0o Uhm. Yup. Another chapter XD
Song:
Evanescence - Imaginary
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I'll Save You
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Chapter Three: Monsters Calling My Name
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Kagome... Kagome...
If this is what I think it is, you better shut up so I can go back to sleep.
Kagome... Kagome...
Look, I am not a morning person. Shut up or face my wrath.
And what could you do to me?
This... (zapping noise)
OW! Damn mate! What did you do to me?
Zapped you with my neverending desire to sleep. Now shut up. We can fight in a few hours, alright?
Like Hell! You're gonna listen to me RIGHT NOW! (crashing noise)
Kagome shot up into a sitting position amongst her blankets, clutching her arm and sucking in a breath quickly between clenched teeth.
Mou, that hurt!
Paybacks a bitch, ain't she?
Is there a REASON why I'm up at what I'm assuming is around 2-30am talking to you?
Let me go back.
No.
Yes.
NO.
YES DAMMIT!
Uh... lemme think... NO.
Atleast let me roam in your body...
No.
I could kill Kikyou for you... and no one would ever know it was us!
No.
Can you see it? The vision of her souls escaping her fragile clay body? Your own soul coming back to you?
Leave me alone, Kami! Atleast let me sleep...
How long has it been since you've felt whole? Too long, from what your heart says. You long for that half of you soul back, don't you?
Of course I do, but I'm not going to take it from Kikyou OR murder her.
That's not what your heart says, mate. You want to kill her. You're jealous of her.
RAGH! LEAVE-ME-ALONE!
So that's it... you're jealous of the undead miko. Why? Is it because she's prettier than you?
Please... leave me alone...
Because she's more graceful?
Please...
Because she's more powerful? Because she can take care of herself?
Just shut up...
Or... is it because she holds the hanyou's heart?
Just go...
It's all of those, isn't it?
...Yes...
...What?
I'm jealous of her... she's everything I am and more... I could never take her place in Inuyasha's heart, no matter how much I wish I could. I wish I could have been reborn as someone else, anyone else, but the reincarnation of the Miko Kikyou.
You admit it...?
Of course, why shouldn't I? You already knew that much, you were poking through my thoughts and my feelings in my heart all night while I slept.
How did you know?!
It's my body, too, baka.
Ooh, Ooh,
Pa-per... Flow-ers...
Ooh, Ooh,
Pa-per... Flow-ers...
I linger in the doorway,
Of alarm clock screaming,
Monsters calling my name...
Let me stay!
Where the wind will whisper to me,
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story...
Kagome leaned against the wall of the hut that she currently shared with her friends. It was the second time this week that she had been awoken by the angry youkai that was now held within her. It was driving her insane, but she refused to let it go. So around the same time every night she would be jolted out of her slumber and would continue this same fight with the youkai over and over and over.
Let me have a bit of exercise...
No, you'll kill them all.
Why would I? They are my pack.
You're in a fit of rage, there's no limit to what you might do, even to your own pack.
Let me ATLEAST use your body to destroy a tree or something!
I have no power like that, it would be useless, anyway.
But you do, right now I could tap right into it...
Touch and be purified.
She felt, rather than heard, the youkai growl within her soul. That was the one thing she could use against the youkai spirit: purification.
I will escape, mate. You know I will. How long do you think you can keep these barriers up?
Now, now, let's not kid eachother. You know as well as I do the limit of my power, or have you not completely poked around my mind and abilities?
Fine, you're right. You won't be able to hold me in much longer without the occasional slip...
Good, then we're both on the same page.
And what will you do when I break out?
I will get as far away from everyone as possible.
Don't you trust me?
Honestly? No.
In my field of paper flowers,
And candy clouds of lullaby,
I lie inside myself for ho-urs,
And watch my purple sky fly over me...
Kagome stared, eyes glowing in the moonlight, into the darkness around her. How long COULD she hold this powerful bit of youkai within her? Not too long, she knew that. About today her powers would flicker, and she knew that the youkai would jump at the chance to take over her body. That meant that she needed to be on guard as long as possible. It wouldn't be long before she wouldn't be able to subdue the youkai within her.
Very slowly the hours ticked by until the sun appeared over the hills and slipped through the windows. As the sun came up, Inuyasha walked in, ready to take his spot where he usually sat/slept. He didn't realize that Kagome was up until he sat down, Tessiaga situated in his arms.
