Buffy lay on her bed, she stared up at the ceiling. The whole room was dark; the only light shining threw the window, the window that haunted her with so many memories. Memories of how he was climb up and watch her. Watch her sleep, watch, worship.
Why couldn't she just say it? Tell him that she wanted to be with him. Really with him. Not that in her mind it would make any difference. She pretty much told him she he shot it right back at her. And it was all Charisma's fault. She was to blame. The girl had a death wish. Taking the Slayer's man!
Crypt
Spike walked into the crypt holding two brown paper bags, he walked into the kitchen area and before he got the chance to put the bags down he slid on… ice? And fell on to the floor. "Bloody hell!" Spike screamed.
Charisma walked up the rabbit hole and smiled at her boyfriend, "What are you doing?"
"What am I bloody doing?!" She demanded looking at all the food and blood scattered all over the floor. "I told you to stop makin' my bleedin' place into a ice wonder land!" Spike jumped up only to slip again and fall.
Charisma laughed and got a glare from the vampire, "Here," She said walking over to him, she held out her hand and helped him up. "See, its all good now."
Spike looked at his crypt, icicles hanging from the ceiling, ice masked over everything, a blanket of snow covered the furniture. "Look, pet, I love you, you know that, but… look at my house!"
"Hello?" Dawn's voice came, "Woah!" Dawn called happily, "Look at this place! It's awesome!" She knelt down and made a snowball, then she threw it at Spike.
Spike closed his eyes, growling, "Bit? What are you doing here?" He asked not turning.
Charisma rolled her eyes, "Sorry, Dawnie, Spike's in one of his moods. I think it's a vampire thing." She teased and Dawn giggled.
Spike vamped out, "You want to see one of my moods?" He asked and slip toward Dawn. She giggled when he threw her onto the couch and then.
"No No No!" Dawn shrieked, "Charisma! Stop him!" Dawn yelled in horror as Spike stalked toward her, Spike jumped on the couch and started to tickle her. "HAHAHA! Spike! I'm serious! I'll fight back!"
"Spike!" Charisma laughed.
Spike reached out and grabbed Charisma around the waist and pulled her down on the couch as well, he tickled both of them. Spike looked down at the to hysterical girls, "Spike! I'm the only one here who actually has to breath!" Dawn screamed.
Spike chuckled, "Sorry, bit." He said letting go of the two girls. His two girls.
Something was wrong, that didn't sound right. Not to his own two ears. He loved Charisma, Charisma loved him. Loved… why didn't that sound right either?
Charisma looked at Spike as he struggled with his thoughts, she was loosing her hold on him. He was strong. She grabbed his cheeks and kissed him hungrily a pink essence moving from her mouth to his, as they broke apart.
Spike looked at her, lovingly. "Right." He looked at Dawn who was rolling her eyes at the couple.
"Can you say "G" rated for the niblet?" Dawn asked.
Spike smiled, "Sorry, bit." He sat back on the couch, looked at his lover who smiled at him, "You mind?"
Charisma rolled her eyes and waved her hand, the whole crypt was dry, and warm. Or as warm as crypts were. Dawn smiled, "So, Spike, did you get any hot cocoa?" Dawn hoped of the couch and grabbed the bags, "Nope, no hot chocolate." She mumbled, "We always have it for you."
Spike looked at the younger girl, "Sorry, bit, I'll get some next time, there's some chips and things in there though."
Dawn grabbed the bag of chocolate chip cookies and jumped onto the couch, "What are we watching?" She asked grabbing the blanket from the back of the couch she wrapped it around herself as Charisma leaned her head down on Spike's shoulder he wrapped an arm around her.
Dawn watched as Spike kissed Charisma on the top of the head, "You know? I'm just going to head home." Dawn said.
"You can stay." Spike said turning to the youngest Summers'.
"Nah, I still have homework to do… and Buffy wants me home."
Spike nodded, "Right, she doesn't know you're here… does she?"
Dawn shrugged, "Doubt she would know if a tornado hit and she was right in the middle of it," Dawn said,
Spike looked at her, "What do you mean?"
"She'd totally…" Dawn shook her head, "Never mind, you two get back too… what ever you want to do with the kid gone."
Spike stood up, "I'll walk you."
Summers' House
Buffy sat in the kitchen, she saw Spike and Dawn walk passed the fence and toward the house, she smiled when she didn't see Charisma following. She waited, Spike opened the door for Dawn and both of them poured into the room. Spike looked at Buffy sitting at the table and offered her a small smile, "Hey, pet."
Buffy smiled softy at him, "Hey, Spike."
Dawn sat down next to Buffy, "So, Spike, do you want some hot chocolate?" Dawn offered.
Spike looked at her, her puppy dog eyes, "Sure, why not."
Dawn smiled and started to make the three cups of hot chocolate, "So, Spike, how's the North Pole?" Dawn started the conversation.
"Snowy." Spike answered.
Buffy gave both of them a confused frown, "What?"
"Charisma made it snow." Dawn said excitedly.
"Oh… Charisma." Buffy mumbled.
"The whole place!"
"Better not bloody go back and find the place covered in ice again."
"She can do that?" Buffy asked.
"She can make the whole town white if she wanted to." Spike answered.
"She could?!" Dawn asked, "This is sooo cool! My best-friend now has a girlfriend who can make school get cancelled!"
Buffy rolled her eyes and Dawn sat down next to her, spike though, kept his distance. He leaned against the wall. Watching the two sisters very closely. Buffy took a deep breath, why couldn't she just say it? three little words. "Spike, I-"
Buuffy stopped when she noticed the attention she'd gained from the vampire, she gulped, it shouldn't be this hard. Why couldn't she just come out and say it? "I…"
"You?" Spike asked his eyes narrowed. He pushed himself up off the wall and sat down across from Buffy.
Dawn stood up, "So, um… I'll be right back… have to pee." She explained dully. She got up and walked out of the room.
"Wh-when I got back." Buffy started, "You were the only one there for me… you looked after me." Buffy explained, "Even if I didn't want to admit it then.. You did." Buffy explained, "Thank you… for that."
Spike just stared at her.
"So, I've been doing a lot of the thinking... Since you and Charisma started… dating." Buffy explained, "Are you sure she's right for you?" Buffy asked, "This is me, not judging Buffy, Friend Buffy, she just seems… not your type."
"I know what you mean." Spike said standing and walking up to the pot of hot Chocolate. He poured the Chocolaty goodness into three cups. He handed Buffy her mug and then took his and sat down beside her. "Never thought I would get over you."
Buffy forced a smile, "right, why would you want to love me." Buffy whispered, she looked at him hoping he wouldn't hear her. He did. "Sorry… I just… it's weird."
Spike looked at her, broken Slayer, "I still love you." Spike told her honestly, "Just… not relationship love anymore." Spike tilted his head. "You know I suck at lying so I just don't do it. or at least… I suck at lying to you… and Dawn."
Buffy looked at him, "Everything's so screwed up."
Spike nodded, "T'll get easier." Spike promised, "Everything, you just need to take it one day at a time."
Buffy looked down at her cocoa, "C-can it ever be like it was?" Buffy asked, "Before… I hate this feeling." Buffy said tears welling in her eyes.
Spike looked at her, falling apart right in front of him. She would have never done this before. Their relationship was clearly sex. Nothing more, nothing less. Two days ago he would have been more then happy for the way she'd been treating him.
A part of him new she was right, you can't fall out of love with someone over night and in love with someone else. Not when it came to him anyway, he was the long-haul type of guy. He never let go. So why? Why was it so easy for Charisma to get in like this.
How could he loose all those feelings he had for the slayer?
TBc…
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