And Whatever Is Done By Only Me

ByGabreilla Moushigo (aka Aeki Muffinhands)

Warning: a bit of corniness followed by a ity bity wedge of lemon

In this scene there is no one around… at least not yet. What a wonderful day it is in the forest… ah… the gentle breeze-

Muso: (coming onto the screen without pants on) Hey kids… I know you weren't expecting me around. But I heard lots of the ladies were askin' for me… so how could I resist?!

Kikyo: (comes walking up with everyone else behind her) Oh my God! It's one of those nudists! EEK!

Sango: (Starts beating him with her boomerang) You're even sicker than the stupid hoshi!

Miroku: (holding a bunch of strawberry pocky) Sango! Must you be so cruel?!

Inu-Yasha: (goes crazy) You are like… within fifty feet of Kagome and naked! You must die! (swings his sword up – the cuts down) Jealous rage attack!

Muso: (flies into the air from all the attacks) What did I do?!

Kikyo: That sicko! Well kids! Enjoy the show! (runs after Muso)

Kikyo was by his side… smiling in that gentle way of hers. She must have been watching him again. But something was different… the smile touched her eyes. He couldn't believe it. She was so perfect standing there… with the sun shining in and glinting off her hair. He wanted to raise his arm to touch it… but found that he couldn't. He also wanted to smile, but found that he couldn't do that either… he couldn't even feel his lips!

"Onigumo," She said his name, and it was like a dream. He wanted to close his eyes, but couldn't, he just figured that he couldn't take his eyes from her… and that wasn't far from the truth… she was breath taking. "Here is your medicine." She held out a spoon to his lips. It smelled awful! He especially hated this one… it was so bitter and terrible! He voiced as much. "Oh ho!" She tittered. "If you promise to take this I will give you something special!" This sounded like an interesting challenge… so he obeyed and waited for his gift. She pulled out a bowl from behind her. "Chicken today! Your favorite!" Yes… he did like chicken… but he sighed anyway… disappointed with his prize. "What is the matter Onigumo? Do you not like my chicken soup?"

"No, no… it's not that… I was just hoping for something else."

"What?" She laughed.

"I wanted a kiss." He mumbled.

"You are so mischievous," She tittered. "I never know what your thinking!"

"Will you?"

"Will I what?"

"Will you kiss me?"

She looked a little frightened. "I would Oni… but… I don't want to hurt you."

"You won't." He felt like he was lying but didn't know why… how in the world could she hurt him?

"If you are sure…" She eyed him.

Oh… this was it! She was going to kiss him! 'Why is she acting so strangely?' Then he shoved the foolish thought aside! 'Who cares?! She is going to kiss me!' Damn it! He must be so nervous that he couldn't pucker his lips. She kissed his cheek instead, and pain shot through him so quickly that he gasped before he could stifle the sound.

"I'm sorry." She sat back down on her haunches.

"Don't be." Did he just say that? God that hurt!

"I need to get going in any case," She mumbled a little, looking outside. He tried turning his head to look where she was, but couldn't. "Kaede will be back later to change your wrappings."

'What wrappings?' But he agreed anyway. "Alight."

She made her way to the exit, but before she could he stopped her, aching for just a few more moments with her. "Kikyo?"

"Yes?" She stopped.

He desperately wanted to look at her, but nothing was working… he couldn't even control what he said. "If things were different… if I could…" He didn't finish his sentence. "Do you think that we could have been together?"

She laughed. "Oni… you shouldn't-"

"It helps to pass the time… to wonder…" He groaned. "I just… wanted to know."

"We could have been together." She came into view to grace him with one last smile before the sun went down. "But you would have had to give up being a bandit for me."

"I would give up anything for you." He boasted. But he had nothing to offer her… nothing to give up.

"I know you would." She admitted, "Now go to sleep Oni… Kaede will be here soon… and don't give her so much trouble this time."

"I wouldn't if you were here." He baited.

"Oh, you!" All the smiles in the world for him… all the expressions she never dare show anyone else but him. All things were secret and safe with him, and she knew that all too well. It made his heart swell painfully to know her like this, how he wanted her... how he… loved her?

'If I but could move from this place… I would give her the world!' He thought, but they weren't his thoughts. He just decided to lay back and listen and watch at what was unfolding.

It was like watching the grass grow from then on out. He stayed in this strange enclosure for days on end. He just happily dreamed about him and Kikyo… how if he was just healthy that they could run around in the fields… he could make love to her… they could have children… they could do everything in his mind. He would tell her sometimes… and she looked sad. The look that plainly spoke that she didn't believe in them… but she would let him have his dreams. Because… well… those were all he had.

Then… her visits became scarcer, and her irritating sister came in her wake. He began to hate her, wanting to see Kikyo. "Where is she tonight?!" He growled at the little girl. "I thought she said that she could see me?" She had promised a week ago that she would visit him again, and she never did.

"You are lucky that she visits at all!" Kaede burst out.

"Is that so? And why prey tell?"

