1st January 2004
10:00 A.M
We woke Tyson with cold water. Kai put a few ice-cubes in it, which I think
did the trick. I didn't feel like breakfast. I sat outside. Robert came up
to me and asked me how I felt about last night. I said I was confused but
in a good way. What did I mean? Well I am confused but not that I am afraid
of something. I don't know what to make of last night. He said we could
talk later in the park if I wanted to. I said I would. What is going on? I
wish I could talk to someone. I know who not to talk to. Tyson, Emily and I
don't know why but Max, I don't want them to know. Tyson will tease me for
weeks. Emily will just be even snobbish. Max I think will be hurt. I am not
vain of anything but I think he wanted to be more than friends. I won't go
to Kai I would just feel stupid. I could go to Ray he has been like a big
brother to me. Michel, forget it. Maybe I should go to Oliver he seems like
he would take it the right way, and Robert is his friend. I think Johnny
and Enrique would blow it out of proportion. I will talk to Oliver later.
11:30 A.M
Oliver was ok with it. He said he could tell Robert liked me. I asked him
why would Robert like me. Oliver said it was because of my determination
and confidence along with my spirit. He went all deep for a while. I asked
him should I go to the park to meet him. Oliver said I should only if I
felt the same way.
12:15 P.M
I think I like Robert. Why would I be going to the park?
10:20 P.M
Robert and me talk. He said last night was just amazing. I didn't expect
him to say that. Then before I knew what I was say I said 'yeah'. What did
I just say! He asked me did I like Tyson. I almost fell off the bench. I
told him Tyson was just a friend. He seemed relived after I said that. He
said if things were different he would like to keep seeing me, but he had
to return home. We exchange e-mail and phone numbers. Then we just talked.
He said he had to go to pack, but as soon as he got home he would e-mail
me. I felt weird at that point. I said I would miss him and asked would we
still be friends at long distance. He said we would be friends, as he
didn't want a long distance relationship. I agreed with him. I know feel
sad. Then we said goodbye. My mouth tingles again. I wish things were
different.
10:00 A.M
We woke Tyson with cold water. Kai put a few ice-cubes in it, which I think
did the trick. I didn't feel like breakfast. I sat outside. Robert came up
to me and asked me how I felt about last night. I said I was confused but
in a good way. What did I mean? Well I am confused but not that I am afraid
of something. I don't know what to make of last night. He said we could
talk later in the park if I wanted to. I said I would. What is going on? I
wish I could talk to someone. I know who not to talk to. Tyson, Emily and I
don't know why but Max, I don't want them to know. Tyson will tease me for
weeks. Emily will just be even snobbish. Max I think will be hurt. I am not
vain of anything but I think he wanted to be more than friends. I won't go
to Kai I would just feel stupid. I could go to Ray he has been like a big
brother to me. Michel, forget it. Maybe I should go to Oliver he seems like
he would take it the right way, and Robert is his friend. I think Johnny
and Enrique would blow it out of proportion. I will talk to Oliver later.
11:30 A.M
Oliver was ok with it. He said he could tell Robert liked me. I asked him
why would Robert like me. Oliver said it was because of my determination
and confidence along with my spirit. He went all deep for a while. I asked
him should I go to the park to meet him. Oliver said I should only if I
felt the same way.
12:15 P.M
I think I like Robert. Why would I be going to the park?
10:20 P.M
Robert and me talk. He said last night was just amazing. I didn't expect
him to say that. Then before I knew what I was say I said 'yeah'. What did
I just say! He asked me did I like Tyson. I almost fell off the bench. I
told him Tyson was just a friend. He seemed relived after I said that. He
said if things were different he would like to keep seeing me, but he had
to return home. We exchange e-mail and phone numbers. Then we just talked.
He said he had to go to pack, but as soon as he got home he would e-mail
me. I felt weird at that point. I said I would miss him and asked would we
still be friends at long distance. He said we would be friends, as he
didn't want a long distance relationship. I agreed with him. I know feel
sad. Then we said goodbye. My mouth tingles again. I wish things were
different.