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Scarred chapter five
My Father left me on the cold wet ground
Puddle of blood
My shoulder somewhat distorted
Shot to hell
My leg broken to pieces
Crying won't ease the pain
The peace my body was at was gone
Broken soul
My whole being in ashes of gross despair
Why dose this have happen
Then that man has the gull to lay hands on Shizuka
Lay hands on her again
I am out of time...
Scarred Chapter Five:
At last I can breathe
I ran at a sprit to get to The Time Plaza. Jou had at the last minute decided that I couldn't take a limo to the destination. I had immense fears as I ran. My trench coat billowing hard behind me ant every step. I wished I could take it off to lighten my step.
Flash Back
'Ring-ring-ring' the phone in the pocket of Seto's Favorite trench coat was ringing off the hook. Suddenly the ring changed from his obnoxious business call ring to a beautiful Moonlight Sonata. Seto Kaiba Ran into the room half giggling half choking on a Pocky stick. "Hello you have called Kaiba and I'm answering what do ya want?"
"Well, that is a rather rood way to greet your lover on the phone. I am calling you because I forgot something. You can not get a ride to the tower. You must walk or in this case SPRINT to the tower. Cool?" Replied Katsuya Jounouchi on the other end. He sounded cool and collected which was weird for him. He was either freaked or hyper or just cool, but never collected. He always had mixed emotions and could not control those emotions but this day was different.
"Yeah I'm cool. Why are you..." Seto was cut off by a click and a beep tone, relying the message that the other line had hung up. Bewildered, the young CEO stood there just staring at the Cell Phone before realizing that he had to leave. Grabbing his trench coat and running for the door headed in the direction of the tower.
End Flash Back
Suddenly a Dark Purple limo pulled up beside me and a familiar face stared out at me thru the sun roof. "Hello big brother!" Said a small fragile tired voice and then the window on the back seat rolled down reveling a small brunette named Shizuka. I halted under a street lamp to see Mokuba hanging out of the sun roof and Shizuka sitting on the window ledge. Big Brother, didn't you say that Big brother Katsuya said that you had to bring a hoodie and not a trench coat?" I looked down at myself and realized that he was right.
"Here you are Big brother Seto! Give your trench coat here. Or well throw it to Mokuba." I did as Shizuka said and then something hit me in the head when I looked down to look at my figure. I caught the mystery object and it turned out to be Mokubas hoodie.
"Thank you both I will get going now he said not to have any one with me but you could stay parked outside of the tower. But you can't give me a ride. Bye." With that I sprinted off to the tower to meet Katsuya.
"Huff...huff... so...Katsuya what did you want to see me about?" I finally managed to say as soon as a partially regained my breath.
"No. I shall be the first to ask questions. Who is in the limo parked outside?"
"Mokuba and Shizuka." I said flatly. He was acting really weird.
"That's not that good. They can't be here, send them away"
"Why"
"BECAUSE THEY CAN'T SEE THIS!" He yelled so loud that I thought that Shizuka and Mokuba might have heared him from down stares.
"I'll call the limo and tell them to go." I pulled out my cell and dialed Mokubas limo's number. "Hello. Zahra. I need you to put me on speaker so that Mokuba and Shizuka can hear."
"Yes Mr. Kaiba. I shall put you on speaker." With that I heard a click and we were both on speaker. Katsuya said nothing.
"Big brother Seto!"
"Big brother!" Said Mokuba and Shizuka in unison.
"Mokuba, Shizuka you must leave. You can not be here. Sorry. Katsuya says so. Go home and get some rest. I'll tell you all about it when I get ho..."
"NO YOU WON'T!" Blurted out Katsuya.
"Okay just go home and go to sleep. 'K'?"
"Alright Big brother Seto" the two screamed in unison. "See you tomorrow morning. See you as well big brother Katsuya. Good night!" they said all too cheerfully. They would not be going to sleep that night.
"Well, now that that is over with lets get down to business. There are ten boom boxes on the ground. We will each get a few remotes and on the count of three press play. Here you are." He walked over to me and handed me five remotes. Then he walked back to the ledge. "Seto you are the only one who is allowed to see this. I love you so much. get ready. 1...2...3...play" at that we both hit play on all five remotes at the same time. And his song played.
(It starts
With one/I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try)
"Good bye Seto" He mouth to me as he pulled a black object out of his pocket. A gun stared me in the face. He then rotated it 90 degrees. Still pointed at me I feared for what he might be thinking. Killing me or him self. He then slowly pulled his arm back and touched the barrel to his temple.
(Keep that in mind/I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings)
I ran up to him as his finger started to squeeze the trigger. As I got to him, the gun was about to go off but instead of the bullet penetrating his skull I pushed him to the ground and smacked the gun out of his hand going off into infinity. The look in his eyes had two meanings: I am so sorry and I love you but I have to do this. I got up off of him and moved slowly away tears filling my eyes. I saw a glint of something silver in his hand.
(Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on/but didn't even know)
He switched his switch blade and put it near to his neck. I backed away from my original spot afraid to do anything until he put it near his leg. He placed his right hand on top of the handle to the switch blade and his left to hold it.
(Wasted it all just to
Watch you go)
I flung myself at him with all my strength. I pulled the blade out of his leg and threw it across the roof, landing on the other side of the building to far away for Katsuya to run to. He pushed me off of him and started to talk. I was lip reading to hear what he was saying.
