Chapter 15: The letter.
Kaiba walked home not paying attention to anyone, like he was in another world, he couldn't believe what he had done, he had swore he would never hurt his brother again and as soon as they started to talk it ended up like this.
As soon as he got home Kaiba locked himself into his room, he was laying on his bed staring at the ceiling, he was sure he had changed, certain things would be different but he couldn't even stay two minute alone with his brother without hurting him.
He turned on his stomach, his eyes landing on his nightstand, on the bottom drawer to be exact the one where he hide his small knife. Kaiba opened it, he knew he wasn't going to kill himself, he still couldn't do it and he had enough 'experience' to now what to do.
After a while Kaiba put the knife back into the drawer, his cloths were stained with blood but he didn't cared, he laid back in his bed, not wanting to ever get out of this room. He could hear Frosty whimpering to the other side of the door but he didn't pay attention to it, the dog would get tired eventually.
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Mr. Muto was cleaning the game shop when Mokuba suddenly entered; he turned around expecting a costumer but was surprised to see who it really was.
"Mokuba? What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be at school right now?" He asked.
Mokuba didn't say anything, he was still too shocked and stuck in his thought to think straight, he too had hoped things would be different, that he and his brother could be a family, now he wasn't sure if he wanted that anymore. He just walked in front of Yugi's grandpa and gave him the letter explaining the reason why he was expulsed; he looked away while the old man was reading it.
Unlike his brother Mr. Muto didn't seem angry at Mokuba, disappointed yes, but not mad. "Now Mokuba could you explain what happened to me?"
Mokuba looked at him like he was an alien, so far no one ever asked his side of the story, not even his own brother. "He was my friend but when I went to talk to him he said that he don't associate with Kaiba." Mokuba said.
"Didn't he know your name was Kaiba?" The old man asked.
"He knew, everyone did, but no one knew I was Seto's brother." Mokuba said.
"So just because you are related to Kaiba he decided not to be friend with you anymore. Did you knew he hated your brother?"
"No, we've been friends for two years, ever since I first entered a school, I told him everything that was happening between my brother and me, he was the only one who knew. I thought we were friends." Mokuba said anger rising in him once more.
"And why exactly did you fight with him?"
"He started to say all kind of thing, I was really mad but I held myself, until he said I killed my mother." Mokuba said.
Mr. Muto didn't question him any further, he had heard about Mokuba's mother's death, he had no idea how it felt to know that if your weren't there than the person you like would still be alive, if he couldn't say the kid was right for hurting the other boy he couldn't blame him.
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Kaiba stayed in bed all day long, and the day after too, he couldn't get up, he didn't want to. He just stayed there until he heard a knock on the door, which angered him; no maid had the right to disturb him when he was in his room unless he asked them to and his 'nanny' was in vacation. The door opened, Kaiba didn't moved but he was ready to kill whoever was there.
"Would you let me go stupid dog."
Kaiba tuned around, he knew that voice. "What are you doing here?" Kaiba said just as Frosty let go of his hostage and ran outside of the room.
Davy looked up surprised to see Kaiba just laying there on his bed in the middle of the afternoon. "Your stupid dog came out of nowhere and dragged me here by force."
Kaiba laid back down. "Sometimes I wonder if this dog is a genius or only desperately stupid."
"Tell me just what exactly are you doing here, shouldn't you be at school?" Davy asked.
"Does it matter?"
"Well if you want to get send into a foster home then no it doesn't." Davy answered. "What's wrong with you? I haven't seen you since Mokuba woke up."
Kaiba looked up at him. "How do you know he woke up?"
Davy looked quite insulted. "Are you implying that I'm stupid, just because I don't have a home doesn't mean I can't read."
Kaiba sighed and turned on his back.
"What's that?" Davy asked.
Kaiba cursed under his breath, by turning around he allowed Davy to see his wrists, he hadn't change his cloth so his sleeves were still stained with blood, some olds and fresh ones.
"It's nothing." Kaiba said turning his back at Davy.
"Well it doesn't look like nothing to me, I thought you stopped hurting yourself." Davy said.
"I did." Was Kaiba's only answer.
"Then why did you started again?" Davy asked.
"Who cares?"
"Well I do and what do you think Mokuba would say if he knew what you were doing to yourself"
A small laugh escaped from Kaiba's mouth. "Mokuba, give me just one reason why he would even care about me anymore." Kaiba said.
"What is wrong with you, is something happened between you two after he woke up?" Davy tried to guess because he knew Kaiba wasn't going to answer him.
Kaiba's body tensed up, showing Davy that he was right. "What happened?"
Kaiba eyed his friend for a second before answering. "I hurt him again."
"Did you hit him?" Davy asked.
Kaiba looked up at Davy. "No, I didn't hit him, but what I did was near enough, I can't even stay five minutes alone with my own brother without pining him to a wall."
"And you think that by staying locked inside your room that things will be better? What you expected that things would chance within one day, get real those kind of things take a lot of time. Now you have two choices; or you try to make things work again between you and Mokuba or you can stay in here and end up like your step-father." Davy said.
"I won't end up like him." Kaiba said, the thought of him turning like Gozaburo was angering him to no end.
"Oh really, wanna bet?" Davy asked. "Anyway I dare you to say that you don't want Mokuba back and to mean it." Kaiba looked down, he couldn't say it. "See? Now just give it sometime, you can't force things, they'll work out eventually."
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A month passed, after all this time Mokuba still wasn't sure what he wanted anymore because of what happened, Kaiba on his side decided to do as Davy said and give things some time, but still anyone could see something was bothering him, but of course no one cared.
