We Can't Be Friends
Chapter Nineteen: Fights

(A/N: No Fluff. Sorry)

Kagome knew she was in deep shit! Whenever Inuyasha came around her breath hitched and her heart sped up. It was awful. It was humiliating. It was down right wrong. She knew Kami was laughing at her. Mocking her, but she didn't dare say anything......she was a fearful lass.

Not to mention her fluffy-cloudy dreams with Sess boy had come to a serious crash. They'd already called off the wedding, but it was just the question of as that 'thing' there. She didn't want to hurt him, but she didn't also want to have to worry about losing to wife number five...... being four was enough.

After all, what was there but lies......and a hot guy? She'd had her man luck, oh she was able to snag some super hunks, it was the keeping them part that was rough. Sesshoumaru was supposed to be different. She NEEDED it to be different. Feeling things that shouldn't be felt were enough. And that stir in her do-dah had sent her to a cold shower more than twice a day.

"Why me," she groaned almost falling off the bar stool. A bunch of old, raggedy drunks caught her and set her straight, just waiting for her to pass out. After all, a pretty little thing as herself wasn't supposed to drink eight straight Val Helsing's. (Drink. Very good drink.) It was impressive though, she hadn't taken off any of her clothes, or accepted offers to get intimate. She just wasn't that type of gal.

Inuyasha chose that time to get sloshed himself. Kikyo was driving him insane. First begging him to make Sesshomaru hire her, and then badgering him about Kagome. It was hard. It was very fucking hard to juggle every broad in his life. He quickly seated himself in a shady corner, not wanting any type of special attention. When the waitress came over he ordered the usual straight vodka (he seems more like a whiskey guy to me......) It was then he spotted his ex.

"Kagome?" he whispered. When they were together she always refused to drink. She couldn't really hold her liquor. He noticed the leering men and immediately got up with a growl.

"Ooppsie!" Kagome hiccupped tittering off the stool. Inuyasha caught her, a little grin on his lips.

"You really shouldn't drink," he said with a husky slur. Kagome's heart jumped, and that dazed, stupid smile touched her lips.

"Hello," she said in her stupor. He grinned down at her, pulling her gently from the stool. He led her to his booth, and sat her down in front of him. She slid all the way into the seat, face red and hair disheveled. It was the most amusing sight he'd seen in a long time.

"Funny to see you here? Problems with Sesshomaru?" he asked. Kagome frowned at him.

"Sesshoumaru and I are probably going to call quits," she stuttered. Inuyasha leaned further back into the cushion, an amused smirk on his handsome face.

"Is that right?"

"It's all your fault, baka." With another frown at him, she waved over the bartender and ordered another round. The young man with a kind face looked to Inuyasha for approval. He slightly shook his head no, and the man scurried off.

"And how is it my fault?" he asked.

"You and your pretty boy looks, got Sessie all jealous and stuff."

Inuyasha grinned.

"Sesshoumaru's jealous of me?"

"Yup!" she looked over at the bartender, but he averted his eyes. "What's a girl gotta do to get a drink?" she muttered. Inuyasha smiled again at her.

"I think you've drank enough for both of us Kagome, why don't you just talk to me okay?" Kagome glanced up at him from under heavy eyelids.

"Can you just let me sleep?" she slurred with eyes half closed. Inuyasha chuckled.

"No. You need to let it pass through your system."

"Why?" she whined grabbing at her hair and planting her elbows on the table. He thought briefly he'd never seen such a beautiful creature.

"You don't want the migraine that follows."

Kagome's eyes widened in enlighten. She giggled.

"Since when do you look out for my well being?"

"Isn't it what I've always done?"

Kagome got awfully quiet.

"I have Sesshoumaru for that now," she whispered. Inuyasha wasn't expecting that, and was clearly startled.

"Aren't you calling quits?"

"Noooo. We just don't think marriage is best at this time...there's too much we don't know...about the past," she looked up at him with sorrowful eyes. The pity overwhelmed him, and he had the urge to slap her.

"Do you dare bring up the past?" he asked in a deadly tone. Kagome sighed in defeat.

"We might as well talk about it now...I mean, sooner or later it has to come up. It might as well be when it hurts to think."

