If happiness was given on a silver platter, then I must have been
given a golden one as I set eyes on Beast Boy. He had agreed with staying
with me, and even though it would be only for a short while, I know I'd
cherish the seconds that passed. Everything about him drove me insane, or
at least to the brink of insanity. His beauty, and the way I marveled it,
the common joke he'd say every once in awhile. Everything about him was
perfect, but all perfect things have a flaw. And Terra was Beast Boy's
flaw. Perhaps she wasn't his flaw, more so mine, but I knew that as long as
he felt the way he did towards her, it wouldn't go away. I thought, no I
knew, if I saw him I'd be happy. And I was. But now every time I see him,
it's breaking me up inside.
A quick pang going across my heart, and it's like he can't see it. Or perhaps he's so blinded by his love for Terra, he can't see me at all. I wish that wouldn't be true, but I would never know.
"Raven? Raven?" Beast Boy asked, waving an indecent hand in front of my face. It was covered in ketchup and french fry bits from our dinner that we were sharing. I gave him a weak smile, and understood now just how helpful one little mask could be. Beast Boy passed my moments of insanity off as just mere thoughts or something like that, I'm sure.
I looked down at my own dinner, filled with toast and some orange juice. I had some fries as well, but they were untouched, unscathed. It was almost like love. The minute someone touches the fry, they're going to eat it. And the minute someone touches your heart, they'll eat away at it. I looked up at Beast Boy who had a handful of fries he was trying to shove into his mouth, obviously finding the predicament to be the fact that his mouth just wasn't big enough. He let out a sigh, dropped one french fry, and tossed in the rest. It took him a moment to chew, but he got it all down. When he saw that I was staring indignantly at him, he threw me a smile before digging in again.
I wanted to laugh, but I didn't feel like it. It seemed funny, and to me it must have been somewhat, but I was afraid, I think. If I laugh, will he look at me again? See through me, but allow me the chance to see into him? Did I even want to? A breath escaped me, and he looked up. I froze, and when we caught eyes I knew he had to see me. Had to see the pain buried deep within me, and somehow he must have known.
He never said a word, though I'm thankful, and he never mentioned it again. But by the way he was looking at me as we left the café we had ate in, and the way he walked in front of me gave me ideas that he knew. He probably didn't know the way I felt for him, but he most certainly must know by now I'm hurting.
It was a quiet walk home, filled with nothing. I looked back up at the stars as I had the night before, and smiled. It was funny, really, but I was looking at the same exact things yesterday, and today I got what I was wishing for.
:
When we reached my apartment, Beast Boy flopped down on the couch he had also agreed to staying on. I didn't have any spare bedrooms, to be honest not many of my rooms were even the littlest bit big. It was, like I said, a small apartment. He grabbed hold of his fuzzy orange blanket, tossed it over himself, and dug his arm underneath his pillow. A weak smile.
"Good night, Raven," he said in a husky voice as he moved slightly to adjust. A bigger smile.
"Good night to you too, Beast Boy," I walked out onto the balcony where I always kept a blanket and a chair, and sat down. I pulled the blanket tightly around me to keep my body heat enclosed, and took one last glance up at the sky above.
"If the stars could sing..." I sang slowly, letting out a yawn, "they'd tell the truth... they'd tell you I love you.... And how you tease... my.... Sweet... tooth...."
My eyes closed, and sleep enveloped me.
:
I woke up the next morning bright and early, in my soft bed. At first I was a bit alarmed, and it took me only a few seconds to register where I was. I got that part down, but how I got there was still my primary question. I flew out of the bed, out of my room, and into the living room where Beast Boy was sitting. He had on the television and was flipping through the channels quicker then my eyes could focus.
"Morning, Raven!" Beast Boy said chirpily as he saw me. He was wearing the same clothes he was wearing yesterday, much like myself.
"Beast boy? How'd I get in my room?" I inquired, sitting down next to him and giving him a very thoughtful glance. I could have sworn he blushed.
