Chapter 2
And suddenly, it was weekend. The people passed through Rain's life like ghosts on Saturday, hanging out with many friends from school and making meaningless chatter. But the day wasn't meaningless, oh no.
She was hanging with her friends, when Rain suddenly remembered she had class. "oh crap! Garreth why didn't you remember?? You're supposed to be the responsible one!" she said, picking up the agile black cat and running into the old brick building, late into her class. She tuned out, sitting at a small desk with Garreth in her lap, day dreaming about some things that were finally, not related to her memories. Suddenly she looked up. The teacher in the small room was picking people to participate , and at that moment, she was having an argument with a small defiant girl, who was hot-headed enough to argue. Rain heard an unmistakable saying once again. "Well, if you don't want to participate, you have to sit and watch!" the teacher finally gave up.
But something was wrong. Rain's stomach jerked. Her mind was dragging her back in…she could hear His voice. She could see him standing in front of her, telling her to get down on her knees…she could hear herself arguing, she could…NO! garret's thoughts invaded her mind. Not now! Not this! We can fight this! Mind fought memory, and with conscious energy, Rain reached for her wrist and and pulled the band around it as hard as she could. The pain brought her back to the small classroom, were the ones around her were whispering. She realized she had missed everything in class. But that wasn't the most important thing. She hugged Garreth tightly. "thank you.." she managed to whisper, her breathing fast and strained. "Can't think of that now Rain, pay attention." Garreth said sternly, and she did as she was told, and pushed all her thoughts away for the moment to see the interesting lesson going on at the front of the class.
Bringg… The bell rang, and Rain was glad. The only class left that day was over with, and she couldn't be more relieved. She crossed campus to her dormitory, vaguely aware of the ones around her. Almost to the door, thinking about how she just needed some sleep, she ran into the one person she did not want to see. It was His brother. "hey!" he said. damn…she thought. "whata's up?" he instantly replied. "nothing…you?" she said, now resigned to conversation. "I'm hungry. FEED ME!" he joked. "uh…okay..if I had an orange, you could have it." she said. "I don't like oranges! Besides, if you threw an orange at me, I'd come to your room and find you and kill you." "what?" she said, suddenly afraid of this man who was sounding so much like his brother. "and if you tried to hurt me, I'd kick you harder." he said. She couldn't believe what she was hearing…her friend, the one that was there when she was being abused, always there for her. And then she remembered.
For the second time that day, her stomach convulsed and the memories overpowered her. Seeing Him, Him coercing his brother to…she remembered being held down on the bed…Him, yelling at his brother…telling his brother what to do…no…please no… She had forgotten. She had forgotten the things He had tricked his brother into doing. The things his brother did to her willingly. The reason he was there during all of it. Her mind was reeling. Going faster and faster, like a car heading for a wall of stone, a million miles an hour all at once. "I HAVE TO GO!" she exclaimed and ran as fast as she could into her building, tearing up the stairs with Garreth at her heels.
The mind block for these memories that she kept in place for so many years was slowly breaking, the memories flooding out like tsunamis. Her head was still rushing, turning about, as she went into the bathroom and picked up her sharpest razor with a shaking hand. The wall was breaking…memories coming, "no more…no more.." she softly cried, and took the razor and cut against her skin. Her breathing slowed, the flood of memories stopped. She sat calmly, looking at the blood running down her forearm, and shook her head sadly.
Two cuts was all she made. It was enough. Put anti-infection solution on, and band aids, and walked out, the guilt in her mind fresh, knowing all the promises she had just broken. The memories weren't gone though, just at bay for a while, she needed to talk to someone, and as an answer almost, her friend Chris showed up.
They talked for at least an hour, until almost midnight when they parted ways. It helped immensely though, Garreth thought to Rain, being able to talk. yea…she thought tiredly, and promptly collapsed on the bed, falling into a relievingly dreamless sleep.