Disclaimer: I do not own Stargate SG-1 or any of its characters (unfortunately -sigh-). I'm just a person who likes to write so the owners have no reason to sue me.
A/N: So much for uploading a chapter once a week -laughs- What has it been? One every night? I actually wrote both 18 and 19 last night but I didn't finish 19 until early this morning (like 2 in the morning people!) Who knows how much longer this writing frenzy will last! I hoping for a very long time -crosses fingers- Anywho, I know the cliff hangers are getting a little more than a pain in the butt but yeah -sheepish grin- I thought I'd give you a break this chapter so it sorta has a definate ending but it keeps you guessing what will happen next.
Also, it's been awhile since I've seen "Jolinar's Memories" so I've kinda forgotten how the memory recall device works -little laugh- Kinda ironic, in a way. Anywho, just bear with me if things aren't just so so. I'll fix them once I get my hands on that episode. Also, chaps 16, 17, and 18 are now updated with correct spelling and grammar (if anybody cared). Anywho...on to the fic!
The pain was over whelming! The scream that came from Sam was horrifying. It sounded so inhuman, seeping with years of anguish and torment. Her stomach felt like it was on fire! The burning stopped quickly only to be replaced with searing pain. Her chest started to heave up and down faster as she struggled to breathe.
"Sam!" Jack tried to jump to his wife's aid as she slowly began to slip into unconsciousness but Teal'c grabbed hold of him.
"Assisting her now O'Neill may prove to be uneventful."
"Not to mention dangerous. Her first memory must be a strong one. Once she gets control she will be able to tell us what's going on," Selmak stated. "Dr. Fraiser, are you ready to help her through this?"
Janet nodded. "I am." She got up slowly away from Daniel and kneeled down next to Sam. "Sam, where are you honey?"
Tears were streaming down the blonde's face. "Pain..." she whimpered.
"Yes, I know that. It will pass, I promise. Can you tell me where you are?"
Sam opened her eyes slowly. All around her, a battle was raging between the SGC and an army of Jaffa. She was lying on the ground, an enemy Jaffa standing above her with a staff weapon.
"Battle, all around me. Staff weapon..." Her eyes fluttered as the pain intensified for a second.
Daniel's eyebrows jumped to the top of his head. "That was the last time we saw Sam! This is where we lost her!"
Teal'c nodded in agreement. Jack looked down to the floor, trying to hide his tears from the rest. She's in so much pain...
"Jack...screaming...Daniel and Teal'c running over..."
''Daniel! Teal'c! Sam's been hit! Oh god! Sam! Sam! Medic!"
Her husband shuddered at the memory. Jack saw the whole thing play out in front of him. One minute, Sam was smirking at him as she assured him again that her plan was working. He was distracted by an explosion from an over head Goa'uld ship and didn't see the enemy Jaffa break through their cover. He raised his weapon and fired at the first thing that came to his sight: Sam.
"Take care of Katy..." she whispered.
Jack couldn't keep his cool any longer. A small sob escaped from him as he grabbed hold of Sam's hand. This is where I had to break my personal rule...this is where I left her behind... The Goa'uld had sent in reinforcements, more gliders were dispatching to take care of the SG teams. Jack had to order a retreat, leaving his wife and many other good soldiers behind that day.
Daniel and Teal'c put a supporting hand on his shoulders, trying to convey to him that they understood what he was going through. "It is alright, O'Neill. You made the right decision," Teal'c stated. Daniel just patted Jack on the shoulder.
Sam's body jerked a few times, her back arching and her limps stretching oddly before she became still again. "Is she alright?" Daniel asked.
The doctor checked on her stats. "She's breathing normally again. Her muscles are relaxing as if she were just lying in bed. Sam?" Janet asked cautiously.
"Hmm?" Her eye lids fluttered but she did not open her eyes.
"What are you doing?"
She stretched. "Waiting for Jack to wake up. He's been asleep most of the day."
"Where are you at?"