(I kept everything inside even thought I tried/it all fell apart
What meant to be/will eventfully/be a memory/of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter)
"I have no other way to go. If I die you will be hurt but you'll get over it. You are strong, Seto. I love you so much that only you can see this. Only you can witness what I am willing to do and have been willing to do since I was ten. It was the first thing out of my mouth to Honda when I walked out of the hospital when I was ten. I said 'Well I have something to tell you. I want to die. I want to just go away. Dude if not killed by my fathers' hands then by my own.' Have you ever heard such a thing out of a Childs' mouth? 'If not killed by my fathers' hands then by my own'. It is like something from a drama book. Could you even picture it? The sight? I, in a wheel chair and Honda at my side, looking at me like I would shoot myself right then and there. I was ten and he was what 11?. A ten-year-old talking of homicide and suicide at ten AND freaking out a little 11-year-old. You can't see it can you?"
(No, I could not.
One thing/I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try...)
The song suddenly stopped and an eerie silence was left unbroken till he spoke. "In about five minutes the song will start up again and the police will have gone because they are just arriving and hear nothing. You see by having the radios that loud I have distracted the police and when they go they will have little time to come back and help. The floor plan is they will bust threw the doors of the roof while you and I are fighting. You scream out that you love me and at that moment I say it as well. I forcefully kiss you and push you to the ground. I say goodbye and then..." he made a whistling sound that was fading and then a cur-plunk noise. It made me think of Mokubas old Saturday morning cartoons. In my head I saw Wile E. Coyote falling from a cliff with that exact sound that Katsuya had just made, all around the large living room.
Three or four minutes of complete silence surrounded us as I heard the eerie accompaniment that I had heard 7 or 8 minutes ago.
I looked at my watch. 00:30. I got anxious. I knew that he would do anything. I thought that if he jumps or shoots or stabs so will I. He inched closer to the edge as I stepped closer to him. I started to run, catching him off guard. He stumbled a little as I lunged at him to keep him from going anywhere. As I landed on him we rolled and I wound up on top bending over him as if he were pinned by a dog. Soft rain like droplets pored from my eyes as did they from his.
(Keep that in mind/I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me/I'm surprised
It got so far)
"Please Seto!" Katsuya yelled as he pushed me off him and ran toward the edge. Tears streaming from his eyes he started to sob but his face showed no emotion. Han ran to the other side of the roof me right in his tail. I was crying as well but my face showed it. My brown hair hanging in front of my eyes and my face flushed. He slid on the roof as he lunged for the knife that I had thrown away. When he grabbed it he turned and flopped onto his backside to slide against the upcoming wall of the storage shed. I heard a loud bam through the music, the sound of him crashing into the wall and skidding to a halt after being deflected by the titanium/aluminum alloy siding. I ran after him changing direction several times due to his little human ping-pong game. Soon, I caught up with him and grabbed the knife out of his hands.
(Things aren't the way the were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end)
Running again I was the one being chased. Trying my hardest not to fall on my face I headed for the emergency exit. As soon as I got there I opened the door hearing a loud buzzing sound that was there before. I jumped to the conclusion that Katsuya had hotwired the door to turn the noise off at a certain time and then have it turn back on once I was on the roof. I threw the knife into the door hit the 'outside lock' button that turns off in 10 minutes. But I hoped that he didn't know that.
His face turned red with anger. But it soon faded to a pale, pale white color. His eyes showed sadness that I only saw once. And that was when Otoga's sisters had died. He ran toward the ledge but stopped abruptly and turned to face me.
(You keep every thing inside and even though I tried/it all fell apart
What it meant to me/will eventually/be memory/of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter)
"Seto. Listen to the words coming from my heart to you. THIS IS the way I want to go. To go with grace and honor but you have left me to my last choice. The only other thing I can do you have left me. Have you forgotten where we are? We are on the 175 floor. The roof. The drop from hear is 1750 feet, approximately. One normal person would die from extensive change in altitude by the 75 floor. I will not. If I jump I will survive the fall but not the landing. I will die on impact. I am hoping to land on my head were it will be quick and painless. But if you watch me hit on my back all ligaments, tendons, veins, arteries, organs etc. in my body will burst out of my body and fly in all directions. This will be the first suicide off of this building. The first only because too many, no, all people are afraid of what wile happen. Well I know and if I land on my head there will only be blood left. Nothing more."
(I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There is only one thing you should know
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this there's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter)
The last I saw a flap of a shirt as his body glided off the roof to the ground. The song hit its final chord as a herd a chorus of screams from bellow. I opened up the emergency exit and stabbed my leg several times in the spot that Katsuya had stabbed himself.
I limped down the stairs till I reached the final step. I slashed my wrists and my throat before I walked out the door into the street. When I saw Katsuya there on the sidewalk in several pieces I stabbed my heart right then and there. If I had known the paramedics were there I would have waited till I got home.
For the next few days I watched the sun set and the sun rise in a hospital bed with Mokuba and Shizuka by my side. Bandages on my neck and wrist and a file on me for attempt at suicide that I could win in my sleep. But to me the only thing that mattered was Katsuya.
Time has passed since he committed suicide and there are still days that I try to kill my self but fail due to Mokuba. Every time I see them, Mokuba and Shizuka I think to my self 'Katsuya we could have been like that. And Mokuba and Shizuka would be like our children.' When I see them kiss I am reminded of the short days that I spent with Katsuya and his ever depressed and scarred heart.
I will drive the barrel of this gun. The same gun Katsuya used. I will drive the barrel down my throat. I will fire. I will die instantly. But even after I am dead, I will go on loving Katsuya Jounouchi.
Fin
© Bloody Days of Dust (K.A.F.) 2005