Not Very Magnetic – LAST

By: TLH

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Dear Hawkeye,

I said I would write, and so I am. It sure is different back here in Philadelphia. Not that Philadelphia has changed so much as I have.

I want to start first, by apologizing for leaving so quickly, I always pictured us having a better farewell than the one that took place. Please forgive me.

That night when you stopped me after the deluge of patients, I knew you were tired and I appreciated so much your concern. In those next few hours I felt disconnected from God, like he had left me. But do not get the impression that I ran off in anger and left the priesthood for that reason alone. I am not angry with God. Though I had been at times prior.

I was once told that to truly know God is to question him. Not questioning Him to defy him, but to know Him better. It is not that my faith has diminished, but in leaving the priesthood it has made my faith stronger. I did not need to collar to save me any longer; it is my faith that will save me Hawkeye. What will, God willing, save us all.

I'm back home now, possibly pursuing missionary work, but as a servant, not as a priest. I'm not sure you understand how I feel, but I wanted you to know that no one was at fault or to blame for me leaving. It was my choice, and I feel God has given me his blessing.

I pray daily for all of you, for your safety and for an end to this death. I hear about it often on the news and can't help but miss all of you dearly. I have cried many times, and am sure I will continue to at just the mere thought of some of the memories we shared.

You are a leader and an inspiration to those at our unit; please do keep that fire burning. Tell everyone I said Hello, and I miss them. Do write me back about the new Chaplain they have sent, and if he measures up. Only kidding.

Praying that I see all of you soon.

Affectionately,

-John P. Mulcahy

Hawkeye smiled. "Praying that I see you soon too Father."

Little did Hawkeye know, it was only the beginning of many losses he would face. Beginning with Henry, Trapper, Frank and finally Radar. And after each loss, a letter was written.

END!

AN: Please review, it helps me, help you. Ah, the wonders of fiction. Take care - TLH †