Slow rain fell out on the city that I was currently resided in. Slow, soft
rain that mirrored my feelings to the world. It never really rained when I
felt sad before, but now it did. Why didn't Terra want to be with Beast
Boy? Hadn't she been the one to drool over him and laugh at everything he
ever said and or did? It made me feel happy, happy that that meant Beast
Boy was free, but then sad, sad because this meant his heart was live pray
on a web for the spider, Terra, to come and poison. And poison she would,
no matter what. And then it'd be stone hard, incapable of loving anything
or anyone. I hate you, Terra!
I was yelling in my head, pounding on the wall in my hotel room, and crying a thousand and two tears, and yet nothing was coming out of this. Nothing good, at least, so I began to pound harder and harder. I was choking on my sobs, my hand was bleeding and the wall had begun to crumble, and only then did I stop my actions, only then did I give up. I wondered if this was the end to everything, if this meant returning back "home", and sleeping and living and breathing and doing everything I did before.
My whole life was altered due to him, he changed me in ways I never thought possible, and he didn't know about. He'd never know, though, would he?
Five hours, a few packed bags, and two glasses of water later I was standing at the train station ready to board. I was going home. I was gripping the handle bar, walking up the step, and the minute my foot connected I heard my name. It reached me loud and clear; crisp above all the other noise. I only heard that one singular word and I turned my head. I had begun to cry, and when I saw the owner, I did. A man was standing there, a girl with long hair holding his hand. I let out a faint smile, took one last look at the train and moved my luggage over to the couple....
"Raven? Raven, we are your friends!" Starfire said, grabbing my hand. They'd heard news of what I was doing, and had come to the train station to talk to me. It was apparent they thought I was going to continue on, and it was also apparent they do things the hard way and don't bother to check where the train was going.
"Yes, I know," I replied, giving a weak smile. Robin moved forward, and rested his hand on top of Starfire's and mine. They'd change so much, like all of us, but no matter what it was always evident who they once were, who we all once were. We were the titan's, a group of friends, the elite.
"Raven, come stay with us for awhile," Robin offered, and I pulled my hand away, and shook my head. I grabbed my bags, took one last drink of my water, and looked at them with eyes pooling over with water.
"I can't. I have my own life to go back too, he's.... he's already ruined it enough. Look at me! I'm sharing my emotions with the world as if it were normal. This isn't who I used to be, and I intend to go back. I was going to go back before you guys came, and now that we've had this talk, I've decided everything. Terra doesn't like Beast Boy, and I don't know why, and I don't care, he'll find out for himself one day. I'll get over Beast Boy, and I'll get over all of this, and I'll move on. I have to go now though," I then left. I'd buy another ticket, board another train, and live the same life over and over again until I died. This, this never happened. I agreed right then and there that I'd just forget about this. I wasn't a child any more; I have a job and a house to maintain, and perhaps a new family to settle down with. Maybe if I got everything in order I wouldn't be so depressed over the whole Beast Boy ordeal.
The train ride was long, boring, and rather uncomfortable, so I spent the whole time meditating. I'd find a peaceful place within side my head, and stay there till I returned to my former "home", where I'd reside for the rest of my life till I wilted away and got buried in some grave no one would bother visiting again. No one...
I got home, jingled around and found my keys, and then fit them in the lock. I was home... but my heart wasn't with me. I opened the door, walked in, and flopped down on the couch. I felt wind hit my face, and looked over at the balcony door which was open. Had I left it open all these days?
"Raven... I talked to Terra," A voice said, and I looked over at the figure in surprise.
"Beast Boy... but how?" No other words were shared as he raced over and jumped on me, which hurt a bit, and then kissed me. His lips found mine in such a hurried motion I feared they might hit my cheek, and he'd run off in the night embarrassed. But they hit my lips, and I felt my heart burst. My eyes did burst, though, with tears, and I began to kiss him with a passion. Nothing mattered, it didn't matter if he left tomorrow, right now I was kissing him, and right now I was happy. Right now...
I was yelling in my head, pounding on the wall in my hotel room, and crying a thousand and two tears, and yet nothing was coming out of this. Nothing good, at least, so I began to pound harder and harder. I was choking on my sobs, my hand was bleeding and the wall had begun to crumble, and only then did I stop my actions, only then did I give up. I wondered if this was the end to everything, if this meant returning back "home", and sleeping and living and breathing and doing everything I did before.
My whole life was altered due to him, he changed me in ways I never thought possible, and he didn't know about. He'd never know, though, would he?
Five hours, a few packed bags, and two glasses of water later I was standing at the train station ready to board. I was going home. I was gripping the handle bar, walking up the step, and the minute my foot connected I heard my name. It reached me loud and clear; crisp above all the other noise. I only heard that one singular word and I turned my head. I had begun to cry, and when I saw the owner, I did. A man was standing there, a girl with long hair holding his hand. I let out a faint smile, took one last look at the train and moved my luggage over to the couple....
"Raven? Raven, we are your friends!" Starfire said, grabbing my hand. They'd heard news of what I was doing, and had come to the train station to talk to me. It was apparent they thought I was going to continue on, and it was also apparent they do things the hard way and don't bother to check where the train was going.
"Yes, I know," I replied, giving a weak smile. Robin moved forward, and rested his hand on top of Starfire's and mine. They'd change so much, like all of us, but no matter what it was always evident who they once were, who we all once were. We were the titan's, a group of friends, the elite.
"Raven, come stay with us for awhile," Robin offered, and I pulled my hand away, and shook my head. I grabbed my bags, took one last drink of my water, and looked at them with eyes pooling over with water.
"I can't. I have my own life to go back too, he's.... he's already ruined it enough. Look at me! I'm sharing my emotions with the world as if it were normal. This isn't who I used to be, and I intend to go back. I was going to go back before you guys came, and now that we've had this talk, I've decided everything. Terra doesn't like Beast Boy, and I don't know why, and I don't care, he'll find out for himself one day. I'll get over Beast Boy, and I'll get over all of this, and I'll move on. I have to go now though," I then left. I'd buy another ticket, board another train, and live the same life over and over again until I died. This, this never happened. I agreed right then and there that I'd just forget about this. I wasn't a child any more; I have a job and a house to maintain, and perhaps a new family to settle down with. Maybe if I got everything in order I wouldn't be so depressed over the whole Beast Boy ordeal.
The train ride was long, boring, and rather uncomfortable, so I spent the whole time meditating. I'd find a peaceful place within side my head, and stay there till I returned to my former "home", where I'd reside for the rest of my life till I wilted away and got buried in some grave no one would bother visiting again. No one...
I got home, jingled around and found my keys, and then fit them in the lock. I was home... but my heart wasn't with me. I opened the door, walked in, and flopped down on the couch. I felt wind hit my face, and looked over at the balcony door which was open. Had I left it open all these days?
"Raven... I talked to Terra," A voice said, and I looked over at the figure in surprise.
"Beast Boy... but how?" No other words were shared as he raced over and jumped on me, which hurt a bit, and then kissed me. His lips found mine in such a hurried motion I feared they might hit my cheek, and he'd run off in the night embarrassed. But they hit my lips, and I felt my heart burst. My eyes did burst, though, with tears, and I began to kiss him with a passion. Nothing mattered, it didn't matter if he left tomorrow, right now I was kissing him, and right now I was happy. Right now...