Kagome had noticed that he wasn't there, and hadn't been for some time. "Where were you, Inuyasha?" she asked quietly, making sure not to wake up the others.
Inuyasha swallowed and thought up a quick lie, "I slept outside for a bit and then came in so I wouldn't worry anyone."
"Are you lying to me, Inuyasha?" Kagome's gaze was level and cool.
"Keh, you're losin' it, wench."
Don't say I'm out of touch!
With this rampant chaos -- your reality,
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge,
The nightmare I built my own world to escape!
Liar! The youkai within her screamed, How can he lie to his own mate?! The human and the other half of me better be chewin' him out... if I were still in there he'd be facin' hell itself! He REEKS of gravesoil and death! Bastard!
Kagome frowned, suddenly feeling a little queasy. The youkai was raging, going on a full-blown rampage, and was close to breaking her barriers. With a choked gasp, the youkai rushed forth. Her eyes turned a glistening red and her nailed sharpened. "LIAR!" the youkai screamed in its own voice, "HOW COULD YOU LIE TO YOUR OWN MATE?!"
Inuyasha growled, "There was no reason for her to know!"
"Bastard! You don't go screwin' other females when you have a mate in your own pack! How dare you defy that inuyoukai law! You know it as well as I do!"
"Don't lecture me, youkai!" Inuyasha snarled, effectively waking up the rest of the group.
"TRAITOR!" the youkai lunged forward at Inuyasha, still in control of Kagome's body, and wrapped its hands around his neck, pressing its thumbs to Inuyasha's throat. "How DARE you do this to your female! To your youkai heritage!"
Inuyasha gasped for air uneffectively as the youkai-Kagome tightened its grip on his throat. His own hands wrapped around Kagome's wrists and attempted to push her off to no avail.
In my field of paper flowers,
And candy clouds of lullaby,
I lie inside myself for ho-urs,
And watch my purple sky fly over me...
(Pa-per... Flow-ers!)
"Kagome-sama!" Miroku shouted, wrapping his arms around her torso, successfully tearing her arms away from Inuyasha and pinning them to her side, and jerking her away from the poor, shocked hanyou.
Kagome let out a strangled youkai scream and forced herself back into control. "M-Miroku!" she gasped, breathing heavily, "What happened?!"
Miroku sighed heavily and allowed the poor exausted miko to slip gently to the floor, then sat down as well. "You don't remember?"
"All I remember is the youkai screaming that Inuyasha was lying-" she looked at the hanyou, her gaze resting on his neck. More precisely: the handprints left on his neck. She looked at her own and noticed the slightly red tint from pressure on them. "Oh." she said flatly. She then looked back at Inuyasha with a cold stare. "So he was right."
Inuyasha, still rather shaken, sat up and rubbed his neck gingerly. "Kagome, I swear I can-"
"Shut up, Inuyasha. The youkai has told me everything."
Inuyasha paled. "Everything?"
"Everything." She looked at her hands and clentched them into fists, "Inuyasha, how could you? Now that I can hear it from the youkai, I don't get why you had to do it!" Her voice changed to that of the youkai once more, "Because he's an ignorant hanyou. He abandoned his pack AND his mate in the middle of the night when most youkai hunt! Inuyasha, you left your FAMILY out to fend for themselves while they slept! They could have been attacked and eaten while you were off enjoying yourself with simple, fake human desires for that miko! How could you have done it Inuyasha?!" Kagome's voice and that of the youkai's combined in one last cry, "HOW COULD YOU, INUYASHA?!"
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming,
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights...
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming!
The Goddess of Imaginary Light...!
All of Kagome's friends stared at her in shock, then stared at Inuyasha who looked guilty, ashamed, and a little nervous.
"I-Inuyasha... you went to see Kikyou? Again?" Sango said, awe written all over her face.
"Baka," Shippou muttered.
"This isn't going to go well..." Miroku sighed.
In my field of paper flowers,
And candy clouds of lullaby,
I lie inside myself for ho-urs,
And watch my purple sky fly over me...
(Pa-per... Flow-ers!)
Ooh, Ooh,
Pa-per... Flow-ers,
Ooh, Ooh,
Pa-per... Flow-ers!
Kagome forced the youkai back within her as her hands shook maddeningly. She was engulfed in anger, sadness, confusion, fear, love, and regret all in one from head to toe. Without a word she stood up and walked out of the hut to collect herself and her thoughts.
One thought echoed in her mind, voiced by both herself and the youkai: How could he?
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