CR: She lives! No actually I've died. Ok, this chapter took awhile to come out because I've been grounded. Yeah, it sucks, shushy. I want this story to be long, so bear with me on all the pain I'm putting the characters through. I enjoy the reviews and the readers who don't mind all to much that my grammar and spelling seem to fail me quite often. Hehe. Yeah, shush.

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The kiss was beautiful, wonderful, romantic in every sense. It was the end of a fairy tale, and yet the beginning of a night-mare. I began crying again when we pulled apart, and hurriedly wiped away the tears. What was wrong with me? The great Raven crying over a kiss!? I let out a sigh, and sat down, surprised that even after he jumped on me I hadn't fallen over.

"Why?" I questioned, and he sat down. I knew he didn't understand the question and wanted it rephrased, but I needed a second to catch my breath. So after a moments time, and after a few coughs of embarrassment, I began again.

"Why didn't she love you? Why did you come back to me?" Thoughts flooded me. Terra didn't love BB, so he came back to me. Was I his second resource so his life wouldn't be wasted single? I felt my heart tear, and I prayed the thought would banish and be nothing but a lie. But no matter how hard I tried to ignore it, it still lingered in my head.

"She didn't love me because she'd found someone else. She said she had great times with me, and that I was funny, but not the person she wanted to love and be loved by," I nodded my reply, "Raven, I never left you. You left me."

I stared at him in shock. I left him?! What a preposterous thought!

"What do you mean!?" I nearly yelled, jumping up. My emotions flared and my eyes went white. I heard a crash from somewhere in my apartment but ignored it.

"Raven! Calm down Raven I didn't mean what you're thinking!" Beast Boy pleaded, but it was obvious he was just doing it to calm me and that he was lying.

"I followed you on your escapade for Terra, I looked and looked for you and I'll be killed if I didn't do it for any other reason then love!" I yelled out. I couldn't see anything but Beast Boy, and the crashing in the background had faded. I knew it was still happening, the crashing, however, because Beast boy kept ducking and grabbing hold of his head in a protective manner.

"RAVEN! PLEASE YOU'VE GOT TO REASON WITH ME!" BB started yelling as he jumped out of the way of a flying desk. Or was that my nightstand? It didn't matter, objects were flying everywhere, things were falling apart and I could hear the neighbors banging on the door.

"Raven! RAVEN!" I felt arms around me. I felt someone whispering in my ear. I felt everything melt away, even my knees, as I crumbled to the floor.

"I cried, me," I said in a joking manner, letting out a snort. "BB, I've felt emotions I've never felt before, or I never thought I could feel. I've done things I never thought I would do. I've changed."

Beast Boy nodded, and whispered 'I know' repeatively in my ear as he stroked my hair. I wasn't crying anymore, and he wasn't either. The room around us was a mess, and most, if not all, of my objects were destroyed beyond repair. I think my heart was the same way. Fear flooded me, what was I supposed to do now? Where was I supposed to go? Beast Boy is sitting here with me in his arms in my apartment, and I was at a loss of what to do. How long will he stroke my hair before he leaves?

"Raven," he began finally a deep breath of relief left me. "I loved you for a very long time, Raven. But you blocked us out. I know before you couldn't have emotions, and as you grew older you could. Maybe it's because of living on earth, or maybe it was because of us. I don't know really, but when you started having emotions like love and happiness, I felt like it was because I had left that one day. I thought that you left me so long ago in spirit, that because I left in physical form you were happy."

"I was so sad, Beast Boy," I replied. He nodded again, and stopped stroking my hair to give me a hug. What did this all mean? I'm so confused.

"Raven, maybe we weren't meant to be together," Beast Boy confirmed my worst night mare. I withdrew and looked at him straight in the eye.

"What do you mean?" I asked without emotion, and kept a straight face.

"Whenever we're together something happens, and whether it's good or not it doesn't... I don't know, Raven, I really don't. I just... well, It's just that..." there was a long pause, and I knew Beast Boy couldn't really explain what it was that was happening.

So I nodded, and told him it was ok. He left then, leaving me to the destroyed room of pain. I knelt down and began picking up my ruined room and life.

Why? A voice filled the room. I looked up in alarm, searching for a body.

"Why what? Who's there?" I questioned, standing up and looking around.

You... showed only love... and got... only pain... why?

"Why WHAT!?" I asked, spinning around. I wasn't afraid, no-that was one emotion I wouldn't stand to have anymore. I just had to find the body of the voice.

Why do you still love him?

I stared straight forward in a dumbfounded look.

"Love... Beast boy?" I questioned slowly.

Yess... child... why? You followed him while he followed her, and she didn't even love him like you did! And in the end... did you get what you wanted?

I stared forward for awhile, pondering this. The faceless voice had a point.

Come with me, child.... I'll show you love...

Was that what I wanted? I growled slightly.

"I don't need love," I replied.

Oh but you do, child! The voice retorted. It wasn't in the room! I suddenly twirled around to face the balcony. The doors were open still, like I had found them. No, the voice was within my head.

"Am I going insane?" I questioned.

No, you're not, child... you've come to realization... he doesn't love you, but oh! Do I ever love you...

"Who... who are you!?" I yelled out into the night.

Why, your knight in shining armor!

(Ok yeah, I have no life. I want SOME action in this so in the next few chapters expect romance, action, jealousy, rage, and well death. o.o Yeah... ok well yeah. ;; 10 reviews or no chapter. –lmao- I can sooo see no one caring :P)

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