved the pink lace of my shirt up so he could get a better view of my pregnant belly. "Oh, Yuna…"

I looked down to see what he was seeing. There was now a definite baby bulge and also something was moving around inside, moving my skin around. I tried not to panic, but a small whimper escaped from my lips. "Tidus, what am I going to do?"

"Well, you can't wear that outfit for a while that's for sure," he said, stating that my Gunner Dressphere was too revealing for a pregnant woman. It didn't really show off that much, just my stomach and the cleavage I really didn't have, but it revealed my now pregnant belly. He walked over to my suitcase to grab my garment grids and dresspheres and held them up. "Do you have something that covers your belly?"

"Not something that I would wear on an everyday basis," I said as I sat up. "I mean, as cute as I would look dressed up like a giant moogle, I'd rather not."

"Well, I guess it's not that noticeable," he said as he attempted a smile. I didn't smile back though because it was very noticeable. Everyone that was on the Celsius knows that I'm slightly neurotic when it comes to my weight and I would never let myself look like this. Well, of course, until I was pregnant with Tidus' baby. I didn't want everyone to know that I was pregnant, so I wanted it to stay concealed. I simply ran my fingers over my stomach as I continued to ponder. My head shot up as I gasped. "Their connection to this world!"

"Huh?" Tidus said as he gave me a confused look. Everything was clear in my mind now as I sat up and looked at him. "What do you mean?

"Their connection to this world!" I stated again as Tidus gave me a look that told me to continue. "Well, a few days ago I was talking to Rikku about Lord Jyscal. 'A powerful emotion could have bounded him to this world. Such things happen.'"

"I'm still lost."

"Lulu told us that after I sent Lord Jyscal to the Farplane! The powerful emotion that is keeping Shuyin and Lenne here is because of their baby," I continued touching my stomach as I thought. I thought I could feel small shocks being sent from my stomach to my fingertips, but I could've been imagining things.

"It still doesn't explain anything," he said as he sat up as well. "I mean, the only way that they wouldn't have been sent is if you already had the baby in you when you sent them. I hope that makes some sense because I just confused myself."

"No, it makes sense," I said as I bit my lip. "Being so emotional, having hormonal imbalances, having a motherly instinct when were babysitting Vidina…Maybe when Lenne shot out of my body when she was reunited with Shuyin the baby pyreflies remained in me?"

"I guess that could make sense," Tidus said as I smiled. "Well, we just need to give the baby back and then send them."

"I don't know how sending them will rid myself of the baby." Tidus shrugged and looked like he wanted to say something, yet didn't know the right words to say. My headache started to lessen, but I still felt extremely lightheaded. I looked over at Tidus and he started to look blurry. "Tidus…."

"Yes?" He said as he walked over to me again. I could feel and hear myself talking, but I wasn't making myself say these things…

"I can't believe I'm going to be a mother." I let a smile break out on my face as he gave me a puzzled look.

"We're going to get this out of you, Yuna," he said as I started to giggle.

"I want it."

"You…what?" He said as he looked into my sparkling eyes. "Yuna, it's um…not yours."

"What are you saying?" I said as anger flared up in my eyes and I stood up. I felt as if I didn't have control over myself anymore. I was moving, but I wasn't telling my body to do so. "Are you saying I'm not worthy of becoming a mother?"

"Yuna, what is going on with you?" He exclaimed as he stood up as well.

"Shuyin, don't act this way!"

"Oh shit," he said as he grabbed me by the arms and looked me in the eyes. "Yuna, don't channel Lenne right now. I need you to stay with us!"

"I am Lenne, what are you talking about?" He was talking to me, but I couldn't hear him, I couldn't focus on him. I was losing complete control of my body…nothing made sense to me anymore. I wanted to tell him that I was there…that I was listening…but how could I when I couldn't even hear him? A blinding pain shot from my stomach to my brain and everything again faded to black.

End Of Part One

Ha ha...sneaky me! Making it into two parts. I think it'll be a while before I post the next few chapters....because I already have them written, but a large part of me wants to continue writing until it's completely done....then make you wait in suspense. I don't know...I'm really enjoying writing the second part more...it's fun to explore it.

Oh, by the way, I think I'm going to put Zanarkand A-East on hiatus for a while....It's kind of a personal thing....the last chapter is very close to what happened to me recently (No, i don't have a boyfriend....but...nevermind)....so I'm going to wait until the storm calms down a little bit....because...Yeah, just take my word for it. ::sigh:: I also want to finish this story....So hopefully I'll have part two posted in a little bit!!!