"I'm at Jack's house. He's been injured and I'm taking care of him. Getting harder to stay awake though," she said with a yawn. Sam stopped and looked as if she was listening for something. "Just thought I heard his door open. I told him to stay in bed." She let out a frustrated sigh.
Jack's head snapped up. He knew exactly what moment this was. He looked over at the others who seemed to be more curious as to what Sam was saying than his panicked look. Please, please, please, please, PLEASE! Do NOT go into detail here, Sam!
"This must have been when Jack was laid up after that one mission. Sam stayed with you for like...four or five months, didn't she?"
He nodded slowly. "Yeah...and...um...is it possible to go to a different memory now?" he asked sheepishly.
Selmak smiled, sensing Jack's discomfort. "Ask her specific questions, that should help trigger memories as well."
He nodded and leaned in closer to his wife. "I know this is going to be difficult to ask but Sam, what happened after the retreat?" He really didn't want to see her in anguish but they had to find out what happened.
Her face twisted into one of pain again. Tears almost automatically started to stream down her face. She whimpered and shrunk up into a little ball on the bed she was laying on. "It's cold and damp here."
Jack rubbed his hand up and down her arm. "It's okay, Sam. Where are you at?"
She started to shiver even harder. "They're coming..."
"Who's coming?! Sam..." He could guess who by her reaction. Those god damned snake infested parasites! I'm going to kill them all! "What do they want?"
A short scream escaped Sam as her body shuddered. "Don't hurt me..."
"Nobody is going to hurt you, honey," Janet supplied. "What are they doing?"
"Pain...lots of pain...can't tell them anything...must protect...family" She sounded so fevered and crazed.
Teal'c looked away from Sam and let out a heavy sigh. "I believe they are interrogating her, O'Neill. There are many ways of torture and a Goa'uld will not stop until he has what he wants. If one does not cooperate, they will find other uses for their prisoners."
The Jaffa's last comment made Jack's blood boil. He already knew that some one had violated his wife while in that prison. He just wasn't sure who until now. "I'm going to find that bastard and give him a taste of his own medicine," he promised through gritted teeth.
Another blood curdle ling scream escaped from his wife. "Please! Stop!" She started fighting an imaginary foe above her. Cries of pain and fear echoed throughout the cell. "Get off of me!"
"Janet..." Daniel was seriously freaked out by the display before him.
His wife understood the under lying message and started to head towards her friend.
"No! You must not and try to force her out of this! Her visions on too strong! The memories are vivid and to wake her suddenly could do more damage than good!" Selmak pleaded.
"Look at her! I don't know how much more her body can take of this, not to mention her mind!"
"If you wake her now, her mental stability will shatter! She'll have a hard time deciphering what is real from what is nothing but memories!"
"As her doctor, I demand that you wake her now!" Janet hollered.
"JACK!!!!"
Sam's scream of agony ripped through the last of Jack's restraint. He turned on Selmak. "For the love of god, this is Jacob's daughter! I know that he's yelling at you to wake her up inside so please just do it! I don't care how, just do it!"
The Tok'ra nodded and made his way past Jack and Janet over to his host's daughter.
"Is there nothing you can do?" asked Hammond. Seeing one of his officers in that kind of shape gave him the creeps.
"Give me something strong to sedate her with. This is the safest was to ensure that she will not be startled out of a memory."
Janet ran out of the holding cell and ran for the infirmary. She returned later with a syringe. "This is the strongest that I'm allowing you to give her. It should be enough to take out a man three times her size." She handed it over to Selmak.
"Thank you, Dr. Fraiser."
The Tok'ra made his way over slowly to the major. She had calmed down quiet a bit and was now doing nothing more but whimpering in fear and crying out for her husband. Jack was stationed right beside her, his hand in hers.
"Are you sure this will work?" he asked worriedly.
"I believe that it will, O'Neill. You have nothing to worry about. Jacob also fears for his daughter. I would do nothing to put her in harms way."
