Disclaimer: I do not own Stargate SG-1 or any of its characters (unfortunately -sigh-). I'm just a person who likes to write so the owners have no reason to sue me.

A/N: Okay, got back early from camping and felt refreshed from last week (Hell Week for me, refer to Savin's Note entry) so was actually able to look at a computer -grin- Lots and lots of Sam angst in this chapter. Not many changes right away but I would suggest reading it from beginning to end since I did add some little things here and there. Also, I already have this story planned out and I'm not going to change it for anyone except for myself. If you don't like how I had Jack try and explain Sam's reappearance to Katy, too bad. You can write your own version in your head if you like but I only write what I want to write. I don't write for the comments. I write for the sake of shutting up my muse. Anywho...on to the fic and thanks again to all readers, silent and commenting alike!

Sam ran as fast as she could down the trail. Tree branches tried to slow down her flight as she ran, smacking her in the face. She ignored the pain and just kept on running. She couldn't take it anymore. She hated being in the dark! Why can't I remember?! Why?! Her legs pounded into the ground beneath her, carrying her farther and farther away from everything that left her mind spinning in confusion and pain.

"Sam!"

His voice broke through the trees. She looked around in fear. She didn't see him down the path or any where in the trees. He was close, but not close enough to where she could see him. She couldn't let him find her. She wouldn't. She had made his daughter cry. She knew how Jack felt about children. She couldn't face him. She wouldn't.

Military training kicked in as she jumped from the path. He would expect her to stay on the path, since she didn't know where she was going. This was her first time here, in her mind, after all. She quickly turned around, making sure she didn't leave any tracks. If he was going to find her, he would have to look pretty hard.

Her trail covered, Sam took off deeper into the woods, trying to control her sobs. Branches slapped across her face and roots tripped her as she ran. She would not let her emotions get the best of her. Soldiers end up dead that way...

She broke through the trees, coming to a quick stop before she fell into the lake. Guess I did head in the wrong direction, she thought with an irritable sigh. Her irritation disappeared though at the sight before her. "Wow..."

The lake was beautiful. Birds flew over head, their silhouettes black against the blue sky. A cool breeze ran through the branches of the trees that grew on the shores, its sorrowful tune filling the air. The forest went on for miles and miles on end, as if she were the only person out in the middle of the vast nothingness. Now I understand why the Colonel loves to come out here, even if there isn't any fish.

Jack came up behind her slowly. He didn't want to startle her, having her run even farther away from him. It hadn't taken him long to find Sam's trail, even after she covered up her it up after she left the path. In her distraught mind set, everything had looked calm but in reality it was a mess. It wasn't that hard to pick up her trail again.

She stood in the sunlight, her arms tight around her body. Her eyes were closed, a small smile on her face. He was almost afraid to disturb her from the fragile haven that she had created. The wind played with her hair and caressed her skin. She seemed so relaxed.

Jack cleared his throat softly. "Um...Sam?"

Her eyes shut tightly as her serenity was crushed by the sudden sound of his voice. She let out a sigh and turned around slowly. Her blue eyes met his brown ones. They were filled with tears. "Jack...I..." she tried to explain.

He walked over to her and enveloped her in his arms. "Shh...it's okay."

She closed her eyes slowly, resting her head on his shoulders. She started to cry harder into his shirt. "I can't do this! I don't remember any of this! I can't! I'm sick of it! In my mind, I'm just Samantha Carter, a major in the US Air Force. I'm 2IC of the Stargate programs flag team SG-1 and not married to my CO!" She started to cry even harder. "I just want things to be normal again!"

Jack grabbed hold of her arms and pulled her away from him, forcing her to look at him. "You want things to be normal again? You want to dance around in an endless dance of flirting and being careful of what we say and do with other?!"

"No!" she sobbed. "I wish that this didn't happen! I'm not the same woman that left you all those years ago!"

"Oh for crying out loud! Sam! Get a hold of yourself!" Jack was beginning to get angry. "I'm sick and tired of hearing your sob story on 'Oh! I don't remember who I am and there for I can't be near you.' That's a load of crap! We both knew how we felt about each other for many years before we got married but that's all in the past! All you need to know is that I love you! I've always loved you! Nothing will change that!"