"I carried you... I woke up in the middle of the night having a nightmare you froze to death. It was quite odd, really, because I saw you on the balcony and you where a dark blue. Your teeth were chattering, as well, and I was surprised you didn't wake up from the cold and come inside," he explained, using some hand gestures that didn't even go along with his story. I nodded, and sat back to watch as the channels flew by.
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A quick pang going across my heart, and it's like he can't see it. Or perhaps he's so blinded by his love for Terra, he can't see me at all. I wish that wouldn't be true, but I would never know.
"Raven? Raven?" Beast Boy asked, waving an indecent hand in front of my face. It was covered in ketchup and french fry bits from our dinner that we were sharing. I gave him a weak smile, and understood now just how helpful one little mask could be. Beast Boy passed my moments of insanity off as just mere thoughts or something like that, I'm sure.
I looked down at my own dinner, filled with toast and some orange juice. I had some fries as well, but they were untouched, unscathed. It was almost like love. The minute someone touches the fry, they're going to eat it. And the minute someone touches your heart, they'll eat away at it. I looked up at Beast Boy who had a handful of fries he was trying to shove into his mouth, obviously finding the predicament to be the fact that his mouth just wasn't big enough. He let out a sigh, dropped one french fry, and tossed in the rest. It took him a moment to chew, but he got it all down. When he saw that I was staring indignantly at him, he threw me a smile before digging in again.
I wanted to laugh, but I didn't feel like it. It seemed funny, and to me it must have been somewhat, but I was afraid, I think. If I laugh, will he look at me again? See through me, but allow me the chance to see into him? Did I even want to? A breath escaped me, and he looked up. I froze, and when we caught eyes I knew he had to see me. Had to see the pain buried deep within me, and somehow he must have known.
He never said a word, though I'm thankful, and he never mentioned it again. But by the way he was looking at me as we left the café we had ate in, and the way he walked in front of me gave me ideas that he knew. He probably didn't know the way I felt for him, but he most certainly must know by now I'm hurting.
It was a quiet walk home, filled with nothing. I looked back up at the stars as I had the night before, and smiled. It was funny, really, but I was looking at the same exact things yesterday, and today I got what I was wishing for.
:
When we reached my apartment, Beast Boy flopped down on the couch he had also agreed to staying on. I didn't have any spare bedrooms, to be honest not many of my rooms were even the littlest bit big. It was, like I said, a small apartment. He grabbed hold of his fuzzy orange blanket, tossed it over himself, and dug his arm underneath his pillow. A weak smile.
"Good night, Raven," he said in a husky voice as he moved slightly to adjust. A bigger smile.
"Good night to you too, Beast Boy," I walked out onto the balcony where I always kept a blanket and a chair, and sat down. I pulled the blanket tightly around me to keep my body heat enclosed, and took one last glance up at the sky above.
"If the stars could sing..." I sang slowly, letting out a yawn, "they'd tell the truth... they'd tell you I love you.... And how you tease... my.... Sweet... tooth...."
My eyes closed, and sleep enveloped me.
:
I woke up the next morning bright and early, in my soft bed. At first I was a bit alarmed, and it took me only a few seconds to register where I was. I got that part down, but how I got there was still my primary question. I flew out of the bed, out of my room, and into the living room where Beast Boy was sitting. He had on the television and was flipping through the channels quicker then my eyes could focus.
"Morning, Raven!" Beast Boy said chirpily as he saw me. He was wearing the same clothes he was wearing yesterday, much like myself.
"Beast boy? How'd I get in my room?" I inquired, sitting down next to him and giving him a very thoughtful glance. I could have sworn he blushed.
"I carried you... I woke up in the middle of the night having a nightmare you froze to death. It was quite odd, really, because I saw you on the balcony and you where a dark blue. Your teeth were chattering, as well, and I was surprised you didn't wake up from the cold and come inside," he explained, using some hand gestures that didn't even go along with his story. I nodded, and sat back to watch as the channels flew by.
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