Jack nodded and moved out of the way, allowing Selmak to inject Sam with the sedative. Instantly, her body seemed to shut down and her reflexes slowed. "She should calm down quiet a bit. Soon she will be asleep and then we can move her to better sleeping accommodations. It will be some time before she wakes up so I suggest that you all go and get some rest yourselves."
Teal'c and General Hammond gave their thanks and made their way out of the holding cell. Janet held back for a few seconds to check Sam's vitals and then left with Daniel, leaving Jack and Selmak alone.
"Thank you, Selmak."
"It was nothing. I care for Samantha as if she were my own," the Tok'ra beamed.
"No, not just for this. For bringing her back to me." Jack moved the stray strands of hair away from Sam's face. He couldn't help but stare at her in silence for a few moments.
Selmak smiled. "You missed her very much?"
Jack nodded. "Very, very much."
The older man laughed. "Hopefully this will help out with her memory loss. I understand you were growing tired of being called 'Colonel' or 'Sir'?"
"Heh, you have no idea." Jack shook his head in laughter. "I have to admit, I am afraid for her. Hopefully she won't shut herself off from the world."
The Tok'ra bowed his head, giving his host back control of his body. Jacob gazed down lovingly at the sleeping blonde before him. "She has been through a lot in the last five years. A lot of pain and suffering. If she does shut herself off, even if it is for just a little while, I suggest you let her have that time alone to think. But do not get angry with her, Jack. Just show her that you still love her, no matter what has happened, alright?"
Jack smiled. "No problem, Dad. That's another promise I can keep."
A/N: And some of you thought I was going to make this many chapters long -evil grin- Well, explaining everything (including what I didn't put in this chapter, hah!) will take many chapters but I figured we'd only give our dear Sammie a little taste of what she went through. Just major things but there are other ideas I'm thinking about exporing but then at the same time I'm really kinda leary. Don't want to turn this really good fic into a piece of crap, now do I? -grin- Well, hopefully I'll have another written tonight but I do not know if I'll put it up until tomorrow. We'll just have to see. Until next time!
A/N: So much for uploading a chapter once a week -laughs- What has it been? One every night? I actually wrote both 18 and 19 last night but I didn't finish 19 until early this morning (like 2 in the morning people!) Who knows how much longer this writing frenzy will last! I hoping for a very long time -crosses fingers- Anywho, I know the cliff hangers are getting a little more than a pain in the butt but yeah -sheepish grin- I thought I'd give you a break this chapter so it sorta has a definate ending but it keeps you guessing what will happen next.
Also, it's been awhile since I've seen "Jolinar's Memories" so I've kinda forgotten how the memory recall device works -little laugh- Kinda ironic, in a way. Anywho, just bear with me if things aren't just so so. I'll fix them once I get my hands on that episode. Also, chaps 16, 17, and 18 are now updated with correct spelling and grammar (if anybody cared). Anywho...on to the fic!
The pain was over whelming! The scream that came from Sam was horrifying. It sounded so inhuman, seeping with years of anguish and torment. Her stomach felt like it was on fire! The burning stopped quickly only to be replaced with searing pain. Her chest started to heave up and down faster as she struggled to breathe.
"Sam!" Jack tried to jump to his wife's aid as she slowly began to slip into unconsciousness but Teal'c grabbed hold of him.
"Assisting her now O'Neill may prove to be uneventful."
"Not to mention dangerous. Her first memory must be a strong one. Once she gets control she will be able to tell us what's going on," Selmak stated. "Dr. Fraiser, are you ready to help her through this?"
Janet nodded. "I am." She got up slowly away from Daniel and kneeled down next to Sam. "Sam, where are you honey?"
Tears were streaming down the blonde's face. "Pain..." she whimpered.
"Yes, I know that. It will pass, I promise. Can you tell me where you are?"
Sam opened her eyes slowly. All around her, a battle was raging between the SGC and an army of Jaffa. She was lying on the ground, an enemy Jaffa standing above her with a staff weapon.
