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A/N: This is both Fred and George's but there are two different essays. Look for the first break!

Life wasn't suppose to be like this. It was suppose to be easy, carefree, and fun. Instead it's hard, worrisome, and un fun.

I joined the Order to restore peace, to make things normal again. Why? Because I know what it's like to live in a normal world, without the threat of a dark lord. And I know what it's like to loose that world in a matter of second. I want to make the world normal again, I want it to be the way it once was, before Voldemort was even heard of.

I know there are many people who have been affected by this war alot worse than me or George have, Harry especially, but I still feel the pain. I still know what it's like waiting to die. And that's what hurts. Because I worry about things that haven't happened yet, but that I know will happen. And knowing that one of your aquantences is a dead man isn't the greatest feeling in the world.

When I joined the Order, I knew that from there on in, I was a marked man. Everywhere I went I had to be extra careful, and after putting up with Moody's training sessions, paranoia is one of my better traits.

So me and George joined the Order, and then Angelina and Alicia wanted to join. So they did. Angelina and I had a huge fight after that, but I just didn't want to see her hurt. Then Lee decided that if Alicia was in the Order, he was coming too. So now five of the six of us were in the Order.

Yes, the six of us. George, Alicia, Katie, Angelina, Jordan, and me have been best friends since first year, well second year in Katie's case since she's a year younger than us. So, of course, Katie joined the Order right after she graduated, and this scared George something awful. He's always been the worrywart of the two of us, so his fight with Katie was alot worse than the one I had with Angelina. In fact, they almost broke up over it, but in the end Katie explained to George that she was dead no matter what, so being able to fight and join the Order was the smartest decision she could make.

Yet, smart decision or not, I still hated making it. Not that I want to join the dark side, it's just that I don't want there to be and Order. I want Voldemort to disappear. want life to go back to normal.

Many people tell me I' shallow, that I don't understand life. And maybe I don't. But I do plan to live life to the fullest. In fact, I hope to live for a very, very long time. But somethings are worth dying for, Angelina, George, my family. But I think the one thing I would die for without hesitation would be for life to go back to normal. If my friends could have a normal life, I wouldn't minding dying for them to have that chance.

Fred and I are twins, we do everything together. In fact, the only time you see us apart is when we're sleeping, peeing, showering, or out with out girlfriends. So, naturally, when Fred joined the Order, I followed.

It's not that I wasn't planning on joining myself. I just needed Fred to give me that extra push. I wasn't completely ready to risk my life for the light side, but now...now I'm ready for anything.

I was so scared when Katie decided to join. I didn't want her to get hurt, I didn't want her to feel the paranoia I felt. But she wouldn't listen, and now I fear for her life everyday.

Yet, she tells me there are things in this world that are worth dying for. She says that pain is natural, and that everyone is feeling it right now. Well, I have to admit that she is mostly right, but not everyone is feeling pain right now, not Voldemort.

Voldemort is a bastard, it's that simple. I hate him because he ruined my chance at a normal life. Of course I don't have much to complain about compared to Harry potter, but I still feel robbed.

Life is funny, it was going so great until we reached our one goal of owning a joke shop, then everything went down hill. The joke shop is doing great, in fact, we plan on expanding, but that's not the point. After we got our joke shop up and running, we joined the Order. And then Sirius died. Leaving Professor Lupin the last True Marauder. Life always seemed to like me and Fred, but now I'm not so sure.

Life isn't fair, I learned that the hard way. I've learned that for every good thing in your life, something bad's bound to happen. And so I'm more careful, more cynical, and more afraid. I fear for my life, and for the lives of my friends.

I can only pray that I make it through this war. I can only pray that I wake up to Katie's smiling face for the rest of my life, which I hope is very long. That is all I can do.

If there is one thing I want, it's a chance. A chance to end this war. Life will never be the way it once was, no matter what my brother may think, but I want this war to end. And I don't want more deaths. I would die to save someone else's life. Whether they be my best friend or someone I barely know, I would die for them, as long as I know that they will help to defeat Voldemort. I will die to protect the ones that can end this evil.

Cole's Useless Ramblings

Okay, so what did you think? Unlike most people, I showed that Fred and George are different, but they do share alot of the same traits. I also showed that they aren't as shallow as they may seem.

Okay, I'm starting a new story. I know, I know, Cole you already have two stories going, you're going to add a third? But it's like this one, a string of one-shots, so it won't interfere with this story or HBP. You people should read that story wink wink

Alright, later days,

-Cole