Disclaimer: I do not own Stargate SG-1 or any of its characters (unfortunately -sigh-). I'm just a person who likes to write so the owners have no reason to sue me.

A/N: Yay! Finally, a new chapter up! Yes, I know it's been a while but hey, I've been busy with college so give me a break, alright -grin- Hopefully updating will go back to normal (once a week) but I do have a good portion done on chapter 17. Anywho...on to the fic!

The ride home from the cabin had been a very long and quiet one. Well, Katy had done a lot of talking while her parents sat in silence most of the way. Jack had tried to crack a few jokes but whatever head way he had made to get closer to Sam and make her feel more comfortable had failed miserably with his actions. They were back to square one and she was already referring to him as 'Sir' again.

As soon as they pulled into the driveway, Sam jumped out of the car and headed into the house. Jack sighed and cursed to himself again and started to unload the car.

"Is Mommy going to be okay?"

He gave Katy a small smile. "Yeah, Mom's fine. She went through a really rough time."

"What happened to her? I know she was messed up but what did they do to her?"

Jack continued to unpack the car slowly. He was trying to avoid her question. He knew that Katy wouldn't understand what Sam was going through.

"Dad?"

Hell, he was even having problems helping his wife and he knew what was going on.

"Dad?"

Yeah, sleeping with her will make all her problems go away. What were you thinking, you jerk! Who know what the hell happened to her! What was I thinking?!

"DAD!"

"What?!" he snapped. He looked down to his five year old. She was pouting.

"Are you going to answer my question or not? What happened to her?"

Jack let out a sigh. "I'll tell you when you're older."

"Dad!" She started to pout even more.

He let out a sigh as he sat on top of the cooler. "The truth is Squirt, she doesn't even know what happened to her. Nobody does." Katy crawled up onto his lap. "You see, your mother's memory is all messed up. She doesn't remember that we are married or that we had you. She doesn't even remember what they did to her. The last eight years of her life has been wiped from her memory and it's really screwed up things."

"Is that why she calls you 'Sir'?"

He nodded. "Yeah. Eight years ago, your mother and I weren't together. I was her superior officer, meaning leader, so we were not allowed to...well...have a relationship."

"But that didn't stop you?"

"Trust me, we still had strong feelings for each other. We just weren't allowed to show them or express them. You understand?"

"Um..." Her thinking face appeared again. "I think so. But you're just doing deep space telem...telemetry. Why weren't you allowed to be together?"

Jack let a little grin play on his face. "To tell you the truth, Squirt, we did much more than study the stars and other galaxies...we went to other planets and galaxies."

Katy blinked a few times, processing the information her dad had just given her. "You mean, you traveled to outer space on a spaceship?"

"More like through a giant puddle of water in a giant, stone ring."

"You're joking! Right?" She studied her father's face.

"No I'm not. It's the truth. But you can't tell anyone, alright? It's top secret so this will just between you and me, okay?"

"So, all those stories you told me about Mommy were true? About saving the world and things like that?"

"Yeapers. Told you your mother was a super hero," he said with a wink.

Katy laughed. "So you and Mom were on the same team?"

"Yeah, they thought that a relationship between members of the same team would jeopardize the rest of the team in times of danger but they were wrong. It just strengthened our team. But of course, we never really expressed our relationship. It was just understood and then we kept on fooling ourselves that we were just friends."

"But why does she call you 'Sir' now? She knows that you are married and that we're a family. Why doesn't she call you 'Dad' or 'Jack' like Uncle Danny and Uncle Charlie?"

"It's a defense mechanism," he said more to himself. "She doesn't want to get near me so she calls me 'Sir'. That's how she used to remind herself that I was her superior officer and not the man that she loved."

Jack paused with his story as he took in a deep breath. Man, this is really hard to talk about. Especially to a five year old.

"Daddy? What made you two...well...be my parents?"

"On one mission...I almost didn't make it home. You almost wouldn't be here, Squirt," he said as he ruffled her hair. "I was really beat up. God, I almost wished I had died than deal with the pain I was in. But your mother stayed by me the whole time, comforting me and taking care of me for the next four months of our lives. That was when I realized that I couldn't pretend anymore. I wanted to let her know just how much I cared about her."

"So you broke the rules?"

Jack nodded. "We did more than just break the rules. When your mother told me that she was pregnant with you, I panicked. I had just been told that I couldn't go through the gate for a very, very long time to come. I was feeling better and was able to move around, but I needed a lot of time to recuperate. But she said she didn't care what the higher ups did. She loved me and that was all that mattered."

"She still loves you, right?"

Jack cringed and forced a smile. "Well maybe not at the moment, but deep down inside she knows that she does. She's just a little mad at me right now."

His daughter laughed. "What did you do now?!"

He sighed. "Katy, you don't want to know. You would hate me too."

She hit Jack on the head. "Ow! What was that for?!"

"That's for hurting Mommy." Katy hopped off his lap and pointed towards the house. "Go say you're sorry."

Her father got up slowly. "Sorry Squirt but things aren't that easy. I have to start all over with your mother. She doesn't remember those times that we shared when I was injured. She's in military mode and I have to re-break through those walls."

"Okay, but don't take too long. I want Mommy to be normal again."

"Me too, Katy. Me too."

Sam lay on her bed, silent tears streaming down her face. She would not let the colonel see her cry. She had almost slipped up many times on the car ride home but remained chipper for their daughter's sake. Now was her alone time, time by herself to let her emotions run freely without anyone to worry about.

It still made her sick to think that her body was used as a tool for the Goa'ulds' pleasure. She wasn't even sure she wanted to gain back the rest of her memory. If the rest of my memories are like that, I want nothing to do with them. Wait! What if that was a recent memory?

Fear took over her mind. What if it was a very recent memory? She had felt queasy on some of the mornings at the cabin. She thought it was because of all of the medication she was on but what if it wasn't?

A soft knock to her door snapped her out of her thoughts. "Come in," she said as she quickly wiped the tears away from her eyes.

Jack poked his head in the door slowly and offered her a small smile. "Um...I have your bags out here. You want me to put them in here or just leave them outside the door."

Sam shook her head as she spaced out again. "Uh...yeah. You can bring them in here, Sir."

Her husband raised his eyebrows at her response to his question. "Something wrong, Carter?" Might as well get used to saying that again if I'm 'Sir' again.

Sam raised a shaky hand to her stomach. "I think I need to see Janet."

That answer made Jack rush to her side. "What's wrong? Come on Sam! Talk to me."

She could feel the bile rushing up her throat. "Oh god!" she muttered as she raised her hands to her mouth. She got up quickly from the bed and ran for the bathroom.

Jack followed behind her and watched as she threw up. He walked over to the toilet slowly and placed a supporting hand on her back. "Let's take you to go see Doc Fraiser. But just promise me that you'll hold up on the throwing up until after we're out of the truck."
A/N: Yeah, I mean to our dear Samantha. Giving her a scare like that. But you'll just have to see what's going to happen next in the next installment of Memories. Don't worry, it shouldn't be too long. I might put chapter 17 up early since I've been gone from this story for so long. My treat to you readers -grin- Until next time!