"She has no more time for you…" Kaede said cruelly, even though her young mind really didn't mean to. She was so angry with him… all she had ever done was take care of the man… and he was insufferable night after night. "She has Inu-Yasha now… to help her protect the jewel! She goes to him!"

If a knife had been jabbed into his chest it would have been far less painful. "GET OUT!" He roared hoarsely.

"With pleasure!" She gathered her medicines and left without a world or a look backward.

"Kikyo…" He spoke out loud to himself. "You have gone to someone else?" And how could he blame her? He was a crumpled shell of a man… he couldn't move… and… he sobbed bitterly, but no tears came… he didn't have any tear ducts. His sobs were so unsatisfying in that way. "Can I do nothing?!" He cried into the cave, the sounds bouncing off the walls. "Must I lay here while she is being stolen away?!" And the truth really… really hurt. All those lovely dreams of them together were being ripped away and replaced with someone else. He desperately wanted to be happy for her but… but he couldn't! "I can't let you go! You were supposed to be mine!" He wailed. "You are my Kikyo… mine and no one else's!"

He had to think quickly… his mind raced with possibilities… and finally… he set his mind on the most desperate and only course of action he could take… but he would do it for her.

He vaguely remembered teeth crunching down on what was left of his flesh… organs… bones. The pain melted away eventually… and they became one. When he woke up he looked at his hands… he could actually lift them. He cried his happiness before lifting himself from the spot he had been bound to for weeks… months… years. Who really knew how long he in there? He had no way of telling.

Now! He just needed to get the jewel from Kikyo… then he could wish himself into a full demon, which is what the demons inside him demanded after all. They would all be quieted, then he could be with Kikyo finally. He would just ask her for it of course, he was sure she would give it to him. Wouldn't she be so surprised to see him like this? Then he could have all the power he had ever wanted… a body that worked and a handsome face… but… most of all… with all these things he could have Kikyo's love and respect… and then maybe he could take care of her… rather than the other way around. Maybe with his newfound strength he could pillage a village or two… take their riches and live off of them for a time. He didn't have to tell Kikyo about it… she didn't need to know. She would just get to enjoy the comforts of a home and whatever he could provide. She would get to live a normal life… of a normal woman… just as she had dreamed she would. And it would be him that gave this to her… not that idiot Inu-Yasha.

He came upon Kikyo… and the man he guessed was Inu-Yasha. He was a half demon… hmph! 'Well… she won't be with you much longer!' He would kill him… just as soon as he talked to Kikyo.

He waited and listened for his chance in the trees. Inu-Yasha promised to become a human for his woman. Onigumo ground his teeth together at that, as if he would… but waited… until…

Kikyo returned to the village and he followed silently, watched as she plucked the jewel up and left… totally unguarded and unarmed back to that stupid mutt. She was going to give the jewel to that Inu-Yasha?!

Something inside him clicked painfully and he took a step… but he didn't mean to. He tried to stop the next… but sure enough that foot fell onto the ground as well. Soon he found himself running without constraint and he looked on in horror as he careened into Kikyo full force, his talons drawn, that he never remembered drawing in the first place. His heart stopped when his claws met tender flesh, the skin gave way, then the muscles and bones. Her sweet blood spilled forth from the mortal wound he inflicted. 'Kikyo!' He wanted to cry, but couldn't. Instead a voice he didn't quite recognize taunted her before robbing her of the jewel. The voices snickered in his mind.

'Wait! This wasn't part of the bargain!' His mind screamed. 'You were going to take the jewel and I was to have Kikyo! You killed her!'

'And you believed us?' The collective voiced only had one, and his name was Naraku. 'We have the jewel… and you will have the power you wanted.'

But that was not enough! He wanted her! That was all he ever wanted… what he traded his soul for.

Naraku took him and made him watch it all… when Kikyo pinned Inu-Yasha to the tree, killing him. Kikyo… trudging back to the village only to die… and her death wish to have the jewel burned with her body.

He watched as she died, painfully. He even watched while flames consumed her body and he cried out to her… wanting so desperately to take everything back. If he had just stayed in the cave… she would be alive right now… and he still might get to see her tomorrow… when she promised to come see him. It had been a promise… a promise…

'Such a weak little mind you have…' Naraku cooed. 'I thought to let you stay for a little bit… but you are even more pitiful than even I imagined… go away!' And he went away… and fell into darkness. 'K-Kikyo!' He killed her! He killed her with his own hands, he choked back a sob before all the light was taken away… and it was as if he died himself. 'Kikyo!'

"Kikyo!" He screamed, waking up. She couldn't be dead! He couldn't have killed her like that! Before he realized what he was doing be began running through the house. He tripped on a table that sent him and everything crashing to the floor. He paid it very little heed as he picked himself up as he tore down the hall to the opposite side of the house, where he knew she slept. "Kikyo!" He shrieked, all but tearing the sliding door off its hinges to get to her. His eyes scanned the room, nothing. "KIKYO!" He felt like he was almost in a trace, running, looking and finding nothing.

If he wasn't in such a mad rush he might have noticed her behind him, but he was so caught up in his dream world that he didn't realize her presence. "Onigumo." A calming hand touched his shoulder. "Whatever is the matter?"