"Battle, all around me. Staff weapon..." Her eyes fluttered as the pain intensified for a second.
Daniel's eyebrows jumped to the top of his head. "That was the last time we saw Sam! This is where we lost her!"
Teal'c nodded in agreement. Jack looked down to the floor, trying to hide his tears from the rest. She's in so much pain...
"Jack...screaming...Daniel and Teal'c running over..."
''Daniel! Teal'c! Sam's been hit! Oh god! Sam! Sam! Medic!"
Her husband shuddered at the memory. Jack saw the whole thing play out in front of him. One minute, Sam was smirking at him as she assured him again that her plan was working. He was distracted by an explosion from an over head Goa'uld ship and didn't see the enemy Jaffa break through their cover. He raised his weapon and fired at the first thing that came to his sight: Sam.
"Take care of Katy..." she whispered.
Jack couldn't keep his cool any longer. A small sob escaped from him as he grabbed hold of Sam's hand. This is where I had to break my personal rule...this is where I left her behind... The Goa'uld had sent in reinforcements, more gliders were dispatching to take care of the SG teams. Jack had to order a retreat, leaving his wife and many other good soldiers behind that day.
Daniel and Teal'c put a supporting hand on his shoulders, trying to convey to him that they understood what he was going through. "It is alright, O'Neill. You made the right decision," Teal'c stated. Daniel just patted Jack on the shoulder.
Sam's body jerked a few times, her back arching and her limps stretching oddly before she became still again. "Is she alright?" Daniel asked.
The doctor checked on her stats. "She's breathing normally again. Her muscles are relaxing as if she were just lying in bed. Sam?" Janet asked cautiously.
"Hmm?" Her eye lids fluttered but she did not open her eyes.
"What are you doing?"
She stretched. "Waiting for Jack to wake up. He's been asleep most of the day."
"Where are you at?"
"I'm at Jack's house. He's been injured and I'm taking care of him. Getting harder to stay awake though," she said with a yawn. Sam stopped and looked as if she was listening for something. "Just thought I heard his door open. I told him to stay in bed." She let out a frustrated sigh.
Jack's head snapped up. He knew exactly what moment this was. He looked over at the others who seemed to be more curious as to what Sam was saying than his panicked look. Please, please, please, please, PLEASE! Do NOT go into detail here, Sam!
"This must have been when Jack was laid up after that one mission. Sam stayed with you for like...four or five months, didn't she?"
He nodded slowly. "Yeah...and...um...is it possible to go to a different memory now?" he asked sheepishly.
Selmak smiled, sensing Jack's discomfort. "Ask her specific questions, that should help trigger memories as well."
He nodded and leaned in closer to his wife. "I know this is going to be difficult to ask but Sam, what happened after the retreat?" He really didn't want to see her in anguish but they had to find out what happened.
Her face twisted into one of pain again. Tears almost automatically started to stream down her face. She whimpered and shrunk up into a little ball on the bed she was laying on. "It's cold and damp here."
Jack rubbed his hand up and down her arm. "It's okay, Sam. Where are you at?"
She started to shiver even harder. "They're coming..."
"Who's coming?! Sam..." He could guess who by her reaction. Those god damned snake infested parasites! I'm going to kill them all! "What do they want?"
A short scream escaped Sam as her body shuddered. "Don't hurt me..."
"Nobody is going to hurt you, honey," Janet supplied. "What are they doing?"
"Pain...lots of pain...can't tell them anything...must protect...family" She sounded so fevered and crazed.
Teal'c looked away from Sam and let out a heavy sigh. "I believe they are interrogating her, O'Neill. There are many ways of torture and a Goa'uld will not stop until he has what he wants. If one does not cooperate, they will find other uses for their prisoners."
The Jaffa's last comment made Jack's blood boil. He already knew that some one had violated his wife while in that prison. He just wasn't sure who until now. "I'm going to find that bastard and give him a taste of his own medicine," he promised through gritted teeth.