Kaiba was working in his office, he didn't feel like it and it was evident when you looked at his work. Nothing seemed the same without Mokuba in the mansion, it was even harder now that he had woken up but still he was determined to let his brother all the time he needed.
He opened on of his drawer to get a document he needed when the corner of his eyes caught something. He took it out to see it better; it was that strange envelope with Mokuba's name on it. He still didn't know whose handwriting it was, he had put it there to make sure he didn't lose it…just in case his brother came back one day. Well that day had happened and whatever was written on this letter was addressed to him so he kept it, he would ask Yugi to give it to Mokuba.
Kaiba entered the classroom; he hoped Yugi was already there so he could give him the letter. Of course the three colour hair4ed boy wasn't that hard to see, the problem was that he was with all his friends. Kaiba went to his usual desk, he then took the letter and walked toward Yugi.
Yugi and the other were talking about anything that crossed their mind, just as always, until Joey saw Kaiba heading their way.
"What do you want Kaiba" Joey asked, the two of them never and would never get along.
"Nothing that concern you, Mutt." Kaiba answered without even looking at him. He concentrated his attention to Yugi. "Yugi I'll appreciate if you could give this to Mokuba." He said handing him the letter.
"Sure…no problem." Yugi said taking it.
"And what is it that's in this, don't tell me you decided to apologise for being a jerk to Mokuba all this time."
"Mind your own business Mutt, I don't know what is in it myself or who wrote it, my father just kept it and I found it and since it's addressed to Mokuba I'm just making sure he get it. And don't even think about opening it Wheeler whatever is in this only concern Mokuba." Kaiba said, leaving.
"What do you think could be inside?" Tea asked.
"Well from the looks of it I'll say it's probably a letter." Tristan said.
"Wow did you figured that out by yourself?" Tea asked.
"Yeah. Why?" Tristan asked.
"What I don't get is why Gozaburo wrote something for Mokuba before he died, what could he possibly want to tell him? I say it would be better to just burn it and forget about it." Joey said.
"I don't know, I don't think that Kaiba would give something that might hurt him to his little brother, after all he said that his father had kept it, he never said he was the one who wrote it." Yugi said.
Yugi came home later than usual that day, he stayed with his friend, when he arrived Mokuba was in his room doing his homework, since Mokuba was to stay with them for an undetermined period of time and they didn't had a guestroom they installed a 'bed' for him in Yugi's room, after all it was better than the couch.
Yugi softly opened the door, Mokuba was working on his homework just as he was told, however he wasn't really in for it, Yugi had realise that Mokuba's grade were only getting lower, what was strange was that when he checked his homework everything was correct, it was clear that Mokuba perfectly understood everything.
Just as Kaiba! Yugi thought realising that Kaiba's grade had dropped also in the last month, He knew that Kaiba was a genius and already knew about everything they were learning, it looked like he simply wasn't putting any effort to it. It didn't took him much time to put 2 and 2 together.
"Mokuba?" Yugi asked, entering the room.
Mokuba turned around. "Hi Yugi!" He said.
Yugi walked next to him and looked at his homework, everything was correct on it. "Tell me, did something happen between your brother and you?" Yugi asked.
Mokuba's body tensed at the memory, there was no way Seto would have told him about what happened. "No, why do you ask?" Mokuba answered.
"Because both yours and your brother's grade started to drop at the same time" Yugi said.
Mokuba starred at him with wide eyes, there was no way his brother could have low grade, he was a genius, he knew more than all the teachers reunited.
"Anyway, Kaiba told me to give you this." Yugi said giving him the letter.
"What is it? Mokuba asked looking at his name.
"I don't know, Kaiba just said that your father was keeping it and that he found it so since it's address to you he had to give it to you." Yugi said.
"Why would Gozaburo write something for me?" Mokuba asked.
"I dunno, maybe you should just check it out." Yugi said, leaving the room to let Mokuba some privacy.
Mokuba starred at the envelope, he may not know a lot about his step-father but he was sure this wasn't his handwriting so who was it from. He decided that staring at it wasn't going to answer his questions so he carefully opened it, it looked old enough, and started to read it.
My dear little Mokuba.
I don't really know what I should say to you or how to say it. If you are reading this that mean that you never meet me, that I didn't survive to your birth, or else I would have burned this letter long ago.
I told your father to give you this letter once you'll be old enough so I don't know how old you are now. Right now, as I am writing you this, I'm sitting on a hospital bed, waiting for your birth. When I first learned that I was pregnant of you I was so happy, just as you father and Seto, he was so happy to because a big brother, I had no idea what was about to happen.
I learned about an hour ago that things were going the wrong way, I had sequels from Seto's birth, I was given two choices. I could go through an operation that would save me but the process would automatically kill you, I can't do that, I can't kill you to save myself, that's why I choose to go through with your birth, even if it's probably going to kill me.
I can only imagine how hard it must be for you to live knowing that if you weren't there I would still be alive, and that's why I'm writing this letter. You have to know that it's in no case your fault, I took this decision myself, you mustn't blame yourself. Your father know it was my decision, he himself told me that he could never chose between you and me, that it was my decision and that he would accept it no matter what. Seto promised me he would take care of you, he knew about my decision, I can tell that he don't really want it that way and that he might even hate you for a while but I know that one day he'll understand.
I'm sorry I can't be there for you but this was my choice, be happy for the both of us. I'll always love and watch you.
Your mother.
Mokuba stared at the letter, there was no way this could be from his mother, just no way.
Ok I stop here, see you all in two weeks.