A/N: Did I EVER mention that I miss the message boards with mind body and soul? Long time no posts eh? Yes well, here's a nice long dramatic and sad post. It almost made me...sort of depressed when I wrote it...I felt bad. BUT on happier news, another clip of Destiny's POV, at least Noah's in it. I feel...alone here ::echo::

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I screamed at him, while he walked so normally down the corridor, oblivious to the ass chewing I was trying to get through to him. There I was, trying desperately to reach through to him like I had nights before...trying to hard to win My Noah back. I defiantly was not found of this new guy.

Me: Hullo! You dumb ass, look at what you're doing! I knew you were going to do this! Right when you kissed me at our wedding. It was too lovey-like, yeah, I know how you kiss, that kiss had so been a warning! Are you listening to me? NOAH!

Noah: Gee I wonder if there are any vampires around...

To tell the truth, this was getting on my nerves. I couldn't touch him, couldn't shake him or slap him, which I really wanted to do. A big one right across the face, so hard that he wouldn't even know what happened, which probably would have been the case...IF I COULD TOUCH HIM.

But no, here I was, powerless, while my maniac Out Of Control Half-Breed Dangerous Thinks He's A Bad Ass Husband stalked through the night like he was looking for trouble...which he was. Looking for French speaking vampires. How wrong is that? French speaking vampires...wow...where had that one come from? Who would have thunk it?

I silently follow him, wishing I could save him. He's fallen so far away that I can't do a thing. He's gone bad, evil right onto me...slipped to the wrong side of the Oreo cookie and I hadn't even realized it. He's singing now...in that voice I always loved to have sing to me, maybe he does know I'm listening. He sings one of his favorite songs, his steps uneasy and his wand tight in his grasp, looking in doors as he passed, his quiet mumble of tunes grow a little bit louder.

Noah was never a horrible singer, he wasn't perfect or anything, he was just like you would expect a guy to sing, he'd never sing though, not in front of anyone that is. But he used to in front of Lyric and Keaton; not anymore...so I savor his smooth sounding voice, his reassuring voice, like he knows what's going to happen. Like he's so damn down to Earth.

That's how he tricks you, that was how my maniac Out Of Control Half-Breed Dangerous Thinks He's A Bad Ass Husband was able to take you totally off guard. He makes you think he really is down to Earth, that he knows what's going on, that's he's cool and calm and is someone you can count on that has there head on right.

In reality, he's totally lost, spinning out of control, blind in all hope of hope...I listen to his voice, following behind him solemnly, ready to give up my futile effort entirely, when he starts singing one of his very own songs. One that he always turned up on the radio, his favorite love song to me... "It only describes everything so perfectly," he'd say with a loopy half-smile, his famous laid back voice...

I could here it now, the depressing edge as he sang it, it had been ours too...our secret. "I said maybe, you're going to be the one to save me..." his voice drifts off as he looks into the next room, expecting a fight with a vampire, there is none there.

Me: In one last pleading attempt Noah! Please...please think of Lyric and Keaton. Think of me...you have to stop. You have to stop now, you can't give into her, you can't Noah...you can do this, you can fight it...I know you can!

Noah stops after my shouts, and titters back and forth on the balls of his feet, as if trying to pass the time by, "Yeah but...you don't know Destiny, you don't know how it feels, it's harder than it looks you know..."

I walk in front of him, my mouth hanging open, could he see me? Could he actually hear me? For once...for real? Had I finally beaten the system? This one had sure been a lot more harder than The Matrix on the PlayStation2. "What do you mean? You're going out of your mind, hello Noah, get a grip! Stop acting like you're fourteen and start acting like a responsible parent!"

"I have haven't I?" he says back crossing his arms, his eyes aren't meeting with mine or anything, they're looking past me, in a gray gold-flecked haze, he looks lost, like he's not paying attention, I knew this look well, it was the look Lyric got when he used his Sight. Was that how this was working? Was he actually tuning into his own Sight? Was that how he had been able to communicate with me before?

"Yes, but not recently," I snap rolling my eyes and taking advantage of what's going on, "You have to go back, you're no good evil, you promised me—"

"You're not around anymore," Noah said with a sly smile, his sharp teeth didn't scare me like they did when we were younger; I was used to it.

"Do you still love me Noah Lupin?"

"Yes, of course," he says with a frown, "I always...I always have..." his voice drifts off this time, I can feel his attention straying from me once again.

"No, listen," I say breathlessly, "If you love me you'll stop."

"But you left me..."

"I was killed, I couldn't help it," Duh.

"But you still left me alone...with Lyric and Keaton, they need you. They need you now. I don't need you anymore. I didn't need you...they needed you..."

"Don't kid yourself, you need me too,"

"But I cared about them more...you left them Destiny, you left Lyric and Keaton...it's too late."

"Stop complaining, if it helps, I can go check on them right now, but I want you out of it, so you can be there for them too, not locked away in some cold prison cell all alone with Dementors looming over you until the day you die..."

With that last statement, I lose him again, and his eyes dart away, he loses that look, and he starts walking again, shaking his head as if it had all been a dream, I know he can't remember what had just happened. Every time he used his Sight, he couldn't remember doing it. Just my freakin' peachy luck.

The last thing I hear out of my husband, a person I still passionately love, was him singing another song, and I rolled my eyes at it, wishing him luck with the French vampires, there was nothing I could do for Noah anymore. He was lost forever. No one could bring him back out of this but himself...the world was doomed. It would be nothing short of a miracle. Would I even see him here with me? Where was My Noah? Would he be with me in Heaven? Would I ever hear his laugh again? Or will he be eternally damned to hell in a small black space for the rest of eternity...all alone...the thought made me shudder, and I felt like crying again.

He couldn't...he couldn't do that, Noah couldn't survive this...My Noah wouldn't let this new one would he? Where was he?

I wanted his voice in my ear, whispering softly to me more than ever now. My poor Noah...I needed to check on Lyric, he was just coming to the same realization as I was. That his father was lost...that he was going to go to Azkaban prison...and that there was nothing he could do about it...that he too, would never see his dad laugh again...

"Until the day I die...I'll spill my heart for you..."

I screamed as I walked away, wishing anyone would hear me, I couldn't help but start crying, "You can't leave me like this...where did you go...where did My Noah go?"

I wanted to re-live my past...every single bit of it, I wanted to be a little kid again, to wait for the chance where I would get my first glimpse of Remus Lupin's son...and he would smile at me...his laugh echoing in my head...never again...not even in heaven would I hear his soft laughter and songs...