Another blood curdle ling scream escaped from his wife. "Please! Stop!" She started fighting an imaginary foe above her. Cries of pain and fear echoed throughout the cell. "Get off of me!"
"Janet..." Daniel was seriously freaked out by the display before him.
His wife understood the under lying message and started to head towards her friend.
"No! You must not and try to force her out of this! Her visions on too strong! The memories are vivid and to wake her suddenly could do more damage than good!" Selmak pleaded.
"Look at her! I don't know how much more her body can take of this, not to mention her mind!"
"If you wake her now, her mental stability will shatter! She'll have a hard time deciphering what is real from what is nothing but memories!"
"As her doctor, I demand that you wake her now!" Janet hollered.
"JACK!!!!"
Sam's scream of agony ripped through the last of Jack's restraint. He turned on Selmak. "For the love of god, this is Jacob's daughter! I know that he's yelling at you to wake her up inside so please just do it! I don't care how, just do it!"
The Tok'ra nodded and made his way past Jack and Janet over to his host's daughter.
"Is there nothing you can do?" asked Hammond. Seeing one of his officers in that kind of shape gave him the creeps.
"Give me something strong to sedate her with. This is the safest was to ensure that she will not be startled out of a memory."
Janet ran out of the holding cell and ran for the infirmary. She returned later with a syringe. "This is the strongest that I'm allowing you to give her. It should be enough to take out a man three times her size." She handed it over to Selmak.
"Thank you, Dr. Fraiser."
The Tok'ra made his way over slowly to the major. She had calmed down quiet a bit and was now doing nothing more but whimpering in fear and crying out for her husband. Jack was stationed right beside her, his hand in hers.
"Are you sure this will work?" he asked worriedly.
"I believe that it will, O'Neill. You have nothing to worry about. Jacob also fears for his daughter. I would do nothing to put her in harms way."
Jack nodded and moved out of the way, allowing Selmak to inject Sam with the sedative. Instantly, her body seemed to shut down and her reflexes slowed. "She should calm down quiet a bit. Soon she will be asleep and then we can move her to better sleeping accommodations. It will be some time before she wakes up so I suggest that you all go and get some rest yourselves."
Teal'c and General Hammond gave their thanks and made their way out of the holding cell. Janet held back for a few seconds to check Sam's vitals and then left with Daniel, leaving Jack and Selmak alone.
"Thank you, Selmak."
"It was nothing. I care for Samantha as if she were my own," the Tok'ra beamed.
"No, not just for this. For bringing her back to me." Jack moved the stray strands of hair away from Sam's face. He couldn't help but stare at her in silence for a few moments.
Selmak smiled. "You missed her very much?"
Jack nodded. "Very, very much."
The older man laughed. "Hopefully this will help out with her memory loss. I understand you were growing tired of being called 'Colonel' or 'Sir'?"
"Heh, you have no idea." Jack shook his head in laughter. "I have to admit, I am afraid for her. Hopefully she won't shut herself off from the world."
The Tok'ra bowed his head, giving his host back control of his body. Jacob gazed down lovingly at the sleeping blonde before him. "She has been through a lot in the last five years. A lot of pain and suffering. If she does shut herself off, even if it is for just a little while, I suggest you let her have that time alone to think. But do not get angry with her, Jack. Just show her that you still love her, no matter what has happened, alright?"
Jack smiled. "No problem, Dad. That's another promise I can keep."
A/N: And some of you thought I was going to make this many chapters long -evil grin- Well, explaining everything (including what I didn't put in this chapter, hah!) will take many chapters but I figured we'd only give our dear Sammie a little taste of what she went through. Just major things but there are other ideas I'm thinking about exporing but then at the same time I'm really kinda leary. Don't want to turn this really good fic into a piece of crap, now do I? -grin- Well, hopefully I'll have another written tonight but I do not know if I'll put it up until tomorrow. We'll just have to see. Until next time!