Disclaimer: Not mine, never has been, never will be.

A/N: A Grissom POV. I tried to be a little kinder to the Grissom character. It proved to be difficult.

Pairing: N/S

A story about this and that and this again

What to do? What to do about you, Sara? A small sigh escapes his mouth. Quickly he closes his book and looks up to Sofia sitting on the edge of his desk and wonders if she noticed his mind was some place else, with someone else.

Thank God, she didn't notice, but that's not a surprise, because she isn't Sara. Sara would notice. His mind starts to drift once again, but he makes sure he nods and smiles at regular intervals.

He used to think that getting close to Sara was too big a risk for him. It could jeopardize his career, but he knows he was only fooling himself, because if a relationship with Lady Heather wasn't a risk no other relationship will be. And what is he exactly doing here? Talking to Sofia when all he wants is to talk to Sara. Talk like they used to talk and talk like they have never done before. But all he seems to be doing is fire stupid quotes at her.

He contemplates sending her another plant, because she has been doing such a great job with Greg. Maybe that will keep her satisfied until he figures it out. Until he finally manages to figure out the enigma that she is.

Suddenly Sofia, who is standing next to his desk now, pulls him up. She is saying something, but he is still thinking about plants and what he should write on the card, maybe just plain "Grissom" will suffice. He hasn't heard a word she has said, but he smiles and nods again until her last words make way into his head.

"So tonight it is." She says before she turns around and walks out of his office. He wonders exactly what he has agreed to, but it becomes very clear to him when Sofia turns quickly turns around before she leaves his office entirely and says "I'm glad you agree we should do something about this".

Shock registers on his face, but too late for Sofia to notice.

This, he hates this, he doesn't want this.

He walks out of his office in search of Sara, maybe he can explain this to her. He wonders about his sudden need to explain this until he sees Nick Stokes pulling his Sara in an embrace.

He asks himself: "What is this?"

END