Disclaimer: I do not own Stargate SG-1 or any of its characters (unfortunately -sigh-). I'm just a person who likes to write so the owners have no reason to sue me.
A/N: Man, you guys must be getting sick and tired of my little cliff hangers, aren't you? -evil laugh- Hey, if it keeps you guys on your toes, I'll continue to do it. Anywho, to address some of your questions: No, I have not rewritten any chapters. I just took out all of the 'Savin Note' entries. All those problems were in the past and the story is in progress again so we don't really care about my computer problems any more -grin- But I'm glad you (you know who you are -winks-) asked about that and I promise that if I do rewrite any parts (which isn't very likely) I will let you all know, okay?
Also, this is a story about Sam, not Jolinar, so all of Sam's memories in the next two chapters will be from what she herself experienced, not Jolinar. If you can't handle the Sam bashing, I suggest you go and read something less...graphic... Anywho, on to the fic!
"I still think this is a very bad idea." Jack was standing next to Sam, his fingers wrapped tightly around hers. Hammond had decided to hold the testing in the holding cells, just in case.
"You will feel a little sting as I stick this in, alright honey?" Jacob Carter carefully placed the memory recall device on to his daughter's temple.
"Ouch!" exclaimed Sam.
Jack flinched as his wife dug her nails into his skin. "Yeah, ouch..." he mumbled.
"Sorry Sammy," her dad whispered as he patted her shoulder.
She rubbed her temple softly. "That's okay, Dad."
"I'll give you two some time alone before we start, since I know that someone needs some convincing that this is good," Jacob chided.
Jack's eyes narrowed at the retreating form of his father-in-law. He's just as worried as I am so how can he keep his cool? he thought sourly.
Her husband touched the cool metal object lightly. "Did I mention how much I think this is a very bad idea?" Jack whispered to her.
"Yes, Sir. Many times. But...I have to do this." She gave his hand a reassuring squeeze. "I want to know what happened to me. I'm sick of being in the dark."
"Yeah, and I'm sick of being called 'Sir', Carter," he teased as he put emphasis on her former last name.
A nervous laugh escaped from Sam. "Yeah, I suppose you would be." She let out a shaky sigh.
Jack placed a hand on her knee. "Are you sure you're ready? You are aware that you'll have to take in the bad with all of the good, right?"
She nodded. "I am aware...and I guess that's why I'm so scared." A tear ran down her cheek and she tried to stay confident. "Jack?"
"Yeah?" He took his hand off her knee and wrapped it around her shoulders.
"If...if something goes wrong..."
"Nothing is going to go wrong, Sam," an annoyed Jack stated.
She let out a sigh. "Can you do something for me?" She looked up at him with her blue eyes and captured his attention.
He nodded. "You don't have to ask, Sam."
Another nervous laugh escaped her. "I know. Just promise me that...that you'll stay here, with me."
Jack gave her a small kiss on the forehead. "Like I said, Sam. You don't have to ask. I didn't plan on leaving your side."
Sam's bottom lip trembled as she fought back her tears. "Thank you," she whispered as she leaned into his embrace. The two sat in silence for awhile, enjoying each other's company.Jack leaned in and gave her another kiss on the forehead. "I'm sorry," Jack said suddenly. "I should have never come on to you like that at the cabin."
"Jack--" she tried to start but he interrupted.
"No, don't tell me it was alright because it wasn't. I was such a jerk. I should have asked you first. I know that things have been going pretty fast but..." He let out a frustrated sigh. "I just want you to know how much I love you."
"I know," she smiled sadly as she gave him a kiss on the cheek. She raised a hand up to his face and stroked it softly. "I know that you would never do anything to hurt me. That's why I have to do this. So memories can't jump up and bite me in the ass while we're in the middle of something."
Jack let out a chuckle as he stared lovingly into her eyes. "I guess that's a good enough of a reason to do this. I'm convinced."
She slapped him playfully. "Pig." She gave him one of her smiles and he melted in her eyes.
"Yeah, well, what can I say?"
A soft knock on the door frame announced Jacob's arrival. The two immediately broke apart. Her father couldn't help but laugh to himself. "Are you ready, Sam?"
His daughter looked up at him with shaky but confidant smile. "Yes, I am." She grabbed hold of Jack's hand again and squeezed it lightly, feeling a reassuring squeeze back from him. She turned and gave him another one of her smiles.