"I'm not your wife!"

She pushed herself away from Jack in anger. She grabbed hold of the ring on her finger and threw it in his face. Her sudden outburst left Jack stunned. He had no idea what to say. He let out a sigh and leaned up against the tree, listening in silence as she took all of her frustrations out on him.

"I'm not your wife and I'm not the mother of your child! I am Major Samantha Carter of the US Air Force. I...I'm..." Her voice faltered as she fell to the ground in tears. "I don't want to do this! I'm not ready to be a mother and a wife! I just want to be me! I want to work for the SGC with my friends, saving the world time and time again! But no! I wake up and I have an entirely different life than I remember! I don't have a choice anymore! My life is already decided for me and I can't change it! It's just so...frustrating!"

Jack's eyes never left her shaking form as she talked. He nodded to no one in particular and let a small smile play on his lips. Well, it's about time she lets this all out. I was wondering when she was going to snap. The smile left his face quickly and he went back to listening to her rage on.

"And yes, I know I've been really insecure about myself as of late but I just...I just need time. I'm not ready for this life. I'm not ready to be a mom..."

Her mind finally gave into her pent up stress and she broke down into tears. Her cries of agony echoed through the forest, breaking Jacks heart. He didn't like to see her like this. His once strong and confidant wife was brought down to a sarcastic and nagging spinster. He let out a sigh and broke away from the tree and walked slowly to his 2IC. She was too busy crying to notice him. A twig snapping underneath his foot announced his approach.

He kneeled down next to her, not touching her but just being near enough for her to know that he was there for her. She understood his intentions but broke down herself and leaned into him. He wrapped an arm around her small frame and brought her closer to him and embraced her softly. "It's going to be okay...Carter. Motherhood isn't as scary as it's made up to be."

A small, cynical laugh escaped her. "If you hadn't noticed, Sir, I have been disowned by my own daughter."

A few tears of his own fell from his eyes. "I know, but Kawalsky's working on that problem right now."

Her body shuddered as she tried to control her sobs. "What, he going to brain wash her too?"

"Sam..."

He didn't know what else to say. He knew she was hurting and he knew that this was going to be hard but the mind and heart of a woman was foreign territory to him, especially that of his second-in-command.

Her sobs started to lessen. "I'm sorry," she whispered.

He just tightened his arms around her. "Don't worry about it, Carter. I had a feeling that you were going to snap soon. You keep everything bottled up inside and that's not good. Best you took everything out on me instead of someone else."

The two sat there, his arm around her crying form. He started to rub his thumb absentmindedly on her arm.

"Jack?"

He looked down at the blonde beside him. "Yeah?"

Her sobs had quieted down to sniffles. "Can we go home?"

He smiled. "Sure, Sam. Let's head home."

Jack stood up slowly, his knees protesting for sitting the way that he had sat. He took her hand in his and helped her stand. They started to head to the path when something glittering in the sunlight caught Jack's eye. He pulled away from Sam and bent down, grabbing her ring that she had thrown at him only moments ago. She looked away shamefully as he rubbed it over his shirt.

"I'm going to make you a deal, Sam. I'm going to hang onto this ring and if you don't like this...life that you have with me now, you can leave whenever you like."

"Sir--" she tried to interrupt but was cut off herself by his hands coming up in defense.

"Sam, I don't want you to be miserable for the rest of your life. Hopefully your memory will come back and things can go back to normal for the both of us, alright? But until then, this will be a trial period between the two of us."

She nodded silently, knowing she wouldn't be able to sway his decision. "Okay," she mumbled.

They didn't talk on the way back. They walked in silence, letting the peaceful surroundings calm the inner turmoil in both of them.

A/N: Thought it would be about time that Sam would snap and just going wild on someone. Could you imagine the stress building up in a person that keeps it all inside? That's a time bomb just waiting to explode! Anywho, Chapter 12 should be out within the week but that's if I find time to write some more. Have a few more things I have to clean up at work and then hopefully my routine will go back to normal -sigh- Hell, I didn't even get to watch Stargate or Atlantis on Friday! Well, until next time!