Disclaimer: Not mine, never has been, never will be. "I see dead people and sixth sense" aren't mine either.
A/N: Doc Robbins' POV. I know some people know what they want to become from an early age on as I'm one of them, but I just needed to include Doc Robbins' thoughts on this, which may seem a bit strange to some of you, because it worked for the storyline. And I also know Sara's interest in forensics probably developed during her college years and not at age sixteen.
Pairing: N/S
Death is all around
He sees dead people and he doesn't need to have a sixth sense to do so, because it is his job. He knows why he chose this profession, but from time to time he wonders why some of the CSIs chose to become CSIs.
For example Sara Sidle.
His own daughter has started Medical School just recently and although he has never tried to discourage her to become a medical examiner, he hasn't been encouraging either.
It makes him wonder how Sara's parents guided her through her studies, what kind of advise they gave her. He knows all too well that teenagers tend to do the exact opposite their parents tell them to do, so maybe this happened with Sara and her parents as well or maybe Sara was just really into forensics. There is something about that that doesn't make sense to him. He knows Sara was just sixteen when she graduated from high school and he wonders why a sixteen year old would decide to go into forensics, why a young woman full of life would decide to go into a profession that deals with death.
He worries about her when he sees the haunted look on her face when she stares down at the face of another victim of abuse, when she's not able to tear away her gaze until he closes the door. He wants to say something to her during those moments which seem to occur more and more these days, but he just can't find the words and sometimes it is better to say nothing at all and just share the feeling of helplessness.
He knows that there is someone who listens to her fears these days, who will catch her if she falls into the trap of despair over another victim of unnecessary violence. He knows because her eyes light up when she sees him come into the morgue and because she just slightly leans into him when he is standing next to her as if she is trying to find comfort at a moment of horror developing in front of her while he works on the victims in front of them.
He is glad that they have found each other in the middle of all the violence surrounding them and he is glad to see they are willing to jeopardize their careers as he sees them holding on to each other after an exceptionally horrific case.
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