Disclaimer: I do not own Stargate SG-1 or any of its characters (unfortunately -sigh-). I'm just a person who likes to write so the owners have no reason to sue me.
A/N: As promised, Chapter 17 is being posted early as a treat to all of you readers! I'm glad to see that many of you have returned after my little break. It makes me so happy to see that sooooo many people really enjoy my writing. So this chapter is dedicated to all of you! Anywho...on to the fic!
"So, what's the verdict?"
The blonde watched the doctor, eagerly awaiting the results.
"You're in the clear," Janet said. "No traces of anything either."
Sam let a huge sigh of relief and nodded. "Thanks for doing this, Janet." She jumped off the exam table and started pulling back on her own clothes. "You don't know how much this means to me. If...if I was..." She couldn't finish her sentence.
"Don't worry about it, Sam. As far as I can tell that memory must have been from a while back. I see no signs of sexual activity."
She nodded again. "I just had to know. I don't think I could live with myself, or the colonel, if I were carrying some monster inside of me."
"The colonel?!" Janet did a double take. "When did we start referring to your husband as the colonel again?"
Sam let out a sigh. "Things were just going too fast. I...I couldn't convince myself."
The doctor rubbed her temple in frustration. "Sam, how many times do we have to go over this? Just focus on now, not the past! Just go with the flow! Living with him may be weird now but you'll get used to it again. Memories, guaranteed not the happiest ones, are returning so it must be doing you some good to be in familiar surroundings."
The blonde plopped back down on to the bed. "Right after the memory of that damned Goa'uld, the colonel...Jack...I tried to explain to him what happened but I just babbled on like some idiot. I just feel so...damaged, used up, wasted--whatever you want to call it. I guess that subconsciously my mind body still remembers all of those bad times and it's psyching me out."
"Sam, honey, why didn't you say anything to him if you weren't ready?" Janet put a comforting arm around her friend.
"I just...I just couldn't, Jan. I mean, a part of me wanted it--needed is more like it. I actually felt like a woman for a short while. Not some tough, beat up solider or some play toy. A real woman. But deep down inside...that feeling of dread washed over me again at the thought of those hands..." She shuddered at the thought again. "I just wanted to feel whole again and I felt like he could make that happen."
"It's alright, Sam. I understand. But you do realize that you're not in a Goa'uld harem anymore. You don't have to do what you don't want to. Just remember that for the future, okay?"
A small smile played against her lips. "I don't think I have to worry about that for a long while to come. I don't even think that the colonel will come near me like that for a very, very, very long time," she said sadly. "I gave him a real scare."
"I know that I keep telling you to stay with Jack but if things get too weird or strained between the two of you, my invitation still stands to come a stay with Daniel and I for awhile."
Sam nodded. "I know. But like I said before, I think I'm going to have to decline but I will keep your offer in mind if things get real bad."
Janet smiled. "Well, as long as you'll keep us in mind. A visit every once in a while would be good too, and that does not include emergency visits to my infirmary," she finished with a playful laugh.
The major couldn't help but laugh as well. "Alright, Janet. Am I done here?"
"Yeah, everything is done here. Jack went to talk to General Hammond earlier so you should find him there. Otherwise he's probably busy bugging Daniel or Teal'c."
Sam hopped off the bed again, this time a bit more chipper than she had been before. "Thanks Janet! For everything." She gave her friend a hug as she stepped out of the door to find a currently missing ex-colonel.
"So what did Hammond want to talk to you about?" Daniel asked curiously. Jack had walked into his office about a half an hour ago, a grim look on his face. The younger man was trying to take his friends mind off of whatever he was currently thinking about. He had heard about Sam's little episode at the lake but didn't think that that was a good subject to talk about. He heard her refer to Jack as 'Sir' again so knew something had taken a turn for the worse.
Jack brought a hand up and rubbed his temple. "He was concerned about Sam's memory and if she would be considered a threat. Considering that she just started spazing out at the cabin, he was worried about something like that every happening in public."
"That sounds reasonable to me. I was a little concerned myself about that. Just all of a sudden having a memory pop in. I can only imagine what one of the bad ones would do to her." As soon as the words left his mouth, he clamped his jaw shut. Stupid Daniel! Stupid! "I mean...ah...um...ah hell. Sorry about that, Jack."
