Title: Ending The Dance
Author: JAGfreak aka Ashlee
Disclaimer: Yes...I own JAG and its characters. hears murmurings What? DPB? Who's that?....lol.
Chapter 2/? - ...Since We've No Place To Go...
Mac continued to smile at him, and his eyes never left hers. His look was one of understanding......hers one of guilt.
Mac knew she had been pushing him away....keeping him at a distance...and yet when she needed him, he was there...he would ALWAYS be there.
He was being so good to her...despite well..."everything." Despite everything she had done and said to isolate herself, to be alone.. deep down that's not what she had really wanted or needed..and Harm knew that...understood that.
Mac was grateful...more than she could say with her words, so she tried to express that with her gaze. Harm smiled back at her and leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees..reaching out to pull the covers up a little more.
"I'm gonna go turn the heat up, it's getting chilly in here." Harm smiled as he crossed the room to the thermostat on the wall.
Mac just watched him from where she lay on the couch, the blanket now covering her arms.
Harm was being very sweet, and at the same time annoying her to death. 'Not that him annoying me on a daily basis is a new thing' Mac thought with a smile.
Harm came back to take his place in the chair.
Mac glanced to the left where her tree stood tall, the lights shining brightly casting a glow in the room. Mac hated the idea of being stuck on the couch... especially on this day, she was such a kid when it came to christmas.
"Harm, let's have christmas still. I mean, I know it hasn't been the best of circumstances and I know I'm to blame for that" Mac looked down briefly," but it's stil morning..and well we could have Mattie over here and well..I don't know...do u want to?" Mac said hopefully, an enthusiastic smile gracing her features.
Harm laughed. Mac was such a kid when it came to christmas. He loved seeing her smile, rip open her gift....they used to celebrate their christmas on christmas eve....back when they could settle for small talk and just being friends....before everything got so complicated.
Harm could not stop worrying..even now...ever since he had gotten the call saying she'd been involved in an accident...he couldn't stop thinking about what would have happened had Mac not been so lucky...with so many things left unsaid.
The sobering reality of the frailty of life....how everything can change in a moment. He couldn't shake the feeling of pure terror. He had staid up half the night, watching her sleep....praying.
What was it about love that made it hurt so much? Harm didn't know...but he knew now that he couldn't wait to stop dancing...he loved her...was in love with her...the commitment-phobia no longer existed. He wanted her and only her for ....forever. He knew he sounded sappy and he knew that nothing would be "perfect," but with Mac it would be pretty darn close. His mind was made up, but he was scared and didn't know how to tell her.....he was ready to end the dance.
The end for now..maybe? please let me know what you think and if you have any ideas : )