The Tok'ra nodded at her answer and walked into the room, followed by Janet, Daniel, Teal'c, and General Hammond.
"Major, you are aware of what might happen?" the general asked.
Sam nodded. "I am very aware, General. I've gone through this before with Jolinar's memories and know what to expect." She kept the fear out of her voice, the solider Sam back in control again.
"Just understand that these are your own memories this time, things that happened to you, not Jolinar," Hammond advised.
"I understand, Sir."
"We're all here for you, Sam. You have nothing to worry about," Daniel soothed.
"Indeed we are, Major Carter. We will wait here with you until the procedure is over," Teal'c expressed as he bowed slightly.
"What Teal'c is trying to say that we got your six," Jack summed up for the Jaffa.
"And if things get too intense, we will stop the procedure, is that understood Sam?" Janet said sternly, putting emphasis on the word 'will'.
Sam smiled brightly. It was just like the good old days back with SG-1 all together again. "Thanks you guys."
"Everything is going to be okay, honey," Jacob said before he bowed his head. When he lifted his head, his eyes flashed quickly, signaling that Selmak had taken control.
"Please, if you would all take a seat over there," the old Tok'ra pointed. "O'Neill, you may stay seated next to Major Carter if you wish."
Jack nodded in thanks to Selmak as he gave Sam's hand another squeeze. He turned and looked into her worried face. "Don't worry; everything's going to be okay."
"I know. Just promise you'll be here when I wake?"
He nodded silently, their eyes locking.
Their eyes never broke contact until Selmak turned on the memory recall device. Sam's eyes shut tightly as she screamed, the pain of a staff weapon blast exploding through her stomach.
A/N: Haha! I am sooooo evil! Another cliff hanger! -evil laughter is heard- Thought I should throw in a semi-happy chapter before we go to the really depressy/angsty/graphic chapter. And to tell you the truth...I'm still trying to decide what happened to her those five years. Let me tell you that that is not an easy task! I have so many ideas! I just have to choose which ones to use -laughs- Hopefully the next chapter will be out later this weekend but I'm on a roll so who knows, maybe it will be out sooner. Until next time!
A/N: Man, you guys must be getting sick and tired of my little cliff hangers, aren't you? -evil laugh- Hey, if it keeps you guys on your toes, I'll continue to do it. Anywho, to address some of your questions: No, I have not rewritten any chapters. I just took out all of the 'Savin Note' entries. All those problems were in the past and the story is in progress again so we don't really care about my computer problems any more -grin- But I'm glad you (you know who you are -winks-) asked about that and I promise that if I do rewrite any parts (which isn't very likely) I will let you all know, okay?
Also, this is a story about Sam, not Jolinar, so all of Sam's memories in the next two chapters will be from what she herself experienced, not Jolinar. If you can't handle the Sam bashing, I suggest you go and read something less...graphic... Anywho, on to the fic!
"I still think this is a very bad idea." Jack was standing next to Sam, his fingers wrapped tightly around hers. Hammond had decided to hold the testing in the holding cells, just in case.
"You will feel a little sting as I stick this in, alright honey?" Jacob Carter carefully placed the memory recall device on to his daughter's temple.
"Ouch!" exclaimed Sam.
Jack flinched as his wife dug her nails into his skin. "Yeah, ouch..." he mumbled.
"Sorry Sammy," her dad whispered as he patted her shoulder.
She rubbed her temple softly. "That's okay, Dad."
"I'll give you two some time alone before we start, since I know that someone needs some convincing that this is good," Jacob chided.
Jack's eyes narrowed at the retreating form of his father-in-law. He's just as worried as I am so how can he keep his cool? he thought sourly.
Her husband touched the cool metal object lightly. "Did I mention how much I think this is a very bad idea?" Jack whispered to her.
"Yes, Sir. Many times. But...I have to do this." She gave his hand a reassuring squeeze. "I want to know what happened to me. I'm sick of being in the dark."
"Yeah, and I'm sick of being called 'Sir', Carter," he teased as he put emphasis on her former last name.
A nervous laugh escaped from Sam. "Yeah, I suppose you would be." She let out a shaky sigh.
