Legolas my dear,
Why'd you go?
Why'd you leave me here?
I wouldn't have said no.
I saw you in the rain that night,
saw the love shining in your eyes,
It will never be right,
You're not the only one who cries.
I have a secret my dear friend,
One I have never shared.
I would've told you in the end,
But yet I hadn't dared.
Everyday that goes by,
I miss you a little more,
I sit down and sigh,
Wishing you'd walk through my door.
For Arwen and I were not wed,
She loves me like a brother,
Like my own her love faded she said,
Legolas, I love you and no other.
I tried to follow your trail,
I even saw your hunched up form.
I was on your tail,
My heart heavy and forlorn.
Yet when you sensed me,
You leapt up and fled away,
Blinded by my tears I couldn't see,
I only wanted you to stay.
I tried so very hard,
Following your footsteps to the Sea,
My soul forever scarred,
Why did you run from me?
I returned home,
Locking myself in my room,
Dying inside I'm alone,
Welcoming my approaching doom.
Then you returned to Middle Earth,
Walking in my land,
It was my soul's re-birth,
Having you so near at hand.
Yet you pass me by,
Never a glance my way,
So I sit in this room and die,
A little more each day.
I sit here as I wait,
Watching you walk passed,
Quietly accepting my fate,
Waiting every moment until the last.
I sit here alone,
Awaiting your return,
I cry and I moan,
Icy tears that burn and burn.
You are the one that I love,
The reason why I live,
But is that enough?
I have nothing left to give.
I already gave my heart,
My soul soon after,
I gave my pain as my mind tore apart,
And I gave you my laughter.
Remember the kiss?
Love that burst forth in an overwhelming torrent?
The seemingly eternal bliss?
Which is now my daily torment?
When will I again be yours?
Free from all my pain,
Your love opening locked doors,
Spilling blood and tears like rain.
All I want is to be loved,
To walk hand in hand,
Is that too much,
Of a demand?
So tell me please,
How long will I remain here?
Sitting, praying on my knees,
Full of scorching pain and agonizing fear?
Afraid that you'll forget,
And leave me in this place,
Afraid that you'll forget,
The sight of my aging face.
You left me long ago,
With tears in your eyes,
You left me here alone,
To my own demise.
Your eyes promised you'd come back,
And your love they still proclaim,
It's action that you lack,
Yet you are not the same.
You seem to be waiting,
For the moment Opportune,
Before we resume dating,
And I hope that time is soon.
So I sit here in my Home,
Looking out the window as you pass,
Waiting on my own,
My face pressed against the glass.
Your eyes screamed to wait for you,
To keep my heart locked tight,
If only you knew,
How hard I have to fight.
I fight for my very sanity,
I fight for my fading life,
Having long since lost my vanity,
I find it hard to lay down my bloody knife.
The knife that cut my arms and face,
Drew bright red lines across my chest,
As I let myself fall from grace,
Not laying it down, but trying my very best.
Yet I have no choice,
My love chains me to your soul,
I have lost my voice,
Without you I am not whole.
I am forced to wait,
Every night and day,
But now it gets too late,
For me to be okay.
So, what do ya think? Angsty no? There WILL be more chapters, 4 at least, so please come back and check them out? Review loves!
Lunadia