He growled.

"You mean when you won't remember a damn thing said? How drunk are you?"

She ran her fingers through her thick hair, groaning in pain.

"Very very very drunk."

"You don't sound like a drunk."

She narrowed her eyes at him.

"Order me another drink," she challenged. He snorted in her face.

"You don't need anything else, at least right now."

"After you finish yelling, I'll probably need more than alcohol," she grumbled.

"You haven't given me a reason to yell," he pointed out. She happily gave him the finger before righting herself in indignation.

"Inuyasha you're a jerk, did you know that? You're selfish. You get on my nerves, and your ego's bigger than the state of Texas. You're conceited, and you think you can have anything you want. Is that reason enough?"

He crossed his arms.

"Nope."

"Fine. You're also dramatic. In almost every situation you blow the issues way out of proportion-"

"Ha. Big words for an alcoholic."

"You couldn't spell alcoholic Inuyasha."

He paused a beat, truly offended over the insult.

"You don't know me."

"Apparently. You were quick to get engaged after we split."

He seemed to tense, and his amber eyes burned in anger.

"You were the one that left. I was the one left to deal with the aftermath! I had to rebuild my entire being after you packed my old one up with you! And engagement? You have no right to say anything when you're with my BROTHER!"

Kagome looked at him with shocked, sad eyes. He ignored the look, refusing to feel like the jackass in the conflict.

"Inuyasha, it was an honest mistake."

"We're practically twins Kagome. Only an idiot wouldn't put two and two together," he snorted. You could tell by the coldness seeping into her eyes that she was ready to say some offending words of her own.

"Don't start that bullshit. Kikyo is two hair lengths from being my Mary Kate."

"At least she's loyal."

"Yeah, and I bet she eats up all the bull shit you tell her."

"You didn't have any trouble swallowing it yourself."

"Oh get off your high horse you pompous ass! Things happen. People change. I had to go, and you can't get over that."

"No, I can't get over you leaving no word! I sat up there for three hours! The guests had come and gone, and yet I stood, I stood in front of those that loved US, and refused to believe you would be a no show! But I was wrong. I was fucking wrong because for five years you've been away, feeling no regret over hurting me!"

"No regret! It was something that had to be done for both of our happiness!"

"Than I should've been included in that decision!" he snapped.

"You wouldn't have let me go! I know that!"

"Damn straight I wouldn't have!"

"You're too clingy."

"You're too scared of being happy!"

"Shut up! I'm not! What do you think I was with you?"

"Then why did you leave!" he hollered jumping up. Kagome was silenced. She'd never heard such desperation, anger, and sorrow in his voice before. It was literally drenched in it. She knew that they would never get anywhere. There were too many topics that had to be danced around, the only thing they always accomplished were hurt feelings.

She opened up her mouth to respond, but couldn't. She couldn't tell him how much she'd missed him all those years. She couldn't tell him that Sesshoumaru was nice, but was only a decoy to her pain. She couldn't tell him she was falling for him all over again. She couldn't tell him anything...

"Inuyasha sit down, please," she whispered with eyes tightly shut. He lowered himself, eyes desperate, face downcast. She looked up at him, not really wanting to leave after such an outburst. Something had to come from their little spat. Some conclusion had to be made.

"Why him?" he whispered.

"Why who?"

"Why my brother? Why Sesshomaru?"

Kagome felt a slight tightness rest in her chest.

"Sesshomaru was there for me...Inuyasha I didn't know-"

"How couldn't you know? We fuckin' look alike!" he practically growled. She flinched. She wasn't going to get out of this unscathed.

"Inuyasha, I didn't. I wouldn't hurt you-"

"Too late!"

"It's never too late! What do you want from me!" she asked with tears forming in her eyes. The deathly silence that had filled the place only seemed to worsen her mood.

"Something you can't give back!" he challenged. Her eyes widened in shock. How could he even say that? He was so many of her first. Her first kiss, love, boyfriend, fiancé, heartbreak.....

She couldn't stop the tears.

(End Chapter)

BGLI: How sad! I apologize for the wait people. I've been focusing too much on other things.

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