Jack just stared at him with a dead pan look. "Right...I'm going to go see if Janet's done with Sam." He started to get up slowly.
Daniel let out a sigh. If only we had something to help Sam. Then it hit him. "You know, if everybody keeps seeing Sam's sudden flashbacks as a threat, maybe we should try getting back her memory all at once."
The ex-colonel stopped in his tracks and turned around slowly. "What are you saying?" His voice was low and dangerous. "We don't have anything that could help her."
"I know that, Jack. We don't have anything that can help her. I'm just saying, maybe we can pull some strings with our allies like the Tok'ra. They have many ways to help--"
"Like sticking some damned snake into her head!" Jack interrupted. "I don't think so, Danny boy. That is out of the question!"
The archeologist frowned. "That's not what I was suggesting, Jack. They have a memory recall device, remember? We used it on Sam once already while trying to retrieve Jolinar's memories."
"Yeah, and that screwed her up too. Could you imagine have your mind open like a flood gate and all kind of painful memories exploding into your head?"
"Well, yeah. I kind of did when I descended," Daniel said sarcastically. "I've been thinking about this a lot, Jack and I think that this would be more of a help to Sam."
"NO!" he hollered as he leveled down his best friend with a glare. "No," he shook his head. "Five years of pain, Daniel. Five years of torture, rape, and pain. You didn't have those kinds of memories, now did you?"
The younger man got really quiet. "I suppose you're right. But still, do you want her to keep referring to you as 'Sir' or would you rather have her call you by your first name and take on your last?"
The ex-colonel let out a frustrated sigh. "It's not my decsion, Danny. You'll have to talk to her."
"I'll do it."
Both men turned around to see Sam standing in the doorway, a determined look on her face.
A/N: Heh heh. And you thought I was going to make poor Sam pregnant again! Hah! But yeah, left you again with another cliff hanger. Yeah, I know...still evil -grin- Well, I can guarantee that it will take some time for chapter 18 since I kind of haven't really planned that one out yet and I have to be careful cause this next chapter is going to be a key chapter in finding out some of the things that happened to Sam while she was captured during her five year disappearance. Hopefully it won't be a long wait. Until next time!
A/N: As promised, Chapter 17 is being posted early as a treat to all of you readers! I'm glad to see that many of you have returned after my little break. It makes me so happy to see that sooooo many people really enjoy my writing. So this chapter is dedicated to all of you! Anywho...on to the fic!
"So, what's the verdict?"
The blonde watched the doctor, eagerly awaiting the results.
"You're in the clear," Janet said. "No traces of anything either."
Sam let a huge sigh of relief and nodded. "Thanks for doing this, Janet." She jumped off the exam table and started pulling back on her own clothes. "You don't know how much this means to me. If...if I was..." She couldn't finish her sentence.
"Don't worry about it, Sam. As far as I can tell that memory must have been from a while back. I see no signs of sexual activity."
She nodded again. "I just had to know. I don't think I could live with myself, or the colonel, if I were carrying some monster inside of me."
"The colonel?!" Janet did a double take. "When did we start referring to your husband as the colonel again?"
Sam let out a sigh. "Things were just going too fast. I...I couldn't convince myself."
The doctor rubbed her temple in frustration. "Sam, how many times do we have to go over this? Just focus on now, not the past! Just go with the flow! Living with him may be weird now but you'll get used to it again. Memories, guaranteed not the happiest ones, are returning so it must be doing you some good to be in familiar surroundings."
The blonde plopped back down on to the bed. "Right after the memory of that damned Goa'uld, the colonel...Jack...I tried to explain to him what happened but I just babbled on like some idiot. I just feel so...damaged, used up, wasted--whatever you want to call it. I guess that subconsciously my mind body still remembers all of those bad times and it's psyching me out."
"Sam, honey, why didn't you say anything to him if you weren't ready?" Janet put a comforting arm around her friend.
"I just...I just couldn't, Jan. I mean, a part of me wanted it--needed is more like it. I actually felt like a woman for a short while. Not some tough, beat up solider or some play toy. A real woman. But deep down inside...that feeling of dread washed over me again at the thought of those hands..." She shuddered at the thought again. "I just wanted to feel whole again and I felt like he could make that happen."
