A/N:
I know I've been so bad and I haven't updated for so long. Thank you all so much for your lovely reviews. I'm here, settling in at UWC now.But I'm so far away from my family and friends. I miss all of them. Anyway, on with the story.
Best wishes -(Lady) Ilenya
Chapter-4 (Long Lost Memories)
The fellowship had now gone far from Imladris.Much to the Hobbits' relief they had stopped for some rest. What worried them the most was the fact that Adrianne seemed so distant. She had hardly spoken to any of them. She was mostly lost in her own thoughts. She only spoke if spoken to. Yet she wouldn't tell anyone what was wrong.(A/N you'll know what's wrong with her in the next chapter) Sam got busy in preparing dinner while everyone else was setting up camp and talking of their futher roads. Adrianne was sitting on the branch of a tree, a little away from everyone else. Legolas decided to go and talk to her.
"You shouldn't be out here alone." Legolas said as her climbed up to the branch where Adrianne was sitting.
"Why do you think I'm so incapable? I can defend myself. Please leave me alone. I need to think." "Please Adrianne stop keeping your feelings bottled up inside you. Try to understand, I'm only trying to help." Legoals said "Well then I don't need your help. My feelings and thoughts do not concern you." Legolas sighed and climbed down. Meanwhile Adrianne remembered her 'dream' after the accident.
Past Dream sequence
"Come here, my child" A soft, musical voice said to Adrianne/Emily. She walked ahead to find a lady dressed in white. She could not see the lady's face. The Lady placed her hand on Emily's shoulder. "This is not where you truly belong. Come, let me take you away. Let me take you to the place where your loved ones still await you."
"And where is that?" Emily asked and the Lady laughed a clear musical laugh "You shall know. All in good time. All in good time. Before I send you, let me tell you give you some advise. Do not hide your feelings. Find someone to trust. Tell them how you feel. Do not let all the great sadness of the past trouble you in this new life. Farewell" and with that the Lady kissed Emily's forehead End Dream sequence
"I'm sorry, I cannot do as you said. I cannot" Adrianne said softly as a tear rolled down her cheek. She was thinking of her past, many things she had forced herself to forget. She decided to return to camp. Adrianne forgot that someone would be on guard. She saw Frodo staring at the sky. He was wide awake. "You aren't really asleep.are you,Frodo?" Adrianne asked. Frodo looked up at her. "Would it help you sleep if I sing?" She asked. Frodo nodded
May it be an evening star shines down apon you
May it be when darkness falls y
our heart will be true
you walk a lonely road
oh! how far you are from home
Mornie utulie
believe and you will find your way Mornie alantie
a promise lives within you now
May it be the shadows call will fly away
May it be you journey on to light the day
when the night is ovecome you may rise to find the sun
Mornie utulie
believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie
a promise lives within you now
A promise lives within you now
She finished singing and found that Frodo was now asleep. "Sleep a peacefuly while you can. There are many dark days to come for both you and Sam. Sleep while you can...while you can" she said softly. Just then she felt a hand on her shoulder. "Please leave me" She said. "Why do you always want to run away from me, Adrianne? I've only tried to help you" the voice belonged to Legolas who was taking first watch. "I have already said so and I say it once again, I do not need your help." She said and went away to lay out her bedding. "Quel kaima" Legolas whispered
Legolas' (short)POV as he staring at the sky
Adrianne has many secrets. Elven eyes usually have a light. But hers seems to be very faint. It is hardly there. Her heart is heavy with many thoughts. Why won't she trust me? She needs to confide in someone. She is a very odd elleth. Lord Elrond won't reveal anything about her family or where she came from. She posseses the beauty of the evenstar and the voice of a nightingale. Her mind is burdened with sorrow and she isin't making it any lighter this way. I have to gain her trust somehow.
End POV
Next Morning from Adrianne's POV
I felt someone shake me awake in the morning. I opened my eyes to see Aragorn. "You sleep a lot for an Elf, Gwathel" Aragorn said softly. I just smiled and sat up. I had repeatedly asked myself this question; Am I happy here? I only found the answer last night, I am not needed here wether happy or unhappy. I'm just a burden that they have to bear. I felt so useless, so helpless. Why did I ever come on this quest? How could I think that I could help them? I shall only hinder them. I feel miserable. Another day sigh. I am still silent as we clear up camp and start walking again.
The one thing that I am most afraid of is the fact that I am falling for Legolas...fast. I am afraid, afraid to fall in love. While I was on earth I had fallen in love with Jeremy, it pains me to think of him. For many years I forced myself to forget him. During my second year of college I met Jeremy. We were perfect for each other. Everything was well until september 11th. Jeremy was on that wreched flight.......everthing went wrong that day. That was the day that my heart and soul died. With the help of my parents, I recovered. But not fully I cannot fully forget him. I still feel bound to him. I cannot fall for Legolas...I cannot. I have also realized that I still don't feel like lord Elrond is my ada. I still miss my parents back home...on earth, my real home, the only place I belong. Aragorn and Gandalf are very kind to me.They are the only ones here who understand me. That is not what occupies my thoughts at present
You used to captivate me By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me
We walked on. Legolas Glanced back at me. I ignored it. I tried not to think more of him. For now, Jeremy had occupied my thoughts
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
It would only hurt more to think of him. I couldn't take it anymore. Why, why did memories haunt me so? Why can't I let go of him? Why can't I start a new life?
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Why, why must I suffer? What have I done to deserve this? There are still many questions with no answers. In almost all stories...there's a happy ending. What about the story of my life? Will it end as happily? Will I even survive the War of the Ring?
A/N:
I bet all of you are majorly dissatisfied with this chapter. I'm so sorry it didn't live up to your expectations. But please do take into consideration the fact that my brain is not willing to work during the holidays. Yes, I'm at home now and its about midnight. I just finished typing this. I'm really sleepy too. I will replace tis Chapter with a better one...sometime
Disclaimer: This chapter contains 'May it be' by Enya and 'My Immortal' by Evanescence. I don't own them
And for those of you who need elvish translations:
Mornie utulie : Darkness has come
Mornie alantie : Darkness has fallen
Quel kaima : Sleep Well
elleth : she-elf
Gwathel: sister
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(Daughter of Lord Arathorn & Sister of King Elessar)