I scream I don't need you but I cry Help
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Chapter 4: Things are looking up and Things are looking down
Craig's Pov
Great, Just Great I let my anger get the best of me Ash should just dump me right now and save herself the heartache.
"Hey Manning" I heard from behind me it was Spinner I sighed as he joined on the bench
"Hey Spin" I answered
"Paige told about you and Ash"
"Paige is even speaking to you I thought she'd hate you after you hooked up with Manny"
"Um….Yeah Manny kind of saw me and Paige Making out" Spin said pulling his hair back and sighing "She won't even look at me but I mean come on A girl like Manny….."
"What do you mean a girl like Manny" I said getting defensive
"Oh boy here comes Super Craig Nothing just forget it" Spin said getting up but I grabbed by his collar
"No what did you mean by a girl like Manny" I knew how this would end but I just couldn't stop myself
"What is your problem" He said pushing me off "Maybe you should take your medicine before leaving the house" Spin said though I knew he didn't know I was Bi-polar it still made me mad and I punched him I heard a scream from behind as Spin fell to the ground
Paige and Ashley stared at me then looked at Spinner in horror. Paige ran over to him and grabbed him like he was a baby.
"What is your problem Craig" Paige yelled
"Paige please Spin probably caused it" Ashley said in my defense
"Oh Please Ashley you were just talking about how Craig was acting like a loose cannon" Spinner added in "Besides he got super defensive just because I said something about Manny that's all" Ashley looked at me with hurt in her eyes and I looked back with anger in my eyes and pushed past her so that's what she thought of me a "loose Cannon" that's just great.
"Craig Wait" I heard her scream from behind he me but I kept going
"So what you're mad you get into a fight over Manny and your mad at me" She yelled at me
"So what she's my friend and I'm going to defend her just like I would Emma or Paige or anyone of my other friends" I said spinning around to face her
"But Emma and Paige aren't your ex-girlfriends only Manny is and I'm thinking the reason your pushing me away is because you still have feelings for her"
"The reason I'm pushing you away is I don't know if we can do this I mean I don't want to be your "Loose Cannon" or psycho boyfriend" I finally admitted walking to the foyer and sitting down
"Craig I don't think you're a loose cannon you know how Spin he takes everything out of text I think maybe you should talk to someone cause maybe talking to me isn't working and I'm fine with that I don't care if you yell and scream at me a thousands times I still Love you" I looked over at her and she only believed half of what she said she was just as scared as me she didn't think we could make and neither did I.
"I love you too" I said hugging her
Manny Pov
I quickly gathered the person's books that I had dropped and stood up to hand them to him it was Chester I still felt bad for leading him on before.
"Um…Hey Manny" He said looking everyone but my face
"Hey Chester" I said holding his books to my chest as if they were mine
"Uh so how have you been you don't look to well" He said the one thing I could count on him for was honesty
"Thanks" I replied sarcastically
"No don't get me wrong you still look beautiful and all but mmm red eyes aren't exactly a plus" He said I laughed
"Yeah um…my boy-friend dumped me for his ex-girlfriend story of my life" I said sighing
"Well he's an idiot you're a great girl, nice, sweet, beautiful, any guy would be stupid not to want you as their girlfriend"
"Yeah if they didn't want anything more but to get down my pants" I said looking down clutching the books harder
"Manny I heard about last year and I don't care I think so what people make mistakes it doesn't make them a bad person" Chester said to me "I mean I made a lot of mistakes before I came to Degrassi some horrible, that I wish I could take back but I can't so I have to move on what am I going to do about I can't go back but that doesn't make me a bad person"
"No it doesn't" I said cracking a smile
"See there's the smile I new something was missing now the whole school has a whole new glow" He smirked
"Chester stop" I said blushing
"Okay"
"Oh my god you're evil" I said pushing him
"What you said stop"
"It's just a figure of speech"
"I know, I know so maybe you can tell about your loser of a boyfriend over a soda at the dot not a date just as two friends talking I promise nothing else"
I thought it for a second and sighed.
"Okay" I said giving him a hug when I looked over Chester's shoulder I saw Craig going into Ms. Suave office.
Then I directed my attention somewhere and I saw Spinner staring at me and Chester jealously then turning away.
Jimmy Pov
I sat up in my bed thinking of what a loser I had to be to break someone's heart like that. Hazel wasn't a bad person but still I had to be a jerk and break her heart.
I had to get my mind off things. I turned on the t.v. and started flipping through channels. It landed on a basketball game I quickly turned the t.v. off and threw the remote on the floor.
"Hey I always thought you loved the Lakers" Someone said entering the room
"Hey Ash did school just let out" I asked
"Yeah I had my mom drop me off right after I know we had that little argument early but I wanted to check up on you"
"Yeah about that I'm sorry Ash I know you were just trying to help but I don't know I just don't want anyone's help" I said
"Yeah but your going to need it I know it's going to be hard to admit but you are, and you have Me, Craig, Spin, Paige, Marco and Hazel"
"Not anymore" I said looking towards the window
"What do you mean" She said grabbing a seat
"I was an Ass and broke-up with her"
"What? Why?" She asked obviously surprised
"It wasn't working out from the beginning but the way I broke-up with her was bad she ran out of here crying but I don't know she just started with the whole "It's going to be okay Jimmy" It's alright Jimmy" crap and I couldn't take it"
"Jimmy that's what you need to hear" Ashley said grabbing my hand
"No it's not I don't need to be fed a whole bunch of shit I know It won't be okay" I yelled
"Well what do you want people to say Jimmy too bad you won't ever be able to play pro-ball, oh and yeah that wheelchair that's just bad, do you want people to tell you that you should give up on life" Ashley yelled back
"Well it's the truth" I said turning away before I let a tear fall
"No it's not it maybe your truth but it's not everyone else's who cares about you"
"Yeah and all those people that so-called care bout me once I go from Jock Jimmy to Wheelchair Jimmy won't feel the same way"
"That is a bunch of bull and you know it" Ashley said " You and Craig are the same way you think that just because something goes wrong in your life that now everyone will see as somewhat of a freak"
"Craig what does Craig have to do with this" I said turning around
"Craig thinks that because he's bi-polar everyone will see him as a psycho or something" She said my jaw-dropped Craig was what
"Craig's Bi-polar?" I asked
"Wait you didn't oh please don't tell him I told you he'd kill me" She begged
"I won't but I know he most be taking it hard"
"Yeah he is and sometimes I don't know…..he scares me at how mad he gets"
"Your not scared of him are you because Craig would never hurt you" I said
"No I know I'm scared that he might hurt someone else and sometimes I don't know if I strong enough to be able to help Craig and myself through this relationship"
"What do you mean?"
"I Mean Craig has all these doubts about our relationship and instead of talking to me about he get's really mad and stuff and I mean I have doubts I try to tell him that everything between us will be great but I'm not really sure myself" I looked at Ash and could see the tears beginning to fall I could never stand to see a girl cry especially Ashley
"Ash don't cry please don't cry" As soon as I said that she broke great two girls in one day
Next Chapter: Manny and Chester get closer over the weeks. Craig's um…Still having problems. Ashley tries to scare off Jimmy's butterflies about coming back to school.