Hey guys : ) wow thanks for the reviews… I'm glad the A/N cleared things up a bit hehe. Ok this chappie is a bit dramatic so consider urself warned!!! Enjoy ;)

Chapter 15

"Uh, thanks. Thanks for that. Really."

Anna frowned a little. She sat up on Seth's bed, and turned to stare at the ceiling, avoiding Seth's eyes.

"For what Seth? For lying to your parents? Or for stopping you from making a huge mistake?" She spoke to the ceiling.

Seth shifted uncomfortably next to her.

He gently grasped Anna's hand, and she turned, surprised.

"I'm scared." He whispered.

Anna's eyes softened. All the anger was fast evaporating.

She reached up and pushed a curly strand of hair from his eyes.

"I know. So am I. I just…god Seth I just don't understand it. Explain it to me, because I've tried to explain it to myself and I can't."

Seth's eyes fell downcast.

"I don't know how to explain it to you Anna. I don't even know how. I don't know why. I don't know anything."

"Well, that's a miracle. Seth Cohen not knowing how to tell me something?" She laughed slightly and Seth smiled, but it quickly vanished.

"I don't even know you anymore Seth. No one does." She said seriously, the lightness of her last comment disappearing fast.

Her eyes welled up and Seth looked away.

"I don't even know who I am anymore Anna. How do you think that feels?"

"Whose fault is that?" she said harshly.

Seth was taken aback.

"Anna, you can't even begin to know how it feels to be me! How could you know?" He retorted.

"See! Do you even see what's happening to you? You would never have talked to me like that before now. I can't believe you. Your drowning in your own self pity and you're bringing every one else down with you! Everyone that loves you!"

"Oh yeah, they all love me now don't they? You don't even know what it was like for me before Ryan came here. Before you came here. This place was hell for me. You have no idea." He spat scornfully.

Anna shook her head and turned away from Seth. Tears were spilling down her cheeks and she was not letting him see. She wiped them away furiously and turned back around to face him.

"That was the past. Are you going to live in the past? Everyone here loves you. Sandy, Kirsten, Ryan, Summer, me. And your just going to push them away, because you're too pathetic to tell the people you love how you really feel."

Seth felt guilt rush through him as he saw Anna's face.

He felt his own eyes well up but blinked away any tears that were threatening to fall.

"I'm sorry Anna. You're right. You're always right. You're just trying to help and I'm pushing you away."

He moved off the bed towards Anna.

"I need your help, I can't do this without you." He spoke quietly.

"Seth, you have us all. You know that."

She moved forward and enfolded her arms around Seth.

Anna felt Seth's tears fall and soak into her top. She wanted so desperately to help him, but she couldn't figure out how. All she knew is that he needed Summer. Now, more than anything.

She pulled away gently.

"You should ring Summer. You need her."

Seth frowned. "She's in Tijuana."

"So, I'm sure she's totally bored without you." Anna smiled.

Anna looked down as her pocket began to vibrate.

She reached down and got her phone, flipping it open and smiling as her screen lit up the name of who was calling her.

"Hey." she said grinning deeply.

Seth didn't need her to say "Luke"; he already knew it was him. He remembered when Ryan told him about the two of them when Seth was in hospital. At first he was completely shocked by it. Anna and Luke? What the hell? But when he saw Anna's smile light up every time she mentioned him, all his worries melted away. He always wanted the best for Anna, and Luke had changed a lot. Seth was truly happy for her. Seth had screwed Anna around so much in the past and always felt so guilty about it. Now she was happy with Luke and Seth was happy for her.

As she hung up the phone, she glanced at Seth, and frowned.

"That was Luke," she said as if Seth didn't already know who it was.

"He wants me to meet him at the pier in 20 minutes. But I can ring back and tell him no if you want?"

Seth shook his head heartily.

He tried his best to flash his famous, most charming smile.

"No, it's fine. Go."

She frowned again.

"Seth, we're leaving. I don't know how long we'll be gone, but we're leaving. That's what I came here for this morning…my bags."

Understanding swept through Seth.

"Oh." He said quietly.

"It's ok… we can go another day?" Anna said quickly.

Seth shook his head and smiled again.

"No, you're right. I'll call Summer. Everything will be fine and dandy." He grinned, trying to work his humor, and was pleasantly surprised it was still in him.

Anna smiled slightly.

"Are you sure?" she asked, her head cocked to the side.

"I really don't want to leave you… you know…like…"

"Like this? The horrible dramatic state I'm in?" Seth laughed.

"Seriously, I feel bad enough as it is that I put you through all this shit. I want you to go. Go have fun."

"No, really, I can stay."

"Anna! Seriously, go." He said pretending to be impatient.

She smiled at him and threw her arms around his neck, kissing him softly on the cheek.

"I'll miss you." She said quietly into his hair.