He turned around and saw her there… alive… but… not… he thought that he had killed her again. He thought it was real… but it wasn't… it… His stomach lurched painfully. 'It was real… I… I killed you! I killed you!' He took her in his arms and nearly crushed her there. "Kikyo! I didn't mean to! I didn't want to!" He killed the woman he wanted… he killed her! The woman he traded his life for… the whole reason he even wanted to move again was because of her… because of her… and he killed her. "I'm sorry… I'm sorry." He fell to his knees but didn't let her go. He couldn't, he was so afraid that she might just disappear.

"Hush Onigumo."

"I thought that we could be together… I was so selfish… I should have just let you be happy! I should have just died!" He sobbed into stomach. "I wish I did."

"Don't say things like that." She admonished, returning his embrace, if just to comfort him. "You cannot change the past."

"I wish I could."

"Don't say that." She teased. "That is how this all started in the first place."

Naraku laughed a little at that, his tears abating a little. "Kikyo… my Kikyo." His arms took hold of her a little bit too possessively for her liking, but if he had any complaints, she did not voice them. He brought her down into his lap before drawing her to him fully. He kissed her forehead tenderly, her eye lids then, her cheeks… her chin. He kissed her as if nothing else mattered to him in the world but her. Soon he found himself pushing her against the hard floor, pinning her down with his weight and kissing throat. He then pressed his mouth almost airily on her lips before pressing harder and deepening the kiss even further.

"Onigumo…" She gasped, when he finally decided to come up for air.

The sound of his name on her lips was too much, his hands began to rove her body greedily while he planted hot possessive kisses along her neck. His teeth just scraping the tender skin of her throat and she shivered. "Oni-" She whimpered before he sealed her mouth his. He began tugging at her clothes then, trying to free them and she gasped, shocked at him. "Oni...." She twisted her face away. "Please." She wanted him to stop… she hadn't really wanted to let him get this far… but she had wanted to calm him. And maybe… deep down… she wanted to know what it was like to be kissed by him… but not this… not yet.

"Yes…" He purred, burying his face in her neck as she twisted her head from him. "Oh yes…" He ground his hips into hers, pushing her robes up.

"Oni! Please stop it!" She finally shouted.

Her words broke through the lust and desperation that coursed through his veins. "I am sorry." He lifted himself off of her, before reaching down to pick her up off of the floor. And when he was sure she could hold herself upright, when he was sure of his voice. "I… I'll just be going." He said. "I…" He couldn't think up any excuses, and walked to the opposite end of the place he called home… thank goodness the place he stayed at was very large… and his rooms very much away from hers. Because he still needed to think about everything… still had memories that he had yet to remember… and he was afraid. He was afraid what he might do to her when he remembered them all. He found himself in his rooms, and sat down in the corner. Something he remembered doing a lot… he liked to sit here when he wanted to think… yes… that was coming back to him. And then… his mind began buzzing with memories… memories he both wanted… and dreaded.

Naraku: Ooooh... the story is getting good finally! (finished eating his last macadamia nut cookie) Awww… (shakes the box) no more! Ku ku ku… I need to do more promos… Wait! (spies a macadamia nut cookie in the corner) Yay! (jumps in the air so he can glomp it)

A long and horrible scream is heard before it comes crashing into the roof – right on top of the cookie.

Muso: Ouch! Stupid anti-nudists! Trying to bring me down! (sees the cookie) Holy Crap! A macadamia nut cookie! (stuffs it into his face)

Naraku: NOOOOO! My cookie! (his little hands on his cheeks)

Muso: Finders keepers! Nyaaaa! (sticks his tongue out)

Naraku: Why you… insolent (gets mad)

The rest of the gang show up.

Inu-Yasha: Uh oh!

Naraku: For this outrage… (points his finger at Muso) I will not stop until you are inside me!

Miroku: (blushes) Oh my… he is quite direct!

Everyone else falls over in a heap.

Muso: I don't swing that way pal! Well… there was that time in grad school… but we won't go into that!

Naraku: I will never forgive the offense of the cookie! Ku ku ku! (disappears in a ball of smoke) Ku… (cough) ku… (cough hack!) ku…

Muso: Now I'm in for it! Must I always been persecuted for my beliefs?!

Kikyo: You stole his cookie! How is that being persecuted for your beliefs?

Muso: I was naked while doing so! Therefore he is trying to oppress me!

Everyone sweat drops.

Muso: If it's war he wants… it's war he'll get! (takes out a piece of paper)

Everyone: What?! Not you too?!

Muso: (sings a jingle) If you want to read more, more, more! Then you have to click review, view, view! Why? Because Gaby is a review whore, whore, whore!

Kikyo: Those lyrics sucked!

Muso: Yeah… but this gig sure pays great (suddenly gets a bag thing of Pepperidge Farm white chocolate macadamia nut cookies) Hellz yeah!

Miroku: I want some!

Muso: Get your own promotional job!

Miroku: Ok! But I'm doing the next one!

Kagome: …

Nope! Still fainted!

Everyone: Bye, bye kids!