"It's alright, Sam. I understand. But you do realize that you're not in a Goa'uld harem anymore. You don't have to do what you don't want to. Just remember that for the future, okay?"
A small smile played against her lips. "I don't think I have to worry about that for a long while to come. I don't even think that the colonel will come near me like that for a very, very, very long time," she said sadly. "I gave him a real scare."
"I know that I keep telling you to stay with Jack but if things get too weird or strained between the two of you, my invitation still stands to come a stay with Daniel and I for awhile."
Sam nodded. "I know. But like I said before, I think I'm going to have to decline but I will keep your offer in mind if things get real bad."
Janet smiled. "Well, as long as you'll keep us in mind. A visit every once in a while would be good too, and that does not include emergency visits to my infirmary," she finished with a playful laugh.
The major couldn't help but laugh as well. "Alright, Janet. Am I done here?"
"Yeah, everything is done here. Jack went to talk to General Hammond earlier so you should find him there. Otherwise he's probably busy bugging Daniel or Teal'c."
Sam hopped off the bed again, this time a bit more chipper than she had been before. "Thanks Janet! For everything." She gave her friend a hug as she stepped out of the door to find a currently missing ex-colonel.
"So what did Hammond want to talk to you about?" Daniel asked curiously. Jack had walked into his office about a half an hour ago, a grim look on his face. The younger man was trying to take his friends mind off of whatever he was currently thinking about. He had heard about Sam's little episode at the lake but didn't think that that was a good subject to talk about. He heard her refer to Jack as 'Sir' again so knew something had taken a turn for the worse.
Jack brought a hand up and rubbed his temple. "He was concerned about Sam's memory and if she would be considered a threat. Considering that she just started spazing out at the cabin, he was worried about something like that every happening in public."
"That sounds reasonable to me. I was a little concerned myself about that. Just all of a sudden having a memory pop in. I can only imagine what one of the bad ones would do to her." As soon as the words left his mouth, he clamped his jaw shut. Stupid Daniel! Stupid! "I mean...ah...um...ah hell. Sorry about that, Jack."
Jack just stared at him with a dead pan look. "Right...I'm going to go see if Janet's done with Sam." He started to get up slowly.
Daniel let out a sigh. If only we had something to help Sam. Then it hit him. "You know, if everybody keeps seeing Sam's sudden flashbacks as a threat, maybe we should try getting back her memory all at once."
The ex-colonel stopped in his tracks and turned around slowly. "What are you saying?" His voice was low and dangerous. "We don't have anything that could help her."
"I know that, Jack. We don't have anything that can help her. I'm just saying, maybe we can pull some strings with our allies like the Tok'ra. They have many ways to help--"
"Like sticking some damned snake into her head!" Jack interrupted. "I don't think so, Danny boy. That is out of the question!"
The archeologist frowned. "That's not what I was suggesting, Jack. They have a memory recall device, remember? We used it on Sam once already while trying to retrieve Jolinar's memories."
"Yeah, and that screwed her up too. Could you imagine have your mind open like a flood gate and all kind of painful memories exploding into your head?"
"Well, yeah. I kind of did when I descended," Daniel said sarcastically. "I've been thinking about this a lot, Jack and I think that this would be more of a help to Sam."
"NO!" he hollered as he leveled down his best friend with a glare. "No," he shook his head. "Five years of pain, Daniel. Five years of torture, rape, and pain. You didn't have those kinds of memories, now did you?"
The younger man got really quiet. "I suppose you're right. But still, do you want her to keep referring to you as 'Sir' or would you rather have her call you by your first name and take on your last?"
The ex-colonel let out a frustrated sigh. "It's not my decsion, Danny. You'll have to talk to her."
"I'll do it."
Both men turned around to see Sam standing in the doorway, a determined look on her face.
A/N: Heh heh. And you thought I was going to make poor Sam pregnant again! Hah! But yeah, left you again with another cliff hanger. Yeah, I know...still evil -grin- Well, I can guarantee that it will take some time for chapter 18 since I kind of haven't really planned that one out yet and I have to be careful cause this next chapter is going to be a key chapter in finding out some of the things that happened to Sam while she was captured during her five year disappearance. Hopefully it won't be a long wait. Until next time!