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Note: Yes, it's another short, short chapter but it just wouldn't leave me alone!!
Saeki's POV
I've always knew that Syuusuke was good at tennis, he wasn't called a tensai for nothing but I never knew he was this good. Maybe it was because of him. Echizen Ryoma, that Syuusuke has changed so much.
I loathe Echizen, I really do. I loathe him for what he did to Syuusuke. Maybe that wasn't the only reason; maybe I was jealous as well. No, scratch that, I was jealous of Echizen Ryoma. I loathed him for making Syuusuke as sad as he was but I was also jealous of him. I was jealous at how much Syuusuke loved him, how much he still loved him. Even though he had hurt Syuusuke so bad, Syuusuke still loved him.
He told me what he did, I made him tell me. I know what happened, how Syuusuke called out Tezuka-san's name during their, love making. I know this but I still loathed Echizen, I still believed that Syuusuke was hurt even more. I know this because Syuusuke would never hurt someone he loved on purpose, that he would hurt himself terribly if he did. He did. Yuuta told me, how Syuusuke, how Syuusuke sold himself. It hurt to hear that, to know that someone once so strong could become like that.
But Syuusuke stopped now, now he was what you would call a tennis maniac. Maybe maniac was a pretty harsh word to use but that was what it was like. Before, before the Echizen incident Syuusuke considered tennis as a hobby. But now, the Syuusuke now was a reining champion gold medalist in Japan's tennis society, in the top 10 of all of Japan's players. Within a mere 5 months, no, it wasn't 5 months. It was 2 months. 2 months since he started practicing tennis for serious, 2 months since he became obsessed around tennis. I asked him why before but he would always answer with this, "So he knows, he knows that I'm waiting for him."
Of course "he" was Echizen Ryoma. Who else could make Syuusuke so serious about tennis in where Yuuta had failed. Syuusuke's becoming a pro, a professional tennis player. I hate that, I hate that because Syuusuke was never serious about tennis. It was a passing hobby, but now he's clinging on to it, like it was his lifeline. I hate that.
I hate the new Syuusuke; he was so different, so much more serious about everything. Maybe I'm greedy, but I wanted the old Syuusuke back, the old Syuusuke who would always talk to me, the one that would hold me important. Of course I was probably still important to him but the one that holds his heart, it's not me, nor Yuuta; it was Echizen Ryoma, the one that had hurt him.
Maybe I'm just being greedy, Syuusuke's happy for the first time since Echizen left him. Well, he wasn't as happy as when they were together but he was still happy. I'll always loathe Echizen, but at the same time, I'll envy him. I'll envy him because he has everything I want, everything I'll ever want and need. That everything was Syuusuke, to continue on in life, to live life to its fullest extent all I needed was Syuusuke. Did that sound too possessive and obsessive? But regardless of what it sounds like, it was true, that was all I'd ever want or need.
But Echizen just threw it away, threw him away. But Syuusuke believes he'll come back so he probably will. I would be lying if I said that I wanted him to come back, but I sort of do, a bit. I want him to come back so I can see that smile on Syuusuke's face again, that smile that only HE could bring out. The smile I used to be able to bring out. But not anymore, Syuusuke's heart and soul, they'll belong to Echizen for eternity. Even if I'm only 16 and he's only 17, I know this. I know this because it's Syuusuke, and no one knows Syuusuke better than I do, no one, not even Syuusuke.
To the readers: Thank you all!! I love reviews, so prettiful (Is that a word?) to read.
Oh and for Craze Izumi – Ack! I should clarify that shouldn't I? It was two months after Ryoma left! Sorry for confusing you!
Ack! It's a horribly short chapter around 700 words only! Sorry! But I couldn't think of anything else to write in Saeki's point of view. Did I capture his character okay? I'm not too confident about it, maybe a few pointers? Constructive Critism is always welcomed.