"I'll miss you too, Anna Stern,"

"Oh, by the way where are you two love birds headed off to?"

Anna smiled sheepishly, a slight blush illuminating her cheeks.

"I don't know," she said biting her lip.

"It's exciting though, an adventure." She grinned.

Seth grinned back.

He hugged her one last time, then pulled away.

Anna held her hands out wide and spun around the room, Seth watching as the sunlight caught her hair.

"God, I'm going to miss this room." She smiled.

She grabbed the blue pill bottle that was still on Seth's desk and pocketed it, without Seth seeing. She would not let Seth touch another bottle again. It was the least she could do. She knew Ryan would take over from here, but at least she could take the bottle away from Seth.

Anna kissed him on the cheek one last time and moved towards the door, stopping only when she reached it. She threw her head back around and said, "Confidence Cohen," before leaving Seth Cohen forever.

…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

Seth lay on his bed for hours, listening to "Bright Eyes." He hadn't rung Summer yet, he just couldn't do it. He couldn't ruin her fun. She was probably having the time of her life there without him.

After a while of drowning in his own self-pity as Anna had put it, he heard a knock at the door.

Kirsten walked into his room, and sat herself on the edge of her son's bed. Seth curiously looked up, and for a moment he forgot his self-pity.

Kirsten's eyes were red-rimmed as if she had just been crying.

And as if to clarify that she indeed had been crying, she moved her hand up and wiped a tiny tear that was threatening to fall.

Seth shuffled over towards his mother as she wordlessly reached out for his hand and held it in her shaking one.

"Mom, what is it?" Seth asked quietly, afraid of the answer.

Oh god, had she figured out that it was Seth who took the pills?

He felt her body tremble against his as she pulled him in closer.

"My god, I'm so sorry Seth. Anna and Luke…they…"

"They what? Tell me." Seth said a little too loudly. He was starting to panic again.

"Seth honey," she spoke softly, her voice breaking.

"Anna and Luke were in an accident."

Seth felt as if he was going to throw up.

"What? No, Anna was just here. What? I…Are they ok? What hospital are they in?"

Kirsten glanced away from Seth so he couldn't see the tears that were not afraid to flow.

Sandy was standing at the door, and Seth could notice that even from this distance, his hands were shaking.

A million thoughts ran through Seth's head. He was starting to get angry now.

"Tell me!" he tried to yell, but it came out much quieter than he intended.

Now his hands were beginning to shake as well.

Kirsten turned back around to face her son.

"I'm so sorry baby. They didn't make it."

Seth went rigid.

Kirsten made a move to wrap her arms around him but he pushed away.

Shock rippled through his body.

Oh god, he was going to be sick.

No, no this wasn't happening. How could it?

They didn't make it. What the hell did that mean?

Sandy rushed over to Seth's bed but Seth got off and ran.

He just ran. He didn't even know where he was running to. But it was away, and that was the main thing.

Then, he found himself in the bathroom. Seth turned and locked the door behind him, so his parents couldn't see him.

His first thought was the pills. He so desperately needed them. Where did Anna put them? Oh god, she took them.

But before he could even think of searching the cabinets again, he felt his knees buckle and hit the cold bathroom floor.

Seth leaned over the bathtub and threw up. The shock was too much for his body. He was shaking, sweaty, and he felt as if the room was spinning.

He felt disconnected to his body. He coughed and threw up until he felt there was nothing left in him. He was empty.

Seth slid back onto the cold tiles, his head hitting against the shower screen.

A sudden thought then broke through all of the scattered thoughts he was trying to push away.

Seth reached into his pocket and found his phone. With trembling fingers he tried to dial Summer's number, but kept missing the right numbers.

After a few minutes of trying to calm himself down, he finally heard the phone ringing.

"Hello?" Summer answered miserably.

Silence.

"Hello?" she said again, starting to get pissed off.

Then she heard it. Seth didn't speak but she could hear him crying on the other end.

Her heart stopped. Somehow she just knew it was her boyfriend.

"Cohen? Are you there?"

Seth tried to speak but nothing came out. He couldn't stop shaking, he felt as if he was going to vomit again. Hearing Summer's voice just made him cry more.

"Oh god Seth. What's happened? Seth!"

Something small registered in Seth's brain. Summer hardly ever called him Seth. Somehow that made him realize that she was really worried.

"Seth, talk to me! Please. Seth, I'm right here."

"Summer…" he broke off.

Relief swept over Summer for a brief second.

"Yeah, I'm here Seth. I'm right here."

His whole body shook violently as he cried.

"Summer…" he choked, "I need you."

A/N aww I can't believe I killed off Anna and Luke! I luv them! Lol but yeah it works well with the story, like what's happening and what's going to happen later on. But god I hated that I had to do that lol. Anyway please review : ) and tell me what u think.. and plz b gentle hehe. Ciao ;)