Jack placed a hand on her knee. "Are you sure you're ready? You are aware that you'll have to take in the bad with all of the good, right?"
She nodded. "I am aware...and I guess that's why I'm so scared." A tear ran down her cheek and she tried to stay confident. "Jack?"
"Yeah?" He took his hand off her knee and wrapped it around her shoulders.
"If...if something goes wrong..."
"Nothing is going to go wrong, Sam," an annoyed Jack stated.
She let out a sigh. "Can you do something for me?" She looked up at him with her blue eyes and captured his attention.
He nodded. "You don't have to ask, Sam."
Another nervous laugh escaped her. "I know. Just promise me that...that you'll stay here, with me."
Jack gave her a small kiss on the forehead. "Like I said, Sam. You don't have to ask. I didn't plan on leaving your side."
Sam's bottom lip trembled as she fought back her tears. "Thank you," she whispered as she leaned into his embrace. The two sat in silence for awhile, enjoying each other's company.Jack leaned in and gave her another kiss on the forehead. "I'm sorry," Jack said suddenly. "I should have never come on to you like that at the cabin."
"Jack--" she tried to start but he interrupted.
"No, don't tell me it was alright because it wasn't. I was such a jerk. I should have asked you first. I know that things have been going pretty fast but..." He let out a frustrated sigh. "I just want you to know how much I love you."
"I know," she smiled sadly as she gave him a kiss on the cheek. She raised a hand up to his face and stroked it softly. "I know that you would never do anything to hurt me. That's why I have to do this. So memories can't jump up and bite me in the ass while we're in the middle of something."
Jack let out a chuckle as he stared lovingly into her eyes. "I guess that's a good enough of a reason to do this. I'm convinced."
She slapped him playfully. "Pig." She gave him one of her smiles and he melted in her eyes.
"Yeah, well, what can I say?"
A soft knock on the door frame announced Jacob's arrival. The two immediately broke apart. Her father couldn't help but laugh to himself. "Are you ready, Sam?"
His daughter looked up at him with shaky but confidant smile. "Yes, I am." She grabbed hold of Jack's hand again and squeezed it lightly, feeling a reassuring squeeze back from him. She turned and gave him another one of her smiles.
The Tok'ra nodded at her answer and walked into the room, followed by Janet, Daniel, Teal'c, and General Hammond.
"Major, you are aware of what might happen?" the general asked.
Sam nodded. "I am very aware, General. I've gone through this before with Jolinar's memories and know what to expect." She kept the fear out of her voice, the solider Sam back in control again.
"Just understand that these are your own memories this time, things that happened to you, not Jolinar," Hammond advised.
"I understand, Sir."
"We're all here for you, Sam. You have nothing to worry about," Daniel soothed.
"Indeed we are, Major Carter. We will wait here with you until the procedure is over," Teal'c expressed as he bowed slightly.
"What Teal'c is trying to say that we got your six," Jack summed up for the Jaffa.
"And if things get too intense, we will stop the procedure, is that understood Sam?" Janet said sternly, putting emphasis on the word 'will'.
Sam smiled brightly. It was just like the good old days back with SG-1 all together again. "Thanks you guys."
"Everything is going to be okay, honey," Jacob said before he bowed his head. When he lifted his head, his eyes flashed quickly, signaling that Selmak had taken control.
"Please, if you would all take a seat over there," the old Tok'ra pointed. "O'Neill, you may stay seated next to Major Carter if you wish."
Jack nodded in thanks to Selmak as he gave Sam's hand another squeeze. He turned and looked into her worried face. "Don't worry; everything's going to be okay."
"I know. Just promise you'll be here when I wake?"
He nodded silently, their eyes locking.
Their eyes never broke contact until Selmak turned on the memory recall device. Sam's eyes shut tightly as she screamed, the pain of a staff weapon blast exploding through her stomach.
A/N: Haha! I am sooooo evil! Another cliff hanger! -evil laughter is heard- Thought I should throw in a semi-happy chapter before we go to the really depressy/angsty/graphic chapter. And to tell you the truth...I'm still trying to decide what happened to her those five years. Let me tell you that that is not an easy task! I have so many ideas! I just have to choose which ones to use -laughs- Hopefully the next chapter will be out later this weekend but I'm on a roll so who knows, maybe it will be out sooner. Until next time!